Chapter 151 - How Do I Make You Mine?
Yuhi suddenly cupped her cheeks. "So what I am saying is, it"s because of you that I came this far. You told me something honestly without holding anything back." He trailed off. "I don"t need to search for a place to belong anymore. I don"t know of a better place than here with you. I want you so badly. I realized it after the first time I touched you. I no longer want to let you out of my sight. I want to possess you completely. But until you settle your feelings, I won"t do anything."
Will he wait until she settles her feelings? But that might take a long time. Can he really hold back and wait until then? What if he gets tired of waiting? She is afraid of that scenario, what if he leaves halfway? What if he leaves when she is getting attached to him? She is so scared. But Sumire looked up and met Yuhi"s gentle gaze.
It seems like she can"t dislike this person. No matter what she does, she ends up getting attached to him. Yuhi lowered his face and brushed his lips against hers.
"But I will do things like this occasionally. Mm, open your mouth a bit Sumire."
She listened to him, and she felt his tongue intertwined in hers. But it was only a brief kiss. Yuhi cherishes her so much, and yet she can"t do anything to repay his kindness. "Yuhi..."
"Do you like kissing Sumire?"
Uhh--? Sumire looked at him, puzzled. What is with this strange question? "Just if you liked kissing, we could do it more."
Why is he even asking her about this?
"Do we really have to discuss this?"
YUhi blinked when he heard her words. "Is there something wrong with discussing it? I thought it would be fine...Why are you getting fl.u.s.tered?"
Does he not understand why she is getting fl.u.s.tered?
"Seriously, how should I make you mine?"
Sumire pulled away from him. "I will be honest with you, Yuhi-san. I don"t understand that stuff well. I know we did it twice, but it still feels foreign. I am fine with what we have now. I love you, and I am your girlfriend..." She trailed off. "I guess we do have to do it.."
"You seem reluctant, that doesn"t make me happy."
"Uhh, sorry."
Yuhi sighed. "Well, this is fine; you look adorable." He slammed his hand against the wall behind her trapping her in the process. "So you want to learn about things you don"t know? I mean, that is how I interpreted your words. You need to learn since you don"t understand."
"I suppose."
"I wonder why I want you so much, Sumire. How far will these feelings grow? Do you want to know or no?"
"I want to know..." Sumire mumbled.
Yuhi kissed her again and intertwined their hands together. Oh, what is this feeling? She feels like crying again.
Is this how it feels to be loved and treasured by somebody? Ru, she didn"t know love could be like this. But it is exactly like what he said. He told her if it was Yuhi, she would not have to worry about anything.
She does not understand. Her mind is becoming fuzzy due to the intense feeling of his lips on hers.
He is kissing her so pa.s.sionately. Sumire refrained from repeating his name over and over.
"You smell like flowers. But I guess that"s normal, you"re just like a flower."
"Such a teas--" Her sentence fell short when Yuhi bent down and kissed her neck.
It is no good; she is so happy right now. The places he touches her burns with a sensation she does not understand. It does not make sense to her, but she does like it, that is the one thing that makes sense to her. The more Yuhi does this to her, the more she wants something. She wants him to do something else.
I want him to hold me again...
Sumire quickly realized what was happening and kicked him away. "This is enough!"
"Ouch...Ouch, I should have known. A kick right at my stomach."
She looked over-worried, but Yuhi shook his head. "It"s fine, but well now you understand. Its that sort of mood."
Ah, does he feel bad about the first two times? Indeed it wasn"t exactly romantic or anything. But Sumire did not mind it; she does not dislike him touching her. While she reacted violently against other men, it was different with Yuhi.
When she realized this, Sumire became even more curious about him. How come it is okay with him? What makes him so different? Is it okay for her to learn the answer to that question?
"A little."
Yuhi gently kissed her forehead. "That"s fine for now."
There is one thing she understands very well. Yuhi is very warm. The sensation of his lips aside and his hands. She could not forget the sensation of his body pressed against her own. So peculiar, that feeling from earlier.
Sumire wrapped her arms around him from the back and hugged him. "I will keep trying."
"Well, I look forward to it, before that could you get changed? You"re driving me crazy."
She bursts into laughter then. "I thought so since earlier you were acting weird."
"If you knew, don"t wear things like this." Yuhi trailed off and placed his hand on his face. "You know you don"t have to try too hard, at least not there... I mean please stop it—"
Sumire looked at him, puzzled. Yuhi seemed to be murmuring something in English. Did she do something weird? His behavior seems strange right now. Still, she truly wants to learn things about him. At the start, when she accepted his hand, she did not have such thoughts.
It was difficult for her to adjust, holding hands, hugging, and doing anything with someone who wasn"t Mamoru. But it did not take her too long to adapt.
"Yuhi-san, I want to do some bad things."
Yuhi turned around and sighed deeply. He extended his hand out, and she closed her eyes. But after waiting for a few minutes, she noticed that he only pulled her down and wrapped a blanket around her. "I will carry you to the bed later, but for now, rest."
Her gaze softened, and she giggled. "I am not used to somebody pampering me this much."
"It seems like you will have to learn then. I am good at spoiling people."
At that comment, her eyes twitched, annoyed. Is he talking about his past experiences? He ruined the mood completely—her thoughts broke off when Yuhi burst into laughter. Sumire immediately understood, and she hits his chest with her hands.
"Don"t tease me!"
"It was too good of an opportunity to pa.s.s on. But your right; there is no need for me to do that."
She wants to learn more. But she wonders if it is possible for her to do that when she is still so broken?