"Doctor, will you forgive all the past?"
And Dr. Van Anden answered: "Oh, my brother in Christ!"
As for Ester, she prayed, in her clothes-press, thankfully for Dr.
Dougla.s.s, more hopefully for Sadie, and knew not that a corner of the poor little letter which had slipped from Julia"s hand and floated down the stream one summer morning, thereby causing her such a miserable, _miserable_ day, was lying at that moment in Dr. Dougla.s.s"
note-book, counted as the most precious of all his precious bits of paper. Verily "His ways are not as our ways."
CHAPTER XXV.
SADIE SURROUNDED.
"Oh," said Sadie, with a merry toss of her brown curls, "_don"t_ waste any more precious breath over me, I beg. I"m an unfortunate case, not worth struggling for. Just let me have a few hours of peace once more.
If you"ll promise not to say "meeting" again to me, I"ll promise not to laugh at you once after this long drawn-out spasm of goodness has quieted, and you have each descended to your usual level once more."
"Sadie," said Ester, in a low, shocked tone, "_do_ you think we are all hypocrites, and mean not a bit of this?"
"By _no_ means, my dear sister of charity, at least not all of you.
I"m a firm believer in diseases of all sorts. This is one of the violent kind of highly contagious diseases; they must run their course, you know. I have not lived in the house with two learned physicians all this time without learning that fact, but I consider this very nearly at its height, and live in hourly expectation of the "turn." But, my dear, I don"t think you need worry about me in the least. I don"t believe I"m a fit subject for such trouble. You know I never took whooping-cough nor measles, though I have been exposed a great many times."
To this Ester only replied by a low, tremulous, "Don"t, Sadie, please."
Sadie turned a pair of mirthful eyes upon her for a moment, and noting with wonder the pale, anxious face and quivering lip of her sister, seemed suddenly sobered.
"Ester," she said quietly, "I don"t think you are "playing good;" I _don"t_ positively. I believe you are thoroughly in earnest, but I think you have been through some very severe scenes of late, sickness and watching, and death, and your nerves are completely unstrung. I don"t wonder at your state of feeling, but you will get over it in a little while, and be yourself again."
"Oh," said Ester, tremulously, "I pray G.o.d I may _never_ be myself again; not the old self that you mean."
"You will," Sadie answered, with roguish positiveness. "Things will go cross-wise, the fire won"t burn, and the kettle won"t boil, and the milk-pitcher will tip over, and all sorts of mischievous things will go on happening after a little bit, just as usual, and you will feel like having a general smash up of every thing in spite of all these meetings."
Ester sighed heavily. The old difficulty again--things would not be undone. The weeds which she had been carelessly sowing during all these past years had taken deep root, and would not give place. After a moment"s silence she spoke again.
"Sadie, answer me just one question. What do you think of Dr.
Dougla.s.s?"
Sadie"s face darkened ominously. "Never mind what I think of _him_,"
she answered in short, sharp tones, and abruptly left the room.
What she _did_ think of him was this: That he had become that which he had affected to consider the most despicable thing on earth--a hypocrite. Remember, she had no personal knowledge of the power of the Spirit of G.o.d over a human soul. She had no conception of how so mighty a change could be wrought in the s.p.a.ce of a few hours, so her only solution of the mystery was that to serve some end which he had in view Dr. Dougla.s.s had chosen to a.s.sume a new character.
Later, on that same day, Sadie encountered Dr. Dougla.s.s, rather, she went to the side piazza equipped for a walk, and he came eagerly from the west end to speak with her.
"Miss Sadie, I have been watching for you. I have a few words that are burning to be said."
"Proceed," said Sadie, standing with demurely folded hands, and a mock gravity in her roguish eyes.
"I want to do justice at this late day to Dr. Van Anden. I misjudged him, wronged him, perhaps prejudiced you against him. I want to undo my work."
"Some things can be done more easily than they can be undone," was Sadie"s grave and dignified reply. "You certainly have done your best to prejudice me against Dr. Van Anden not only, but against all other persons who hold his peculiar views, and you have succeeded splendidly. I congratulate you."
That look of absolute pain which she had seen once or twice on this man"s face, swept over it now as he answered her.
"I know--I have been blind and stupid, _wicked_ any thing you will.
Most bitterly do I regret it now; most eager am I to make reparation."
Sadie"s only answer was: "What a capital actor you would make, Dr.
Dougla.s.s. Are you sure you have not mistaken your vocation?"
"I know what you think of me." This with an almost quivering lip, and a voice strangely humble and as unlike as possible to any which she had ever heard from Dr. Dougla.s.s before. "You think I am playing a part. Though what my motive could be I can not imagine, can you? But I do solemnly a.s.sure you that if ever I was sincere in any thing in all my life I am now concerning this matter."
"There is a most unfortunate "if" in the way, Doctor. You see, the trouble is, I have very serious doubts as to whether you ever were sincere in any thing in your life. As to motives, a first-cla.s.s anybody likes to try his power. You will observe that "I have a very poor opinion of the world.""
The Doctor did not notice the quotation of his favorite expression, but answered with a touch of his accustomed dignity:
"I may have deserved this treatment at your hands, Miss Sadie.
Doubtless I have, although I am not conscious of ever having said to you any thing which I did not _think_ I _meant_. I have been a _fool_.
I am willing--yes, and anxious to own it. But there are surely some among your acquaintances whom you can trust if you can not me. I--"
Sadie interrupted him. "For instance, that "first-cla.s.s fanatic of the most objectionable stamp," the man who Dr. Dougla.s.s thought, not three days ago, ought to be bound by law to keep the peace. I suppose you would have me unhesitatingly receive every word he says?"
Dr. Dougla.s.s" face brightened instantly, and he spoke eagerly:
"I remember those words, Miss Sadie, and just how honestly I spoke them, and just how bitterly I felt when I spoke them, and I have no more sure proof that this thing is of G.o.d than I have in noting the wonderful change which has come over my feelings in regard to that blessed man. I pray G.o.d that he may be permitted to speak to your soul with the tremendous power that he has to mine. Oh, Sadie, I have led you astray, may I not help you back?"
"I am not a weather-vane, Dr. Dougla.s.s, to be whirled about by every wind of expediency; besides I am familiar with one verse in the Bible, of which you seem never to have heard: Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. You have sowed well and faithfully; be content with your harvest."
I do not know what the pale, grave lips would have answered to this mocking spirit, for at that moment Dr. Van Anden and the black ponies whizzed around the corner, and halted before the gate.
"Sadie," said the doctor, "are you in the mood for a ride? I have five miles to drive."
"Dr. Van Anden," answered Sadie, promptly, "the last time you and I took a ride together we quarreled."
"Precisely," said the Doctor, bowing low. "Let us take another now and make up."
"Very well," was the gleeful answer which he received, and in another minute they were off.
For the first mile or two he kept a tight rein, and let the ponies skim over the ground in the liveliest fashion, during which time very little talking was done. After that he slackened his speed, and leaning back in the carriage addressed himself to Sadie:
"Now we are ready to make up."
"How shall we commence?" asked Sadie, gravely.
"Who quarreled?" answered the Doctor, sententiously.
"Well," said Sadie, "I understand what you are waiting for. You think I was very rude and unladylike in my replies to you during that last interesting ride we took. You think I jumped at unwarrantable conclusions, and used some unnecessarily sharp words. I think so myself, and if it will be of any service to you to know it, I don"t mind telling you in the least."