Shut in from all the world without, We sat the clean-winged hearth about, Content to let the north-wind roar In baffled rage at pane and door, While the red logs before us beat The frost-line back with tropic heat; And ever, when a louder blast Shook beam and rafter as it pa.s.sed, The merrier up its roaring draught The great throat of the chimney laughed, The house-dog on his paws outspread Laid to the fire his drowsy head, The cat"s dark silhouette on the wall A couchant tiger"s seemed to fall; And, for the winter fireside meet, Between the andirons" straddling feet, The mug of cider simmered slow, The apples sputtered in a row, And, close at hand, the basket stood With nuts from brown October"s wood.
What matter how the night behaved?
What matter how the north-wind raved?
Blow high, blow low, not all its snow Could quench our hearth-fire"s ruddy glow.
O Time and Change!--with hair as gray As was my sire"s that winter day, How strange it seems, with so much gone Of life and love, to still live on!
Ah, brother! only I and thou Are left of all that circle now,-- The dear home faces whereupon That fitful firelight paled and shone.
Henceforward, listen as we will, The voices of that hearth are still; Look where we may, the wide earth o"er, Those lighted faces smile no more.
We tread the paths their feet have worn, We sit beneath their orchard trees, We hear, like them, the hum of bees And rustle of the bladed corn; We turn the pages that they read, Their written words we linger o"er, But in the sun they cast no shade, No voice is heard, no sign is made, No step is on the conscious floor!
Yet Love will dream and Faith will trust (Since He who knows our need is just) That somehow, somewhere, meet we must.
Alas for him who never sees The stars shine through his cypress-trees!
Who, hopeless, lays his dead away, Nor looks to see the breaking day Across the mournful marbles play!
Who hath not learned, in hours of faith, The truth to flesh and sense unknown, That Life is ever lord of Death, And Love can never lose its own!
We sped the time with stories old, Wrought puzzles out, and riddles told, Or stammered from our school-book lore "The chief of Gambia"s golden sh.o.r.e."
Our father rode again his ride On Memphremagog"s wooded side; Sat down again to moose and samp In trapper"s hut and Indian camp; Lived o"er the old idyllic ease Beneath St. Francois" hemlock trees; Again for him the moonlight shone On Norman cap and bodiced zone; Again he heard the violin play Which led the village dance away, And mingled in its merry whirl The grandam and the laughing girl.
Or, nearer home, our steps he led Where Salisbury"s level marshes spread Mile-wide as flies the laden bee; Where merry mowers, hale and strong, Swept, scythe on scythe, their swaths along The low green prairies of the sea.
We shared the fishing off Boar"s Head, And round the rocky Isles of Shoals The hake-broil on the driftwood coals; The chowder on the sand-beach made, Dipped by the hungry, steaming hot, With spoons of clam-sh.e.l.l from the pot.
We heard the tales of witchcraft old, And dream and sign and marvel told To sleepy listeners as they lay Stretched idly on the salted hay, Adrift along the winding sh.o.r.es, When favoring breezes deigned to blow The square sail of the gundalow, And idle lay the useless oars.
Our mother, while she turned her wheel Or run the new-knit stocking-heel, Told how the Indian hordes came down At midnight on Cochecho town, And how her own great-uncle bore His cruel scalp-mark to fourscore.
Recalling, in her fitting phrase, So rich and picturesque and free (The common unrhymed poetry Of simple life and country ways), The story of her early days,-- She made us welcome to her home; Old hearths grew wide to give us room; We stole with her a frightened look At the gray wizard"s conjuring-book, The fame whereof went far and wide Through all the simple country-side; We heard the hawks at twilight play, The boat-horn on Piscataqua, The loon"s weird laughter far away;
We fished her little trout-brook, knew What flowers in wood and meadow grew, What sunny hillsides autumn-brown She climbed to shake the ripe nuts down, Saw where in sheltered cove and bay The ducks" black squadron anch.o.r.ed lay, And heard the wild geese calling loud Beneath the gray November cloud.
Then, haply, with a look more grave, And soberer tone, some tale she gave From painful Sewel"s ancient tome, Beloved in every Quaker home, Of faith fire-winged by martyrdom, Or Chalkley"s Journal, old and quaint,-- Gentlest of skippers, rare sea-saint!-- Who, when the dreary calms prevailed, And water-b.u.t.t and bread-cask failed, And cruel, hungry eyes pursued His portly presence, mad for food, With dark hints muttered under breath Of casting lots for life or death, Offered, if Heaven withheld supplies, To be himself the sacrifice.
Then, suddenly, as if to save The good man from his living grave, A ripple on the water grew, A school of porpoise flashed in view.
