I walk through the woods, and the closer I get to town, the warmer my chest feels. It"s strange, because it"s not anxiety, which is what I expected to feel. I pull on the sleeves of my shirt, trying to make it longer than it is, but I give up and walk through the clearing at the back of the bakery.
I stand there and take a few breaths, trying to relax. Dominic was right. I"ve finished my home, and if I want to move forward in life and find my mate, then I need to take the next step. I"m afraid of what"s to come, but I know that locking myself away in the woods won"t bring me any closer to what I want.
Running my hand through my long hair, I try to brush it out of my face to look less intimidating. I probably should"ve shaved my long beard or cut my hair, but I let that thought go. It"s too late to do anything about it now. It"s been a long time since I cared about what I look like, and the feeling is a bit foreign.
Once I round the corner of the bakery store front, I see the crowd of people, and I stop. It"s been so long since I was around this many people, and the noise in my sensitive ears is a bit jarring. I need a second to adjust, so I stand there and take a breath. Giving myself a pep talk, I keep trying to stay focused on how important finding a mate is to me. I know she"s out there, and I"m ready now. I wasn"t for a long time, but the past few months have changed me, and I can do it. I can be the best mate there ever was.
Taking another cleansing breath, the warming in my chest expands. A slight breeze rolls across my face, and as I breathe in, a faint trace of something sweet catches me. My eyes snap open just as my wolf snarls one word in my head.
Mine.
I can sense it in my beating heart. She"s here. I close my eyes tightly and then open them again, looking out into the crowd. I take another deep breath, feeling the breeze, and I lock on to the scent. She"s there, not more than a few yards from me. Her back is to me, but that"s my mate. Her long blonde hair is being blown in the wind, and her scent is traveling straight to me. She"s the one, she"s mine.
I see Stone on the other side of her, and I stop for a second. His father used to be the pack alpha, but my wolf can sense Stone is the alpha now, and I"m not sure how I feel about it. Before I can think too much about the situation, he takes a step closer to my mate and he growls. My instincts kick in, and the only thing in my head is to protect my mate.
Surprisingly, I don"t shift. Instead, I run straight for him as fast as I can. I lunge full force at Stone, lowering my shoulder and tackling him into a nearby tent. My seven-foot-tall body is much bigger than his, and I easily take him out. My wolf howls inside me at the pride of defending my mate against the biggest wolf here.
I"m tangled in the tent, but release myself easily, jumping to my feet and getting into a fighting stance. I will fight the alpha to the death if I have to. She"s rightfully mine, and I won"t let anyone so much as look at her. As Stone gets to his feet, Dominic gets between the two of us.
"X! No!" Dominic is holding his hands up and his eyes are pleading for me to stop, but my wolf is going crazy inside me. He wants out, and I don"t know how much longer I"ll be able to hold him.
I lock eyes with Stone, and it"s then he remembers who I am. Something like regret pa.s.ses across his eyes, but I can"t be sure before it"s gone and rage replaces it. He looks away from me, but I don"t take my eyes off him. I can sense my mate is close, and I need to keep my eyes on the threat to her.
"I won"t let him take her." Stone looks around us, but I don"t care who sees. I will defeat him in front of the pack and whoever else is here. I"m sure there are humans present, but I can"t see beyond my tunnel vision. The mating bond has taken over me, and I"m blinded to all reason.
"Mine!"
I turn around to find my mate and make sure she"s not scared. When our eyes meet, I feel the pounding beat of my heart in my ears. I look into the sweet innocent eyes of my beloved. The eyes that have haunted my dreams all these years. The eyes I wished to look into every single day. The eyes I never believed could be mine. It"s my sleeping beauty, and she"s my mate.
"He"s not stable. I won"t let him take her." Stone"s words break through my fogged mind. "I"ll put him down first."
I snap back to look at him to tell him what I"ll do to him if he tries it, but I hear a loud growl and turn back in time to see the source is my mate. Pride swells in my chest, and I can feel the alpha blood in her body. My wolf senses that she"s matched well with us, both of us respect her inner strength. I see her wolf come forward in her eyes, and my wolf comes forward to match hers. He wants to claim her, and he won"t wait much longer.
