"Yes, sir, that is true. But it seemed natural enough that she should like to be alone on account of her grief."
"There must have been some reason for her silence towards me, Sarah. She could not have acted so cruelly without some powerful motive. Heaven only knows what it may have been. The business of my life will be to find her--to see her face to face once more, and hear the explanation of her conduct from her own lips."
He thanked the woman for her information, slipped a sovereign into her hand, and departed. He called upon the proprietor of Hazel Cottage, an auctioneer, surveyor, and house-agent in the High-street of Fairleigh, but could obtain no fresh tidings from this gentleman, except the fact that the money realised by the Captain"s furniture had been sent to Miss Nowell at a post-office in the City, and had been duly acknowledged by her, after a delay of about a week. The auctioneer showed Gilbert the letter of receipt, which was worded in a very formal business-like manner, and bore no address but "London." The sight of the familiar hand gave him a sharp pang. O G.o.d, how he had languished for a letter in that handwriting!
He had nothing more to do after this in the neighbourhood of Lidford, except to pay a pious visit to the Captain"s grave, where a handsome slab of granite recorded the virtues of the dead. It lay in the prettiest, most retired part of the churchyard, half-hidden under a wide-spreading yew. Gilbert Fenton sat down upon a low wall near at hand for a long time, brooding over his broken life, and wishing himself at rest beneath that solemn shelter.
"She never loved me," he said to himself bitterly. "I shut my eyes obstinately to the truth, or I might have discovered the secret of her indifference by a hundred signs and tokens. I fancied that a man who loved a woman as I loved her must succeed in winning her heart at last.
And I accepted her girlish trust in me, her innocent grat.i.tude for my attentions, as the evidence of her love. Even at the last, when she wanted to release me, I would not understand. I did not expect to be loved as I loved her. I would have given so much, and been content to take so little. What is there I would not have done--what sacrifice of my own pride that I would not have happily made to win her! O my darling, even in your desertion of me you might have trusted me better than this!
You would have found me fond and faithful through every trial, your friend in spite of every wrong."
He knelt down by the grave, and pressed his lips to the granite on which George Sedgewick"s name was chiselled.
"I owe it to the dead to discover her fate," he said to himself, as he rose from that reverent att.i.tude. "I owe it to the dead to penetrate the secret of her new life, to a.s.sure myself that she is happy, and has fallen under no fatal influence."
The Listers were still abroad, and Gilbert was very glad that it was so.
It would have excruciated him to hear his sister"s comments on Marian"s conduct, and to perceive the suppressed exultation with which she would most likely have discussed this unhappy termination to an engagement which had been entered on in utter disregard of her counsel.
CHAPTER IX.
JOHN SALTRAM"S ADVICE.
Mr. Fenton discovered the Bruce family in Boundary-road, St. John"s-wood, after a good deal of trouble. But they could tell him nothing of their dear friend Miss Nowell, of whom they spoke with the warmest regard. They had never seen her since they had left the school at Lidford, where they had been boarders, and she a daily pupil. They had not even heard of Captain Sedgewick"s death.
Gilbert asked these young ladies if they knew of any other acquaintance of Marian"s living in or near London. They both answered promptly in the negative. The school was a small one, and they had been the only pupils who came from town; nor had they ever heard Marian speak of any London friends.
Thus ended Mr. Fenton"s inquiries in this direction, leaving him no wiser than when he left Lidford. He had now exhausted every possible channel by which he might obtain information. The ground lay open before him, and there was nothing left for him but publicity. He took an advertis.e.m.e.nt to the _Times_ office that afternoon, and paid for six insertions in the second column:--
"Miss MARIAN NOWELL, late of Lidford, Midlandshire, is requested to communicate immediately with G.F., Post-office, Wigmore-street, to whom her silence has caused extreme anxiety. She may rely upon the advertiser"s friendship and fidelity under all possible circ.u.mstances."
Gilbert felt a little more hopeful after having done this. He fancied this advertis.e.m.e.nt must needs bring him some tidings of his lost love.
The mystery might be happily solved after all, and Marian prove true to him. He tried to persuade himself that this was possible; but it was very difficult to reconcile her line of conduct with the fact of her regard for him.
