That was, you could not stomp out your anger when a man had your hand tucked in the crook of his arm and was leading you up some stairs behind an innkeeper.
You also couldn"t do it when you were in the presence of an aristocrat, even if you weren"t one yourself (officially), because that wasn"t the done thing.
But I already knew you couldn"t throw a hissy fit in public, it was rude-in this world, my world or any world, no matter how much reason you had to do it.
That said, I was going to do it when we reached our room.
Yes, our room.
The first day gliding over the frosty tundra with Apollo had gone relatively well. This mostly had to do with Apollo riding beside me through the snow and not attempting conversation.
On my way through Lunwyn the first time, as the men rode close to my sleigh and we chatted, for the most part, my attention had been taken from the landscape.
Without that diversion, I was able to more fully take in the beauty of what was around me. The rolling plains covered in soft snow twinkling in the sun. The vistas dotted with green pines tufted with white. The small villages we pa.s.sed, sleepy and closed away from the cold, smoke drifting lazily from chimneys coming out of roofs covered in marshmallow blankets.
As the glorious white horse with its smoky gray mane (the contrast to Apollo"s fantastic beast, which was smoky gray with an unusual white mane) pulled my dark green lacquered sleigh, I could give it my full attention. And I saw it was far more beautiful than I"d noted on the way in.
This annoyed me. It was silly and even childish, but I didn"t want to like anything that came with Apollo. And considering the latest turn of events, after a wonderful four months that had been the happiest maybe in my life, I was feeling okay with being silly and childish.
One of the worst parts of this turn of events was that it included being in the presence of Apollo.
He was worse than I imagined and he was pretty bad before.
Sure, there were reasons I couldn"t go forth and start my new life, free to be whatever I felt like being. I mean, malevolent magic was imminent and I didn"t want to seem like a wuss, but I didn"t think it was the smartest decision to go it alone in a whole new world when bad witches and vengeful deposed rulers were plotting to unleash misfortune on the land.
And he"d been cool (okay, I had to admit, he"d been relatively kind) when I explained about Christophe and elan.
But mostly he was dictatorial, haughty and arrogant and it really annoyed me when he interrupted me like what I had to say wasn"t as important as what he had to say.
I"d slept on it and come to the decision that being with him would be easier to deal with than being around his children. And I decided this because I decided at the same time to ignore him as much as I could when I was with him.
I could ignore a dictatorial, haughty, arrogant grown man (maybe). I couldn"t ignore kids (definitely).
Decision made, I put it into practice when we stopped briefly for lunch and he tried to engage me in conversation. Without a peep, I turned my eyes away, chomped into the roasted pork sandwich one of his servants (no doubt, I didn"t see Apollo in a kitchen slapping together sandwiches) had provided (which was delicious, by the way) and ignored him.
The good part about this was it worked. He quit trying to talk to me from the moment I looked away from him.
The bad part about this was that when my eyes slid through him moments later, he was leaning against the side of the sleigh, his gaze to the ground, his mouth curved up and I knew it was me he found amusing.
That annoyed me also so I decided to ignore that too.
Off we went maybe ten minutes later and he kept apace with my sleigh but he said nothing further.
He also said nothing when he guided us into a larger village, this one beside a lovely streaming creek that had glistening black rocks at its banks. He took us straight to a building that had a shingle hanging from it that said "Rock Creek Inn" (not original, but apt), where we stopped.
He also said nothing when he wrapped his reins around a post in front of the inn and came back to me, offering his arm as I dismounted from the sleigh. I was, of course, a now-consummate sleigh-driver seeing as Gaston gave me a lesson when we got to Lunwyn and I"d been in charge of my sleigh ever since. Though, truthfully, it wasn"t much to brag about since it wasn"t all that hard.
I took his arm but did it with my face turned away and I didn"t even glance at him because I didn"t want to see if this amused him due to the fact that I knew that would annoy me.
He did curve his fingers around my hand in the crook of his elbow but I ignored that too. Since my hand had rabbit fur-lined gloves on it, I could even pretend his hand wasn"t there.
This was what I did.
He then took us into the inn, right to the desk and instantly asked the innkeeper for his best room.
That would be one room, singular.
It was not your standard Holiday Inn but it had more than one room, I was sure. And I seriously doubted Apollo intended to sleep in my sleigh. Further, the only other time we"d stayed under the same roof overnight, for some insane reason, he"d slept in bed with me.
So he either intended to share a room with me or find somewhere else warm to lie his head (or not lie his head, considering who had shared his bed in Fleuridia before me-it was doubtful he got much rest when he was paying for the time of the person he was with).
Therefore, I was seething but controlling it.
We"d have words in our room.
Which was right where the innkeeper took us, opening the door for us to the room at the very end of the hall on the second floor.
He turned to Apollo, handed him the iron key with a big cross at the top and said, "I"ll have a boy up to start a fire soon"s I can, yer lordship. Would you be requiring any wine, ale or tea to warm you after yer ride?"
I felt Apollo"s eyes on me and I didn"t look at him but I did take this as a sign he was asking me if I wanted any of these things.
"Wine, please," I requested, forcing my tone to sound calm and wishing I could order tequila. Alas, I"d asked the guys and also copiously tasted the various spirits available in this world and tequila wasn"t among them.
"Of course, milady," he muttered.
He glanced at Apollo and when Apollo grunted, "Wine will be fine," the man nodded, skirted us with difficulty (due to the fact that Apollo hadn"t let me go so we were taking up the hallway; nor, might I add, did he move us out of the poor man"s way when he was obviously sucking in his gut to slide by us) and scurried away.
