But I was too distracted to reply because I"d seen a bright flash past the thicket at the edge of our property some two acres away, right near the house where Gemma and her parents lived.

"Jessilyn," Momma repeated, "what are you starin" at?

Get in this house."

"There." I pointed into the distance. "I saw the lightnin" hit there."

"What?" Momma came through the door onto the porch, standing on her toes to see across the meadow. "Over near Gemma"s house?"



"Right past the thicket."

"Harley," Momma called, "you best come out here."

"What"re you doin" out here, Sadie?" Daddy asked as he joined us on the porch. "You were just yellin" about lightnin" a few minutes ago."

"Jessie says she saw lightnin" hit near the field house."

"Are you sure, Jessilyn?"

"Uh-huh."

We stood there watching for about a minute before the first wisps of smoke started creeping up above the treetops.

"Land"s sake, somethin"s on fire over there," Momma cried. "Harley, what do we do?"

"You two are stayin" right here," Daddy replied. "Call for help, and I"ll drive over to find out what happened."

I was scared for Gemma"s safety, even more scared than I"d been when I almost drowned. If Daddy had a sixth sense about when someone was lying, I had a sixth sense about bad things, especially bad things that happened in summertime. I"d thought that maybe my ordeal at the swimming hole was my bad turn for that summer, but now I was feeling numb down to my toes.

I knew something was horribly wrong.

"I"m comin" with you," I told Daddy.

"Jessilyn, you stay here."

"Daddy, wait!" I called as he walked down the steps. I was as determined to go to Gemma as I"d ever been to do anything, and I was sure my face showed it. "I"m worried for Gemma. I"m goin" too."

Daddy looked at me hard, and I could tell by his own face that he read mine perfectly. "All right, you can come," he said reluctantly. "But don"t you go doin" anythin" without me sayin" you can. Understand?"

"Yes"r."

"Harley, it"s too dangerous," Momma said, tears already rolling down her cheeks. "Jessilyn should stay home with me."

Daddy took Momma in his arms and quietly said, "Some things a body just has to do, and Jessie"s gotta go. You can see it in her eyes. You go on now and call for help, and I promise I"ll watch out for her."

Momma"s face showed plain fear, and she grabbed me hard. "You be careful, Jessilyn La.s.siter. You hear me? I don"t want nothin" happenin" to you."

I nodded and then broke free, wanting to tell Momma that I"d be fine, but I couldn"t say anything. A big lump was forming in my throat, and my heart raced, but I managed to run to the truck and jump in beside my daddy.

As we drove down the road, I inwardly willed Daddy to speed up his truck, wanting to get to Gemma"s house as fast as I could. But once I reached the house, I started wishing I"d never gotten there at all.

The place was ablaze, like it had been made of kindling. At first we couldn"t see anything for the flames and sparks that flew through the air on the wind. With all the storm about us, not one drop of rain had fallen, and I found myself praying that G.o.d would send some right away.

Daddy hopped out of the truck, ordering me to stay put, and went running toward the flames. I screamed at him, begging him not to go, but he either didn"t hear me or didn"t listen. And anyway, I knew he had to go look. If he didn"t try to help, who would? In this part of the country, neighbors weren"t exactly within seeing distance. It would take time for any help to get here.

I watched Daddy run from one side of the house to the other, trying to see in windows without getting burnt. All the while, I sat still and prayed hard. I prayed that G.o.d would save Gemma and her parents. I prayed that rain would come. But I didn"t feel right. I had that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, the one I"d always gotten whenever trouble was brewing.

Thankfully I saw a droplet splatter against the front window of the truck, followed by another and then another. "Thank You, Jesus," I murmured, sounding just like my momma did whenever anything good happened.

The rain began to come in buckets, but it wasn"t doing much to calm the inferno that was Gemma"s house. I couldn"t see my daddy anymore, and I started to breathe a little harder. Scared senseless, I opened my door and stepped into the pouring rain, shielding my eyes with my hand to look around. I still couldn"t see Daddy. In fact, I couldn"t see much of anything. But I thought I"d seen something moving near the tractor, so I trudged through the mud, ignoring the lightning and wind, to investigate.

When I reached the tractor, I looked into the cart on the back and saw something. "Gemma? Gemma, are you in there?"

A bolt of lightning lit up the sky to show me that it was Gemma in the cart, curled up in a ball, her clothes black from soot. She was shaking all over, her eyes wide and scared, and I felt awful for her. I"d never seen anyone so afraid.

"Gemma, are you all right? Can you move?"

"Your daddy told me to get away from the house," she said softly.

"Why didn"t you come to the truck?"

"I couldn"t find it."

"Where"s my daddy?" I asked in fear. "Is he all right?"

"I think so."

I tugged at her shirt to get her moving. "Come on. Let"s get you out of the rain."

I managed to get her into the truck and wrap her with the blanket Daddy kept on the floor for Momma to cover her legs with when we went into town on cold days. "Where"s your momma and daddy?" I asked her. "Were they in the house?"

