Falling In Love With A Yakuza

The ghost of a smirk appears on his face and I can"t quite tell if I was dreaming or if he really just did show some emotion at me? Without any warning, he gets inside and then I realize, he has two dudes in black with black shades right behind him. They follow and stand by both of his sides. The elevator closes and I"m left there, staring hard at this back that seems so familiar.

The man just continues to re-adjust the ends of his black suit and I"m literally drowning in the masculine perfume that emanates from his luxurious looking clothing.

He is in an all black suit, and a white shirt. He has his black hair tied in a bun just like in the picture and I feel like I"m going crazy over the excitement I"m currently feeling. Is this really happening?

As I"m lost in my thoughts I feel Yui stinging me, I look her way and by some really complicated hand signals I understand that she"s asking me why I"m staring so hard.

Embarra.s.sed I brush her question off and I look away.

Then I hear a slight chuckle. The most beautiful one yet... did he just laugh at this awkward situation?

My gaze follows his direction and I see him going away as soon as the elevator opens again.

I want to run outside to see him again but Yui pulls me back inside.

"What the f.u.c.k? What are you doing?" She asks.

"I- Yui this man is the one I"ve been looking for all this time!"

She rolls her eyes.

"You mean to tell me that just like that you met the man of your life? Oh come one!"

"No ! You idiot! I"m talking about work! I"ve been looking up for this dude for months now!"

"Oh" she says before throwing an annoyed sigh.

"What." I ask annoyed by her annoyed tone.

"Well I just think that if you could leave your work at "work" sometimes..."

I then sigh.

"Sorry... I just got pretty excited... I never expected to meet him like this ever..."

She stares for a few minutes before helping me out of the elevator.

"Okayyyy... I"ll let you off this time... but don"t do anything wrong and don"t put yourself in any awkward situation with the people in here... they"re not all trustworthy."

I smile and hug her quickly.

"Thank you so much!"

She smiles back before leading me where her father is standing with a cup of champagne in his right hand. At our sight, he smiles, eager to see us.

"Yui, finally. And Kanna you"re still as pretty as ever" he says with a familiar pat in the shoulder. I smile back.

"Thank you for receiving me" I say while accepting the cup of champagne Yui is handing me.

"We"re late because this girl you"re calling a "beauty" forgot about today and I had to take care of everything at the last minute.

He throws an amused glance at me before laughing, followed by his daughter. Then they start talking about this and that and we all laugh. But all the time I"m just staring through the crowd looking for him.

This is such a golden opportunity... I have to find him. But nothing. It is almost 2h30 and he still hasn"t shown himself.

Sitting at the table with Yui, her dad and some of her dad"s friends I feel suddenly out of place. I always get this feeling when I am in a place full of random people. I always feel like I don"t belong there.

My head is starting to spin due to the heavy champagne in my system. I need some air, it"s getting hot, and I"m tired... I need to get out of here.

I turn to Yui who"s still laughing with her father and friends.

"Hey... I really wanna lay down now, I"m sorry, I drank too much." I say.

She looks at me, a bit worried, then she goes to her dad and gets up.

" I"ll just get her to my room okay?"

He "hums" and she helps me up. While we"re walking out, I can"t help but notice all the eyes on us. Actually, I noticed hours ago that we were being stared at by the gentlemen but I didn"t really pay attention to it, already had my priorities.

As we reach the elevator, she turns to me.

"I"m really happy you came Kanna, thanks"

I smile, still feeling like my head is spinning.

"It"s okay... I would"ve stayed more but this is..."

"Hey don"t worry about it, you pushed yourself enough for me"

I smile again and next thing, the elevator opens again. As we"re walking out of it, Yui gets a call.

"Hey" she answers.

"Yeah... I"m helping my friend to our room can you wait for me?"

"What?? No that"s impossible! Hey! You better wait there!"

She turns to me and hands me a lock card.

"I"m so sorry, there is a problem with-

"Don"t worry... I"m good, its just there right?"

