"Oh, I am all right," I returned, carelessly, for what did it matter how I looked, now Carrie was better? "Dear Ruth," I whispered, as she still stood beside me, "I can think of nothing but the pleasure of being with you again."
"I hope you mean to include me in that last speech," said a voice behind me; and there was Mr. Lucas standing laughing at us. He had come through the curtained doorway unheard, and I rose in some little confusion to shake hands.
To my surprise, he echoed Miss Ruth"s speech; but then he had not seen me for three months. I had been through so much since we last met.
"What have they been doing to you, my poor child?" Those were actually his words, and his eyes rested on my face with quite a grieved, pitying expression.
"Allan told me I was rather unsubstantial-looking," I returned, trying to speak lightly; but somehow the tears came to my eyes. "I was so tired before he came home, but now I am getting rested."
"I wonder at Dr. Cameron letting a child like you work so hard," he retorted, quite abruptly. He had called me child twice, and I was eighteen and a half, and feeling so old--so old. I fancy Ruth saw my lip quiver, for she hastily interposed:
"Let her sit down, Giles, and I will give her some tea. She looks as cold as a little starved robin."
And after that no one spoke again of my altered looks. It troubled me for a few minutes, and then it pa.s.sed out of my mind.
After all, it could not be helped if I were a little thin and worn.
The strain of those three months had been terrible; the daily spectacle of physical suffering before my eyes, the wakeful nights, the long monotonous days, and then the shock of knowing that Carrie must be a cripple, had all been too much for me.
We talked about it presently, while Flurry sat like a mouse at my feet, turning over the pages of a new book of fairy tales. The kind sympathy they both showed me broke down the barrier of my girlish reserve, and I found comfort in speaking of the dreary past. I did not mind Mr. Lucas in the least: he showed such evident interest in all I told them. After dinner he joined us again in the drawing-room, instead of going as usual for a short time to his study.
"When are you coming back to stay with us?" he asked, suddenly, as he stirred the logs until they emitted a shower of sparks.
"Yes," echoed his sister, "Carrie is so much better now that we think it is high time for you to resume your duties; poor Flurry has been neglected enough."
My answer was simply to look at them both; the idea of renewing work had never occurred to me; how could Carrie spare me? And yet ought I not to do my part all the more, now she was laid by? For a moment the sense of conflicting duties oppressed me.
"Please do not look pale over it," observed Mr. Lucas, kindly; "but you do not mean, I suppose, to be always chained to your sister"s couch? That will do neither of you any good."
"Oh, no, I must work, of course," I returned, breathlessly. "Carrie will not be able to do anything, so it is the more necessary for me, but not yet--not until we have her downstairs."
"Then we will give you three weeks" grace," observed Mr. Lucas, coolly. "It is as you say, with your usual good sense, absolutely necessary that one of you should work; and as Flurry has been without a governess long enough, we shall expect you to resume your duties in three weeks" time."
I was a little perplexed by this speech, it was so dignified and peremptory; but looking up I could see a little smile breaking out at the corner of his mouth. Ruth too seemed amused.
"Very well," I returned in the same voice; "I must be punctual, or I shall expect my dismissal."
"Of course you must be punctual," he retorted; and the subject dropped, but I perceived he was in earnest under his jesting way.
Flurry"s governess was wanted back, that was clear.
As for me, the mere notion of resuming my daily work at the Cedars was almost too delightful to contemplate. I had an odd idea, that missing them all had something to do with my sober feelings. I felt it when I went up to kiss Flurry in her little bed; the darling child was lying awake for me.
She made me lie down on the bed beside her, and hugged me close with her warm arms, and her hair fell over my face like a veil, and then prattled to me about Santa Claus and the wonderful gifts she expected.
"Will Santa Claus bring you anything, Esther?"
"Not much, I fear," was my amused answer. We were rather a gift-loving family, and at Combe Manor our delight had been to load the breakfast table on Christmas day with presents for every member of the family, including servants; but of course now our resources were limited, and I expected few presents; but in my spare time I had contrived a few surprises in the shape of work. A set of embroidered baby linen for Flurry"s best doll, dainty enough for a fairy baby; a white fleecy shawl for mother, and another for Carrie, and a chair-back for Ruth; she was fond of pretty things, but I certainly did not look for much in return.
Allan had brought me that pretty dress from London, and another for Carrie, and he had not Fortunatus" purse, poor fellow!
"I have got a present for you," whispered Flurry, and I could imagine how round and eager her eyes were; I think with a little encouragement she would have told me what it was; but I a.s.sured her that I should enjoy the surprise.
"It won"t keep you awake trying to guess, will it?" she asked, anxiously; and when I said no, she seemed a little disappointed.
"Dot has got one too," she observed, presently; but I knew all about that. Dot was laboriously filling an alb.u.m with his choicest works of art. His fingers were always stained with paint or Indian ink at meal times, and if I unexpectedly entered the room, I could see a square-shaped book being smuggled away under the tablecloth.
