Her feelings swung in a pendulum. One part of her was irritated that Spade had arranged for round-the-clock protection. If he was that worried about something happening to her, then where was he? The other part was touched that he took her safety so seriously*
though was that because of his friendship with Bones and Cat, or another reason?
Wondering about his motivations made for an emotional Mad Hatter ride, and her moods were already out of whack from her period arriving two days ago. Why had Spade kissed her before he left? To keep up appearances to Emma and Alten that she was his girlfriend? It was traditional for couples to kiss each other goodbye, after all, and they were posing as a couple. Nothing about that kiss should have struck her as unusual, except she couldn"t stop thinking about it.
Had Spade been only faking? That kiss didn"t feel fake. It was skillful, demanding, intense, and* promising. Like Spade was giving her a glimpse of what it would be like in bed with him. Or was it just the practiced kiss of someone with hundreds of years"
experience and it meant no more to Spade than the other acting he"d done in front of his people?
And the most frightening question: Which did she want it to be?
Denise ran the water so Alten wouldn"t guess that she"d just snuck in there to get away from him. Wondering whether she wanted Spade to be acting or not played h.e.l.l on her emotions. She"d tried to think of Spade in a detached way the past several days, but it hadn"t worked.
If she were honest, she"d admit she felt a powerful draw even the first time she"d seen him at Cat"s party. Denise had been chatting with Cat when she suddenly felt compelled to glance up. A stranger lounged in the doorway, his black hair dusted with snowflakes and his intense gaze lasered on her. As she stared at him, the weirdest shiver rippled through Denise, like something important was about to happen. But then Randy called her name and Denise snapped back to reality, shaking off her bewildering reaction to the dark stranger.
Now, over a year later, that strange pull hadn"t gone away. If anything, it was stronger.
Despite how she didn"t want to be involved with the vampire world, a big part of her wanted to be involved with one vampire in particular.
As quickly as that thought surfaced, however, guilt followed. Already Randy was no longer the last person to kiss her. Yes, Denise knew that eventually Randy wouldn"t be the last person to make love to her, either. But wasn"t it too soon to be thinking about someone else, and especially a vampire? It was a vampire war that had gotten Randy killed, so in a way, she"d be sleeping with the enemy.
But it was really you who got him killed, her guilt mocked her. You didn"t just drag him to a house filled with vampires; you also let Randy leave the bas.e.m.e.nt during the battle while you stayed safe below.
Denise hurled the soap across the room, glad that it didn"t hit anything except the tub. If she found Nathanial and got the brands off, she could keep more people she loved from dying because of her. She could return to hiding from the vampire world and all the emotions Spade stirred up in her, but she couldn"t hide from the real guilty party in Randy"s death: herself.
In the next moment, Alten burst through the door, his fangs out, his eyes streetlight green, and a large knife in his hand.
"What"s wrong?" he growled, stalking around the bathroom. "I heard a commotion." Her heart, which had instantly started to hammer, now began to slow. "Nothing"s wrong.
I threw some soap, that"s all. Look at what you did to the door." Shards of wood now littered the floor where Alten had busted the lock. His gaze fell on the soap, dented and resting near the Jacuzzi-sized tub.
"Oh," he said. "Sorry. It sounded like you were in danger." Denise"s face burned. At least she"d been standing fully clothed instead of squatting on the toilet with her pants down.
"Can you, uh, please leave now?"
Alten placed the door back over the frame, leaving himself on the outside.
"I"ll fix it once you"re through," he said, as calmly as though something very strange hadn"t just happened.
Denise didn"t say anything. She glared at her wrists, always covered with long-sleeved shirts. She couldn"t afford to keep waiting for Spade, and neither could her family. Her parent"s cruise lasted three weeks, and five days of that had already been spent with her doing nothing.
If Spade didn"t come back in the next day or so, she"d have to start looking for Nathanial without him.
Denise had just started on her after-lunch, predinner meal when Alten c.o.c.ked his head to the side.
"Someone"s here," he said. "I hear a car."
Her fork clattered to her plate. She jumped up, ignoring Alten"s admonishment to let Emma see who it was first, and almost ran to the front of the house. It took a minute, due to its ma.s.sive size and the fact that the kitchen was on the second floor near the back.
Still, Denise couldn"t rationalize having Emma set the dining room table when she was the only one eating solid food.
Emma had beaten her to the door. The salt-and-pepper-haired vampire smiled at Denise before looking again down the long driveway.
"It"s Spade," Emma said.
Denise shaded her eyes against the last rays of the setting sun, which shone directly behind the car rounding the final curve. She couldn"t see who was in it, with the growing dark and the tinted windows, but she"d take Emma at her word. If Denise didn"t think it would look too clingy, she"d be waiting on the driveway instead of in the doorway*but dammit, it had been five days! Five days with no call, no word, and no looking for Nathanial while she was locked up in the equivalent of a gilded Alcatraz. She had every intention of giving Spade a piece of her mind for this.
The car stopped and Spade got out, looking as suave and heart-stoppingly handsome as usual. He smiled at her as he approached, his dark brow c.o.c.ked.
"Aren"t you going to invite me into my own home, Denise?" She opened her mouth*and was knocked to the side. Stunned, Denise looked up to see Emma*sweet, pet.i.te, soft-spoken Emma*baring her fangs.
"Get away from here," Emma hissed.
That was when Denise noticed the smell, acrid and wafting faintly from the doorway.
