"And how little are they really worth, while we have them? "Riches profit not in the day of wrath," we are told in this Holy Book. And it says a great deal of the folly and sinfulness of pride; particularly in this book of Proverbs;" turning over the leaves he read here and there--""When pride cometh, then cometh shame; but, with the lowly is wisdom." "Pride goeth before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall. Better is it to be an humble spirit with the lowly, than to divide the spoil with the proud."
""Proud and haughty scorner is his name who dealeth in proud wrath."
""A man"s pride shall bring him low: but honor shall uphold the humble in spirit."
""The fear of the Lord is to hate evil: pride, and arrogancy, and the evil way and the forward mouth, do I hate.""
There was a moment of silence, then Lulu said humbly, tears starting to her eyes as she spoke, "Papa, I did not know--at least I never thought about it--that pride was so wicked."
"Yes," he said, "the Bible tells us that everyone proud in heart is an abomination to the Lord, that G.o.d resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble; there is much in the Bible against pride and in favor of humility. We are all sinners, worthy of nothing good at the hands of G.o.d, and what have we to do with pride?"
"Papa, when I say my prayers to-night I will ask G.o.d to take away all the wicked pride out of my heart; and won"t you ask him too?"
"I will, my darling, as I have already, very many times, and I hope you have not neglected to ask him to forgive your wrong thoughts, feelings, and actions of this morning?"
"I have asked for that, papa, and I will again," she replied.
They were silent again for a little while, the captain looking as if his thoughts were far away; Lulu was studying his face with eyes that presently filled with tears.
"Papa," she said low, and half tremulously, "you look so sad. Is it all because you are grieved over my naughtiness?"
"No, daughter, not all; indeed I was hardly thinking of that at the moment, but of the grief, sorrow and anxiety at Ion."
"What about, papa?" she queried with a startled look. "Oh, I hope that nothing bad has happened to Gracie or Mamma Vi, or our little ones?"
"No; I am thankful that all is right with them: but dear Grandma Elsie is in a very critical condition; I cannot tell you exactly what ails her, but she has been suffering very much for months past, keeping it to herself till yesterday, when she told it all to Cousin Arthur, and learned from him that nothing but a difficult and dangerous surgical operation could save her life.
"That is to be performed to-morrow, and, whether she lives or dies, will relieve her from the dreadful agony she is enduring; for no one who knows her can doubt that she is one of G.o.d"s dear children. Death will be gain to her, but a sad loss to all of us."
Before he had finished Lulu"s face was hidden on his shoulder and she was weeping bitterly.
"O papa," she sobbed, "I"m so, so sorry for her, dear, dear Grandma Elsie! Isn"t she frightened almost to death?"
"No, daughter; she is very calm and peaceful, ready to live or die as G.o.d"s will shall be; grieving only for those who love her so dearly and find it so difficult to be reconciled to the thought of losing her; her efforts are all to comfort them. She has set her house in order and seems quite ready for either life or death.
"But we will pray--you and I--as the others are praying, that if G.o.d"s will be so, she may live and go in and out before us for many years to come."
"Yes, papa. Oh, I am glad that we may ask our kind heavenly Father for everything we want! Poor Mamma Vi! how her heart must ache! and is she going to stay on at Ion now, papa?"
"Yes; certainly till her mother is out of danger or forever done with sin and suffering. Gracie and our two little ones will stay too; Gracie amusing the others and keeping them in the grounds, or a part of the house so distant from Grandma Elsie"s room that their noise will not disturb her."
"And you and I will stay on here, papa?"
"Yes; I must be here a good deal of the time to oversee my workmen, and shall want my dear eldest daughter to be my companion and helper in various ways, for I know she loves to be such to her father," he added, pressing his lips to her cheek.
"Indeed I do, papa! Oh, thank you for letting me!" she exclaimed, lifting her head and showing eyes shining through tears. "I"d rather be here with you, than anywhere else, my own dear, dear father!" putting her arms about his neck and hugging him close. "Only," she added, "I"d like to see Gracie and the others for a little bit every once in a while if I may."
