Xiao Cao and I met silently, he revised his report, and I…. my mind wandering, holding a paper to be defended soon.
Pa.s.ser-by A went back to school to eat and drink at the weekend. I leisurely took this abnormal psychology, which has nothing to do with my major, and sat beside Xiao Cao, he was staring at his girlfriend like there was no one else. Pa.s.ser-by B flipped through the binding magazine sleepily (he was dragged by pa.s.ser-by A to help with Xiao Cao"s report).
My eyes drifted to the bookshelf, out of the window, and to the pile of drafts between me and Xiao Cao. I was so uneasy that even the rough pa.s.ser-by could see, “Oh, which man made you so sad?”
I think people who have been with pa.s.sers-by for a long time are all getting tainted black…
From time to time, I glanced at the dark mobile phone screen, feeling uneasy. I have been depressed several times in the past five months. Why did I have to get engaged the night before the Doctor left? Good time is wasted on toasting and drinking. Can"t anyone understand that the two people who are going to separate places need some time to get along alone and talk to each other?! The next day I got out of bed with a heavy-head, and the Doctor had left. How could I bear it? (San San: who is to blame for the amount of wine you poured in your own gla.s.s?)
When the Doctor came back, it was not my turn to pick him up at the airport. The hospital took them back to a meeting to hand over doc.u.ments and so on. Do you still have some compa.s.sion? >_
“Ah Xiao, you can go back first.” Xiao Cao"s voice sounded weakly. “Really, I feel guilty now.”
When I touch my face, women with ferocious hearts always look horrible: “It"s all right.” As a matter of fact, waiting alone in the apartment, made me feel even more uneasy…
When it was getting dark and the Doctor"s picture flashed on the screen of my phone, pa.s.ser-by A was the first to jump up from his seat: “d.a.m.n it, d.a.m.n it! Are you aiming for the n.o.bel Prize or something? I"m starving. I"m going to eat!” Then, the three swept up the doc.u.ments on the empty table like the wind and went away.
I tried to slow down to the school gate and found that I could not hear anything in my ears but the sound of my heartbeat. I don"t know if you"ve ever felt this way. You seem to be racking your brains to think about a problem, only to find that you don"t even have a question in your head, let alone an answer.
When the Doctor"s car was parked in front of me, I opened the door mechanically, sat down, took a deep breath, turned my head– and turned back– Maybe German food was better, why did I feel that the guy was even more handsome.
The Doctor leaned over to fasten my seat belt and said, “Don"t you recognize me?”
I raised my hand and said, “you– let me calm down.” There was a sense of surrealism. After looking at the layout of the car, it was really not suitable to do any unusual movements, so I looked ahead and pretended to be calm: “What are your arrangements for the evening?”
The Doctor looked at me and said, “go to my parents first. I just called and dinner is ready.”
I held my forehead and closed my eyes: “You drive first."
After entering the door, giving gifts, eating, and taking a nap, the doctor"s mother said, “Xiao Xiao"s Old man and mother spoke on the phone two days ago and said we should start to choose a good day together.” I quickly regained my soul after staring at the Doctor"s hand.
In the face of the expectant Doctor"s mother, I was shy, embarra.s.sed, surprised and speechless. In fact, I felt that I was engaged only yesterday.
The doctor"s father asked: “What are your own plans?”
The Doctor looked at me and smiled and said: “I"m always ready.”
As soon as he got back, I suddenly realized my little heart couldn"t stand it… >_
The Doctor turned to his mother: “Wait till Xiao Xiao finishes her defense and gets her degree.”
The doctor"s father: “By the way, does Xiao Xiao have any plans to study for a PhD?”
The doctor"s mother said hurriedly: “You can get married first, before you study for a doctorate.”
All I could do is nod, nod, and nod again.
After dinner, the old couple went out for a walk. I stood by the coffee table and watched the silhouette of the Doctor watering the flowers on the balcony. The fact that he came back still makes me feel that I couldn"t calm down.
The doctor turned and looked at me: “Don"t you want to see your present?”
There was a square box on his nightstand, and I opened the lid— stones, all kinds of stones, different colors, different shapes, different kinds, from sealed specimens to volcanic rocks that were very smooth.
“Some are bought, some are given by colleagues, and some are picked up by me."
What I had been holding in my heart for a long time finally came out of my eyes. I pouted my mouth and shouted “Gu Wei–“, hugging his waist and cried. “Six months, why did you study for so long?”
Gu Wei hugged me and smiled: “I also told Zhang Wei that you were too calm."
“I can"t be unreasonable!”
I rubbed his face with tears and snot. After a while, I caught a glimpse of the wooden box, and continued to cry fiercely. Gu Wei was always patient and just hugs me while he didn"t speak. I don"t know how long I cried. I just knew that by the time I calmed down, the doctor"s parents had come back.
In order to protect my image, the Doctor pushed me directly to the bathroom and he left the room: “Comrade w.a.n.g Baochuan, go and take a bath.”
(TNote: w.a.n.g Baochuan= a character in ancient legends, a wife that waited for her husband for 18 years.)
I have always felt that there is a strange perception exchange between Gu Wei and me. For example, when I couldn"t sleep after adjusting my posture in bed for half a day, I got out of bed and opened the door by accident. He was less than two meters away from me outside the door.
I looked up and there was darkness all around. There was only the faint light of the street lamp outside, but I could see his eyes, eyebrows, smooth skin, and the faint smile on his face. My heart seemed to melt into an unrealistic fog. When he opened his hands and wrapped me, and the fog gradually dissipated.
Gu Wei took me into his bedroom, where the telescope that I had held up and down many times during the day had been installed at the bedside. I sat on the edge of the bed and looked up.
Full of stars.
I gave a long sigh.
The Doctor wrapped us in a quilt: “Why are you sighing?”
“In the past, I always looked at the slides shown by my teacher; But this time, when I"m really looking at it by myself, I found that I couldn"t recognize a single constellation.”
The doctor chuckled, “how did you know I was outside the door?”
Because I could smell you? I instantly thought of myself as a black cat sniffing around the tip of my nose, and replied firmly: “There is a connection between our hearts. ”