"It"s an American saying," Moon said. "It means something is finished. We say, It ain"t over till it"s over. Now I guess it"s over."
"I see," Mr. Lee said.
"I had been thinking maybe we could find a way to go north. Find a way to slip into Saigon and get to the emba.s.sy. So much for that. Not a good idea now."
"It was not a good idea ever," Mr. Lee agreed. "I think what"s left of the Army of the Republic of Vietnam will be pulling back to Saigon, and the North Vietnam army and the Vietcong units will be moving there too. Gathering in close now, I think, for the last big battle."
"I think so too," Moon said. "And I don"t have any other ideas. Not even bad ones." He used the back of his hand to wipe away the perspiration dripping from his eyebrows. "Did you hear anything else?"
"The man with the scarred face asked someone if he had completed an inventory of what was here, and they talked of how many sacks of rice, and sandalwood, and charcoal, and barrels of gasoline and diesel fuel. And what was in the kitchen and the bathroom. And a pistol found in the office was mentioned, and handed to the old man. Then someone who must have been out at the hangars came in and told the old man that Big Minh, the new puppet president at Saigon, was broadcasting a speech. He was telling the puppet army-"
Mr. Lee paused and gave Moon an apologetic glance.
"The Communists always call ARVN that," he said. "I merely quote. The new president told the army. to continue the fighting. To defend Saigon. Not to run away. And then another man came in. I think he had been running. I mean, the way he was breathing." Mr. Lee demonstrated the sound of panting. "This one, he said that the commander wanted them to move up along the river and that the old man was needed at the radio to receive their orders."
"So they left," Moon said.
"Yes," Mr. Lee said. "But they~ will be back. Or someone else will come."
"Is that something you heard?" Moon asked. "Or is it just a good guess?"
Mr. Lee"s face was shiny with perspiration, but Moon saw no signs of dripping. Maybe it was because he was so thin and frail. Maybe it was because he was used to this sort of heavy wet heat. But how could anyone ever get used to it?
Mr. Lee chuckled. "A guess. In a hungry country one does not walk away from food."
"We don"t have much time then?" And, as he said it, thought, Time for what?
Mr. Lee shrugged. "Again, I must guess. What is the movement of their wind and water? What is the movement of our own? How can we know what that holds for them? Or for us? Perhaps the Yellow Tiger Battalion will be fierce and chase their Vietcong brothers into the Mekong. Or perhaps the Vietcong will chase the Tigers all the way into the Gulf of Thailand."
"Do you have any ideas?" Moon asked. Osa was sitting beside Mr. Lee now, looking thoughtful.
Mr. Lee said, "Probably the same ones you have. The alternatives. We could stay here. The Vietcong will come back for the rice, or perhaps the Army of North Vietnam will come to collect the aircraft and the other equipment. Then, perhaps, we will be shot or taken into custody. Or perhaps we will not be shot. if all is well we would be returned to our countries or held for questioning. It is all very problematic. Or we could seek some means to escape to the sea. Or we could seek some way to continue our mission."
"I am remembering what Mr. Rice said about the River Patrol Boats," Osa said. "Some people in that ship must have escaped. Ran away in the boats that were missing. Where would they go? We didn"t hear such fast boats when we were coming up the river. Where could they be? We should try to find one of those. We should try to get out the way we came in."
To Moon that seemed awfully close to hopeless. But he could think of nothing better. "What do you think of that?" he asked Lum Lee.
Mr. Lee pulled idly at his gray goatee, considering.
"How do we find the boat?" He made .a wry face, shook his head. "However, one with no horse must walk. One with no helicopter must try to float."
Mr. Lee laughed at his own humor. Osa produced a weak chuckle. Moon didn"t even try.
"I will go now and see what I can see," Mr. Lee said. "But first I must find something to make me look more like a Communist. More like a Mekong Delta Communist."
"I think you are too tired for that," Moon said. "Rest awhile. Have some food."
Mr. Lee studied him, tugged at his goatee. "I am remembering what Ricky told me about you," he said. "I think you plan to do this yourself. But you are too big, and too white, too American. You would be caught, and then we all would be caught."
"I know," Moon said. "I thought about that. Let"s see if we can find anything useful."
