4.
O"er sounds she holds entire sway, When she wills silence all obey, Soon as her coming draweth near, Many are hush"d, that she may hear Those only which she makes her own, Whose music breathes a lulling tone.
5.
The streams that flow in melody, The soothing insect-hum, The green leaves whispering softly While I, on light wings come, And with low murmurs lull the groves, These all make music which she loves; All these, when the stirring day doth end, To give her sweet welcome their voices blend.
6.
Then ceas"d the voice, but all around Floated a gentle murmuring sound; While fragrant breath of greeting rose From flowers sinking to repose, To welcome evening"s peaceful reign, The while responding to the strain, Their willing tribute of thanks and praise My heart and voice at once did raise:
7.
Oh evening, I will sing to thee, Thou silent mother of thought; My heart shall breathe the melody, With glowing rapture fraught; Yes, I will sing to thee, and tell How I love thy solemn hour, How in thy stillness lies a spell Of soothing holy power.
8.
Thou comest in calm majesty To thy bowers in the west; And weary nature blesseth thee, For she knows thou bringest rest, She waits thy coming anxiously, And all the lovely flowers Droop their leaves in thanks to thee, For life-renewing showers.
9.
Well may they bless thee, for I trow When the joyous morn doth wake, And with its beams their slumbers break, All fresh and bright their leaves shall glow; And to the deep feeling heart, That which can love thee best, How beautiful thou art!
Cradle of peace and rest.
10.
It loves thy presence, and to thee By chains of deepest thought is bound.
Such thought as sets the spirit free Hallowing all around.
11.
Then wakes in man his nature high, He feels his immortality; And in the peace at evening given Bethinks him he is heir of heaven.
CHAPTER XVI
THE FIRST LOSS
"The thought of our past years in me doth breed Perpetual benediction."--WORDSWORTH.
In August 1861 Bessie was removed to Bognor for the benefit of sea air, and began to show signs of complete recovery. Some of the sisters were her constant companions and devoted nurses; she received visits from her parents, and loving letters from many friends.
She returned to Chichester in the late autumn, restored to her usual average of health; and in December the Bishop wrote to her, the eldest daughter at home, as he had done in the old days when she was a girl, to prepare for the return of the family from Brighton.
Christmas was spent as usual at the palace, and with the new year Bessie began gradually to resume her work for the Inst.i.tution.
Her first frame letter was written in March 1862 to her father, and has been preserved:
PALACE, CHICHESTER, _1st March 1862_.
MY DEAREST PAPA--I had long ago settled that my first letter with the frame should be to you, and most thankful I am to be able to be at the "stocking making" again, though very likely I shall not make a very good workwoman; but please take the work, such as it is, as a little sign that Bessie has not forgotten all the love shown her while she was ill, how you used to come and sit with her in the midst of all you had to do. I am very very thankful to be so much stronger, and to have been brought through the suffering as I have been.
I hope you will take care of yourself when you start for confirmations, the winds now are so bitterly cold. Indeed, you do provide well for us; it will be very enjoyable to have the Brownes.
Did you see that curious letter in _The Times_ not long since, headed "Is it--;" I thought it would interest you. I hope it has not been necessary to light gas to-day for morning service.
However, the day has not been very bright here. Yesterday I was out in the garden in the morning, but I have a little cold and so was not tempted to-day, as there was no sun. Robin is to sleep here to-night; he preaches, I think, at St. Andrews. Very much love to mamma and all.--I am ever your dutiful and loving child, BESSIE.
The difficulties of the a.s.sociation had increased during the period of Bessie"s illness and absence.
Subscriptions and donations now amounted to between two and three thousand a year, and goods had been sold to about the same amount. But so large a percentage on sales was paid to all blind agents and travellers and to Mr. Levy that the increase of trade threatened to swamp the undertaking. Moreover, sales did not keep pace with productive power, and a large quant.i.ty of stock was on hand.
A Sub-Committee was appointed to investigate the financial condition of the a.s.sociation, and their report, practical and sound as it was, proved very distasteful to Bessie.
They advised the employment of a sighted shopman, the subst.i.tution of some easier and more accurate method of keeping accounts, the payment of all money received into the bank, and an arrangement under which Mr. and Mrs. Levy should receive a fixed salary in lieu of commission on sales.
They also intimated their belief that the time had come when the Society must look to its director simply for general management, and must be prepared to employ a thoroughly efficient staff in the shop and workrooms.
The report really amounted to a suggestion to supersede her faithful manager; a step to which Bessie and Levy were equally opposed. Bessie hoped to avert it by raising money to pay the debts, and open a West-end shop; and as the Committee was powerless without the alliance of the Lady President, there was at any rate a reprieve.
To obviate one of the difficulties arising from want of funds, the Bishop offered 40 a year as the wages of a sighted shopman, in addition to his subscription of 5.
