"He"s a wimp."
"Exactly."
Martie hesitated but then finally cracked open the door. "We"ll be finished with dinner by eight o"clock, maybe sooner. In bed by eleven, as usual. I"ll be waiting for your call."
"Thanks, Martie."
"De nada."
"Give Dusty a kiss for me."
"It"ll be a dry peck on the cheek. All the good wet stuff comes strictly from me."
Martie pulled her hood over her head, stepped out onto the landing, and drew the door shut behind her.
The air had grown still, as though the wind had been pressed out of the day by this enormous weight of falling rain, which came down like cataracts of iron pellets.
She waited until she heard Susan engage the dead bolt, a solid Schlage lock that would hold against serious a.s.sault. Then she quickly descended the long, steep flight of stairs.
At the bottom, she stopped, turned, and peered up toward the landing and the apartment door.
Susan Jagger seemed like a beautiful princess in a fairy tale, imprisoned in a tower, besieged by trolls and malevolent spirits, with no brave prince to save her.
As the gray day reverberated with the ceaseless booming of big storm waves on the nearby sh.o.r.e, Martie hurried along the beach promenade to the nearest street, where gutters overflowed and dirty water churned around the tires of her red Saturn.
She hoped Dusty had taken advantage of the bad weather to be domestic and to make his incomparable meatb.a.l.l.s and spicy tomato sauce. Nothing would be more rea.s.suring than stepping into the house and seeing him in a cooking ap.r.o.n, a gla.s.s of red wine near at hand. The air would be full of delicious aromas. Good retro pop music-maybe Dean Martin-on the stereo. Dusty"s smile, his embrace, his kiss. After this bizarre day, she needed all the cozy rea.s.surances of home and hearth and husband.
As Martie started the car, a sickening vision blazed through her mind, burning away all hope that the day might yet bring her a small measure of peace and rea.s.surance. This was more real than an ordinary mental picture, so detailed and intense that it seemed as if it were happening right here, right now. She was convinced that she was flashing forward to a terrible incident that would would happen, receiving a glimpse of an inevitable moment in the future, toward which she was plunging as surely as if she"d thrown herself off a cliff. When she thrust the key into the ignition, her mind filled with an image of an eye pierced by the wicked point of the key, gouged by the serrated edge, which sank into the brain behind the eye. Even as she jammed the key into the car ignition, she twisted it, and simultaneously the key in her vivid premonition also twisted in the eye. happen, receiving a glimpse of an inevitable moment in the future, toward which she was plunging as surely as if she"d thrown herself off a cliff. When she thrust the key into the ignition, her mind filled with an image of an eye pierced by the wicked point of the key, gouged by the serrated edge, which sank into the brain behind the eye. Even as she jammed the key into the car ignition, she twisted it, and simultaneously the key in her vivid premonition also twisted in the eye.
Without any conscious awareness of having opened the door, Martie found herself out of the car, leaning against the side of it, bringing up her lunch onto the rainwashed street.
She stood there for a long while, head bent.
Her raincoat hood had slipped back. Soon her hair was soaked.
When she was sure that she was fully purged, she reached into the car, plucked tissues from a box of Kleenex, and wiped her lips.
She always kept a small bottle of water in the car. Now she used it to rinse out her mouth.
Though still a little queasy, she got into the Saturn and pulled the door shut.
The engine was idling. She wouldn"t have to touch the key again until she was parked in her garage in Corona Del Mar.
Wet, cold, miserable, frightened, confused, she wanted more than anything to be safe at home, to be dry and warm and among familiar things.
She was shaking too much to drive. She waited almost fifteen minutes before she finally released the hand brake and put the car in gear.
Although she desperately wanted to go home, she was afraid of what might happen when she got there. No. She was being dishonest with herself. She wasn"t afraid of what would happen. happen. She was afraid of She was afraid of what she might do. what she might do.
The eye that she had seen in her premonition-if, indeed, that"s what it had been-was not merely any eye. It had been a distinctive shade of gray-blue, l.u.s.trous and beautiful. Just like Dusty"s eyes.
18.
At New Life Clinic, the positive psychological influences provided by animals were thought to be useful in certain cases, and Valet was welcome. Dusty parked near the portico, and by the time they got into the building, they were only slightly damp, which was a disappointment to the dog. Valet was a retriever, after all, with webbed feet, a love of water, and enough aquatic talent to qualify him for the Olympic synchronized-swimming team.
In his second-floor quarters, Skeet was fast asleep atop the covers, fully clothed, shoes off.
