Since I knew he was going abroad for further study, Gu Wei was very indulgent of me. Specifically, he had no problem with me turning into a koala and lying on his back all day.
I do.
I can"t give up.
However, I fully understand the important principle.
So, I continued to lie calmly on his back.
In the following days, I went to work normally, and in my spare time, I prepared the Doctor"s luggage bit by bit looking at the list.
On the evening of the 29th, Gu Wei sat on the sofa and watched me count his luggage for the last time. Tomorrow his luggage will be checked in, in advance.
I closed the lid, dialed the lock-code, and sat on the suitcase in a daze. The Doctor came and sat down on the carpet next to me and handed over a pocket-sized letter: “This is for you.”
I picked it up, opened it, and fell speechless in an instant.
It"s full of precautions, contact numbers of all family and friends, car annual review time, house decoration progress. Even a list of the expert clinics for Teacher Lin on which day of the week.
“I put the water and electricity bill on my payroll. This is the key to my parents" house and Grandpa"s house. ” The Doctor removed the keys from the key chain and strung them into my key chain one by one.
How can I let you go like this!?
On the 30th, I went home with the doctor. The Doctor"s father was still very calm and told him some matters needing attention, but the Doctor"s mother turned her eyes around us, and hesitated to speak.
In the afternoon, the whole family took a nap. I lay in Gu Wei"s arms and crouched on the big recliner on the balcony. With the suns.h.i.+ne at the end of summer, I listened to the Doctor recount all of our story.
“… I didn"t know how to talk to you at that time…”
“… Ah, I thought of several ways to trick you out, but in the end, I didn"t use it…”
“You don"t know you get slow sometimes… There"s nothing I could do… ”
“…Teacher Lin threatened me very seriously. He told me what would happen to me…”
“… I was thinking what I should do, if you sign in Z city or sign back to Y city …”
I listened quietly to him telling me one by one. Many things now seem to be beautiful and interesting, and only the parties who have come all the way can appreciate the anxiety, unease, entanglement, and apprehension at that time. I am extremely grateful that my life changed from dark and unexpected to happiness, in the year when Teacher Lin was ill. I met such a person who gave me trust and let me rely on him. Happiness sometimes has nothing to do with how many promises that have been made, what we have done together, or even the so-called ‘as long as you want, as long as I have". The most primitive meaning of happiness is companions.h.i.+p, that is, knowing that there is a person in your life who will be there all the time, and won"t leave.
(TNote: ‘As long as you want, as long as I have" = As long as it is what you want, then as long as I have such a thing or ability, I will do it for you. A known quote from Xu Zhimo"s poetry.)
What impressed me the most about Gu Wei was his att.i.tude towards the relations.h.i.+p from beginning to end, cleanliness, honesty, respect, and integrity. I knew for a long time that Gu Wei"s family was looking forward to him getting married soon, but he never exposed me to these pressures. How many 30-something year old men try their best to turn to the Civil Affairs Bureau when they meet a girl. He has many reasons to go straight to wedding hall with me, but he still chooses to fall in love step by step and manage a complete relations.h.i.+p well.
One of my seniors, a 30-year-old female doctor, met her husband under the introduction of her family. She was 4 years older and it was a good match. She got a license in less than four months. On the wedding day in the hotel dressing room, she said to me: “Women, marriage and family are a lot of pressure. So, find someone a similar. Don"t bother to fuss about it, in fact, two people living together is actually much easier than falling in love.” I heard that they got along very harmoniously after marriage. I saw her last month. She was 30 weeks pregnant. She was walking in the park with her husband, with the unique tenderness and calmness of being a mother on her face. I have no right to judge whether this is love, but at least it is family affection. Enough to support their happy life.
Gu Wei said: “If you get married for the sake of getting married. I"m afraid you"ll regret it later. ”
Looking back, Gu Wei, and I were pure from beginning to present. Although no one can guarantee that a marriage that comes from love will be smooth, a complete and beautiful love has taught me to be kind to the person who treats you well in love.
I changed my posture in Gu Wei"s arms: “When I was in high school, I wrote a diary, the content of which I don"t remember, but I remember the comments given by my Chinese teacher at that time: Some people fall in love with someone for a life time, and others marry them.”
Gu Wei was silent.
“Alas, I am the same, looks like I"ve lost."
Gu Wei: “There is something wrong with your algorithm…”
I smiled and kissed him, Gu Wei, thank you. Thank you for your patience and giving me a complete and beautiful love.
Gu Wei caresses my hair, I feel so comfortable that I can snore, and I think it"s good to be able to stay like this until we get old.
“Gu Wei.”
“Hmm?”
“When you leave, there will be no one to bask in the sun with me. ”
“Xiao Xiao—”
“Hmm?"
“Let"s have a formal meal with the parents and elders of both sides.”
I lifted myself out of his arms. He raised his hand and touched my face: “I could go with peace of mind. ”
The legendary engagement? I froze: “Oh, yes.”
Gu Wei never procrastinates. He mentioned it to his parents in the evening, and the whole family agreed, and then contacted my parents in Y City and a group of relatives in X City.
Just after the National Day holiday, my cousin"s family in X City was very excited: “This kind of good thing can happen. In June, ask my aunt withdraw her previous remarks. ”
I"m embarra.s.sed…
On the 1st, Gu Wei drove me back to Y City to officially meet my parents and grandparents as a son-in-law.
On the 2nd, we return to X City. That night, three tables were full of relatives. (I can"t believe there are so many people are our third-degree relatives.)
I was surprised that so many people were not unfamiliar with each other. Six old people discussed health care, my cousin exchanged parenting experiences with her sister-in-law, and my mother communicated with the Doctor"s mother about the route of self-driving travel after retirement. It"s very lively.
Since we are engaged, we naturally want to drink, and when more people are happy, we naturally have to drink more. The Doctor has to board the plane the next day, so he naturally couldn"t drink too much, so I… was drunk.
Completely drunk.
On the way back, I was nestled in the Doctor"s arms with the tip of my nose against his chest: “I never told you that your school was the first choice for my college entrance examination. If I had one more score, you would be my senior alumni. ”
The Doctor"s voice was deep and gentle: “It doesn"t matter. ”
I suddenly felt some entanglement: “but if we met early, we could be together as early as possible. ”
The Doctor kissed me on the forehead: “This is good now. ”
“Where is it good?”
“Everywhere is good. Going back to that time— nothing is certain. ”
“Hmm?”
“What if we didn"t meet? What if you missed it? How good it is now that you are already here with me…? ”
“Yeah. That"s right. ” I fell asleep with his waist in my arms, and then I couldn"t remember clearly.
On October 3, 2012, Gu Wei flew to Berlin.
Special Dialog
(That night. Who gave me a bath?)
Doctor: (…)