Apollo led me into the room.
The minute he closed the door, I pulled my hand from his elbow and took three paces into the room, sucking in a deep breath.
Then I turned to him but made a show of glancing around the room, taking it all in before I lifted my gaze to his.
When my eyes. .h.i.t him, I noticed he was in the process of rearranging his face. And what he was arranging it from was amus.e.m.e.nt. What he changed it to when my eyes caught his was fake courteous inquiry.
I ignored that and remarked, "This is a lovely room."
Apollo looked around and I knew what he saw since I"d just looked at it.
A bed, double at most, with a quilted bedspread and two fluffy pillows, the pillows being the only good things in room.
The rest included a thick braided rug on the floor that looked like it needed to be taken out and beaten and this needed to be done about twelve months ago. There was not a thing on the walls, not even a chipped mirror. There was a table and two chairs by the window. The table was nicked and scratched. The chairs looked like their comfort level was set at "torture chamber." And over the windows, heavy drab curtains of a nondescript color because whatever color they were originally faded to nothing two decades ago.
His eyes came to mine and his face was studiously blank when he replied, "Indeed."
"I"ll enjoy my brief sojourn here," I shared, ignored the blank look slipping as his eyes flashed with humor and inquired, "Would you care to share where you"ll be sleeping?"
He held my eyes and answered, "In here."
I c.o.c.ked my head to the side. "So I"m to sleep in the sleigh?"
"Not unless you fancy your digits being amputated tomorrow due to frost bite," he replied.
"No, I don"t fancy that," I informed him, taking great pains to keep my tone neutral. "So, will it be you or me sleeping on the floor?"
"Neither."
I took in another deep breath, found calm on the exhale, and asked, "Would you care to explain?"
He did care to explain because he immediately did that.
"I need to get to Bellebryn without delay. You need a constantly vigilant guard. As you"re coming with me, I"m your guard. Therefore, I"m keeping you safe."
"By sleeping with me?" I snapped, at his answer completely failing to keep my tone neutral.
"I can hardly keep you safe if I can"t keep my eye on you."
"The guys managed to keep me safe on the journey here without any of them sleeping with me," I pointed out and his eyes flashed in a different way at my remark.
I"d seen that flash before. It was the way I"d seen them flash the day before when we were talking about Derrik.
"There were eight of them," he stated, cutting into my thoughts. "With eight of them, they could keep watch inside and out. There"s only one of me and I"ll be unable to keep an eye on you if you"re in a different room and I can"t actually see you."
That was logical and totally irrational at the same time.
"Am I in imminent danger of being kidnapped?" I queried.
"I"ve no idea what the imminent danger is. I just know it"s imminent so I"m not taking any chances."
Unfortunately, that was just logical which I found annoying. I wouldn"t know, of course, but I would guess malevolent witches with the power of G.o.ds were more than a vague threat to pretty much everybody so it was probably good to be prepared.
"Perhaps," I began to suggest, "we can request a room with two beds."
His head c.o.c.ked slightly to the side and he asked, "Is this something available in your world?"
"Yes," I replied with the sinking feeling that it wasn"t available in this one.
He confirmed that sinking feeling.
"Well, it isn"t available here."
Fabulous.
"Apollo-"
He cut me off. "We sleep together Ilsa."
I clenched my teeth.
Forcing myself to release them, I drew in another deep breath and tried again.
"Okay, maybe we can request a room with a bigger bed."
"You"ve stayed in inns on your journey, no?"
I had. Many of them. And all of them (albeit, most of them cleaner and nicer) had beds like this. We"d happened onto bigger hotels and lodges along our journey that had way nicer rooms and much bigger beds but not in a village of this size.
Drat.
He a.s.sumed my answer was what it was even not verbalized and continued.
"It will also be warmer."
It most definitely would be that considering he was a big guy, I wasn"t exactly tiny and us sharing that bed would mean personal mattress s.p.a.ce would be at a minimum.
Or possibly non-existent.
s.h.i.t.
I couldn"t reply as there was a knock on the door and seeing as Apollo was standing in front of it, he turned and opened it.
A boy of about ten was standing outside. He looked up at Apollo and dipped his chin. When Apollo moved out of his way, he rushed in, his arms laden with split wood, a bucket dangling from one hand.
"Milady," he muttered to me and didn"t wait for my greeting. He dropped to his knees by the fireplace and started work immediately.
Apollo didn"t get the door closed before a girl was at it, carrying a tray with a dark bottle on it, the top sealed with blue wax, and there were two simple winegla.s.ses on it.
"The table," Apollo muttered to her.
She bobbed a mini-curtsy, strode in two feet, gave me a mini-curtsy too, and then she moved to the table, making light work of depositing her tray and getting out of there.
Before she left, however, Apollo ordered, "Water so Lady Ulfr can refresh."
The girl nodded briefly and took off.
Hmm.
The "Lady Ulfr" bit was something new (the guys had referred to me to staff as "madam"). I didn"t know how to feel about it but decided to ignore it. I ignored it mostly because what I did know how I felt about it was that it irked me at the same time I had to admit (against my will) it was kind of cool.
I also ignored the bobbing a curtsy, something that had happened frequently along my journey from Fleuridia to Lunwyn that I had not yet gotten used to.
Instead I noted, as I"d noted repeatedly along my journey, staff at inns didn"t get tips.
Staff at hotels and lodges did.
I found this slightly irritating since all of them-but by the looks of them especially the ones who worked at inns-could use the money.
Apollo moved to the wine and had it uncorked and gla.s.ses filled by the time the boy got the fire roaring and was backing away from it.