"But she does, I tell you. She says it is sacrilege to live with me, and so she is going off by herself to desert me, and says I"ve got to get a divorce on those grounds when the time is up, or heaven only knows what she"ll do. Now, you got us into this mess, and you"ve got to stop it."
"I"ll do what I can, Lem," she promised. "And so will Nolan. But between you and me, I do not blame her. I wouldn"t have lived with you two months, myself."
"I have never wanted another woman in my life," he said brokenly. "It has always been Miriam with me from the very minute I saw her. I have fooled around a lot, I know, but it"s always been Miriam for serious."
"Yes," she said bitterly. "That is it. It is just as Gordon says. A man can fool around and still love his wife. But a nice woman can"t. She is strong for one man--at a time. When she falls for a new one, it is all off with the last. You could love a dozen at a time, but Miriam is too nice for that."
"But you promised--"
"Oh, yes, I"ll do what I can, and I will advise her to stick it out, but I think she will be very foolish if she takes my advice."
Nolan was immediately summoned, and a desperate struggle began with Miriam. But it was really no struggle.
"Why, Eveley," she said reproachfully, "I am surprised at you. Can"t you see that a woman can not live with a man she dislikes? It makes the shivers run down my back when he touches me. It--isn"t nice. It--makes me feel like--well, not at all right. You can see that, can"t you, Nolan?"
"I am afraid I can."
"But he is your husband," protested Eveley. "Isn"t it your place as his wife to--to--"
"Do you mean my duty, dear?" asked Miriam, smiling faintly. "I am surprised at you, Eve. No dear, it isn"t. Your theory that duty is happiness is half right. But a woman has one other duty also--self-respect. I am all packed up, dear, and going to-morrow. You do not mind my not leaving my address, do you? I want to go off very quietly by myself. I do not want Gordon to know. I am afraid he will blame himself for it. You will make him see that it was not he, at all, won"t you? And after it is all over, I shall write, or maybe come to see you. You will ask him not to look for me, won"t you?
There has not been a thing serious between us, Eveley, you believe that, don"t you?"
"Of course I do. I know it. I"ve chaperoned you two till I am fairly sick of it."
Miriam smiled again. "Be sure to tell him everything I said, will you?"
Nolan and Eveley were very quiet after she had gone. And Eveley cried a little.
"I hope she will be happy," she said tearfully.
"She will be. Gordon will wait for her, and not crowd her. He is like me.
He can talk to a woman without loving her."
"You can, at least."
"At least, I do not talk about it all the time," he amended. "What I mean is that his affection is for the one, and not for the s.e.x."
"Do you think she did right, Nolan?"
"I do not think it is my duty to judge," he evaded cleverly. "She had one chance for happiness, and she lost. Now she is to have one more. We are her friends, and we love her. We can not begrudge her one more opportunity, can we?"
"No indeed, and you put it very nicely," she said more comfortably.
"Isn"t it nice that we do not believe in duty? But we shall miss them.
They were very nice playmates for us, as well as for each other--Nolan, there was something sort of sweet about Lem, after all? Something very human and lovable and--but of course it was Miriam"s duty to be happy."
CHAPTER XIII
SHE FINDS A FOREIGNER
Eveley had very nearly lost faith in a.s.similation. She had thought it over carefully, attempted it conscientiously and decided it could not be done.
"One individuality can not be absorbed by another," she would say very sagely. "Whether it is husbands and wives, or whether it is nations. The theorists are right in stating that America is for Americans only, and that it is the patriotic duty of those who come here to be Americanized as rapidly as possible, and the duty of the regular Americans to Americanize everybody else at top speed--but it can not be done. They are they, and we are we. It may be our duty, but we are not big enough."
She did not call her friendship with Angelo Moreno by any such big and formal term as a.s.similation. They had just grown to be enormously good friends. She had forgotten about Americanizing him, but she found him charming, with the fresh frank abandon of the unspoiled south-European.
She liked his open admiration, she enjoyed his mature cynicism, she reveled in his buoyant enthusiasm. She had not believed that such opposing elements could dwell in one small person. In Angelo, she found them, and she found the combination good.
He was helpful to Eveley, as well as pleasing. He did endless small jobs for her about the car and upon the lawn of her home. And when she noticed that he quickly adopted some of her own little customs of speech and manner, she was freshly pleased and interested.
Still she could not harden her heart to the clamorous call of the world struggle. She lived so happily and so securely in her Cloud Cote, going to business by day, doing her small bits of housework in between whiles, frolicking with her friends, chumming with Angelo, playing with her sister"s babies, running about in her pretty car. It was like living in the clouds indeed, with the world of chaos beneath. For there was the struggle of reconstruction going on, the tremendous heave and pull of ma.s.ses seeking to dominate, the subtle writhe and twist of politics, a whole world straining and sinewing to rise dominant out of the molten bed of human lava left from the volcanic eruption of war.
