He had only been there a few minutes when someone knocked on his door.
"Go away," he said softly. Whoever was knocking didn"t hear him or didn"t care. Finally, Ender said to come in.
It was Bean.
"Go away, Bean."
Bean nodded but didn"t leave. Instead he looked at his shoes. Ender almost yelled at him, cursed at him, screamed at him to leave. Instead he noticed how very tired Bean looked, his whole body bent with weariness, his eyes dark from lack of sleep; and yet his skin was still soft and translucent, the skin of a child, the soft curved cheek, the slender limbs of a little boy. He wasn"t eight years old yet. It didn"t matter he was brilliant and dedicated and good. He was a child. He was young .
No he isn"t, thought Ender. Small, yes. But Bean has been through a battle with a whole army depending on him and on the soldiers that he led, and he performed splendidly, and they won. There"s no youth in that. No childhood.
Taking Ender"s silence and softening expression as permission to stay, Bean took another step into the room. Only then did Ender see the small slip of paper in his hand.
"You"re transferred?" asked Ender. He was incredulous, but his voice came out sounding uninterested, dead.
"To Rabbit Army."
Ender nodded. Of course. It was obvious. If I can"t be defeated with my army, they"ll take my army away. "Carn Carby"s a good man," said Ender. "I hope he recognizes what you"re worth."
"Carn Carby was graduated today. He got his notice while we were fighting our battle."
"Well, who"s commanding Rabbit then?"
Bean held his hands out helplessly. "Me."
Ender looked at the ceiling and nodded. "Of course. After all, you"re only four years younger than the regular age."
"It isn"t funny. I don"t know what"s going on here. All the changes in the game. And now this. I wasn"t the only one transferred, you know. They graduated half the commanders, and transferred a lot of our guys to command their armies."
"Which guys?"
"It looks like -- every toon leader and every a.s.sistant."
"Of course. If they decide to wreck my army, they"ll cut it to the ground. Whatever they"re doing, they"re thorough."
"You"ll still win, Ender. We all know that. Crazy Tom, he said, "You mean I"m supposed to figure out how to beat Dragon Army?" Everybody knows you"re the best. They can"t break you down, no matter what they--"
"They already have."
"No, Ender, they can"t--"
"I don"t care about their game anymore, Bean. I"m not going to play it anymore. No more practices. No more battles. They can put their little slips of paper on the floor all they want, but I won"t go. I decided that before I went through the door today. That"s why I had you go for the gate. I didn"t think it would work, but I didn"t care. I just wanted to go out in style."
"You should"ve seen William Bee"s face. He just stood there trying to figure out how he had lost when you only had seven boys who could wiggle their toes and he only had three who couldn"t."
"Why should I want to see William Bee"s face? Why should I want to beat anybody?" Ender pressed his palms against his eyes. "I hurt Bonzo really bad today, Bean. I really hurt him bad."
"He had it coming."
"I knocked him out standing up. It was like he was dead, standing there. And I kept hurting him."
Bean said nothing.
"I just wanted to make sure he never hurt me again."
"He won"t," said Bean. "They sent him home."
"Already?"
"The teachers didn"t say much, they never do. The official notice says he was graduated, but where they put the a.s.signment -- you know, tactical school, support, precommand, navigation, that kind of thing -- it just said Cartagena, Spain. That"s his home."
"I"m glad they graduated him."
"h.e.l.l, Ender, we"re just glad he"s gone. If we"d known what he was doing to you, we would"ve killed him on the spot. Was it true he had a whole bunch of guys gang up on you?"
"No. It was just him and me. He fought with honor." If it weren"t for his honor, he and the others would have beaten me together. They might have killed me, then. His sense of honor saved my life. "I didn"t fight with honor," Ender added. "I fought to win."
Bean laughed. "And you did. Kicked him right out of orbit."
A knock on the door. Before Ender could answer, the door opened. Ender had been expecting more of his soldiers. Instead it was Major Anderson. And behind him came Colonel Graff.
"Ender Wiggin," said Graff.
Ender got to his feet. "Yes sir."
"Your display of temper in the battleroom today was insubordinate and is not to be repeated."
"Yes sir," said Ender.
Bean was still feeling insubordinate, and he didn"t think Ender deserved the rebuke. "I think it was about time somebody told a teacher how we felt about what you"ve been doing."
The adults ignored him. Anderson handed Ender a sheet of paper. A full-sized sheet. Not one of the little slips of paper that served for internal orders within the Battle School; it was a full-fledged set of orders. Bean knew what it meant. Ender was being transferred out of the school.
"Graduated?" asked Bean. Ender nodded. "What took them so long? You"re only two or three years early. You"ve already learned how to walk and talk and dress yourself. What will they have left to teach you?"
Ender shook his head, "All I know is, the game"s over." He folded up the paper. "None too soon. Can I tell my army?"
"There isn"t time," said Graff. "Your shuttle leaves in twenty minutes. Besides, it"s better not to talk to them after you get your orders. It makes it easier."
"For them or for you?" Ender asked. He didn"t wait for an answer. He turned quickly to Bean, took his hand for a moment, and then headed for the door.
"Wait," said Bean. "Where are you going? Tactical? Navigational? Support?"
"Command School," Ender answered.
"Pre-command?"
"Command," said Ender, and then he was out the door, Anderson followed him closely. Bean grabbed Colonel Graff by the sleeve. "n.o.body goes to Command School until they"re sixteen!"