"Yes, you shall," he said, returning her embrace. "Perhaps I may be able to take you over there for a short visit almost every day. And in the meantime we may hope that lessons and the dressmaking will go on prosperously."
"Are you going to spend your nights here at home, papa?" she asked with a wistful, half pleading look.
"Yes, dear child; I could not think of leaving you alone; nor would your Mamma Vi wish me to do so while she has both her brother and grandfather near her, to say nothing of the women, children, and servants; you will have me close at hand every night and the greater part of the day."
"Oh, I am so glad and thankful!" she said, with a sigh of relief. "I don"t think I should be exactly afraid, because G.o.d would be with me, but it is so delightful to have my dear earthly father too. May I sleep in Gracie"e room to be nearer to you?"
"Yes; and with the door open between it and mine, so that if you want anything in the night you will only need to call to me and I will go to you at once.
"Now if there are any more questions you would like answered, let me hear them."
"There is something I"d like to say, papa, but I"m--almost afraid."
"Afraid of what, daughter?" he asked, as she paused in some embarra.s.sment, and with a half pleading look into his eyes.
"That you might think it saucy and be displeased with me.
"Do you mean it so, daughter?"
"Oh, no indeed, papa!"
"Then you need not be afraid to let me hear it."
"Papa, it is only that I--I think if you had talked to me this morning, when you called me to you, about the wickedness of being too proud to ask Alma"s pardon, and reasoned with me as you did a little while ago, about it all, I--I"d have obeyed you at once; you know you do almost always show me the reasonableness of your commands before, or when, you lay them upon me."
"Yes, my child," he said in a kindly tone, "I have done so as a rule, and should in this instance, but that I was much hurried for time. That will sometimes happen, and you and all my children must always obey me promptly, whether you can or cannot at the moment see the reasonableness of the order given. Is your estimation of your father"s wisdom and his love for you so low that you cannot trust him thus far?"
"O papa, forgive me!" she exclaimed, putting her arms about his neck and laying her cheek to his. "I do hope I"ll never, never again hesitate one minute to obey any order from you; because I know you love me, and that you are very wise and would never bid me do anything but what I ought."
"Certainly never intentionally, daughter; and surely your father, who is so many years older than yourself, should be esteemed by you as somewhat wiser."
"O papa, I know you are a great, great deal wiser than I," she said earnestly. "How ridiculous it seems to think of anybody comparing my wisdom with yours! I know I"m only a silly little girl, and not a good one either, and it would be a sad thing to have a father no wiser or better than myself."
CHAPTER XIII.
The morning of that critical day found Grandma Elsie as calm and cheerful as she had been the previous evening, though every other face among the older members of the family showed agitation and anxiety. Her daughters, Elsie and Violet, were with her almost constantly during the early hours, doing everything in their power to show their devoted affection and make all things ready for the surgeons and their a.s.sistants; her father and his wife also giving their aid and loving sympathy, while Edward and Zoe attended to necessary arrangements elsewhere, occasionally s.n.a.t.c.hing a moment to stand beside the dear sufferer and speak words of love and hope.
Rosie and Walter were allowed one short interview in which they were clasped in her arms and a few loving, tender words spoken that both she and they felt might be the last.
Captain Raymond came a little earlier than the doctor. Lester was already there, and each young wife found the presence of her husband a comfort and support while, in an adjoining room, they waited in almost agonizing suspense to hear that the operation was over and what was the result.
They were a silent group, every heart going up in strong crying to G.o.d, that, if consistent with his holy will, the dear mother might be spared to them.
And the united pet.i.tion was granted; Mrs. Dinsmore presently came to them, her face radiant with joy and hope. "It is over," she said; "successfully over, and the doctors say that with the good nursing she is sure to have she will soon be restored to perfect health."
The communication was received with tears of joy and thankfulness.