Chapter 999: I Want to Be Strong
Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
Xue Da had not seen his two hearts for a few days. Now that he saw them again, the old man was naturally so happy that he could not close his mouth. He kept touching the heads of his two hearts.
Jiang Yue and Xue Yan only returned home after staying at their grandfather’s place for a while.
However, as soon as they entered the courtyard, they saw Shao Youyue sitting at the entrance of the small houses behind them, basking in the sun. She did not take an afternoon nap because she wasn’t feeling tired. Jiang Yue and Xue
Yan could not help but look at each other.
Then, they went to the back together.
“Xue Yan.” Shao Youyue was naturally happy to see her son. She immediately stopped basking in the sun at the door and brought Jiang Yue and Xue Yan into the house. They sat on the brick bed under the window.
Zi Cui and the others were also very happy and quickly served tea. “Mother, I’m sorry for making you do all of this.” Sitting on the brick bed, Xue Yan felt very guilty. “l want to hide the fact that I’m the Crown Prince from my family so they wouldn’t worry for me. I don’t want my family to give up anything for me. It’s not that I don’t want to tell my family that I’m actually your biological son. I will tell my parents. I won’t let you wait for too long.”
Shao Youyue smiled and shook her head. “It’s better not to say it. It’s quite good this way. I want you to call me mother in public, but I know that this is the best way. Otherwise, it’ll cause too much trouble.
“We’ve already lied and said that I’m your cla.s.smate’s sister. If we tell them, they’ll have to explain that I’m not your cla.s.smate’s sister. Then, if I’m not your cla.s.smate’s sister, who exactly am l? If we say another fake name, wouldn’t we have to lie about more things?
“It’s better to not say anything. We’ll only tell the trust when we can’t hide it anymore.”
At this point, Shao Youyue gently stroked Xue Yan’s head, her tone even more insistent.
“They are all good people and treat me well. Good people should be rewarded.
“Also, Xue Yan, there’s no need to apologize. When have you ever let me down? I’m the one who let you down.
“l didn’t protect you well and let you wander outside when you were so young.
I’m the one that is useless.
“Everyone has to protect me while I can’t protect anyone. I want to be a good Empress, but I can’t even do that. When you went missing, I lost my will to go on. I needed to know where you were, only then can I live my life.
“I knew that I would find you one day, I knew it. If I was a little stronger…
Maybe… Maybe I could have…”
In the end, she couldn’t continue, and her tears kept falling.
“Mother, don’t say that.” Xue Yan hurriedly comforted, “People are all different, you-”
However, before he could finish comforting her, Shao Youyue quickly wiped her tears and smiled. “Look at me, making you all worried about me. I’m fine, Xue Yan. I’m fine. You came back to me. Your sibling will be born soon. I can see things more clearly now. Only by experiencing it will I know… I’ve already thought it through. In the future, I will be strong. No matter what, I won’t be the same as before.’
Thinking that there was no harm in his mother having this determination, Xue Yan nodded his head.
Jiang Yue naturally did not say anything.
She obviously felt that Shao Youyue should be stronger.
Moreover, she had always believed that it was better to rely on herself than others. If she wanted to be strong enough to protect others, then so be it.
However, due to Shao Youyue’s insistence, it was better not to say that it would be impossible in this state of hers. Xue Yan could not tell Xue Dafu and the others that he was Shao Youyue’s biological son who had disappeared since he was young..