LIFE IN THE SICK-ROOM
"They also serve who only stand and wait."--MILTON.
During the last few years of life Bessie Gilbert never left her invalid couch and bed. In addition to blindness she was liable to distressing attacks of deafness, to sleeplessness, agonising pain, and weary exhaustion. Her throat was often affected, swallowing was difficult. She had lost power in the upper limbs, could only use her hands for a few seconds to read the raised type for the blind, or to do a few st.i.tches of chain work for those she loved; even that became impossible before the end. The record of work for the Inst.i.tution dwindles down during these years, but she lived for it as completely as she had ever done.
She would deny herself the one pleasure that remained--a visit from some one she loved, because it would exhaust her and render her incapable of the little she could now do.
For three or four years she received almost daily business letters from Colonel Fyers, and dictated replies to them when her health allowed, but this uncertain interposition was of little value, and by degrees matters of business ceased to be submitted to her. When any question on which she entertained a strong opinion was brought forward, she would occasionally explain her view in a letter to the Committee, but these letters also diminished in number. Her interest in individuals never decreased; the blind workpeople and their affairs occupied her to the very last.
In 1878 she heard that one of the workmen was about to marry a workwoman, since dead, who was blind, deformed, and very much out of health. She could not approve of such a marriage, and did her utmost to prevent it. She wrote to express her views, and sent a favourite sick-nurse to the Inst.i.tution to emphasise them. The result was that she received the following letter, informing her that the engagement was at end:
INSt.i.tUTION OF THE a.s.sOCIATION FOR THE WELFARE OF THE BLIND.
28 BERNERS STREET, LONDON, W., _3d August 1878._
MADAM--I beg to acknowledge the receipt of your very kind letter of the 2d inst., and to express to you how deeply I feel the very great interest you on all occasions have shown towards me, and especially now. I know you must have my welfare at heart, otherwise you would not have favoured me with this communication, for which I sincerely thank you. I, as well as L. W., have, through the means of your kind letter, seen the matter of our proposed marriage from a different point of view, and have therefore decided to act in harmony with your wishes, which no doubt are for our best.
I regret very much that any uneasiness should have been caused you by this affair, and trust that in future nothing on my part will occur to cause it again.--I am, madam, your obedient servant, C. C.
Miss Elizabeth Gilbert.
Bessie warmly approved of marriage for the blind, and was sometimes charged with promoting it injudiciously. In this case she would have been very glad if C. could have found a healthy, capable wife, who would have made him happy. She used to say that blindness was the strongest possible bond of sympathy between husband and wife; and as she did not for herself witness the untidiness and discomfort in the homes where man and wife are both blind, and the almost unavoidable neglect of young children, she could not share the objection of many members of the Committee to marriage between the workpeople.
In 1879 her widowed sister, the Hon. Mrs. Elliot, was married to Mr.
Childers. Mr. Childers had not previously known Bessie personally, but he saw her several times afterwards, and was greatly impressed by her marvellous patience and resignation.
In one of her early interviews with him she had asked for information as to the Blind and Deaf Mute Education Bill, which Mr. Wheelhouse, member for Leeds, Mr. Mellor, and others, had introduced into the House of Commons, but had been unsuccessful in pa.s.sing. She wished to see any papers Mr. Wheelhouse could send, and was much interested in his efforts and in the correspondence which followed her request.
Many letters received at this time have been preserved, and they show the influence which, from her bed of pain, she exercised on all around her.
The following is from her old friend, Mr. c.o.xe, librarian of the Bodleian. It is his last letter to her; he died in the following July:
NORTHGATE, OXFORD, _S. Stephen"s Day, 1880_.
MY VERY DEAR BESSIE--How much I thank you for thinking of me on my sick-bed, and sending me such a welcome Christmas gift to perfume my existence. My wife immediately seized upon one (as owing, or due, to her) and carried off the rest to some secret store-room, unknown to me as yet, in my new house. I have been now nearly three months in my bed and bedroom; how dare I speak of it to you in a spirit other than of deep thankfulness that I have been allowed to brave all weathers, and to work unscathed even to my 70th year.