He announces this in a letter written from Queen Anne Street on the 22d May 1862, to Bessie at Chichester. His offer was gratefully accepted by the Committee. It was also arranged that donations and subscriptions should be paid into the banking account; and not, as. .h.i.therto, used as soon as received in the payment of bills and wages. But the director was unwilling to relinquish any of his duties, and Bessie considered that when her own health, which was rapidly improving, should be quite re-established, the a.s.sistance she could give would lighten his duties and responsibilities.
Under these circ.u.mstances there seemed no pressing need of reform in the management. Bessie had one remedy for all the suggestions of the Sub-Committee; and this was to plead both in public and in private for money and custom. In 1863 there were articles and letters in _The Times_, and in all the princ.i.p.al London journals, and a paper in Miss Yonge"s _Monthly Packet_ by Mrs. Hooper, who had previously written on the subject in _Household Words_. Mr. Gladstone was asked to speak at the annual meeting to be held in May, and replied:
11 DOWNING STREET, WHITEHALL, _17th March 1863_.
MADAM--It would be with so much regret that I should decline a request proceeding from you, that although uncertain whether my public duties may permit me to attend the meeting to which you refer, on the 11th May, I cheerfully engage to do so, subject only to the contingency of any call upon me elsewhere, such as I may be unable to decline.--I have the honour to be, madam, your very faithful servant, W. E. GLADSTONE.
Miss Gilbert.
Mr. Gladstone attended the meeting and advocated the claims of the a.s.sociation, not, as he said, from motives of philanthropy but as a political economist, and because it was founded on sound principles. He said:
"While this a.s.sociation aims to promote the general welfare of the blind, it aims at promoting that welfare in a very specific manner and by well-determined means. It is not founded on the idea that the blind, because they have suffered a great and heavy visitation, are therefore to be the mere pa.s.sive recipients of that which the liberality of their fellow-creatures may bestow. It does not proceed on the idea that because the blind are so, they have therefore ceased to partake in other respects in that mysterious nature of which we are all partakers, with its immense capabilities and powers, with its high hopes and great dangers. For in all other respects the blind continue to be sharers in every thing pertaining to us as men; and if I rightly apprehend the idea of this Inst.i.tution, it is this, that while we minister to the wants of the blind in a specific manner, yet we still consider them as rational beings, as members of society, as capable of various purposes, as not intended to be sent into a corner, or to be excommunicated from us; but as intended to bear their part as citizens, as enlightened and civilised creatures, and as Christians. Employment given to the blind is a great source of happiness. The sentence which was termed the primeval curse, if on one side it presented the aspect of a curse, also presented on the other the aspect of a blessing,--the necessity, the condition of true happiness. Employment is a blessing for us all, but it is much more to the blind. Employment to the blind is the condition of mental serenity, of comfort and resignation. Employment to the blind is also the condition of subsistence,--that is, of honourable and independent subsistence. It is a great thing for an inst.i.tution when we are enabled to say that its rules and practice are in harmony with political economy, for political economy is founded on truth. I believe that the rules of the a.s.sociation are based on the laws which regulate the acc.u.mulation and distribution of the means of subsistence. In this a.s.sociation we have the union of what the coldest prudence would dictate, and of what the most affectionate Christian heart would desire."
Mr. Gladstone was at that time the Chancellor of the Exchequer, and his advocacy was very valuable. The pecuniary result of the meeting, which had given her some months of labour, was most gratifying to Bessie, and she resumed her work of collecting funds with fresh ardour. We find her making application, in vain, for a grant from the Peabody Fund. The question of State aid for the blind was suggested to her, and she set to work in the usual patient and thorough way, to obtain information and to look around for influential help. But the autumn brought sorrow and grave anxiety, which almost put a stop to other work. Mrs. Gilbert, whose health had long been failing, declined rapidly. Bessie remained at Chichester, and wrote constantly and very tenderly to the sister, Mrs.
Elliot, who was unable to leave her own home, and yet anxious to be with her mother if the illness should prove alarming. Bessie writes an autograph letter on 9th December 1863, tells of the arrival of married sisters at the palace, of the anxiety of Dr. Tyacke and her father, of the sympathy they all feel for the one who cannot join them, "we know how much your heart is with us, and how much we should like to have you here.... I have just heard that Mary thinks mamma looking better than she expected, and Sarah says she does not think her looking quite so ill as on Monday. It is a pleasure to tell you anything the least cheering.... You do not know how sorry we all are for you; I hope you will not find this letter difficult to read. I wished especially to write to you to-day to tell you how we all think of you, and feel for and with you in all this difficulty and anxiety."
That evening a younger sister prepared some arrowroot in the sick-room, and the blind daughter administered it carefully, spoonful after spoonful, to her dying mother. "It pleased them both so much," we are told, and it was the last office of love, for on the 10th December Mrs.
Gilbert died.
The death of this warm-hearted, generous woman, who had made home so happy for her children, devoted wife and loving mother, was a crushing blow. Death had not visited the home for nearly thirty years, and this great grief opened up the possibility of future loss, and was as a pillar of cloud that followed them.