Chapter 287 - As Long As I Have Him
"I am sure right now you are trying to find the answer. Your mind is jumbled and a complete mess right now. But, is it something to do with Yuhi?"
Her expression dropped when she heard him say those words. "Is it okay for me to say it?"
"Well, if it"s anything about a lovers quarrel, then I don"t want to hear it."
Sumire suddenly starts throwing light punches at him, and he swiftly dodges each one. "Meanie! Meanie, why do you have to say it like that?"
"Yeah yeah."
"Today… I spent time with Yuhi since it"s rare that he had a day off. I wanted to visit Ru, and along the way, I realized it had been a while since we last went out together. It had been a lot of fun, and I was happy…" She trails off. "But as expected, that happiness didn"t last long."
Her gaze darkened slightly, "Yuhi…told me…." what would you do if I were to study in France?""
At that comment, she watched as Atus.h.i.+s face color turned pale. It seems like everybody else knew about it.
"Ah.…when he said that, I didn"t know how to respond at all. I didn"t say anything, and it must have shown on my face since he pulled me close to him and said he was only kidding around. Yet I could tell from the way he held me and how he said it he was serious. I always thought that as long as I have Yuhi with me now, I could manage all these burdens.
He is one who gave me strength this entire time. But at the same time, I know I can"t hold him back. So I decided that if there is something he truly wishes to do, I won"t stop him, and yet despite deciding that. When I finally heard it from him…I….I couldn"t smile…" Sumire"s voice trembled.
Atus.h.i.+ extended his hand out and patted her hair. "Go upstairs; Yuhi must be waiting for you."
She immediately understood what he was getting at. "Talk to him about this." But that was easier said than done. "It"s not happening right away; I know that, but…"
"Why are you waiting out here anyway? Isn"t Yuhi upstairs?"
At that comment, she fidgeted uncomfortably. "W-well uh…"
"Are you running away again?" Atus.h.i.+ guessed.
At that comment, her composure vanished entirely, and she played with a strand of her hair. "I don"t know what to do when he acts that bold." She admitted.
"I thought you liked honest people?"
"Uh, that"s beside the point; he is way too honest." Moreover, he is honest about things people would normally hide. Is it because he has previous experience? Sumire never thought about it before, but Yuhi has gone out with other girls before.
Now that she thinks about this aren"t their rumors about him sleeping around? Sano also mentioned it.
Uhhh, her head hurts just thinking about this.
"Then Sumire-chan, shall I give you some advice?"
"Advice?"
Atus.h.i.+ nodded. "What you do when Yuhi acts like a beast…"
...…
When she finally did go upstairs, Yuhi strummed some chords on his guitar while looking at the moon. She was momentarily star-struck and didn"t realize when he got close to her. Before she knew it, he was kissing her intently, and in the next moment, she was on the bed.
"What"s wrong?" Yuhi raised his head from her legs. "Are you nervous again?"
"A little." Sumire hesitantly ran her fingers across his black locks. Even though she trusts him, a part of her is still afraid. What if he turns his back on her? What if this is all he wants from her?
No matter how clueless she is about romance, even she knew how much Yuhi desired her. Just a brief contact with him, and his desires overflow. But unlike with Sano, there was something different. He desires her, and yet there is something more.
"Say Yuhi-san?"
"What is it, love?"
Sumire felt her heartbeat more at those words, and she quickly said. "Atsuro looked a bit strange."
Sumire immediately regretted her words after she said it. A somewhat disturbing expression appeared on Yuhi"s face, but she didn"t get a chance to question it.
"Are you worried about him?"
N--no, of course not! Sumire managed to not respond suspiciously and coughed. "About s.h.i.+n, you know how Atsuro can get when he is in a weird mood. s.h.i.+n is still recovering too."
Yuhi relaxed a little and nodded. "I understand, but even if he is like that, he does care for s.h.i.+n. But if your that worried, you could run after him."
"How can you say that in this situation?"
"We can stop?" He said with a teasing smile.
This person is so cruel sometimes! The way he teases her like this whenever they get affectionate. He always makes her say embarra.s.sing things too.
"But your right; stopping now would be bad. What else should we do?"
"F--first take a bath!" Sumire exclaimed. "You got soaked from the rain earlier but didn"t get changed, right?!"
A deep sigh escaped Yuhi"s lips. "You always use that as an excuse for me to stop. Well, alright, I will listen to this once." He quickly got off her and headed to the bathroom.
A relieved sigh escaped her lips. She recalled what Atus.h.i.+ said and shook her head; how can she do that to Yuhi? Besides, if she did that, he would get mad, won"t he? The two of them are dating. It is okay to refuse, but if she refuses that strongly he will surely be upset.
This is the time for her to be brave and show him. Sumire peeked over at the bathroom door and paused. But is it fine? He seemed irritated. If she went in now, maybe he would tease her more, and it would end up bad. Gahhh, what does she even want from Yuhi? There are times where it felt like it would be okay to get lost in the flow and just do it with him.
It seems the only way to find out is to get closer. Sumire took a deep breath before she left the bed and walked over to the bathroom area.
The moment she stepped inside, it was hard to see since steam covered the area.
"Sumire?"
"Mmm." She buried her face in his back, and he sighed deeply.
"If you don"t want to, you should go. Lately, I don"t trust myself around you too much."
A nervous burst of laughter escaped her lips when she heard him say those words. She did think he was behaving oddly but to think this was the reason. This person intends to treasure her even though he has to hold back.
Sumire mumbled something quietly. "I don"t mind Yuhi-san." This is her honest feelings. "I don"t mind at all. But I just get nervous even if it is stupid of me."
Yuhi turned around and slammed her against the wall. "Geez, don"t say such things. Do you know that only makes your situation worse?"