He was so so arrogant. "Was he a prince?" A death-by-s.e.x Fae like V"lane? Was that how he"d seduced my sister? arrogant. "Was he a prince?" A death-by-s.e.x Fae like V"lane? Was that how he"d seduced my sister?
"No. But he was old among our kind. Powerful."
"How can you know that, if you"ve drunk from the cauldron?" I pointed out an obvious bit of illogic. A side effect of extreme longevity, V"lane had told me, was eventual madness. They dealt with it by drinking from the Seelie Hallow, the cauldron. The sacred drink wiped their memories clean, and let them start over with a brand-new Fae life, and no memory of who they"d once been.
"The cauldron is not without flaws, MacKayla. Memory is . . . how did one of your artists say it?-persistent. It was fashioned to ease the onus of eternity, not leave us blank. When we drink from it, we emerge speaking the first language we knew. Darroc"s is mine: the ancient one, from the dawn of our race. In such a way, we know things about each other, despite the divest.i.ture of memories. Some attempt to plant information about themselves for their next incarnation to find. The Fae Court is an unpleasant place to be, stripped of ability to discern friend from foe. We prolong drinking as long as possible. Tatters from earlier times sometimes remain. Some must drink twice, three times, to be cleansed."
"How can I find Darroc?" I asked. Now that I knew his name, I would never call him anything but that, or a mocking "LM" again.
"You cannot. He is hiding where even we have been unable to track him. He slips in and out of Unseelie through portals unknown to us. We are hunting him, the other Seelie princes and I."
"How can a mere human elude you and move in and out of Fae realms?" I goaded. I was angry. They"d made this mess. They"d dumped Darroc into our realm because they"d been having problems, and it was my world that was suffering, my sister who"d been killed because of it. The least they could do was clean up after themselves, and fast.
"My queen did not strip his knowledge from him, an oversight she now regrets. She believed he would die quickly. It is why we did not suspect him of being the one behind the trouble in your realm. Once human, Darroc had no immunity against the many illnesses that plague your kind, and those who live as G.o.ds tend to underestimate the brutality of the herd when they walk among it."
"He"s not the only one who underestimated something," I said frostily. Herd, my petunia. With so much inhuman power at their fingertips, they certainly were humanly fallible, and we humans were the ones paying for it.
V"lane ignored the jibe. "We believed if he did not contract a mortal illness, he would anger a human with his arrogance, and become one of your violent crime statistics. Contrary to our expectations, since Darroc has been mortal, he has acquired immense power. He knew where to look, and how to get it, and he has always had allies among the Royal Hunters. He promises them freedom from the Unseelie prison where they are stabled; a promise no other Fae would make. Hunters cannot be trusted."
"And other Fae can?" I said dryly.
"Hunters go beyond all bounds." Here V"lane momentarily flickered, as if struggling not to revert to another form. "They have taught Darroc to eat the flesh of Fae to steal Fae power!" He paused, and for a fleeting moment, the temperature plunged so sharply that I couldn"t draw a breath and the ocean, as far as I could see it, iced. Abruptly, all was normal again. "He will die very slowly when we find him. The queen may make him suffer immortally for it. We do not savage our own."
I looked away hurriedly and stared out at the sea, owning the same sin, feeling it flashing in incriminating neon letters on my forehead: FAE EATER. Darroc had taught Malluce, Malluce had taught me, and I"d taught Jayne. I had no desire to suffer immortally, or otherwise. "What can I do to help?"
"Leave it to us to find Darroc," V"lane said. "You must do as the queen has charged you and find the Book. The walls between our realms are dangerously thin. If Darroc succeeds in bringing them down, the Unseelie will escape their prison. Without the Sinsar Dubh, Sinsar Dubh, we are as powerless to reimprison our dark brethren as you. Once loose, they will consume your world and destroy your race." we are as powerless to reimprison our dark brethren as you. Once loose, they will consume your world and destroy your race."
He paused before adding grimly, "And, quite possibly, mine."
NINE.