The door at the far end of the warehouse opened into an office: two desks, one small, new, and gray metal, and the other big, old, and oak; a tall old-fashioned five-drawer filing cabinet; a small safe, its door standing open; and a long wooden table with four folding chairs beside it. Moon sat in a swivel chair at the bigger desk, felt the smooth wood under his fingertips. Wood polished by Ricky"s hands. In front of him, just over the desk, he could see through the rain-streaked window the open door of the hangar from which George Rice, the Huey copter, and all his hopes had flown away.
Mr. Lee had disappeared through the door behind him into the living quarters, followed by Osa. After a while he would go there himself. He"d see Ricky"s nest. See whatever Ricky"s friends had left when they collected his things to send back to the States. But not now. It could wait a minute while he would simply think.
Moon heard voices, something clattering. The monsoon wind rattled the window with a fresh barrage of rain. Sweat ran down his back, made his shirt slick against the plastic of the chairback. He wiped his face with his sleeve. Today was what? The end of April. Victoria Mathias would be sleeping in her bed in her hospital room.
Mr. Lee emerged, dressed in loose and slightly dirty cotton trousers and an even looser dark blue smock. He was carrying a conical fiber hat.
"Not perfect, but a lot better," Mr. Lee said. "I go now. Mrs. van Winjgaarden said she will take a shower."
"I think you would fool me," Moon said, "but are you going to fool these local Vietnamese? Are there any Chinese around here, do you think?"
"You forget that I, too, am Vietnamese," Mr. Lee said. "And there are Chinese everywhere in Asia."
"But how the h.e.l.l-? Just what are you going to do?"
Mr. Lee stopped at the door. "I tell anyone I can find that my son was a cook on the U.S.S. Pott County. Pott County. I came to visit him. I learn the ship has been sunk. Someone told me he got ash.o.r.e on one of the motorboats." I came to visit him. I learn the ship has been sunk. Someone told me he got ash.o.r.e on one of the motorboats."
"Um," Moon said.
"Do you have a better idea?"
"No," Moon said.
"Remember that I am an old man. Remember that the Vietnamese respect their old."
"Like the old man with his ear cut off," Moon said.
Mr. Lee stared at him. "The scar was old. Somebody in your CIA was collecting ears that year, I think." With that, Mr. Lee disappeared through the doorway.
Another gust of wind rattled the window. From the living quarters behind him, Moon heard a shower running. Odd, he thought, how we believe that water through a pipe gets us cleaner than the warm rain. Then a shout. Something between a shout and a scream. Osa"s voice.
A half dozen running steps to the door, jerk it open, the bedroom; large, mostly bare, a bed, a chest, a chair. No sign of Osa.
Then, through the doorway into the next room, he could see part of Osa: the back of her head, her right shoulder, the right side of her back, right b.u.t.tock, right leg, the bare suntanned skin glistening with perspiration. She was standing stock still, facing directly away from him, holding a bundle of clothing against herself, looking down, listening to someone.
Moon pushed past her. A small young man was sitting on the floor in the bathroom closet, matted black hair, the side of his face black with clotted blood, holding a grenade launcher pointed at Osa.
He shifted it to point at Moon.
"h.e.l.lo," Moon said. Not Vietcong, he thought, or he wouldn"t be hiding here. An ARVN deserter. He might understand some English. Would he understand the grenade launcher? if he shot it in here, they were all dead. Moon bent forward, reached his hand back, felt his palm press against Osa"s bare stomach, pushed hard, was aware she was falling out through the doorway, heard her body hit the floor.
"You"re hurt," he said to the man.
"You are an America," the man said. lie said it very slowly, mouthing each word carefully, not sure of his English. He grinned at Moon a pained grin, carefully put the grenade launcher on the closet floor, leaned against the doorjamb, and coughed.
Through his open shirt, Moon saw more dried blood, part of a tattoo, and dark bruises.
"There"ll be a first aid kit around here somewhere," Moon said. "What happened to you?"
"Yes," the man said, and something else which Moon didn"t understand.
Moon picked up the grenade launcher. The same model, he noticed, that they"d trained with at Fort Riley. He leaned it in the corner of the closet.
"Can you stand?"
The man looked puzzled. "Stand?"
Moon helped him up, helped him into the bedroom, helped him sit on the rumpled bed. Mr. Lee was standing in the bedroom door. Osa reappeared beside him, still barefoot but wearing her khaki pants now and a bra, with her shirt over her shoulders.
"Thank you," she said to Moon, looking slightly embarra.s.sed. "I guess neither of us have any secrets now."