"Take, eat," he said, "and be content; These fishes in my stead are sent By Him who gave the tangled ram To spare the child of Abraham."
Our uncle, innocent of books, Was rich in lore of fields and brooks, The ancient teachers never dumb Of Nature"s unhoused lyceum.
In moons and tides and weather wise, He read the clouds as prophecies, And foul or fair could well divine, By many an occult hint and sign, Holding the cunning-warded keys To all the woodcraft mysteries; Himself to Nature"s heart so near That all her voices in his ear Of beast or bird had meanings clear, Like Apollonius of old, Who knew the tales the sparrows told, Or Hermes, who interpreted What the sage cranes of Nilus said; A simple, guileless, childlike man, Content to live where life began; Strong only on his native grounds, The little world of sights and sounds Whose girdle was the parish bounds, Whereof his fondly partial pride The common features magnified, As Surrey hills to mountains grew In White of Selborne"s loving view,-- He told how teal and loon he shot, And how the eagle"s eggs he got, The feats on pond and river done, The prodigies of rod and gun; Till, warming with the tales he told, Forgotten was the outside cold, The bitter wind unheeded blew, From ripening corn the pigeons flew, The partridge drummed i" the wood, the mink Went fishing down the river-brink.
In fields with bean or clover gay, The woodchuck, like a hermit gray, Peered from the doorway of his cell; The muskrat plied the mason"s trade, And tier by tier his mud-walls laid; And from the s.h.a.gbark overhead The grizzled squirrel dropped his sh.e.l.l.
Next, the dear aunt, whose smile of cheer And voice in dreams I see and hear,-- The sweetest woman ever Fate Perverse denied a household mate, Who, lonely, homeless, not the less Found peace in love"s unselfishness, And welcome whereso"er she went, A calm and gracious element, Whose presence seemed the sweet income And womanly atmosphere of home,-- Called up her girlhood memories, The huskings and the apple-bees, The sleigh-rides and the summer sails, Weaving through all the poor details And homespun warp of circ.u.mstance A golden woof-thread of romance.
For well she kept her genial mood And simple faith of maidenhood; Before her still a cloud-land lay, The mirage loomed across her way; The morning dew, that dried so soon With others, glistened at her noon; Through years of toil and soil and care, From glossy tress to thin gray hair, All unprofaned she held apart The virgin fancies of the heart.
Be shame to him of woman born Who had for such but thought of scorn.
There, too, our elder sister plied Her evening task the stand beside; A full, rich nature, free to trust, Truthful and almost sternly just, Impulsive, earnest, prompt to act, And make her generous thought a fact, Keeping with many a light disguise The secret of self-sacrifice.
O heart sore-tried! thou hast the best That Heaven itself could give thee,--rest, Rest from all bitter thoughts and things!
How many a poor one"s blessing went With thee beneath the low green tent Whose curtain never outward swings!
As one who held herself a part Of all she saw, and let her heart Against the household bosom lean, Upon the motley-braided mat Our youngest and our dearest sat, Lifting her large, sweet, asking eyes, Now bathed within the fadeless green And holy peace of Paradise.
Oh, looking from some heavenly hill, Or from the shade of saintly palms, Or silver reach of river calms, Do those large eyes behold me still?
With me one little year ago:-- The chill weight of the winter snow For months upon her grave has lain; And now, when summer south-winds blow And brier and harebell bloom again, I tread the pleasant paths we trod, I see the violet-sprinkled sod, Whereon she leaned, too frail and weak The hillside flowers she loved to seek, Yet following me where"er I went With dark eyes full of love"s content.
The birds are glad; the brier-rose fills The air with sweetness; all the hills Stretch green to June"s unclouded sky; But still I wait with ear and eye For something gone which should be nigh, A loss in all familiar things, In flower that blooms, and bird that sings.
And yet, dear heart! remembering thee, Am I not richer than of old?
Safe in thy immortality, What change can reach the wealth I hold?
What chance can mar the pearl and gold Thy love hath left in trust with me?
And while in life"s late afternoon, Where cool and long the shadows grow, I walk to meet the night that soon Shall shape and shadow overflow, I cannot feel that thou art far, Since near at need the angels are; And when the sunset gates unbar, Shall I not see thee waiting stand, And, white against the evening star, The welcome of thy beckoning hand?
Brisk wielder of the birch and rule, The master of the district school Held at the fire his favored place; Its warm glow lit a laughing face Fresh-hued and fair, where scarce appeared The uncertain prophecy of beard.
He teased the mitten-blinded cat, Played cross-pins on my uncle"s hat, Sang songs, and told us what befalls In cla.s.sic Dartmouth"s college halls.