"Everyone just calm down. Xavier, come over here to me." I hear Ruby call my name, and while I care for her as a close friend, it"s not her place to step into this fight. Even less so when she"s carrying cubs.
"Mine!" Again, my mate lashes out, and my heart fills with pride. She could lead her own pack with the power that"s inside her. She"s my true match.
"G.o.dd.a.m.n it. All of you knock it the f.u.c.k off!" Dominic"s voice silences everyone. He looks at me, and I see the compa.s.sion in his eyes. "Let him take her. He won"t hurt her."
Dominic, having a mate of his own, understands what"s happening. I would never harm a single hair on my mate"s head. My life is now dedicated to hers until my last breath.
"No." Stone says the single word to Dominic, but his eyes are locked on me in challenge. So be it.
"I"ll fight you and win." I have no problems shredding him to pieces if he"s what"s standing between me and what"s mine. I crouch, preparing to attack him. I can smell my mate"s fear, my body and wolf already attuned to her. I turn to meet my love"s eyes and try to ease her worries. "You have nothing to fear from me. I"ll prove I"m strong and a good mate. You"ll see."
"Don"t hurt my brother." Her words are tender, and I can see that she cares for her litter mate. He"s also the alpha, so she"ll feel even more loyalty to him.
"I never wish to harm your family unless they keep you from me. It"s best they learn now that I"m strong. They"re no compet.i.tion against me. I"ll always win." I don"t want to hurt anyone she cares for, but I will never allow anyone to stand in my way when it comes to her.
"I"ll have to get in the middle of you and him."
Her words hurt me and make me angry. I won"t have her come between me and something else. I"ll never have her in danger. I see now that this situation is upsetting her, and I need to take us away from it.
Letting out a loud growl, I leap over to her and throw her over my shoulder, preparing to run with her back to the woods. As soon as I have her in my arms, a shooting pain hits my hip, and I drop to my knees, careful to cradle my mate and not drop her. The pain is excruciating, and I feel a drug spread through my body. It"s slowing me and making my limbs heavy.
"They can"t keep you from me." My mouth is dry, but I look into her eyes, needing to tell her that I love her. I"ve waited so long to have her, but I feel myself slipping away. "My beauty."
She touches my face, and my wolf howls as I lose consciousness.
I"m know I"m dreaming because it"s the same one I always have of her. It"s a memory of when I was younger and I watched her.
It"s nighttime, and I"m outside her bedroom window, watching her sleep. She started keeping her window open a few days ago, and I don"t know if it"s because she knows I watch her, or just because she likes the night air.
Breathing deep, I take in her sweet scent of roses and it makes me feel calm. Something about being near her makes me feel whole.
Softly, I start to hum a lullaby, hoping I can reach her in her sleep. She rolls to her side, facing me, and in the moonlight I can see she"s still fast asleep. The blanket has fallen off her legs, showing me that she"s only in her panties and an oversized t-shirt.
For a second I stop humming and just look at her. I feel a tightness in my chest at seeing so much of her young body like this. I should leave, but I can"t find it in myself to do so. Instead, I look away, not wanting to take any more of her innocence, just by seeing her like this, than I already have. I look at the moon and start to hum the lullaby again, hoping to soothe her in her dreams.
I should go. I should leave. But I can"t. Instead, I watch the moon and sing to her as I steal her sweet scent for my own selfish comfort. I feel the word forming like it has every other time I have the dream. Every time I wake up, it"s with her name on my lips.
Chapter Five.
Gwen
"Gwen."
I wake up with a throbbing headache and a pain in my hip. As soon as I"m conscious, I shift into my wolf. It"s a protective instinct, my wolf taking over and wanting to be ready if there"s an attack.
Spending so many years in the woods gave my wolf more control. So when he pushes forward, I don"t fight it. I feel my body change and morph into my inner beast, bones snapping as I easily shred my tight clothing. I feel so much stronger with him in control, and I feel safer inside him. I"m still mentally aware of everything happening to me, and that makes me feel powerful.
