"I shall know what to believe when I know what you"re going to do," the bailiff answered moodily; and his daughter knew him too well to hope for any more gracious speech than this.
She bade him good-night, and went slowly up to her own room to spend the weary wakeful hours in a bitter struggle, praying that she might be enlightened as to what she ought to do; praying that she might die rather than become the wife of Stephen Whitelaw.
When she and her father met at breakfast in the dull gray January morning, his aspect was even darker than it had been on the previous night; but he did not ask her if she had arrived at any conclusion. He took his meal in sullen silence, and left her without a word.
They met again a little before noon, at which hour it was Mr. Carley"s habit to consume a solid luncheon. He took his seat in the same gloomy silence that he had preserved at breakfast-time, but flung an open letter across the table towards his daughter.
"Am I to read this?" she asked gently.
"Yes, read it, and see what I"ve got to look to."
The letter was from Sir David Forster; an angry one, revealing strong suspicions of his agent"s dishonesty, and announcing that he should be at the Grange on the fifth of the month, to make a close investigation of all matters connected with the bailiff"s administration. It was a letter that gave little hope of mercy, and Ellen Carley felt that it was so. She saw that there were no two sides to the question: she must save her father by the utter sacrifice of her own feelings, or suffer him to perish.
She sat for some minutes in silence, with Sir David"s letter in her hand, staring blankly at the lines in a kind of stupor; while her father ate cold roast-beef and pickled-cabbage--she wondered how he could eat at such a time--looking up at her furtively every now and then.
At last she laid down the letter, and lifted her eyes to his face. A deadly whiteness and despair had come over the bright soubrette beauty, and even William Carley"s hard nature was moved a little by the altered expression of his daughter"s countenance.
"It must be as you wish, father," she said slowly; "there is no help for it; I cannot see you brought to disgrace. Stephen Whitelaw must have the price he asks for his money."
"That"s a good la.s.s," cried the bailiff, springing up and clasping his daughter in his arms, a most unusual display of affection on his part; "that"s bravely spoken, Nell, and you never need repent the choice that"ll make you mistress of Wyncomb Farm, with a good home to give your father in his old age."
The girl drew herself hastily from his embrace, and turned away from him with a shudder. He was her father, and there was something horrible in the idea of his disgrace; but there was very little affection for him in her mind. He was willing to sell her into bondage in order to save himself. It was in this light she regarded the transaction with Stephen Whitelaw.
CHAPTER x.x.xIV.
DOUBTFUL INFORMATION.
The early days of the new year brought little change in John Saltram"s condition. Mr. Mew, and the physician who saw him once in every three days, seemed perhaps a shade more hopeful than they had been, but would express no decided opinion when Gilbert pressed them with close questioning. The struggle was still going on--the issue still doubtful.
"If we could keep the mind at rest," said the physician, "we should have every chance of doing better; but this constant restlessness, this hyper-activity of the brain, of which you and Mr. Mew tell me, must needs make a perpetual demand upon the patient"s physical powers. The waste is always going on. We cannot look for recovery until we obtain more repose."
Several weeks had pa.s.sed since the beginning of John Saltram"s illness, and there were no tidings from Mr. Medler. Every day Gilbert had expected some communication from that pract.i.tioner, only to be disappointed. He had called twice in Soho, and on both occasions had been received by a shabby-looking clerk, who told him that Mr. Medler was out, and not likely to come home within any definite time. He was inclined to fancy, by the clerk"s manner on his second visit, that there was some desire to avoid an interview on Mr. Medler"s part; and this fancy made him all the more anxious to see that gentleman. He did not, therefore, allow much time to elapse between this second visit to the dingy chambers in Soho and a third. This time he was more fortunate; for he saw the lawyer let himself in at the street-door with his latch-key, just as the cab that drove him approached the house.
The same shabby clerk opened the door to him.
"I want to see your master," he said decisively, making a move towards the office-door.
The clerk contrived to block his way.
"I beg your pardon, sir, I don"t think Mr. Medler"s in; but I"ll go and see."
"You needn"t give yourself the trouble. I saw your master let himself in at this door a minute ago. I suppose you were too busy to hear him come in."
The clerk coughed a doubtful kind of cough, significant of perplexity.
"Upon my word, sir, I believe he"s out; but I"ll see."
"Thanks; I"d rather see myself, if you please," Gilbert said, pa.s.sing the perturbed clerk before that functionary could make up his mind whether he ought to intercept him.
He opened the office-door and went in. Mr. Medler was sitting at his desk, bending over some formidable doc.u.ment, with the air of a man who is profoundly absorbed by his occupation; with the air also, Gilbert thought, of a man who has been what is vernacularly called "on the listen."
"Good-morning, Mr. Medler," Gilbert said politely; "your clerk had such a conviction of your being out, that I had some difficulty in convincing him you were at home."
"I"ve only just come in; I suppose Lucas didn"t hear me."
"I suppose not; I"ve been here twice before in search of you, as I conclude you have been told. I have expected to hear from you daily."
"Well, yes--yes," replied the lawyer in a meditative way; "I am aware that I promised to write--under certain circ.u.mstances."
"Am I to conclude, then, that you were silent because you had nothing to communicate? that you have obtained no tidings of any kind respecting Mrs. Holbrook?"
Mr. Medler coughed; a cough no less expressive of embarra.s.sment than that of his clerk.
"Why, you see, Mr. Fenton," he began, crossing his legs, and rubbing his hands in a very deliberate manner, "when I made that promise with reference to Mrs. Holbrook, I made it of course without prejudice to the interests or inclinations of my client. I might be free to communicate to you any information I received upon this subject--or I might find myself pledged to withhold it."
Gilbert"s face flushed with sudden excitement.
"What!" he cried, "do you mean to say that you have solved the mystery of Marian Holbrook"s fate? that you know her to be alive--safe--well, and have kept back the knowledge from me?"
"I have been compelled to submit to the wishes of my client. I will not say that I have not offered considerable opposition to her desire upon this point, but finding her resolution fixed, I was bound to respect it."
"She is safe--then all this alarm has been needless? You have seen her?"
"Yes, Mr. Fenton, I have seen her."
"And she--she forbade you to let me know of her safety? She was willing that I should suffer all the anguish of uncertainty as to her fate? I could not have believed her so unkind."
"Mrs. Holbrook had especial reasons for wishing to avoid all communication with former acquaintances. She explained those reasons to me, and I fully concurred in them."
"She might have such reasons with regard to other people; she could have none with reference to me."
"Pardon me, she mentioned your name in a very particular manner."
"And yet she has had good cause to trust in my fidelity."
"She has a very great respect and esteem for you, I am aware. She said as much to me. But her reasons for keeping her affairs to herself just now are quite apart from her personal feeling for yourself."
"I cannot understand this. I am not to see her then, I suppose; not to be told her address?"
"No; I am strictly forbidden to disclose her address to any one."
"Yet you can positively a.s.sure me that she is in safety--her own mistress--happy?"
"She is in perfect safety--her own mistress--and as happy as it is possible she can be under the unfortunate circ.u.mstances of her married life. She has left her husband for ever; I will venture to tell you so much as that."