Dear Fan ("old Fan!" it was such a pleasure seeing her!) will have told you what nice quarters we have fallen on wherein to end our days. It was one of the two houses I used in days gone by to covet; the other was old Mr. Parker"s, now young Fred Morrell"s. Well, dear Bessie, this season has had its message of peace too for you.
I am sure that you have received and welcomed it; that simple message in these sad days of rebuke and blasphemy becomes more and more precious. I am not likely to be again a traveller, tho" I should like to see Hilgrove in his new home, only fifteen miles away, so that I am not likely to see you again in this life. May it be granted that we may enjoy a happy reunion in that which shall be. Best love to the "d.u.c.h.ess" and Nora, with much to yourself from yours, dearest Bessie, ever affectionately, H. O. c.o.xE.
The year 1881 brought to Bessie a long fit of depression, due mainly to an attack of deafness; but she had also much anxiety with regard to the a.s.sociation. She heard of custom diminishing, a manager dismissed for dishonesty, heavy losses upon Government contracts undertaken in order to give work to the blind throughout the winter, diminished income and subscriptions, and increased demands for aid. In the old days she would have stirred up her friends, made appeals through the press, organised a public meeting, and surmounted all difficulties.
The utmost she could now do was to draw up a short circular, asking all those interested in her work to become a.s.sociates, and to subscribe a sum of not less than one shilling a year. Such a.s.sociates were to pledge themselves to promote the sale of goods made by the blind. She submitted her scheme and circular to the Committee, and was advised to make the minimum subscription half a crown. In this form it was issued, but, lacking the energy with which she would in former time have launched it, there was no appreciable result.
On the 2d of May 1882 a concert in aid of the a.s.sociation was held, by the kindness of the Duke of Westminster, at Grosvenor House. Bessie did what she could, but by far the greater part of the work connected with it fell upon her sisters. The Duke wrote directly it was over to congratulate her upon a very successful result; and Bessie was greatly cheered to learn that when all incidental expenses were paid, there would remain the sum of 326: 17: 6.
The Committee endeavoured as far as possible to save her the distress of knowing the difficulties in which they were involved. Sir E. Sotheby was untiring in his zealous endeavours to promote the interests of the a.s.sociation, and to shield Bessie from anxiety. Colonel Fyers, though in failing health, never lost sight of the object he had so long worked for. But all efforts were unavailing. Every fact and figure connected with the undertaking had been impressed upon an inexorable memory.
Nothing now escaped her. She detected every financial error, and every departure from her original aims and objects. She saw what grave difficulty lay in the fact that since the death of Levy no manager had been appointed who had any special interest in the blind. She feared that the work of her whole life would be ignored; and that there would be no higher aim than to keep open a shop and carry on a trade.
Oppressed by this fear, she made one last appeal, one final effort, on behalf of those whom she had loved and served for so long.
The address to the Committee, bearing date Whit Monday 1882, may be looked upon as her last will and testament. Internal evidence shows that it was in that light she herself looked upon it, and that she endeavoured to sum up in one short statement, which recapitulates the most important points in the early rules of the a.s.sociation, the result of a lifetime of work, thought, experience, and devotion.
THE a.s.sOCIATION FOR PROMOTING THE GENERAL WELFARE OF THE BLIND
WHITMONDAY, _29th May 1882._
This t.i.tle should always be borne in mind by those managing the a.s.sociation, as it clearly indicates the scope of the undertaking.
Trade is a most necessary and essential part of the work; and the more sure the foundation upon which the trade is carried on the better will be the security for its prosperity; but trade is by no means the most important part of the undertaking, and indeed it is my earnest desire that the a.s.sociation should never under any circ.u.mstances become a mere trading inst.i.tution. This would be a great falling off from the original scope and object with which this a.s.sociation was founded. I wish those who may be at any time entrusted with the management of the a.s.sociation always to remember that it is open to them to do everything they can, that is likely to promote the welfare of the blind. The particular directions in which this may be done will often be clearly indicated by the circ.u.mstances of the a.s.sociation, and by opportunities which may arise at any given time. Still, certain fixed principles should always be kept in view, as laid down in our rule No. 2, "That the immediate objects of this a.s.sociation shall be to afford employment to those blind persons who, for want of work, have been compelled to solicit alms, or who may be likely to be tempted to do so. To cause those unacquainted with a trade to be instructed in some industrial art, and to introduce trades. .h.i.therto unpractised by the blind. Also, to support a Circulating Library consisting of books in various systems of relief print, to the advantages of which the indigent blind shall be admitted free of charge, and others upon payment of the subscription required by the Committee. To enable blind musicians to show that the loss of sight does not prevent their being efficient organists and scientific musicians. To collect and disseminate information relative to the physical, mental, moral, and religious conditions of the blind; and to promote among individuals and inst.i.tutions seeking to ameliorate the condition of the blind, a friendly interchange of information calculated to advance the common cause."