At quarter to ten, I was waiting for Barrons to arrive, and my Voice lessons to begin. We"d set a standing engagement, and although I knew he was probably still angry with me, I expected him to show.
I didn"t mind hopping. He could make me squawk like a chicken, for all I cared. If he made me feel stupid enough, I"d figure out how to resist him.
Christian had been right. If the walls came down, all the Unseelie would be freed. And I"d been right, too: the Seelie couldn"t reimprison them without the Sinsar Dubh Sinsar Dubh. Despite the grimness of our situation, I was once again focused, determined Mac. I"d stolen some sun-real human sun, not Faery stuff like last time with V"lane-and stashed it away, solar energy for my cells. A junkie, I"d gotten my fix.
Thumbing my nose at the chilly weather outside, which I had no intention of venturing into, I was wearing my favorite short white skirt, pretty sandals, and a lime-gold sleeveless top that tinted the green of my eyes a lighter, more intense shade. My skin was burnished gold from my hours in the sun. I looked and felt great. After showering, and doing my makeup and hair, I"d talked to Dad for a while. In Ashford, it was suppertime, and it had been 88 degrees today. In Dublin it was 38, but knowing Cancun was a mere "sift" away made it a lot easier to handle.
In my refreshed state of mind, I"d decided to divulge some information to Barrons. Try fishing with a baited hook instead of demanding answers, do things his way. I was going to show him the page from my sister"s journal that I"d received today. V"lane had slipped. Surely every now and then Barrons did, too. Maybe his face would betray something. Maybe he knew what the five were. Maybe he"d have some idea who had Alina"s journal. I didn"t believe he he did. I couldn"t see any reason he would choose those specific entries to send to me. Then again, I couldn"t see any reason did. I couldn"t see any reason he would choose those specific entries to send to me. Then again, I couldn"t see any reason anyone anyone would choose them, but someone had. would choose them, but someone had.
If I shared something with him, maybe he"d return the favor. Perhaps he felt the answers were innocuous enough that they didn"t matter. Sunny Mac felt it was worth a try.
The bell above the door tinkled.
Barrons stepped in. He swept a gaze from my head to my feet, slowly. His face tightened, then he worked his way back up, just as slowly. I guess he didn"t like my clothes. He rarely does. Left to my own devices, I dress too happy to suit his tastes. Ms. Rainbow and Mr. Night. That"s what we look like walking around together.
To defuse any tension left over from last night, I offered him a smile, and a friendly, "Hey," letting him know I was willing to start this night off fresh, and hoped he was, too.
I sensed his violence a split second before he attacked me, and then it was too late. He slammed the door behind him. Dead bolts ratcheted into place.
"Tell me every detail of the last time you saw the Sinsar Dubh Sinsar Dubh."
Voice compacted my body in a head-to-toe vise, and squeezed brutally. s.h.i.t, s.h.i.t, s.h.i.t.
I doubled over, the breath slammed out of me. A legion of voices rebounded in the room, careening off the walls, intensifying as they zoomed left and right, up and down, then through me, burrowing into my skin, rearranging things in my head, making my mind his his. Dominating. Seducing. Selling me the lie that his will was mine, and I lived to obey it.
Sweat beaded on my brow and upper lip, and slicked my palms. The harder I tried to fight the compulsion, the less possible it was to inflate my lungs, to move any part of my body at all. A paper doll, I hung, folded, limp, spineless. And like a paper doll, he could tear me in half, if he wanted to.
"Stop fighting me, Ms. Lane, and it"ll go easier. Unless you enjoy the pain."
In my mind I spewed a geyser of curses, but not a word came out. I had no breath to fuel it. He"d topped the level he"d used on me last night-the level of proficiency he"d said the Lord Master had achieved-and he"d done it with a voice of silk. Like the difference between other men"s motorcycles and his, Barrons walks softly-but he carries the biggest stick I"ve ever seen.
"Nice tan, Ms. Lane. How"s V"lane? Did you have a good time today? I take you to graveyards, but he takes you to the beach-is that what our problem is? Our little dates aren"t good enough for you? Does he romance you? Feed you all those pretty lies you"re so hungry for? I"ve been neglecting you lately. I"ll be remedying that. Sit. Over there. Sit. Over there." He pointed to a chair near the fire.