Gemma just sat there shivering with the blanket clutched around her. Her face made me nervous. The feeling I had inside made me nervous too. And when I finally saw Daddy coming back to the truck, my fears were confirmed. He was wet to the bone, his face drawn longer than I"d ever seen it, and his steps were slow like his feet were too heavy to move. I stared at him while Gemma put her head down to hide it behind the blanket, and I kept staring at him until his eyes met mine. The look in his eyes said it all.

Momma must have got word out to the neighbors because trucks started pulling up to the burning house just then. As people began climbing out and yelling to each other about what to do, Daddy put his hands out toward them and shook his head sadly.

One of the men who came was Luke Talley. I remember how he walked over to Daddy and started talking, words I couldn"t hear, and how his shoulders slumped after he heard what Daddy had to say. He stood there in the rain, his hat wet and droopy, shaking his head just like Daddy had done. Luke said something else and Daddy replied, nodding toward the truck as he did so.

Through my tears I could see Luke glance at me, his face looking like I felt. He stared at me for a second and then tugged at the front of his hat in a sad h.e.l.lo. I gave him a nod back and put my arm protectively around Gemma.

That was the day that Gemma came to live with us.

Chapter 4.

That drive home after the fire was the longest of my life, with Gemma and Daddy both sitting still and quiet beside me.

Getting home wasn"t much better, with Momma crying and Daddy pacing the porch. Once Momma got hold of herself, she started rushing about fixing things for Gemma, which I think she did mostly to keep her mind busy. But Gemma didn"t want any apple tart or milk. She didn"t want a bath or a pair of my pajamas. She didn"t want anything, and she didn"t say say anything. H anything. H y y er silence worried me more than I"d ever been worried. er silence worried me more than I"d ever been worried.

I helped Gemma out of her sooty clothes and into my best nightgown. She never said a word until I fluffed up my pillow and steered her into my bed.

"This is your bed," she mumbled to me.

"So?"

"Where will you sleep?"

"Right there beside you," I said, pointing to a makeshift bed Momma had made on the floor out of a couple sheets and blankets. It was supposed to be for Gemma, that bed on the floor, but I wouldn"t have it. If anyone needed a good sleep that night, it was Gemma. "That way I"ll be here if you need anythin"."

"The floor"s hard," Gemma said. "You won"t sleep."

"I can sleep anywhere. When the horse was sick, I slept in the barn."

She didn"t argue any more after that. She was too tired to, I figured.

The next two days were a blur of phone calls and people dropping by to give their sympathies. A lot of people brought over food too, sometimes including a little something sweet for me and Gemma. But Gemma wouldn"t eat barely anything. She was quiet and strange, something Momma told me probably wouldn"t go away for a while. She told me I had to be patient.

I couldn"t get rid of the pain in my stomach. It hurt all the time, but especially when I saw Gemma"s face or thought about her poor momma and daddy. Momma told me my stomachache would go away eventually too, just like Gemma"s strangeness.

The funeral was on a Tuesday. It didn"t rain at all. Instead it was a beautiful day, sunny and not too warm. I"d always thought rain was more appropriate for the gloominess of a funeral. The Reverend Wright from Gemma"s church said some nice words about Miss Opal and Mr. Joe and told us that we should be rejoicing because they were with Jesus. I figured that was true, but I still felt bad for Gemma. After all, she"d been left behind.

There weren"t too many white people at the funeral, and those of us who were there stood on one side of the graves while the colored people stood on the other. Except, of course, that Gemma stood with us. Gemma didn"t have any other family that anyone knew of, so it was only her church family who were there to tell her they were sorry. She still wasn"t talking much, so my momma thanked the well-wishers for her.

Luke was one of the last people to come up to Gemma. "Your daddy helped me fix up my house. He was a fine man, and I"m glad I got to know him." He put his hand on Gemma"s shoulder and then looked at me. "You"re a good friend to her. You keep on takin" care of her now, ya hear?"

"I will," I rea.s.sured him. "I always will."

Some of the people at the funeral came by to have supper on our lawn, but it was the saddest supper I"d ever had, and no one ate much.

By the time things got settled down, we were all tuckered, and Gemma and I went upstairs early. After seeing her to bed, I crawled into my pajamas, but I couldn"t think of sleeping yet, so I headed downstairs for some milk. My parents were on the porch, and I could hear their voices floating in through the open windows.

"You can"t be thinkin" right, Harley," Momma was saying, her voice barely above a whisper. "There ain"t no way that would work. There just ain"t no way."

"The girl ain"t got no one else. She done lost everythin"."

"She has to have some family somewhere."

I made my way to the stool that sat in front of the den window and peeked over the sill to spy on them. I could see Momma walking back and forth in her bare feet, her arms tightly folded against the chilly evening breeze.

"She ain"t got no one, I"m tellin" you," my daddy said. "I promised Joe Teague I"d look out for his girl if somethin" ever happened."