I think these sudden rushes were rather against the general finish of the pictures, causing in some places an unsightly smudge or a blotchy appearance. In one page the Tower of Babel was disfigured by this very injudicious haste, and the bricks and the builders were wholly indistinguishable for a sad blotch of ochre; still, the t.i.tle page made up for all such defects: "To my dear sister, Esther, from her affectionate little brother, Frankie."
"Aunt Ruth has one, too," continued Flurry; but at this point I thought it better to say good-night. As it was, I found Allan had been waiting for me nearly half-an-hour, and pretended to growl at me for my dawdling, though in reality he was thoroughly enjoying his talk with Ruth.
Carrie was awake when I entered the room; she was lying watching the fire. She welcomed me with her sweetest smile, and though I fancied her cheek was wet as I kissed it, her voice was very tranquil.
"Have you had a pleasant evening, Esther?"
"Very pleasant. Have you missed me very much, darling?"
"I always miss you," she replied, gently; "but Allan has done his best to make the time pa.s.s quickly. And then dear mother was so good; she has been sitting with me ever so long; we have had such a nice talk. Somehow I begin to feel as if I had never known what mother was before."
I knew Carrie wanted to tell me all about it, but I pretended I was tired, and that it was time to be asleep. So she said no more; she was submissive to us even in trifles now; and very soon I heard the sound of her soft, regular breathing.
As for me, I laid wide awake for hours; my evening had excited me.
The thought of resuming my happy duties at the Cedars pleased and exhilarated me. How kind and thoughtful they had been for my comfort, how warmly I had been welcomed!
I fell to sleep at last, and dreamed that Santa Claus had brought me a mysterious present. The wrappers were so many that Deborah woke me before I reached the final. I remember I had quite a childish feeling of disappointment when my pleasant dream was broken.
What a Christmas morning that was! Outside the trees were bending with h.o.a.r frost, a scanty whiteness lay on the lawn, and the soft mysterious light of coming snow seemed to envelope everything. Inside the fire burned ruddily, and Carrie lay smiling upon her pillows, with a little parcel in her outstretched hands. I thought of my unfinished dream, and told it to her as I unfolded the silver paper that wrapped the little box.
"Oh, Carrie!" I exclaimed, for there was her little amethyst cross and beautiful filagree chain; that had been father"s gift to her, the prettiest ornament she possessed, and that had been my secret admiration for years.
"I want you to have it," she said, smiling, well pleased at my astonished face. "I can never wear it again, Esther; the world and I have parted company. I shall like to see you in it. I wish it were twice as good; I wish it were of priceless value, for nothing is too good for my dear little sister."
I was very near crying over the little box, and Carrie was praising the thickness and beauty of her shawl, when in came Dot, with his sc.r.a.p-book under his arm, and Jack, with a wonderful pen-wiper she had concocted, with a cat and kitten she had marvelously executed in gray cloth.
Nor was this all. Downstairs a perfect array of parcels was grouped round my plate. There was a book from Allan, and a beautiful little traveling desk from Uncle Geoffrey. Mother had been searching in her jewel case, and had produced a pearl-ring, which she presented to me with many kisses.
But the greatest surprise of all was still in store for me. Flurry"s gift proved to be a very pretty little photograph of herself and Flossy, set in a velvet frame. Ruth"s was an ivory prayer-book: but beside it lay a little parcel, directed in Mr. Lucas" handwriting, and a note inside begging me to accept a slight tribute of his grat.i.tude. I opened it with a trembling hand, and there was an exquisite little watch, with a short gold chain attached to it--a perfect little beauty, as even Allan declared it to be.
I was only eighteen, and I suppose most girls would understand my rapture at the sight. Until now a silver watch with a plain black guard had been my only possession; this I presented to Jack on the spot, and was in consequence nearly hugged to death.
"How kind, how kind!" was all I could say; and mother seemed nearly as pleased as I was. As for Uncle Geoffrey and Allan, they took it in an offhand and masculine fashion.
"Very proper, very prettily done," remarked Uncle Geoffrey, approvingly. "You see he has reason to be grateful to you, my dear, and Mr. Lucas is just the man to acknowledge it in the most fitting way."
"I always said he was a brick," was Allan"s unceremonious retort.
"It is no more than he ought to have done, for your pluckiness saved Flurry." But to their surprise I turned on them with hot cheeks.
"I have done nothing, it is all their kindness and goodness to me: it is far too generous. How ever shall I thank him?" And then I s.n.a.t.c.hed up my treasure, and ran upstairs to show it to Carrie; and I do not think there was a happier girl that Christmas morning than Esther Cameron.
The one drawback to my pleasure was--how I was to thank Mr. Lucas?
But I was spared this embarra.s.sment, for he and Flurry waited after service in the porch for us, and walked down High street.