Chapter 330: A Fox Girl Desperate For Attention
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Benladann and Drake felt as if this all was wrong. How was it possible for her to suddenly act so humbly and childish? She had acted very arrogantly before, and was also very demonic in nature as if she saw them all as mere items. She was domineering even, but now… what was she but a kid desperate for some attention?
"So strange, it feels as if she"s a completely different person." Said Benladann.
"We can"t really trust a person whose personality changes too drastically like this, you know, Belle? Why are you acting so different out of the sudden?" asked Drake.
"First of all… I am not even really Belle… I am a clone of her made out of her consciousness…!" said the fox girl.
"I do remember you saying something like that, but that technically still makes you part of her." Said Drake.
"But I am not her! I… You know how horrendous is to be confined on dreams for an eternity?! I"ve been alone for so long, there are no inhabitants in this world, and in other dreams, I can only stay very momentarily, the people there only fear me when they see me, and my very presence devours dreams. The monsters that roam that place also fear me and run away… I"ve been in desolation for thousands- no, probably millions of years since my creation! Even with the strong mind and will of the Venerable, I was made of, at the end of the day, I don"t have her spirit nor her true soul. I am but a husk of my former self… no, she wasn"t even my former self. I am just… a bad copy." Sighed the fox girl.
"What? You… you"re not her? So… something else? A husk?" asked Drake.
"Lacking her spirit and soul…" muttered Benladann.
The fox girl in front of them was indeed not the actual Venerable, of course. She was someone different at the end of the day, and now that she had gone through many years of desolation, she ended even more differently and warped from the former consciousness she possessed.
At some point, she was cold and calculative, but childish behaviors resurged, and she ended falling more and more into the insanity of staying here in complete loneliness.
And unlike other living beings, she could not find relaxation or meditation in sleeping, as she was a dream clone, she couldn"t sleep as she was already part of dreams themselves.
So she could only deal with her own existence for eternity, eternally waiting for someone to come here and do something.
Of course, this wasn"t the case for every Will of a Venerable. This was because this one in specific was given a body and also various humane senses. Wills often is just a copy of the creator"s consciousness. They don"t have any flesh, nor s.e.xual desire, nor they feel lonely, nor they suddenly feel like they want to eat tasty food, nor do they feel bored as they can simply stay still like computers.
But this one was made way too realistic by error (maybe) of the Venerable and ended having all the problems that a normal person would face in eternal imprisonment, instead of having been made as an A.I. without a mortal"s weaknesses that could patiently wait and never feel tired nor desiring anything else, this Will ended being given all of these difficulties, which never ceased, never!
Due to this, she went through an eternal torment of the insufferable feeling of loneliness within her life here. n.o.body ever came, the ones talented for dream magic were so rare it was impossible for someone to ever find this inheritance. She began to feel like the hopes for her creator to one day find an inheritor of her powers was futile and for naught!
It felt as if she was made just to make her laugh, just for her creator"s own selfish fulfilments of seeing her suffer… despite having her mind, emotions, past, traumas, and willpower, all of this ended being nothing before the insufferable prison of eternity, as she fragmented into desperation.
She didn"t know how long it would take for her to change into something that could not feel anything, perhaps it would never happen because, unlike fleshy bodies, she was made of unchangeable and a non-adaptive dream body.
A human"s brain could slowly change over time and become dull through loneliness and endless desolation, but her own didn"t change, her mind remained unchanged, and still, no matter how long it pa.s.sed, she didn"t change and merely became more and more desperate. Perhaps she did change, but she changed into a personality of endless boredom and desperation for anything to ever happen.
When she met Drake for the first time she could barely gold into her excitement as she saw the handsome man emerge in her inheritance, but she knew she had to play by the script and acted as how her creator wanted, but after messing it up with Benladann when she desired to capture her so she could fulfill the main body"s desire of escaping this planet through the power of dominating the Chaos Element, which was present in Benladann, she realized she had completely lost the opportunity to be with perhaps the only two people compatible with her inheritance to have ever been born in the world, and she would have to wait perhaps another eternity for something to ever happen!
It was truly a horrendous way of living, and one which she didn"t want, one which she didn"t want at all! It was filled with desperation, without any adaptation but only endless desperation and frustrations… she could do nothing other than sorrowfully sob at the two, asking for them to not leave her alone. She had accepted her true self as someone independent from her main body, as someone of her own that despite wanting to fulfill her creator"s orders, was also as selfish as her creator and wanted to be happy herself, even if a little bit.
"So please… don"t leave!"
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