Momma stooped down in front of the chair where my daddy sat and looked up at him. "You"ve got to understand. There won"t be no gettin" by for us if we do this. People will talk."

"I don"t care about what those people say, Sadie." Daddy took my momma"s hands in his and leaned forward to get his face closer to hers. "You know I ain"t never cared about people"s idle talk. Never have. I ain"t gonna start now."

"It just . . . ain"t . . . done!" Momma said almost desperately.

"Just because something ain"t done don"t mean it shouldn"t be."

Momma stood and started to pace again. "You"d best think about your family," she said, sounding angry now. "You"d best think about your daughter."

"Jessilyn loves Gemma. She"d take her as a sister; you know that."

"But what will other children say? Buddy Pernell almost killed Jessilyn the other day. What do you think those boys might do if they find out she"s got a colored girl livin" with her?" Momma whispered those last words like she knew someone was eavesdropping.

"Jessilyn can take care of herself. She"s always been on Gemma"s side. She won"t care if she gets ribbin" from them boys."

"I ain"t talkin" about ribbin". There"s violence from people about mixin" colors."

Daddy seemed like he"d had enough talking, and he sighed loudly before walking over to my momma, taking her little face in his big hands. "Sadie, I told that man I"d watch out for his daughter if anythin" happened. We"re as close to family as she"s got." He looked at her steadily and with a voice full of firm decision said, "The girl"s stayin"."

Momma backed away from him. "Then let it be on your head what happens for it, Harley La.s.siter. If unhappy times come to this family through your decision, I"ll not take the blame for it."

"Sadie, I never asked you to take the blame. I ain"t never asked you to take the blame for none of my decisions."

Momma stood looking at him for about a minute before she marched to the door and into the house.

I bolted up the stairs quick as a hare, making sure to jump over the creaky step near the top, just before Momma let the door slam behind her.

I didn"t sleep much that night. All I could think about was why my momma wouldn"t want Gemma staying with us. Ever since the tragedy, I had a.s.sumed that she would stay and be part of our family. I"d never met another soul who claimed to be kin to her, and she"d been living on our farm for as long as I could remember. I couldn"t see any reason why she should leave.

Now, I knew that there had always been certain ideas about colored people and white people mixing. Not one colored person went to my church or my school, and Phil the barber had a sign in his window that said Whites Only. I knew all about some people not wanting to be friends with other people just because of the color of their skin. My momma and daddy had told me about that when I started asking questions. But Momma had always agreed with Daddy that such talk was ridiculous and that people are people no matter what they look like or where they come from. To hear her speak to my daddy like she did made me worry and started that stomachache hurting worse.

Why would Momma not want Gemma to stay when she had told me herself that G.o.d made us all and we were to love everyone the same? I couldn"t figure on it, but I knew one thing: I wanted Gemma to stay more than anything. I didn"t want to send her off to live with strangers or to be put into an orphanage. I"d read books about children in orphanages, and they sounded like horrible places.

Well, Daddy had told Momma that Gemma was staying. That was settled. But I wondered about what Momma had said about violence, and I started to worry that maybe our lives were getting ready to change.

My stomach hurt for the rest of the night.

We lived in a small town where most people knew who we were, and up until that day in June, we were just the La.s.siters. But after that day, we were mostly known as the people who took in the colored girl.

It wasn"t only the white people who thought we were crazy; it was the colored people too. It seemed we were caught up in a game of tug-of-war.

After a while of having Gemma with us, a few of Momma"s friends came by to "have a chat," as they put it. I could tell by the few words I heard that they were talking about how wrong it would be to keep Gemma. It didn"t do anything to change Daddy"s mind. Even our minister, Pastor Landry, came to talk to Daddy. I watched from my bedroom window and saw Daddy smiling kindly but shaking his head. I knew that look enough to know that Daddy was probably saying something like, "I understand where you"re comin" from, but I know what I know, and all I can do is stick to my guns."

My daddy hadn"t always seen life the way other people did, so he"d had to say things like that a lot.

He said the same kind of thing to the people from Gemma"s church who came by to warn him of the trouble he"d cause by keeping her. The colored folk wouldn"t like it any more than the white folk, they told him. Stirring up trouble was all that would come of it, and Gemma would suffer. Only a week pa.s.sed between the time of the fire and when she officially settled in at our house, but we got a couple months" worth of complaints.

Luke was different. He came by to check on us about every other day on his way home from work at the tobacco factory, always bringing some treat for me and Gemma. Some days he"d bring flowers he"d picked in the meadow on his travels home; other days he"d bring a stick of chewing gum or a piece of penny candy. Momma said he was spoiling us, but she really knew it was his way of showing how sorry he was. Most days he would stay to supper, considering that he was on his own and had no one to cook for him.

"A man ought to have a hot meal to come home to," Momma would tell Luke when he"d say she was being too kind to him. "I ain"t doin" nothin" but what any woman should." And then she would follow that proclamation by saying, "Now, you sit on down here, Luke Talley, and fill that stomach before you go weak and scrawny."

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