The bleak winter afternoon pressed its fading face to the window, and shadows gathered in the room. The only other light issued from a small battery-powered reading lamp clipped to the book that Tom Wong, the male nurse, was reading.
After scratching Valet behind the ears, Tom took advantage of their visit to go on a break.
Dusty quietly unpacked both suitcases, stowed the contents in dresser drawers, and took up the vigil in the armchair. Valet settled at his feet.
Two hours of daylight remained, but the shadows in the corners spun expanding webs until Dusty switched on the pharmacy lamp beside the chair.
Although Skeet was curled in the fetal position, he looked not like a child, but like a desiccated corpse, so gaunt and thin that his clothes appeared to be draped over a fleshless skeleton.
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Going home, Martie drove with extreme care not only because of the bad weather but also because of her condition. The prospect of a sudden-onset anxiety attack at sixty miles an hour was daunting. Fortunately, no freeways connected the Balboa Peninsula with Corona Del Mar; the entire trip was on surface streets, and she remained behind the slowest-moving vehicles.
On Pacific Coast Highway, before she was even halfway home, traffic came to a complete stop. Forty or fifty cars ahead, the revolving red and blue emergency beacons of ambulances and police cars marked the site of an accident.
Caught in the jam-up, she used her cell phone to call Dr. Closterman, her internist, hoping to get an appointment the next day, in the morning if possible. "It"s something of an emergency. I mean, I"m not in pain or anything, but I"d rather see him about this as soon as possible."
"What"re your symptoms?" the receptionist asked.
Martie hesitated. "This is pretty personal. I"d rather talk about it only with Dr. Closterman."
"He"s gone for the day, but we could squeeze you in the schedule about eight-thirty in the morning."
"Thank you. I"ll be there," Martie said, and she terminated the call.
A thin shroud of gray fog billowed in from the harbor, and needles of rain st.i.tched it around the body of the dying day.
From the direction of the accident, an ambulance approached along the oncoming lanes, which contained little traffic.
Neither the siren nor the emergency beacons were in operation. Evidently the patient was beyond all medical help, not actually a patient anymore, but a package bound for a mortuary.
Solemnly, Martie watched the vehicle pa.s.s in the rain, and then turned her gaze to the side mirror, where the taillights dwindled in the mist. She had no way of knowing for sure that the ambulance was indeed now a morgue wagon; nevertheless, she was convinced that it held a corpse. She felt Death pa.s.sing by.
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As he watched over Skeet while waiting for Tom Wong to return, the last thing Dusty wanted to think about was the past, yet his mind drifted back to the childhood he"d shared with Skeet, to Skeet"s imperial father-and, worse, to the man who had followed that b.a.s.t.a.r.d as head of the household. Husband number four. Dr. Derek Lampton, neo-Freudian psychologist, psychiatrist, lecturer, and author.
Their mother, Claudette, had a fondness for intellectuals-especially for those who were also megalomaniacs.
Skeet"s father, the false Holden, had lasted until Skeet was nine years old and Dusty was fourteen. The two of them celebrated his departure by staying up all night, watching scary movies, eating bales of potato chips and buckets of Baskin-Robbins chocolate-peanut-b.u.t.ter ice cream, which had been verboten under the strict low-fat, no-salt, no-sugar, no-additives, no-fun n.a.z.i diet enforced for all kids-though not adults-during his dictatorship. In the morning, half nauseated from their gluttony, grainy-eyed with exhaustion, but giddy with their newfound freedom, they managed to stay awake a few extra hours in order to search the neighborhood until they acc.u.mulated two pounds of dog droppings, which they hermetically boxed and posted to the deposed despot"s new digs.
Although the package was sent anonymously, with a false return address, they figured that the professor might deduce the ident.i.ties of the senders, because after enough double martinis, he sometimes bemoaned his son"s learning disability by claiming that a reeking pile of manure had greater potential for academic accomplishment than did Skeet: You are about as erudite as excrement, boy, no more scholarly than a stool sample, as cultured as c.r.a.p, less comprehending than cow chips, as perceptive as p.o.o.p. You are about as erudite as excrement, boy, no more scholarly than a stool sample, as cultured as c.r.a.p, less comprehending than cow chips, as perceptive as p.o.o.p. By sending him the box of dog waste, they were challenging him to put his lofty educational theories to work and transform the dog droppings into a better student than Skeet. By sending him the box of dog waste, they were challenging him to put his lofty educational theories to work and transform the dog droppings into a better student than Skeet.