Looking around, I see that I"m in a cage. My wolf doesn"t like it, and we start to walk the perimeter to see what our boundaries are. The cell is large, probably twelve feet by twelve feet with a cot on one end and a toilet on the other. I look up and down and see the solid steel bars that run from ceiling to floor and are grounded in concrete. I"m strong but not that strong. The pain in my hip starts to lessen to a dull throb, and I tip my head back to smell the wound on my back flank. I can scent a trace of the tranquilizer they must have used on me. I growl.
My mate is out there, and I need to get to her. I feel the need growing inside me, but I try to calm myself and think. I need to be smart about this. If I let myself turn towards the need, I"ll go crazy in a cell not able to get to her.
I turn around, looking beyond my cell, and see that I"m in a large concrete room. There"s nothing else down here besides my cell, but I can see the small windows that line the top of the ceiling indicating I"m in a bas.e.m.e.nt. The windows are too small for even my human form to escape, and I start to pace the front of the cell, trying to look for weaknesses.
Raising my nose, I scent the room, trying to find a trace of something. I want to find out where I am, and then I can begin to find a way out.
I lean into the bars. I can smell Stone"s scent. I"m either at his house, or he brought me to this place. I get a faint scent of Dominic as well, and I feel a little betrayed. He may have only been doing what the alpha told him, but it still stings to think he would cage me after everything we"ve been through.
I pace the cage a few more times until I hear two sets of boots above me, and then I hear a lock clicking. I keep up the steady prowl of my cage door, waiting on whoever has me to show their face.
When Dominic and Stone come down the stairs, I"m not surprised. I have some words to say to them, but I"m not ready to shift yet.
Dominic looks over at Stone and shakes his head. "I told you he"d be like this."
Stone crosses his arms and widens his stance, looking unmovable. "He"ll stay there for as long as I think he needs."
Dominic turns to me and I see the flash in his eyes. I don"t know if it"s anger or pity, or maybe a little of both. "X, change back. We need to talk."
I look from Dom to Stone and shake my head. I need my wolf to be ready if they try something. If they open the cage, I need to be able to break out. I feel more comfortable in this form right now, so if they need to talk, it"s just gonna be on their side.
"Fine. If this is how we need to do it." Dominic turns to Stone but neither of them speak. Finally, Dom rolls his eyes and begins talking. "I knew Gwen was your mate after the first time you saw Ruby and you tried to claim her. You said you scented your mate at the time, and Gwen worked with Ruby. Gwen makes all the cookies and that"s why you always like those best. Her scent is on them."
I see tension flow through Stone but I don"t care. Hearing about my mate makes my need rise in me, and I start to whine.
"You can"t have her," Stone growls.
I lunge at the bars of the cell, and Stone takes a step back. I feel a little satisfaction in the fact that I can rattle him.
"Everyone, calm down!" Dom yells, and I take a breath.
I need to get out of here, and I need to relax to do that. If I can somehow convince them that I"m docile, maybe they"ll let me out and I can escape.
"Stone, you know he"ll go crazy if he can"t get to her. He"ll go insane, and some wolves don"t come back from that."
Stone gives me a cold look and then turns to Dom. "Would you give him over to Ruby?"
"She"s my mate. That"s different." Dominic snaps.
"Gwen is my little sister. She"s all that I have left. I have to protect her." Stone looks over at me and his eyes narrow. "Just like you should have protected your little sister."
I snarl and lunge at the bars again, this time I throw my shoulder against them, and I feel some give. I snap at him, wanting nothing more than to sink my teeth into his flesh to punish him for his words. Pain rolls through me as the loss of my mother and sister hits me hard. He"s right. I should have protected them. What kind of mate can I be to Gwen?
"G.o.dd.a.m.n it, Stone. What is wrong with you? That was an accident. There wasn"t anything anyone could have done and you f.u.c.king know it." Dom looks at me, and I"m sure they can both smell my pain. "That was a long time ago, and we"re all still hurting for your loss."