I jerked upright and tiptoed tightly toward the indicated seat, not because I felt dainty, but because that"s what happens when you try to lock down your leg muscles to prevent your feet from rising and falling, but your body moves anyway. One resistant step after the next, I minced toward the chair. I reached it and collapsed into it like a rag doll. My throat muscles convulsed and I tried to force out words. "D-don"t . . . d-do-"
"You will not speak unless it is in direct answer to one of my questions."
My lips sealed. I couldn"t believe he was doing this to me.
How ironic that V"lane had asked me to trust him today, I had, and he hadn"t betrayed me. I"d been ready to open up a little to Barrons tonight, tell him a few things, and he"d betrayed me. V"lane had muted his s.e.xuality to preserve my will. Barrons had just stripped it away with a single command, no different from the Lord Master.
"Tell me what you saw the night you encountered the Sinsar Dubh, Sinsar Dubh," he repeated. he repeated.
Straining in my skin, nearly suffocating myself with my attempts to resist, I spilled every detail, every last thought, every perception. From the humiliation of lying in that vile puddle in my pretty clothes, to the various forms the Book had taken, to the look it had given me, to my decision about how to track it. Then, to make things worse, I volunteered my entire "intervention" with Inspector Jayne.
"Don"t move," he said, and I sat ramrod-straight in my chair, unable to even scratch my nose while he pondered his thoughts. There was violence in the room with us, a killing violence. I didn"t get it. What had I done to p.i.s.s him off so much? He hadn"t been half this angry last night, and he"d had every opportunity to grill me forcibly then. He hadn"t. He"d just driven off. he said, and I sat ramrod-straight in my chair, unable to even scratch my nose while he pondered his thoughts. There was violence in the room with us, a killing violence. I didn"t get it. What had I done to p.i.s.s him off so much? He hadn"t been half this angry last night, and he"d had every opportunity to grill me forcibly then. He hadn"t. He"d just driven off.
"Where did you go today?"
Sweat dripping down my face, I told him that, too. I wanted to speak of my own free will, to call him every name in the book, to tell him we were through, he and I, and that I I was the one who deserved answers, not him. But he"d sealed my lips with a command, and I could only answer what he asked. was the one who deserved answers, not him. But he"d sealed my lips with a command, and I could only answer what he asked.
"Did V"lane tell you anything?"
"Yes," I said flatly, biting it off there. I"d obeyed the compulsion to the letter. I didn"t have to offer more.
"What did he tell you?"
"That the Lord Master was once a Fae, named Darroc."
He snorted. "Old news. Did he tell you anything about me Did he tell you anything about me?"
Old news? He"d been sitting on information about the Lord Master that he hadn"t shared with me? And he got p.i.s.sed at me me for not telling him everything I knew? If he didn"t kill me when he was done with me, he was dead. He was a walking encyclopedia with a cover I couldn"t crack. Useless. for not telling him everything I knew? If he didn"t kill me when he was done with me, he was dead. He was a walking encyclopedia with a cover I couldn"t crack. Useless.
Dangerous. "No."
"Did you f.u.c.k him?"
"No," I gritted.
"Have you ever f.u.c.ked him?"
"No," I ground out. I"d never had two men more obsessed with what was happening in my s.e.x life, or rather, not not happening. happening.
Some of the violence in the air abated.
My eyes narrowed. Was this it? The source of his rage? Was Barrons jealous? Not because he cared, but because he thought of me as a possession, his personal and private sidhe sidhe-seer, and there would be no other men"s erections interfering with her OOP detections?
He gave me a cold look. "I needed to know if you were Pri-ya. That"s why I asked."
"Do I look Pri-ya?" I snapped. I had no idea what a Fae addict looked like, but I somehow doubted I was the Poster Girl for it. I figured them for something more like the Goth girls I"d seen hanging out at Malluce"s vampire lair: pierced, tattooed, and heavily made-up, dressed in vintage clothing, mostly black.