Born the wild Northern hills among, From whence his yeoman father wrung By patient toil subsistence scant, Not competence and yet not want, He early gained the power to pay His cheerful, self-reliant way; Could doff at ease his scholar"s gown To peddle wares from town to town; Or through the long vacation"s reach In lonely lowland districts teach, Where all the droll experience found At stranger hearths in boarding round, The moonlit skater"s keen delight, The sleigh-drive through the frosty night, The rustic party, with its rough Accompaniment of blind-man"s-buff, And whirling plate, and forfeits paid, His winter task a pastime made.
Happy the snow-locked homes wherein He tuned his merry violin, Or played the athlete in the barn, Or held the good dame"s winding yarn, Of mirth-provoking versions told Of cla.s.sic legends rare and old, Wherein the scenes of Greece and Rome Had all the commonplace of home, And little seemed at best the odds "Twixt Yankee peddlers and old G.o.ds; Where Pindus-born Arachthus took The guise of any grist-mill brook, And dread Olympus at his will Became a huckleberry hill.
A careless boy that night he seemed; But at his desk he had the look And air of one who wisely schemed, And hostage from the future took In trained thought and lore of book.
Another guest that winter night Flashed back from l.u.s.trous eyes the light.
Unmarked by time, and yet not young, The honeyed music of her tongue And words of meekness scarcely told A nature pa.s.sionate and bold, Strong, self-concentred, spurning guide, Its milder features dwarfed beside Her unbent will"s majestic pride.
She sat among us, at the best, A not unfeared, half-welcome guest, Rebuking with her cultured phrase Our homeliness of words and ways.
A certain pard-like, treacherous grace Swayed the lithe limbs and dropped the lash, Lent the white teeth their dazzling flash; And under low brows, black with night, Rayed out at times a dangerous light; The sharp heat-lightnings of her face Presaging ill to him whom Fate Condemned to share her love or hate.
A woman tropical, intense In thought and act, in soul and sense, She blended in a like degree The vixen and the devotee, Revealing with each freak or feint The temper of Petruchio"s Kate, The raptures of Siena"s saint.
Her tapering hand and rounded wrist Had facile power to form a fist; The warm, dark languish of her eyes Was never safe from wrath"s surprise.
Brows saintly calm and lips devout Knew every change of scowl and pout; And the sweet voice had notes more high And shrill for social battle-cry.
Since then what old cathedral town Has missed her pilgrim staff and gown, What convent-gate has held its lock Against the challenge of her knock!
Through Smyrna"s plague-hushed thoroughfares, Up sea-set Malta"s rocky stairs, Gray olive slopes of hills that hem Thy tombs and shrines, Jerusalem, Or startling on her desert throne The crazy Queen of Lebanon With claims fantastic as her own, Her tireless feet have held their way; And still, unrestful, bowed and gray, She watches under Eastern skies, With hope each day renewed and fresh, The Lord"s quick coming in the flesh, Whereof she dreams and prophesies!
Where"er her troubled path may be, The Lord"s sweet pity with her go!
The outward wayward life we see, The hidden springs we may not know.
Nor is it given us to discern What threads the fatal sisters spun, Through what ancestral years has run The sorrow with the woman born, What forged her cruel chain of moods, What set her feet in solitudes, And held the love within her mute, What mingled madness in the blood, A lifelong discord and annoy, Water of tears with oil of joy, And hid within the folded bud Perversities of flower and fruit.
It is not ours to separate The tangled skein of will and fate, To show what metes and bounds should stand Upon the soul"s debatable land, And between choice and Providence Divide the circle of events; But He who knows our frame is just, Merciful and compa.s.sionate, And full of sweet a.s.surances And hope for all the language is, That He remembereth we are dust!
At last the great logs, crumbling low, Sent out a dull and duller glow, The bull"s-eye watch, that hung in view, Ticking its weary circuit through, Pointed with mutely-warning sign Its black hand to the hour of nine.
That sign the pleasant circle broke: My uncle ceased his pipe to smoke, Knocked from its bowl the refuse gray, And laid it tenderly away, Then roused himself to safely cover The dull red brand with ashes over.
And while, with care, our mother laid The work aside, her steps she stayed One moment, seeking to express Her grateful sense of happiness For food and shelter, warmth and health, And love"s contentment more than wealth, With simple wishes (not the weak, Vain prayers which no fulfilment seek, But such as warm the generous heart, O"er-prompt to do with Heaven its part) That none might lack, that bitter night, For bread and clothing, warmth and light.
Within our beds awhile we heard The wind that round the gables roared, With now and then a ruder shock, Which made our very bedsteads rock.
