She thought surely the dinner-hour would bring her father; but it did not: her wants were again supplied by a servant.
CHAPTER XIV.
"The dread of evil is the worst of ill."
On leaving the breakfast-room, Violet hastened back to the nursery; but the captain, calling Max and Grace into her boudoir, said, as he took the little girl on his knee, and motioned Max to sit by his side,--
"I have some news for you, my children: can you guess what it is?"
"Something good, I hope, papa," said Max: "you look as if it was."
"I am very much pleased with my share of it," the captain said, smiling; "and I shall know presently, I presume, what you two think of yours.
What would you like it to be, Gracie?"
"That my papa was never, never going away any more," she answered promptly, lifting loving eyes to his face.
"There couldn"t be better news than that," remarked Max; "but," with a profound sigh, "of course it can"t be that."
"Ah! don"t be quite so sure, young man," laughed his father.
"Papa, you don"t mean to say that that is it?" queried Max breathlessly.
"I do: I have resigned from the navy, and hope soon to have a home ready for my wife and children, and to live in it with them as long as it shall please G.o.d to spare our lives."
Tears of joy actually came into the boy"s eyes; while Gracie threw her arms round their father"s neck, and half smothered him with kisses.
"O papa, papa!" she cried, "I"m so glad, I don"t know what to do! I"m the happiest girl in the world!--or should be, if only the dear baby was well," she added, with springing tears.
"Yes," he sighed: "we cannot feel other than sad, while she is suffering and in danger. But she is a trifle better this morning, and we will hope the improvement may continue till she is entirely restored."
"She"s such a darling!" said Max; "just the brightest, cutest baby that ever was seen! Mamma Vi has taught her to know your photograph; and, whenever she sees it, she says, "Papa," as plainly as I can. She calls me too, and Lu. Oh! I don"t know how Lulu could"--He broke off, without finishing his sentence.
"Lu didn"t do it on purpose," sobbed Gracie, pulling out her handkerchief to wipe her eyes.
"No," sighed the captain: "I am quite sure she had no intention of harming her little sister, yet she is responsible for it as the consequence of indulging in a fit of rage; she feels that: and I hope the distress of mind she is now suffering because of the dreadful deed she has done in her pa.s.sion, will be such a lesson to her, that she will learn to rule her own spirit in future."
"Oh, I do hope so!" said Grace. "Papa, does Lulu know your good news?"
"No. I have not told her yet; and I intend to keep her in ignorance of it for some days, as part of her deserved punishment. I do not want her to have any thing to divert her mind from the consideration of the great sin and danger of such indulgence of temper."
"You haven"t quit loving her, papa? you won"t?" Grace said, half entreatingly, half inquiringly.
"No, daughter, oh, no!" he replied with emotion. "I don"t know what would ever make me quit loving any one of my dear children."
He drew her closer, and kissed her fondly as he spoke.
"I am very glad of that, papa," said Max feelingly; "for though I do mean to be always a good son to you, if I ever should do any thing very, very bad, I"d not be afraid to confess it to you. I could stand punishment, you know; but I don"t think I could bear to have you give up being fond of me."
A warm pressure of the lad"s hand was the captain"s only reply at first; but presently he said, "I trust you will always be perfectly open with me, my dear boy. You don"t think, do you, that you could have a better--more disinterested--earthly friend than your father?"
"No, sir! oh, no, indeed!"
"Then make me your confidant," his father said, with a smile and look that spoke volumes of fatherly pride and affection; "let me into all your secrets. Now that I am to be with you constantly, I shall take a deeper interest than ever in all that concerns you,--if that be possible,--in your studies, your sports, your thoughts and feelings.
You may always be sure of my sympathy, and such help as I can give in every right and wise undertaking."
"I"ll do that, papa!" Max exclaimed with a sudden, glad, lighting-up of the face. "Why, it"ll be as good as having the brother I"ve often wished for!" he added with a pleased laugh; "better, in some ways, anyhow; for you"ll be so much wiser than any boy, and keep me out of sc.r.a.pes with your good advice."
"Papa," queried Grace, with a little bashful hesitation, "mayn"t I have you for my friend too?"
"Yes, indeed, my darling little girl!" he answered with a hug and kiss.
"I should like to be quite as intimate with you as I hope to be with Max."
"With Lulu too?" she asked.
"Yes; with every one of my children."
Max had averted his face to hide his amus.e.m.e.nt at his little sister"s question in regard to her father"s friendship for herself, for the timid, sensitive little girl could hardly bear to be laughed at; but now he turned to his father again with the query,--
"Papa, where are we going to live?"
"I don"t know yet, Max," the captain answered; "but I hope to be able to buy or build somewhere in this neighborhood, as I should be loath to take your mamma far away from her mother,--myself either, for that matter; and I presume you would all prefer to live near these kind friends?"
"I am sure I should," said Max. "But, papa,"--he paused, coloring, and casting down his eyes.
"Well, my boy, what is it? don"t be afraid to talk freely to your intimate friend," his father said in a kindly tone, and laying a hand affectionately on the lad"s shoulder.
"Please don"t think me impertinent, papa," Max said, coloring still more, "but I was just going to ask how you could live without your pay; as I have heard you say it was nearly all you had."
"I am not at all offended at the inquiry," was the kindly reply. "The intimacy and confidences are not to be all on one side, my boy.
"I am quite willing you should know that am able now to do without the pay, some land belonging to me in the Far West having so risen in value as to afford me sufficient means for the proper support of my family, and education of my children."
"Oh, that is good!" cried Max, clapping his hands in delight. "And if it is used up by the time I"m grown and educated, I hope I"ll be able to take care of you, and provide for you as you do now for me."
"Thank you, my dear boy," the captain said with feeling; "the day may come when you will be the stay and staff of my old age; but, however that may be, you may be sure that nothing can add more to your father"s happiness than seeing you growing up to honorable and Christian manhood."
"Yes, sir: it"s what I want to do." Then, a little anxiously, after a moment"s thought, "Am I to be sent away to school, sir?"
"I have not quite decided that question, and your wishes will have great weight with me in making the decision. I shall keep Lulu at home, and educate her myself,--act as her tutor, I mean,--and if my boy would like to become my pupil also"--
"O papa! indeed, indeed I should!" exclaimed Max joyfully, as his father paused, looking smilingly at him; "and I"ll try hard to do you credit as my teacher as well as my father."
"Then we will make the trial," said the captain. "If it should not prove a success, there will be time enough after that to try a school."
"What about me, papa?" asked Grace wistfully, feeling as if she were being overlooked in the arrangements.