"Yeah, door 12 438, Eric already packed his stuff so the bed is free. I"ll join you later okay?" She says before running back to the elevator.

I chuckle for a few seconds before walking to the door. As I reach it I feel extremely hot, like really hot. This dress, everything is suffocating me... I need some fresh air.

I open up the door and quickly get inside, it locks itself automatically behind me and I literally run to the terrace and the fresh air just feels magical. Extending my arms to both sides of my body, eyes closed, I enjoy the fresh automnal freeze.

Enjoying the sound of car honks, of busy roads, loud music from the party just floors under and this lovely familiar perfume... wait what?

I open my eyes and look around. The next second, I can"t actually believe what I"m seeing. It"s him. On my terrace, sitting nonchalantly on the borders of the terrace, not the least scared that he is more than 70 meters up far from the floor.

My heart is beating fast and I can"t even tell if this is a dream or if it"s real. He removed his coat, his white shirt is slightly unb.u.t.toned at the top, he"s staring right at me with his almond eyes, a nonchalant look on his face and a traditional wood between his white teeth.

"What is happening?..." I ask myself, too loudly.

He doesn"t move, still sitting on the dangerous edges and I start feeling nervous.

" You probably should get down... it"s very dangerous to sit on these edges..." I say getting closer to him.

He doesn"t move, but his eyes follow me while I"m getting closer to him.

I don"t know if it"s the alcohol or the sleepiness but I don"t feel scared or threatened at all. Knowing this man is a dangerous criminal doesn"t make me shiver in any way... I"m just completely driven to him... his attractiveness is like a magnet. Uncontrollable.

I didn"t even notice but I"m so close that I can feel his hot breath on my forehead. He dominates me by his tall figure and I search for his gaze for a moment.

He is looking down right at me, and even though it is quite impossible to read his thoughts through these almonds of his, a little smart voice tells me that he is slightly amused by my braveness.

I put a hand on the border next to his hand and throw a glance at him again.

"Aren"t you scared..." I ask, a confusing smile on my face, but my eyes are playful.

He starts playing with the wood between his teeth and I continue.

"I might push you over..." I say.

Then his eyes literally light fire. He seems to like this situation and gets the wood out of his mouth before throwing it over the edge. He suddenly gets closer to my face and, still looking at me straight in my eyes he finally speaks.

"Do it."

His tone is defying, he"s testing me. This man really doesn"t seem to be scared of anything.

I try to change the subject. Still this close to his face.

"Why are you here?" I ask

He doesn"t draw back, his nose literally touching mine.

"Do it" he repeats.

I don"t answer. My drunk self too absorbed by his beauty. I can see the beginning of tattoos on his neck. I heard about the several tattoos gang members usually get but I never saw one before.

My hand reaches for his collar and I can read excitement in his eyes. He clearly loves the adrenaline...

"Why are you here?" I whisper, feeling my heart dangerously rushing in my chest as I"m touching him. I should"ve never drank... but I can"t help myself...

He still stares at me, a bit amused by my wandering hands. I look for his eyes again and Lord... this man is absolutely beautiful... the attractiveness is undeniable. What are you doing Kanna? He"s dangerous Kanna...

"You"re dangerous..." I repeat.

And he just stands there, stoïc. Next thing I know he gets off the borders and walks around my terrace. He takes his time, staring at the city facing us, then he turns to me.

"Being nosy will bring you nothing but trouble, woman." He speaks.

My throat knots and I realize I"ve been uncovered. His dark eyes do nothing but make my nervousness rise.

"Are you here to kill me?" I ask, hardly hiding my nervousness.

He smiles and slowly starts to get closer. I take a few steps back but he locks me between both his arms and the border of the terrace, forcing me to look at him.

He has the most beautiful yet poisonous smile. It inspires nothing but fear, but why do I feel like he is just putting up a front?

"If I wanted you dead, you would be already."

"Why are you leaving me alive?"

"I always give too many chances to my preys." He says with a s.a.d.i.s.tic smile painted on his lips.