We heard the loosened clapboards tost, The board-nails snapping in the frost; And on us, through the unplastered wall, Felt the lightsifted snow-flakes fall; But sleep stole on, as sleep will do When hearts are light and life is new; Faint and more faint the murmurs grew, Till in the summer-land of dreams They softened to the sound of streams, Low stir of leaves, and dip of oars, And lapsing waves on quiet sh.o.r.es.
Next morn we wakened with the shout Of merry voices high and clear; And saw the teamsters drawing near To break the drifted highways out.
Down the long hillside treading slow We saw the half-buried oxen go, Shaking the snow from heads uptost, Their straining nostrils white with frost.
Before our door the straggling train Drew up, an added team to gain.
The elders threshed their hands a-cold, Pa.s.sed, with the cider-mug, their jokes From lip to lip; the younger folks Down the loose snow-banks, wrestling, rolled, Then toiled again the cavalcade O"er windy hill, through clogged ravine, And woodland paths that wound between Low drooping-pine-boughs winter-weighed.
From every barn a team afoot, At every house a new recruit, Where, drawn by Nature"s subtlest law, Haply the watchful young men saw Sweet doorway pictures of the curls And curious eyes of merry girls, Lifting their hands in mock defense Against the snow-b.a.l.l.s" compliments, And reading in each missive tost The charm which Eden never lost.
We heard once more the sleigh-bells" sound; And, following where the teamsters led, The wise old Doctor went his round, Just pausing at our door to say, In the brief autocratic way Of one who, prompt at Duty"s call, Was free to urge her claim on all, That some poor neighbor sick abed At night our mother"s aid would need.
For, one in generous thought and deed, What mattered in the sufferer"s sight The Quaker matron"s inward light, The Doctor"s mail of Calvin"s creed?
All hearts confess the saints elect Who, twain, in faith, in love agree, And melt not in an acid sect The Christian pearl of charity!
So days went on: a week had pa.s.sed Since the great world was heard from last.
The Almanac we studied o"er, Read and reread our little store Of books and pamphlets, scarce a score; One harmless novel, mostly hid From younger eyes, a book forbid, And poetry, (or good or bad, A single book was all we had,) Where Ellwood"s meek, drab-skirted Muse, A stranger to the heathen Nine, Sang, with a somewhat nasal whine, The wars of David and the Jews.
At last the floundering carrier bore The village paper to our door.
Lo! broadening outward as we read, To warmer zones the horizon spread; In panoramic length unrolled We saw the marvel that it told.
Before us pa.s.sed the painted Creeks, And daft McGregor on his raids In Costa Rica"s everglades.
And up Taygetus winding slow Rode Ypsilanti"s Mainote Greeks, A Turk"s head at each saddle bow!
Welcome to us its week-old news, Its corner for the rustic Muse, Its monthly gauge of snow and rain, Its record, mingling in a breath The wedding bell and dirge of death; Jest, anecdote, and love-lorn tale, The latest culprit sent to jail; Its hue and cry of stolen and lost, Its vendue sales and goods at cost, And traffic calling loud for gain.
We felt the stir of hall and street, The pulse of life that round us beat; The chill embargo of the snow Was melted in the genial glow; Wide swung again our ice-locked door, And all the world was ours once more!
Clasp, Angel of the backward look And folded wings of ashen gray And voice of echoes far away, The brazen covers of thy book; The weird palimpsest old and vast, Wherein thou hid"st the spectral past; Where, closely mingling, pale and glow The characters of joy and woe; The monographs of outlived years, Or smile-illumined or dim with tears, Green hills of life that slope to death, And haunts of home, whose vistaed trees Shade off to mournful cypresses With the white amaranths underneath.
Even while I look, I can but heed The restless sands" incessant fall, Importunate hours that hours succeed, Each clamorous with its own sharp need, And duty keeping pace with all.
Shut down and clasp the heavy lids; I hear again the voice that bids The dreamer leave his dream midway For larger hopes and graver fears: Life greatens in these later years, The century"s aloe flowers today!
Yet, haply, in some lull of life, Some Truce of G.o.d which breaks its strife, The worldling"s eyes shall gather dew, Dreaming in throngful city ways Of winter joys his boyhood knew; And dear and early friends--the few Who yet remain--shall pause to view These Flemish pictures of old days; Sit with me by the homestead hearth, And stretch the hands of memory forth To warm them at the wood-fire"s blaze!
And thanks untraced to lips unknown Shall greet me like the odors blown From unseen meadows newly mown, Or lilies floating in some pond, Wood-fringed, the wayside gaze beyond; The traveler owns the grateful sense Of sweetness near, he knows not whence, And, pausing, takes with forehead bare The benediction of the air.