Chapter 361: A Curious Topic To Talk About
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Today in the morning Belle went to the dreams as I had told her to do. She was going to essentially do a series of things. First of all, she was going to try and find clues about what had happened through the dreams of the people, second, she was going to spy in the memories of some of the weaker-willed members of the three sects, and third, she was going to see what darkness lied farther from here. The Dark Shadow Sect was filled with mysteries we had to meticulously crack.
We couldn"t possibly take this easily, and we had to be as careful as possible, it wasn"t a bad idea to be cautious even as strong as I was, that"s mostly because I had a bad feeling about this entire thing, I felt like forces greater than our own understanding were taking place in this dispute, forces that we couldn"t possibly discern yet and we had to quickly gather more info about them before doing anything else. As the cautious man that I"ve always have been, I cannot lower my own guard, nor I will do it purposedly.
Call me whatever you want but I don"t really care. For now, I shall go and see what I can do regarding this entire situation, let"s see how far we can get by scouting the places and everything else, I don"t think it would be too bad, right? I hope so.
But… there"s something on me telling me this is dangerous. This Dark Shadow, even for former bandits and the like, they"re doing things that seem way too strange and striking. It feels as if they were being manipulated by forces beyond our current scope, forces we couldn"t possibly take on completely.
I am concerned about what they could possibly mean for us and our future, one wrong step and we might find ourselves stepping into a landmine with many dangers asunder. I don"t want that, this is why scouting is the way to go.
And… after Belle went away, there was a little event regarding our beloved little Miranda. I think I was a bit too rash there, honestly, but those cute lips were tentative to not kiss, and I wanted to get back on Benladann after kissing her first.
However, now I realized that I wasn"t thinking clearly back then and that what I did was quite rash. I shouldn"t have thought that way, I don"t have any romantic relationship with Miranda… yet. Due to that, it could very well be some sort of s.e.xual a.s.sault, and maybe she got angry at me could even call me a perverted rapist later, which would suck.
I really need to apologize; I don"t want her to think I am a huge degenerate that just kisses people because it wants to. I should try to get into her good side. I want her to be my friend and perhaps something else in the future, if Benladann allows it may be, and quite technically, she is Benladann"s other half even having the same soul, so it wouldn"t count as having another girl but just… being with both personalities of the same wife? Uhh… a weird thing to think about, I guess it"s better to see them as twins or something, if you take one, the other must also come with you.
I haven"t thought about having anyone else than Benladann, but Miranda feels like she"s just another Benladann to me, another part of my beloved wife, so I just wanted to see if I could develop some relationship with her. Benladann seems to also love her romantically and fraternally openly, so we could both love her and become her husband and wife- Ah, I should stop projecting so much into the future, it only makes me imagine weird scenarios.
…Though I didn"t know Benladann was into girls, perhaps she isn"t, but Miranda is way too cute. I understand that, and we got the same feelings for her in that regard!
However, we talked this out at breakfast, and she agreed I should apologize, with her at my side.
"Indeed, we should apologize, not only you but for me too… Maybe I"ve been playing with her feelings without realizing it. We should start a new relationship if we… really want to take it that far. I do love her and… you do too, right?" she asked.
"I do… I think I do. I sometimes see her as another part of you, the part that was corrupted by the Mold but that now is developing into a completely different person, yet it still you, isn"t she?" I asked.
"…Technically, yes. She"s me. But at the same time, I see her as a sister and as someone apart… I guess having the same soul technically makes her the same being as me. Even if we are technically different in every way possible… Hahh… T-This is a bit complicated, but I am glad you"re open-minded, but I don"t want to take it far without you at my side, I would feel like I would be cheating on you if I had Miranda all for me, we have to love her equally…" said Benladann.
"You"ve thought about this a lot, haven"t you? I do believe the concept of multiple love partners to seem unrealistic in most cases, but no matter how much I think about this, I can"t seem to find it unrealistic in this setting as of now, Miranda is simply way too much of a unique case." I said.
"Indeed, isn"t she? I am not really into anyone else… you"re my most beloved treasure, after all, Drake… But Miranda is also the other little treasure that I had begun to value more as time went on. I am glad you"ve begun to also value her as your own." Sighed Benladann, as she smiled sweetly.
"Y-Yeah… Now that I realize I"ve had s.e.x with her every time we did it too, it means that things should be way different… I feel like I need to take responsibility." I said.
"Fufu, you have to! Miranda is actually deeply in love with you! She"s always thinking about you-"
"W-What are you two dorks talking about now?!"
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