"No," Moon said.
She smiled at him. "But you didn"t have to push me so hard." She went into the bathroom, turned off the shower, and came out with a wet towel.
"First we need to clean off the cut places," she said to the man. "Mr. Mathias here will go and find the medical box, and then we will see what we can do for you."
He found four of the kits the U.S. Army issues to its aid men in the kitchen cabinet over the sink. Mr. Lee was standing behind him, looking pleased.
"I think we may have some help now, finding a boat," Mr. Lee said. "Our man is one of the Sealord sailors."
"I thought a soldier," Moon said. "He was carrying a grenade launcher."
"Did you notice the tattoo on his chest?" Mr. Lee asked. "It said sat cong. That was the slogan of the river sailors of the Republic"s navy from the very first. So I think he"s one of the men from the base down the river."
"Sat Cong," Moon said. "Means what?"
"It means Kill Communists," Mr. Lee said. "I think that VC officer with his ear cut off would like to capture this one."
WASHINGTON, April 28 (UPI)-President Ford today ordered the emergency evacuation of all Americans remaining in Vietnam. The plan called for picking them up at a.s.sembly points in helicopters and flying them to carriers lying off the coast.
IF OSA VAN WINJGAARDEN"S DIAGNOSIS was correct, Nguyen Nung had suffered two cracked ribs, concussion, multiple wounds caused by some sort of shrapnel on his face, neck, chest, and scalp, plus a.s.sorted bruises and abrasions.
By Lum Lee"s a.n.a.lysis, based on cross-examining Nguyen Nung before the shot of morphine from a U.S. Army aid kit took effect, these damages had been caused when a Vietcong rocket hit the superstructure of the LST where his PBR was based just as Nung was scrambling up a ladder. He remembered being hit by something and flung from the ladder to the deck. The next thing he remembered was awakening in a PBR somewhere out on the river and being aware that they were being shot at.
The last time he revived, he"d found himself on the bottom of the boat, with the legs of a dead man across his own. He had extracted himself to find that the PBR had been run aground on the bank of a very narrow, very shallow creek. He had walked. He had come to the warehouse compound about dawn, found the gate unlocked, and entered. When he heard voices, he"d hidden himself in the closet. Could he find the boat again? Of course. How far was it? Nung was too hazy from the morphine by now to answer that coherently.
Osa picked bits and pieces of debris from various wounds, washed everything with soapy water, applied copious amounts of antiseptic, and swathed his face and neck in U.S. Government Issue bandages. Finally, with Moon holding the groggy Nung erect, Osa wrapped his chest in strips torn from a bedsheet.
"We let him down now," she said, glanced up at Moon, and instantly looked away.
"I shouldn"t have screamed like that," she said. "I am embarra.s.sed."
"I would have screamed a lot louder," Moon said. "You open a door and see a guy pointing a grenade launcher at you. I might have fainted."
They lowered Nung gently to the bed and were rewarded with a grimace, followed by a dopey smile. Nung said something that sounded to Moon like "tenk," closed his eyes, and surrendered to the morphine.
Osa, leaning over him, closed a long gash on his cheek with the careful application of an adhesive bandage. She stood straight, stretched her back, shook herself.
"We should leave him to sleep a little," she said. "I will go now and take that shower." She laughed. "This time I look in the closet first."
"Good idea. Nothing to do now but wait until we find out if our friend here can help us."
"That tattoo on his chest," she said. "You saw it?"
"Mr. Lee said it means Kill Communists."
"That"s what I thought," Osa said. "Poor man. What does he do now?"
Moon hadn"t given that much thought. He watched her close the bathroom door behind her and went back into the office. Through the doorway he saw Mr. Lee prowling the warehouse, checking bales and sacks. He had no desire to talk to Mr. Lee at the moment. What could they say? That they were lucky in connecting with this sailor? Probably it was great good luck. Now there seemed to be some chance, at least. He stood at Ricky"s window looking out at the armored personnel carrier parked by the hanger. An M-1 13, the same model they"d used in training at Fort Riley. The ARVN soldiers had left the hatches open, which meant it would be wet inside. Halsey had done that once, leaving Lieutenant Rasko"s bedroll to serve as a blotter, soaking up the rainwater from the metal floor.
