ch 25.1 – Will you die without love
This night, Lou Yao Yao’s sleep was very disturbed. The scenes of her past life kept appearing in her mind.
Lin Fei died so quietly. That woman was making a ruckus her whole life and everything she did had to be high-profiled. Every time she made noise wanting to commit suicide, it was like filming a drama; she had to let everyone know, so the attempts were always not successful. In the end, she laid on the bed covered with rose petals and quietly slept. Her face had a smile and she left behind the words, “please don’t forget me”. And then, she never woke up again.
It seemed that not many people felt sorrowful over her death. The Lin family had many children and did not feel her loss. As for the bunch of love rivals, of course, they were only eager for her to die earlier.
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Lou Yao Yao, however, felt that Lin Fei was fortunate, because even if she died, there was Chen Hao to remember her. All those years, Chen Hao never had a girlfriend and he once said that he was afraid she would be unhappy.
Lou Yao Yao was once very touched by those words, and from then on, she even more so believed that Chen Hao was a good man that was hard to come by.
His grief-stricken expression and sorrowful words then, overlapping with the man whose face was filled with deep affection yesterday, made Lou Yao Yao feel extremely ironic. As it turns out, she had never understood this person.
Hate? Of course, she hated. But she hated herself even more for being ignorant and not seeing through people clearly.
Lou Yao Yao knew that she was in a dream, yet still couldn’t help but to feel sorrow and anger. Her emotions were infinitely magnified, and she couldn’t help but to think of Qin Zhi again. Was he living fine by himself? Without her, will he have a better ending? Without the person that he needed to bear the blame for, the originally flawed criminal case would definitely be turned over. He was still young, maybe after a few years or a decade, eventually, there would be a woman who could help him walk out of his wound.
She did not wish for anything else, she only hoped that this man was able to forget her, because only in this way, her heart could feel better. She owed him too much, but had no chance to repay him.
Going back to the past, there was then a chance to start again, but everything that had happened before, had already left a deep mark in her heart. Those regrets, will after all stay as regrets. Irreparable.
However, those regrets, yet point her towards the direction to advance, preventing her from making the same mistake, preventing the same regrets from forming.
Lou Yao Yao kept tossing and turning, stirring awake and falling asleep. Perhaps, realising that her sleep was not peaceful, Qin Zhi who was originally a light sleeper, hugged her tightly.As if consoling a child, he patted her back lightly. Lou Yao Yao in her dream seemed to have felt it and finally quietened down, falling deeply and peacefully asleep in his arms.
When she woke up in the morning, Lou Yao Yao forgot almost everything that happened in her dream. Nestled in Qin Zhi’s arms, she rubbed her eyes and mumbled lazily: “Why was it so noisy yesterday?”
“Someone lit candles on the gra.s.s and the gra.s.s caught fire. The firefighting operation was a little big.”
Lou Yao Yao opened her eyes wide and lost all sleepiness. She said, in shock: “Don’t tell me it was Chen Hao?” Besides him, who else would be lighting candles on the gra.s.s?
Qin Zhi responded softly: “Mm”.
“Haha, then how is he now?“ Lou Yao Yao felt a bit like laughing at his misery.
“Of course, he was taken away by the police.”
The two exchanged glances, and found out that the other party was also secretly laughing, and couldn’t help but feel happier. That’s why you can’t ask for romantic things, look, it caused a problem. Lou Yao Yao thought heartlessly, and totally forgot that she was one of the main causes of it happening.
If Chen Hao knew that what he had painstakingly arranged became the two persons’ joke material, don’t know how would he feel. Of course, his mood now was definitely not good. Not just his confession was unsuccessful, he was even taken away by the police. Committing arson in a nature conservation area, a huge sum of fine will definitely be expected. He had to be the most useless confessor ever.
After snickering for a while, Lou Yao Yao patted her head, and said in annoyance: “Before I slept, I was still thinking that I wanted to do something after I wake up. But I can’t remember it now!”
“Is it very important?”
“Very important!” Well, in fact, she was not clear. When she was dreaming, her emotions were always infinitely magnified. Sometimes, she just dreamt that she had fallen, and felt like she had suffered a huge grievance. She cried and was in a total mess after she woke up, and only after crying did she realise that she was being ridiculous.
Qin Zhi comforted her: “Think slowly, don’t hurry.”
Lou Yao Yao racked her brains and thought for a while, and found that she still could not remember it. She tossed the thought aside and was intimate with Qin Zhi again for a while, and got up.