Chapter 1060 This is me Part 37
SUMIRE
This bond with Lucifer, it"s not like the one they shared in their first five life times. There is something sinister about it, and there is a voice in her head telling her it"s wrong. It seemed even the her with no memories recognized that. After her concert is over, she has a lot to do. Not just with her career but with the underworld.
"I need to discuss Aki-san"s issue with Eli first. He definitely knows a lot more than he has told me."
But before then, she ought to check up on "him."
"Lex?"
"Yes. my heart?"
He responded far too quickly there.
"I won"t be able to meet you this week, since I"ll be busy. Will I be okay?"
"You shall be if you feed from Toh, and take the new medication I handed over to Nagawa."
"I see."
"It sadness me that we will not be able to meet."
Here is another straight forward person. Even though Lucifer feels guilty that he had to lie to her, he isn"t hesitating to pursue her now.
"Are you still there my heart?"
"Mm, will you be going to my concert?"
"I shall watch from afar, but I won"t be able to greet you."
That makes sense, after all. Rai stormed into the hospital demanding to meet with her. He insisted that he would be in charge of security, and nothing will go wrong. No doubt Lex can sneak pa.s.s those defences, but if he tries to talk to her, it will alert Hyou4.
"What about your blood l.u.s.t?"
"I shall be fine."
"Maybe you should drink from-"
She hears a low dark chuckle in her ear and felt his shadows on her arms and legs.
"D-don"t do that! I"ll get angry."
"And you think your words just now aren"t making me angry?"
Sumire bit her bottom lip.
"I said this to Toh too, but it isn"t fair for me to restrict you. Toh"s situation is different from yours. You need to see other females and drink from them, otherwise you will lose control."
"If I lose control, I will be harming your friends and you don"t want that correct?"
"That"s not why I am saying this-"
"My heart, I understand what your trying to do. But, I shall not feed from another female. You are the one I want, and if you need reminding. I shall do so on the eve of your concert."
"Wait but you said you wouldn"t-"
Sumire felt a sudden block in her mind and she silently screamed. Is he actually blocking her right now? This is a first. Since learning they could talk into each other"s minds. Lucifer has remained very open about sharing his thoughts and feelings. How dare he block her!
Is he really that upset about her suggesting he drinks from other females? But, it"s for his own good.?Her complicated feelings aside, the two of them can"t meet openly. Both Hyou4 and her group the Holy knights have been very vigilant since what happened to her. Not just them but her friends in akagumi. She is constantly being watched and protected now.
Seeing Toh enter the room with a basin of water. Sumire blinked.
"Toh?"
"I"ll help you wash your feet and legs. You can take a bath later, but for now, let"s do this." Toh lifted her feet up gently.
Sumire watched him for a few minutes, she watched as he carefully watched each toe with such gentleness. This really is too much, how is it possible for someone to be so kind?
"Toh? You don"t have to be so good to me."
"We"ve spoken about this before beautiful. I can"t not be good to you."
Still, she really does feel guilty, it feels like she is taking advantage of his kindness and his feelings for her. Sumire exhales deeply, there is no doubt that"s what this situation is.
"Were you speaking to Lucifer before I came in?"
"Ah." Sumire nodded and summarized the conversation she had with him.
Toh chuckled. "As usual, your too honest beautiful. While I do like that side of you, not everyone can handle it."
"I don"t understand."
"The Lord is in love with you beautiful, for you to say that your okay with him drinking from other females is the same as you not caring about his feelings."
"But he knows I care. I"m really troubled about it."
"Indeed, but what you just said to him contradicts that knowledge."
Sumire sighs deeply. "This really is getting annoying."
Toh laughed. "You really are blunt about this beautiful. Most girls your age would act differently."
"By now, you should have figured out that I"m different from girls?my age." Sumire trails off. "I don"t want to hurt Lucifer, but I understand, that I can"t return to how things were before. I know he has missed me terribly. I know fate was very cruel to us. But-"
"The eighth life will be different. You will be given a choice, an option that is different from your other lives."
She didn"t understand what Aoi meant by those words but now she does. Her gaze fell on Toh. By other option, Aoi-san meant she can chose someone who isn"t Lucifer or Yuhi. It would certainly explain why she feels as drawn as she does to Toh.
"It"s up to you beautiful, but do you want my input on your relations.h.i.+p with the Lord?"
"I do."
She really values his opinion after all.
"I don"t encourage it, and I hope you don"t think my feelings for you are influencing my words."
"Not at all, your not the type of person who would let their emotions cloud their judgement." Sumire trailed off. "Why do you think that way?"
"The Lord is different from the man he used to be with you. I"ll admit he is treating you gently. But that beast inside him? If he is the one who gave those cruel orders, to make sure you break down mentally, then I don"t advise you being with him."
"He can control that when he drinks my blood." Sumire pointed out.
Toh shakes his head. "I believe that is only temporary. I have seen him lose control plenty of times this past year. His orders have become even more unreasonable."
Sumire"s eyes widened hearing those words as she grabbed hold of his hands. "What has he made you do?"
"Beautiful-"
"Tell me right now."
Toh sighs deeply but nodded as he explains the orders he received when he was abroad. During the entire talk she felt her body tense, and Toh stopped was.h.i.+ng her feet as he drew rea.s.suring circles on her thighs to calm her down.
So that"s what happened, that"s why Toh was suspected of murdering those females. It was because of Lucifer. Sumire felt angry on Toh"s behalf. He doesn"t deserve to be treated like that, whether it"s by Lucifer or anyone else. He deserves better.
Toh chuckled. "You don"t have to get angry at the Lord for my sake beautiful."
"I do! I"ll give him an earful next time we meet."
Toh shakes his head. "It"s alright, I owe the Lord a debt I can never truly repay after all. Even though I dislike dirtying my hands for him, what"s done is done."