I stare at his small smirk and can"t possibly look away.

"I"m your prey then?"

"You have your answer, since I"m standing right before you."

"Why am I your prey?"

"You stuff your nose in business that have nothing to do with you."

"It"s my job."

"It"s also mine to make nosy people disappear."

"..."

He backs up, his smile has disappeared.

"Take this as a warning. Because the next time you see me, your life won"t be yours anymore."

I loudly gulp and next thing I know he is walking on the borders again like it is a game for him. The next minute he is on the terrace of the room next to mine and he gets inside with a last nonchalant glance at me.

When he gets out of my sight, I then realize that I have been holding my breath all the time he was in my face. I fall down and try to calm my heart down but it"s not easy.

I just got threatened by the oyabun (: yakuza boss) himself. As I"m trying to catch up my breath I hear the door close.

"Kanna?" It"s Yui.

I get up and run to hug her. She seems surprised.

"You"re not sleeping?"

"Oh my G.o.d Yui I-..."

I stop and think for a few seconds. I shouldn"t get her involved at all... not when it has become this messy and dangerous.

"What? Kanna tell me! What"s wrong?"

I smile tenderly then hug her again.

"I couldn"t sleep so I went outside to get some fresh air that"s all, I"ve missed you" I lie.

She seems to believe me and tightens the hug.

"You"re really drunk aren"t you?" She says before laughing.

I brush it off and she helps me out of my dress and make up. 15 minutes later after bathing and cleaning our faces ofg the make up, we"re both in bed. She falls asleep very easily and I"m just there, lost in my thoughts. This man"s presence was very overwhelming he barely says a word and you can feel his dominance and power.

I can"t believe we"ve met just like that after all these months I"ve been looking for him. I guess I was doing a pretty good job while digging if I attracted that much of his attention that he had to check me himself.

With an annoyed sigh, I get up and walk to the terrace again. It"s freezing now but I could care less. I walk to the border where he was sitting earlier and I just feel the surface.

Why the h.e.l.l am I not scared of him? He is the youngest and most dangerous mafia G.o.d in j.a.pan right now. He has thousands of men ready to kill for him and here I am drawn to him like a magnet. Despite his warning, despite him checking me himself, I just wanna know more about him.

If Jean Jacques Rousseau was right, then even he has a good side in him. All this crime all this mafia thing is just a front... he has ulterior motives, ulterior good intentions, like protecting his family from other gangs, fighting for the people he loves. I wanna know more...

I know I still have alcohol in my system, and it"s probably the reason why I am so crazy that I"m standing up on the edges of the terrace trying to reach his.

A voice is telling me to get the f.u.c.k down now but I don"t want to listen. I just want to see him. I want to learn more about him... why did his ex-fiancé kill herself? Why did she feel like he did not love her? How did he feel when she was gone? I have so many answers and thank G.o.d I am drunk today, I don"t feel the least scared of all the crazy lengths I"m going through just for this f.u.c.king story.

As I"m standing up on the edges, I suddenly look down. Bad idea.

I realize how high I currently am and realize how dangerous this situation is. My heart is dangerously racing and I can"t feel my body trembling. I almost lose balance and close my eyes to calm myself down.

I reopen my eyes and stare down at the terrace I"m trying to reach. Next thing I know I"m ridiculously jumping to reach it. Wrong move.

I reach it, but only my hand, and now I"m hanging on the border, if my hand slides off I"m long gone. But, miraculously, I make it and and am crawling up the other side of the terrace.

As I reach the room I stand there and curse myself out. The room is empty... he has already left...

I walk inside and lurk every corner. He was here a few hours ago. This incredibly handsome and dangerous man was probably sleeping on this bed a few hours ago.

I fall back on the bed and close my eyes. Trying my best to remember his dark and dangerous gaze, his sleek hair and his evil smirk. I wanna see him again. Like h.e.l.l, I absolutely have to see him again.

"...the next time you see me, your life won"t be yours anymore."

Take it. Take all of it...