Days after the counterfeit Caulfield"s b.u.t.t was kicked out into the rye field, Dr. Lampton took up residence. Because all the adults were excruciatingly civilized and eager to facilitate one another"s quests for personal fulfillment, Claudette announced to her children that a quick and uncontested divorce would be followed immediately by a new marriage.
Dusty and Skeet ceased all celebration. Within twenty-four hours, they knew that soon the day would come when they would be nostalgic for the golden age during which they had been marked by the ruling thumb of the humbug Holden, because Dr. Derek Lampton would no doubt brand them with his traditional ID number: 666.
Now Skeet brought Dusty back from the past: "You look like you just ate a worm. What"re you thinking about?"
He was still in the fetal position on the bed, but his rheumy eyes were open.
"Lizard Lampton," Dusty said.
"Oh, man, you think too much about him, and I"ll be trying to talk you you down from a roof." Skeet swung his legs off the bed and sat up. down from a roof." Skeet swung his legs off the bed and sat up.
Valet went to Skeet and licked his trembling hands.
"How"re you feeling?" Dusty asked.
"Postsuicidal."
"Post is good." Dusty withdrew two lottery tickets from his shirt pocket and offered them to Skeet. "As promised. Picked these up at the convenience store near here, where they sold the big winning ticket last November. That thirty-million-dollar jackpot."
"Keep them away from me. My touch"ll suck the luck right out of "em."
Dusty went to the nightstand, opened the drawer, and withdrew the Bible. He paged through it, scanning the verses, and then read a line from Jeremiah: ""Blessed is the man who trusts in G.o.d." How"s that?"
"Well, I"ve learned not to trust in methamphetamines."
"That"s progress," Dusty said. He tucked the pair of tickets into the Bible, at the page from which he"d read, closed the book, and returned it to the drawer.
Skeet got up from the bed and tottered toward the bathroom. "Gotta pee."
"Gotta watch."
Turning on the bathroom light, Skeet said, "Don"t worry, bro. Nothing in here I could kill myself with."
"You might try to flush yourself down the john," Dusty said, stepping into the open doorway.
"Or make a hangman"s noose out of toilet paper."
"See, you"re too clever. You require diligent security."
The toilet had a sealed tank and a b.u.t.ton-flush mechanism: no parts that could be easily disa.s.sembled to locate a metal edge sharp enough to slash a wrist.
A minute later, as Skeet was washing his hands, Dusty withdrew the folded pages of the notepad from his pocket and read aloud Skeet"s handwritten message: "Dr. Yen Lo."
The bar of soap slipped out of Skeet"s grip, into the sink. He didn"t try to pick it up. He leaned against the sink, his hands under the spout, water sluicing the lather off his fingers.
He had said something as he dropped the soap, but his words had not been clear over the sound of the running water.
Dusty c.o.c.ked his head. "What"d you say?"
Raising his voice slightly, Skeet repeated: "I"m listening."
Puzzled by that response, Dusty asked, "Who"s Dr. Yen Lo?"
Skeet didn"t reply.
His back was to Dusty. Because his head was bowed, his face couldn"t be seen in the mirror. He seemed to be staring at his hands, which he still held under the running water, although every trace of soap had been rinsed from them.
"Hey, kid?"
Silence.
Dusty moved into the cramped bathroom, beside his brother.
Skeet stared down at his hands, eyes shining as if with wonder, mouth open in what appeared to be awe, as though the answer to the mystery of existence was in his grasp.
Soap-scented clouds of steam had begun to rise out of the sink. The running water was fiercely hot. Skeet"s hands, usually so pale, were an angry red.
"Good G.o.d." Dusty quickly turned off the water. The metal faucet was almost too hot to touch.
Evidently feeling no pain, Skeet kept his half-scalded hands under the spout.
Dusty turned on the cold water, and his brother submitted to this new torrent without any change of expression. He had exhibited no discomfort whatsoever from the hot water and now appeared to take no relief from the cold.
In the open doorway, Valet whimpered. Head raised, ears p.r.i.c.ked, he backed a few steps into the bedroom. He knew that something was profoundly wrong.
Dusty took his brother by one arm. Hands held in front of him, gaze still fixed on them, Skeet allowed himself to be led out of the bathroom. He sat on the edge of the bed, hands in his lap, studying them as if reading his fate in the lines of his palms.
"Don"t move," Dusty said, and then he hurried out of the room, in search of Tom Wong.