In the evening he went to the Temple, eager to see John Saltram, from whom he had no intention to keep the secret of his trouble. He found his friend at home, writing, with his desk pushed against the open window, and the dust and shabbiness of his room dismally obvious in the hot July sunshine. He started up as Gilbert entered, and the dark face grew suddenly pale.
"You took me by surprise," he said. "I didn"t know you were in England."
"I only landed two days ago," answered Gilbert, as they shook hands. "I daresay I startled you a little, dear old fellow, coming in upon you without a moment"s notice, when you fancied I was at the Antipodes. But, you see, I hunted you up directly I was free."
"You have done well out yonder, I hope, Gilbert?"
"Yes; everything has gone well enough with me in business. But my coming home has been a dreary one."
"How is that?"
"Captain Sedgewick is dead, and Marian Nowell is lost."
"Lost! What do you mean by that?"
Mr. Fenton told his friend all that had befallen him since his arrival in England.
"I come to you for counsel and help, John," he said, when he had finished his story.
"I will give you my help, so far as it is possible for one man to help another in such a business, and my counsel in all honesty," answered John Saltram; "but I doubt if you will be inclined to receive it."
"Why should you doubt that?"
"Because it is not likely to agree with your own ideas."
"Speak out, John."
"I think that if Miss Nowell had really loved you, she would never have taken this step. I think that she must have left Lidford in order to escape from her engagement, perhaps expecting your early return. I believe your pursuit of her can only end in failure and disappointment; and although I am ready to a.s.sist you in any manner you wish, I warn you against sacrificing your life to a delusion."
"It is not under the delusion that Marian Nowell loves me that I am going to search for her," Gilbert Fenton said slowly, after an interval of silence. "I am not so weak as to believe _that_ after what has happened, though I have tried to argue with myself, only this afternoon, that she may still be true to me and that there may have been some hidden reason for her conduct. Granted that she wished to escape from her engagement, she might have trusted to my honour to give her a prompt release the moment I became acquainted with the real state of her feelings. There must have been some stronger influence than this at work when she left Lidford. I want to know the true cause of that hurried departure, John. I want to be sure that Marian Nowell is happy, and in safe hands."
"By what means do you hope to discover this?"
"I rely a good deal upon repeated advertis.e.m.e.nts in the _Times_. They may bring me tidings of Marian--if not directly, from some person who has seen her since she left Lidford."
"If she really wished to hide herself from you, she would most likely change her name."
"Why should she wish to hide herself from me? She must know that she might trust me. Of her own free will she would never do this cruel thing.
There must have been some secret influence at work upon my darling"s mind. It shall be my business to discover what that influence was; or, in plainer words still, to discover the man who has robbed me of Marian Nowell"s heart."
"It comes to that, then," said John Saltram. "You suspect some unknown rival?"
"Yes; that is the most natural conclusion to arrive at. And yet heaven knows how unwillingly I take that into consideration."
"There is no particular person whom you suspect?"
"No one."
"If there should be no result from your advertis.e.m.e.nt, what will you do?"
"I cannot tell you just yet. Unless I get some kind of clue, the business will seem a hopeless one. But I cannot imagine that the advertis.e.m.e.nts will fail completely. If she left Lidford to be married, there must be some record of her marriage. Should my first advertis.e.m.e.nts fail, my next shall be inserted with a view to discover such a record."
"And if, after infinite trouble, you should find her the wife of another man, what reward would you have for your wasted time and lost labour?"
"The happiness of knowing her to be in a safe and honourable position. I love her too dearly to remain in ignorance of her fate."
"Well, Gilbert, I know that good advice is generally thrown away in such a case as this; but I have a fixed opinion on the subject. To my mind, there is only one wise course open to you, and that is, to let this thing alone, and resign yourself to the inevitable. I acknowledge that Miss Nowell was eminently worthy of your affection; but you know the old song--"If she be not fair to me, what care I how fair she be." There are plenty of women in the world. The choice is wide enough."
"Not for me, John. Marian Nowell is the only woman I have ever loved, the only woman I ever can love."
"My dear boy, it is so natural for you to believe that just now; and a year hence you will think so differently!"