Rule 16 also provides, "That with a view to increase the funds and extend the utility of the a.s.sociation, the Committee shall have power to receive into connection with the a.s.sociation other kindred inst.i.tutions, and shall seek to form auxiliaries in various parts of the kingdom."
The a.s.sociation will probably never be called upon to undertake anything with regard to music, as the field is now so well and fully occupied by the Royal Normal College; but the rule is quoted exactly as it stands in order to show the breadth of the original design, which design should be kept steadily in view. It is most desirable that among those who may direct the a.s.sociation there should always be some persons who should make it their special object to study the condition of the blind, and in this study the knowledge of the following facts will be found of service, viz.--
_1st._ That many blind persons after leaving the schools are, although instructed in some trade, reduced to begging or driven to the workhouse, not through their own fault, but simply for the want of any regular employment in their trade.
_2d._ That children const.i.tute but a small proportion of the blind; as about nine-tenths of the 30,000 blind in the United Kingdom become so above the age of twenty-one, and are then ineligible for admission to most blind schools.
_3d._ That about half the sightless population live in rural districts.
The address ends here abruptly. Probably the writer"s strength was exhausted with the effort to think and to dictate.
During 1882, 1883, 1884 Bessie carried on at long intervals a correspondence with Mr. Wood, Superintendent of the School for the Blind, Sheffield. She learns that his pupils are taught to read embossed type on Braille"s system, which her own experience had shown to be unsuited to those who have hard manual labour to perform. In every letter she requests information on this point: "Can the workpeople still read Braille"s type?" she asks. The opening up of fresh trades, the establishment of workshops for the benefit of those who leave the school, are questions which she suggests for the serious consideration of the Sheffield Committee, and she asks Mr. Wood for information, at any time he can send it, as to work in any way connected with the blind.
About this time Bessie heard that John Bright had spoken at the Normal College, Norwood, and appealed to him on behalf of Berners Street. He replied:
132 PICCADILLY, _26th July 1883._
DEAR MADAM--I thank you for your letter and for the volume you have sent me. My engagements are so many and so constantly pressing that I cannot hope to do much for the cause you have at heart. I hope, however, the cause is making progress, and it is not unlikely that some general inquiry into the condition of the blind will be made before long, and that good may come from it. My presence and speech at Norwood were accidental. I must leave more practical work to others.--I am, very truly yours, JOHN BRIGHT.
Miss Gilbert, 5 Stanhope Place, Hyde Park, W.
The volume sent was most probably Levy"s _Blindness and the Blind_.
During 1883 Bessie received frequent letters from the Chairman of her Committee, Sir E. Sotheby, and the Hon. Secretary, Captain Hume Nicholl.
They referred to her the different appeals from blind men, women, and boys which reached them; these she carefully investigated and reported upon. During her illness, as throughout her whole life, the utmost help and best advice she could give were always at the disposal of the blind.
Farrow, who had worked twenty-eight years at the Inst.i.tution, loses no opportunity of sending her cheering news. He writes at this time with respect to the brushmakers:
During the last six months orders have poured in from all quarters, and I can say that all the years I have been connected with the Inst.i.tution we have not done so much before in the same time.
Brushes manufactured indoors in 1882 amounted to 3200. The present year, from the 1st January to the 1st of June, amounted to 1471: 6: 4 in twenty-two weeks.
There was an Industrial Exhibition in the Agricultural Hall, Islington, in 1883, and the blind stall from Berners Street was always crowded.