Moon smiled, remembering how Halsey had talked his way out of that one. What would Halsey suggest to get out of this situation? He"d say something like "Que sera sera, "Que sera sera, so don"t sweat it." As good advice as any. And what would Halsey think of Osa van Winjgaarden? He would have been impressed. She was the kind of woman Halsey always wanted him to chase. He"d point them out across the dance floor when they dressed up and went to the cla.s.sier places. The tall ones wearing pearls. The ones with the long patrician faces, Bermuda tans, and the high-fashion jackets. The ones who handed the parking lot attendant the keys to the Porsche, who knew exactly how to walk, and hold their heads, and tell the world they owned it. The ones who, when they caught him staring, examined him with cool, disinterested eyes. so don"t sweat it." As good advice as any. And what would Halsey think of Osa van Winjgaarden? He would have been impressed. She was the kind of woman Halsey always wanted him to chase. He"d point them out across the dance floor when they dressed up and went to the cla.s.sier places. The tall ones wearing pearls. The ones with the long patrician faces, Bermuda tans, and the high-fashion jackets. The ones who handed the parking lot attendant the keys to the Porsche, who knew exactly how to walk, and hold their heads, and tell the world they owned it. The ones who, when they caught him staring, examined him with cool, disinterested eyes.
"Why not?" Halsey would say. "Maybe they can kill you but they can"t eat you." He"d say, "Not my type, Gene." And Halsey, who enjoyed the role of philosopher, would say, "Like h.e.l.l they"re not. Unlike myself, a pragmatist happy with the attainable, you are a victim of divine discontent. You yearn for the perfect. But you ain"t got no guts."
But in fact, they really weren"t his type. He knew it and they knew it. He learned it when he was younger. The hard way. He had been calmly and efficiently rejected. The duck rebuffed by the swan. He"d learned fairly fast, because Moon Mathias was unusually sensitive to the pain of humiliation.
But the water was still dripping into the M- 113 armored personnel carrier, getting things wetter and wetter. Moon slid open the warehouse door. Seeing nothing dangerous on the muddy road beyond the fence, he walked out into the rain to check it out.
The rubber cushion on the driver"s seat beside the engine was soaking wet, but by then so was Moon. He sat on it and looked around. Basically it was identical to the ones they had driven at Fort Riley. The ARVN outfit had installed racks for GI gas cans, welded a mount beside the second hatch for an M60 machine gun, and covered the floor with bags. Moon widened a tear in one of them and checked. Sand. Something to stop the shrapnel if the treads triggered a mine. He switched on the ignition. The fuel indicator showed two-thirds. He shifted into low gear, drove the APC into the hangar, tugged the big door closed behind it, and went to work. He"d refuel it, get it ready to go. It was good to feel competent again.
Nguyen Nung became more or less awake about four P.M., about thirty minutes after the rain slackened into a drizzle and gradually faded away. When Moon came in from the hangar, the clouds were breaking, there were signs of watery sunlight here and there, and Nung was sitting stiffly in Ricky"s office being cross-examined by Mr. Lee.
"He says the boat is about an hour"s walk down the river," Mr. Lee said. "It was run up a creek and into heavy brush in a growth of mangroves. He estimates it"s about two or three hundred yards down the creek from this road we"re on."
"What happened to the crew?" Moon asked.
Mr. Lee spoke to Nguyen. Nguyen shrugged, then produced a lengthy response.
"He doesn"t know," Mr. Lee said. "But they came ash.o.r.e in his boat, the boat he was a gunner on. He knew them. The boat commander was from Hanoi. Two of the other crewmen were also anti-Communist refugees from the north, another was from Hue, and another from near Da Nang. He guesses they would know the war is over and try to go home. The dead man was a local man. Nguyen"s family had a rice paddy in the delta. His father had been one of the headmen in the village just downstream before the Vietcong killed him and the family. And then one morning the United States napalmed the village, and the people who survived moved away."
"What we need to know is whether the crew will come back for the boat. It doesn"t sound likely, unless they need it to get across the river."
Lum Lee nodded. "We need to know that. And we need to know if the boat is in condition to take us out to the mouth of the Mekong. Mr. Nung remembers there was water in the bottom. They are made of fibergla.s.s and it was. .h.i.t by bullets."
"Probably could be patched up," Moon said.
"We also need to understand how to survive three days until it is time to go out and meet the Glory of the Sea." the Sea."
"That"s the problem," Moon said. "We"re living on borrowed time staying here."