He started, measured me a moment, then laughed. "Good for you, Ms. Lane! You"re learning."
I started, myself, realized what I"d just done. I"d said something that hadn"t been an answer to a direct question! I tried to do it again, mentally forming the words, but I couldn"t force them out. I didn"t know how I"d done it in the first place.
"Who were you going to see the night you saw the Sinsar Dubh Sinsar Dubh?"
Oh, no. This wasn"t fair. He didn"t get to know everything. "A guy that knew Alina," I said between clenched teeth.
"Tell me his name."
No, no, no. "Christian MacKeltar."
"Are you f.u.c.king kidding me?" He exploded from his chair and glared down at me. He exploded from his chair and glared down at me.
Since he"d used Voice, I was obligated to say, "No," although I knew the question had been rhetorical. The killing violence was back, over a simple name. Why? What significance did Christian"s name have to him? Did he know him? Closing my eyes, I sought the sidhe sidhe-seer place in my head. It was no help. I still couldn"t speak. How could I feel so much power in that hot, alien part of my mind, yet find nothing there of use to me in this situation?
"How did you meet Christian MacKeltar?"
"He works at the ALD at Trinity. I met him when you sent me to pick up the invitation to the auction from his boss, but she wasn"t there."
His nostrils flared. "He must be a recent hire. They"ve been spying on me."
He hadn"t used Voice, nor had he asked a question, so I said nothing.
"Have the MacKeltars been spying on me?"
Squeezing my eyes shut, I said, "Yes."
"Have you been spying on me, Ms. Lane?"
"As much as I can."
"What have you learned about me?"
I went poking around in my head again but whatever place I was supposed to discover remained a mystery to me. Aware that I was digging my own grave, one spadeful of information at a time, I told him. That I knew he wasn"t human. That I knew he was impossibly old. That I"d watched him step out of the Unseelie Sifting Silver he kept in his study, carrying the savagely brutalized corpse of a woman. That, like the Shades, the demons in there had fled his path.
He laughed. As if it was some kind of joke joke that I knew all his dark secrets. He didn"t try to explain or justify one bit of it. "And I didn"t think you could keep your own counsel. You knew these things and never said a word. You"re becoming interesting. that I knew all his dark secrets. He didn"t try to explain or justify one bit of it. "And I didn"t think you could keep your own counsel. You knew these things and never said a word. You"re becoming interesting. Are you working with the MacKeltars against me?" Are you working with the MacKeltars against me?"
"No."
"Are you working with V"lane against me?"
"No."
"Are you working with the sidhe- sidhe-seers against me?"
"No."
"Are you working with anyone against me?"
"No."
"Where do your loyalties lie, Ms. Lane?"
"With myself," I shouted. "With my sister! With my family, and screw all of you!"
The violence in the room abated.
After a moment, Barrons resumed his seat in the chair across from me, absorbed my painfully stiff posture, and smiled without humor. "Very well, Mac. Relax Relax."
Mac? He"d called me Mac? I fought for breath. "Am I about to die?" I wheezed. "Are you going to kill me?"
He looked startled. I"d done it again. Spoken of my own will. He"d released my body, but not his hold on my mind and mouth. I could still feel it, compelling me, hurting me.
Then he snorted. "I tell you to relax and you think I"m going to kill you? You"re crippled by a woman"s illogic." He added as a seeming afterthought, "You may speak freely now." "You may speak freely now."
The stranglehold on my throat was gone, and for a few moments I simply enjoyed the sensation of breath moving in and out of my lungs, of knowing my tongue was once again my own. I could feel V"lane"s name, piercing the meat of it, and realized that from the moment Barrons had used Voice to bind my will, it had somehow faded, receded beyond my reach. "I am not. The only two times you ever called me Mac is when I was near death. Since there"s no other threat around right now, you must be about to kill me. It"s perfectly logical."
"I didn"t call you Mac."
"Yes, you did."
"I called you Ms. Lane."
"No, you didn"t."