Chapter 81 - I Missed You
As she thought, she does not like the idea of Yuhi being in a fake relations.h.i.+p with anybody. Even though it is not a proper relations.h.i.+p, it is still weird. Her man is her man, she won"t allow anybody to claim him. Yuhi seems very troubled by this matter but the situation is actually quite simple. All they have to do is destroy the evidence and bribe that girl he had a one night stand with.
Yuhi most likely already thought about this. If Yuhi does not want to resort to that then she will do it for him.
Just as she planned her next moves in her head, she felt a pair of arms wrap around her waist. He buried his face in her neck. "So, dont misunderstand."
Ah, was he worried that she would get upset? Sumire laughed softly. "Do not worry Yuhi-san, I won"t misunderstand."
If she doesn"t trust him, then she won"t be able to trust anyone ever again. Sure her relations.h.i.+p with Sano led to her closing her heart off to others. But that does not mean things will remain like that forever.
Sumire decided to change the topic as she pulled away from him and returned to browsing through the books. "You seem happier now that you are not tied down by an underworld organization."
Yuhi nodded. "I suppose you could say that. I am relieved that people do not judge me because of my strength anymore." He trailed off. "But as for escaping the underworld? It seems that is not possible. I truly believed that once I left the organization, my situation would change. But there are no longer any peaceful places in the world. In every town in j.a.pan and even abroad, there are fights and skirmishes, there are gang wars that take the lives of so many people."
"You tried to go abroad?" Sumire asked.
"Yes, but I found that every single place was the same. Perhaps I did not search enough. Yet there is no doubt that there is more bloodshed happening all over the world than peace."
Sumire could not miss the sorrowful tone when he said those words.
He sounds so sad.
She does not like seeing Yuhi like this.
"Sorry for making the mood depressing."
Sumire shook her head. "No, don"t say sorry." She paused before saying. "I don"t like this situation either. But right now there is no other option available."
A peaceful world without bloodshed and pain? A world like that cannot exist. Sumire is not surprised that Yuhi did not find a peaceful place. This man wants peace more than anything, but it is not possible right now.
Yuhi laughed. "I see, well that is true." He trailed off. "Say, I have something I want to ask."
"Yes?"
"Before I confessed and failed terribly, do you remember what you said to me?"
"I do." Sumire nodded. "You did not think it was possible for you to return alive. I only knew you went on a mission, I did not realize it was a dangerous one until you called me."
"Yeah, I almost confessed to you on the phone." Yuhi jokes. "Would you have taken me seriously?"
"Maybe it would have been better than you confessing a few days later and bleeding to death."
Yuhi laughs. "I see. Back then, those words you said about us meeting again as normal people. It seems like that isn"t the case." He said.
"You think so?" Sumire said. "I think our current situation is a lot better than before."
They can attend school normally and go on dates without anyone interrupting them. They don"t have people chasing them now either. They can sleep peacefully at night without worrying that someone will break into their homes. A lot better these days.
"Well I do agree with you there. So hey," Yuhi mumbled. "For the past few minutes you keep looking at me."
"I think we are standing far too apart." Sumire said.
She felt her cheeks grow hot when she realized what she just said. Was she not the one who moved away? She felt her heartbeat turn rapid.
Thump, thump, thump.
A repeating sound and her sweaty palms. She sounds so ridiculous right now. Even if Yuhi loves her, he probably did not spend so many years thinking of her. After all, he had other partners in that time frame. Even though he claims to have no attachment to the other girls, she does not believe him there.
Sumire saw the expression on his face when he accidentally pulled out that drawing.
Sumire heard him move and soon she found herself on the ground with Yuhi on top of her.
"You seem to get bolder and bolder everyday." Yuhi chuckled. "Well I guess that makes my job easier."
"I thought you would be cold, there is no heating here." Sumire said. She knew that she sounded like an idiot right now. But what else could she say?
Yuhi nodded. "Your right, it is cold here. I guess we can do some things to warm us up." He brought his lips to her ear.
She could smell him more closely now, the scent of Yuhis favourite cigarette brand and cologne mixed into one. Sumire did not have a scent fetish or anything like that, but she found herself breathing in his scent.
"You know not a day went pa.s.s where I didnt think of you, not just this past year but for the last few years. I wondered how you were and if you still remembered me. I was worried that you would forget our promise but you didnt. It took you awhile but you debuted as an idol."
"Yuhi.."
"I missed you so much Sumire. It felt like I was going crazy the last few years since I could not see you. Even though I could watch you on TV and even though the others sent me pictures, it wasn"t enough for me."
"Not enough?"
Yuhi nodded. "I wanted to touch you, I wanted to hold you in my arms and wake up to your face every morning."
T--?!! Her eyes widened at his sudden confession. What is wrong with this man? Why does he keep saying things that are clearly bad for a person"s heart? Yuhi most likely has no idea what kind of affect his words have on her.
"Yuhi-san, you had such strange thoughts this entire time."
Yuhi laughed. "I guess my thoughts about you were never normal to begin with. I remember that snowy concert very clearly. I brought home a girl I picked up from karaoke because I was lonely and attracted to her voice."
It really was about her voice, she feels quite disappointed. Sumire knew that was the main reason why Yuhi became interested in her, but it still bothered her.
Such thoughts left her mind quickly when she found Yuhi kissing her neck again.