Stone lets his arms uncross and drop to his sides. "I"m sorry, brother." I look into his eyes and I can see the remorse. He would only bring up something so painful if he was hurting, too. "She"s all the family I have left. I"m unmated, and if she"s mated to you, then I have nothing."
I feel the weight of his words and I understand. I know what it was like to be lonely for so long. Even if I put the isolation on myself, it wasn"t easy. I have things I need to say to Stone, so I rein in my wolf and shift back to human form.
Once I"m in control of my skin again, I lock eyes with Stone and try not to challenge him. "You never liked me looking at her. Even before I went into isolation."
"She was too young." He grits the words out and clenches his fists. There"s something odd about the way he says it. Like he"s angry with himself as well. "She wasn"t of age, and you were looking at her wrong. You should have controlled it. You should have walked away from her."
"Wrong? I never crossed a line with Gwen. My wolf knew she was special to me. We didn"t know at the time she was my mate, but yes, I was drawn to her when she was young."
"You watched her sleep." Again, Stone"s words are saying one thing, but guilt is pouring from him. "It wasn"t right. You shouldn"t have looked at her when she was underage. Even if you never acted on it."
I want to question it, but I"m trying to control myself. I"ve been away from my mate for too long and the need is rising.
"I was with Gwen the day I lost my family. I felt so guilty because I was with her instead of protecting my family. I couldn"t bear to be around anyone again after that. If I couldn"t protect my family, how could I protect her?" The confession makes my heart ache, but it"s the truth. I need Stone to understand my pain and let me out of here.
"And now that you"re mated to her, will you be able to protect her?" Stone"s jaw tics, and I can feel his anger. "Because I will let you die in this cage before I allow her to be with someone who can"t protect her.
Wrapping my hands around the bars, I step close and let Stone see the full size of my body. I"m naked, but no one is fazed by that; it"s normal for shifters. "I will die for her without hesitation. But don"t forget, alpha," I say the word with emphasis because we both know I could take him in a fight, "if you keep me from her, not only will I go mad, but so will she. Gwen will feel every ounce of pain you"re willing to inflict on me."
He raises his chin mockingly. "I"m prepared to drug her until you"re gone and the need pa.s.ses." My eyes go wide and a growl erupts from my chest.
I hear Dominic"s intake of breath. "Stone, you can"t be serious."
He turns to the Dom and crosses his arms again. "I"ll do whatever it takes to keep her safe."
I let go of the bars and step to the back of the cell. It won"t do me any good to lose my s.h.i.t right now. I take deep breaths and keep calm as I try to think of a way out of this.
"Stone, the pack won"t let you do this, alpha or not. You"re going against nature by keeping them separated. You can"t do it."
I feel my heartbeat pick up speed, and my wolf pushes forward. The need is coming over me and it"s getting out of control.
"Look at him. He"s already hurting and it"s only been a couple of hours. Gwen is going to be feeling the same pain as him. Is that what you want to do to her?"
I can"t look up to see his response. I"m too taken over by the pain. I let my wolf push forward, letting go of my skin and feeling him take control. It lessens the pain some when I"m fully shifted and all my senses are at their peak.
I start to prowl the cage again, going from one side to the other, keeping my eyes locked on Stone. I growl low in my chest, feeling the vibrations run through my body. It"s a challenge to Stone and to anyone else wanting to stand in my way.
He may have me caged, but at some point I"ll get free, and when I do, I"ll claim Gwen. Nothing will stand in the way of me and my mate.
"I"m getting the tranquilizer gun again. I think he needs to calm down before we can talk to him again." Stone turns to leave, and Dominic looks at me with panic in his eyes.
He watches Stone go up the stairs, and he turns back to me. "I"ll do what I can to protect you, friend. He"s gone a little crazy himself, and I don"t know what"s going on. Be patient and try to stay calm. I know the mating is pulling you, but it won"t be much longer, and I"ll help you get out of here." With those words, he walks up the stairs and shuts the door, locking it behind him.
Feeling a warmth in my chest, I close my eyes and let it flow through me. My eyes snap open and I feel her. My mate is here.