And although Eveley still lived serene in her Cloud Cote, it was like living on the edge of the crater of a volcano. The eruption would come, must come. And when it came, her pretty Cloud Cote might be caught in the upheaval. Sometimes in the evening she stood breathless in the little pavilion on the edge of the canyon stretching down below her home, and looked far into the shadows. Being a vivid imaginer, down in the darkness she seemed to see the world in turmoil, and although she stood above it on the heights, she knew that when the final reckoning came, there would be no heights and no canyon.
"And the only thing that can stop it is Americanization, and it is impossible," she would say helplessly. "And there you are."
But being of a light and happy heart, she tried to forget, and plunged into her work and her play once more. The consciousness, however, of a world in travail was always with her.
This was why, when Amos Hiltze came to her with an appeal for help in a new phase of Americanization, he found such prompt and eager interest.
"It is not much, Miss Ainsworth," he said earnestly, "and to you it may seem very aimless and trifling indeed. But it is something definite at least, a real tangible piece of Americanization, and you are the only woman I know who can help us out."
"Yes, yes, yes," she cried eagerly. "I will, of course. What is it?"
"It is a girl, a Spanish girl from Mexico. Her relatives joined the revolutionists, and pouf,--were blown out. By rare good fortune she escaped across the border. But what chance has she? No friends,--no training. She has never learned to meet and mingle with people. And now after the years of horror, she is afraid. She has lost her nerve. She needs a place where she can be alone, and quiet, with no one to observe or criticize. I can vouch for the girl, that she is all right. And I wondered if your spirit of Americanization would carry you to the point of temporarily adopting her."
"Oh, mercy!" gasped Eveley, thinking with great tenderness of her cozy little Cloud Cote, her home, and hers alone.
"I know it is asking a great deal, but it will only be for a few weeks.
Just until some proper arrangements can be made for her. Unless she is taken care of, and quickly, she will fall a prey to some anarchistic Bolshevik, or something worse. She is living with a bunch of low Mexicans away out in the country, and the Greasers come there from all around,--and I am afraid for the girl. If she can be taken now, treated kindly, shown the charm and wholesomeness of American customs and principles, she will be won for America. A beautiful girl, educated, talented, charming. Think what a power she can be in the Americanization of her people, when she herself has been given love and tenderness and confidence."
Eveley decided instantly. "Very well, bring her. I can move the extra furniture out of the east bedroom, and store it in the garage, and she may have that room. She will be alone and quiet all day. But I hardly know a word of Spanish--"
"Oh, she speaks English perfectly. You are a wonderful girl, Miss Ainsworth. Not one in a thousand would have risen to such a sacrifice.
If American women were all like you, there would be no need of Americanization. A country stands or falls by its women-kind. And you will not find her burdensome. She does not wish to meet people, her only desire is to be quiet, and let alone. She will keep your little home tidy for you, and she likes to cook and sew. She will not bother you much. How soon can you have her come?"
"It will take about two hours to get ready. Can you come and help me to-night? Angelo will help, too. We must move the furniture and boxes out, and then the room will be ready for her."
"Then suppose we go for her to-night? She is about forty miles out in the back country in a little shack a mile off the Viejas grade. If we could leave about supper-time, we"d get there a little after dark. She wants to slip away without attracting attention. She is a nervous wreck, literally scared to death. It will take a long time to give her confidence again, but if any one can do it, it is you. Her faith in humankind has been bitterly shattered."
Eveley was fairly quivering with excitement and delight. Her faith in herself had gone leaping skyward. She was not a slacker, not a quitter.
She was a regular American after all, making a real sacrifice for a principle she believed in,--and oh, how she was going to a.s.similate this pretty little Mexican! Poor child! Of course she was shattered and stunned and shocked. Who wouldn"t be? Things must have been ghastly in Mexico. Eveley herself was rather vague on the subject, because her philosophy was one of peace and joy, and she found that reading of affairs in Mexico did not tend to increase either peace or joy. But she was dimly aware that the spirit of unrest prevailing in all the world had risen to open and b.l.o.o.d.y warfare across the Rio Grande.
Her work suffered very sadly that afternoon, and long before the appointed hour she was ringing furiously for the elevator. From her incoherent chatter on the way down, Angelo gathered that he was literally to fly to her the very minute he was off duty, and then she was clambering blindly into the car and rushing around for Mr. Hiltze.
She was quite in an ecstasy as they set about moving out the pieces of furniture to be stored in the back of the big garage, and fitting up an attractive home for the wounded little Mexican who was to be her guest,--and her food for a.s.similation.