Spade"s teeth bared in his own snarl while the skin on his face seemed to melt until it reformed into Raum"s features.
"Let me in," Raum said, each word a furious growl.
Emma slammed the door, cutting off Denise"s vision of Raum"s rage-filled face. Alten pulled her to her feet without once deviating his gaze from Emma"s.
"Send up the flares," Alten said.
Emma ran off in the direction of the main hall. Denise looked around, waiting for Raum to appear any moment. Oddly enough, he didn"t. Outside, an unearthly howl seemed to rattle the windows. It was enough to make Denise"s heart kick into a higher gear while the brands on her wrists felt like they were igniting.
Alten took her arm. The vampire"s skin was cool through the sleeve of her blouse, his grip light but unwavering.
"Don"t worry. That"s a corporeal demon out there, so he can"t come in unless someone invites him."
"I thought that was just a vampire myth," Denise replied shakily, absorbing this information. That must be why Raum disguised himself as a little girl when he first went to her house, and she"d invited him inside. Carried him, even. "Now what? We can"t just wait and hope he goes away."
Alten didn"t have a chance to reply. Several booms went off, sounding like they were all around the house. Outside, Raum screamed, so high and loud that Denise covered her ears.
"Salt bombs," Alten said in satisfaction. "I always heard salt burned demons. Guess that"s true."
"I know you can hear me, Denise," Raum roared from outside a minute later. "Let me in right now or I"ll kill every last person related to you! I know where your family is. You can"t hide them from me!"
Denise started forward, but Alten"s grip turned to steel. "He"s lying," he said flatly.
"Demons always lie."
She chewed her lip, torn. What if Raum wasn"t lying? What if standing here was the same cowardly complacency she"d shown with Randy that night, and it would result in the same lethal consequences? And what was Spade thinking, b.o.o.by-trapping his house with bombs custom-tailored for a demon? They obviously hadn"t succeeded in killing Raum. They"d just p.i.s.sed him off into a frenzy that might result in her parents" death.
Outside, Raum continued with his screaming threats. Denise was getting more desperate.
Before, she"d had an agreement with the demon. Now it looked like all bets were off.
"I have to go out to him," Denise said, tugging on her arm. "I have to tell him I"m still going to give him what he wants."
Alten didn"t budge. "You"re not going out there."
"You don"t know what our deal was!" Denise shouted, yanking harder on her arm. "I won"t let you get my family killed!"
Alten didn"t argue with her. He just clapped one hand over her mouth and picked her up with the other, carrying her, kicking, up the stairs. She could still hear Raum shouting about all the horrible, torturous ways he"d kill her parents unless Denise let him in. She couldn"t, though. She couldn"t even speak.
"I"m sorry, but I can"t risk you doing anything unwise," Alten said, ignoring Denise"s m.u.f.fled, furious grunts against his hand.
Almost thirty minutes later, Raum abruptly went silent. Denise heard the screech of car brakes, then the sound of the front door flinging open.
Spade filled the door frame in her next few moments. His black hair was tousled, as if he"d been running, and his eyes were bright green. He nodded to Alten, who finally took his hand off Denise"s mouth and his arm from around her waist.
She shoved Alten aside and then went up to Spade, slapping him across the face as hard as she could.
"What have you done?"
Chapter Fourteen.
It wasn"t the slap that angered Spade. As soon as he saw Denise gagged and restrained by Alten, he rather felt he had it coming. He wasn"t even concerned about her striking him in front of Alten. Alten presumed Denise to be his girlfriend, so a lovers" spat wasn"t cause for leadership concerns within his line. But what made rage shoot through Spade was the strength behind her blow*strength no human should have. And the sting across his face was combined with the scent of his own blood.
A glance confirmed it; her hands had transformed, curved claws replacing her nails and her fingers twisted into something like talons.
b.l.o.o.d.y demon would pay for what he"d done to her.
Quickly, before Alten noticed, Spade pushed Denise onto the bed and clasped her hands above her, hiding them between the pillows as his body pinned hers.
"Leave," he told him. "Keep watch on our guests."
Alten left, wisely shutting the door behind him.
Denise had gasped when he"d flattened her on the bed, then the scent of her anger rose and her flesh felt like it was scalding him. He hadn"t been imagining it before, Spade noted grimly. Her temperature did rise when she was upset, and right now, she was furious.
"Get off me, Spade. I mean it*"
He released her hands and rolled off her, putting a finger to his lips in the universal gesture for silence. Then he nodded at her hands.
Her face whitened when she saw them.
"I couldn"t let him see," Spade said, so low she might not hear him.
She did, because she nodded once. Her gaze brightened and then she looked away from her hands, as if she couldn"t bear the sight of them.
"Denise." Spade gently took her deformed hands into his grip, ignoring her attempts to pull free. "It might not be permanent. It wasn"t last time." She blinked rapidly and then her face hardened. "It doesn"t matter. What does matter is what you"ve done to Raum. He"ll never leave my family alone now. You"ve p.i.s.sed him off too much."
Spade got up and went over to the telly, switching it on and turning the volume up very loud. The demon had left at the first sight of him, which was noteworthy. The salt bombs must have wounded Raum enough for him to run from a fight with a Master vampire, which Spade would have relished. Still, Spade didn"t want to risk Raum overhearing what he had to say to Denise, if the demon still lurked nearby.
He sat back on the bed, leaning close to Denise so she could hear him above the blaring telly and trying very hard to ignore the headiness of her scent that said she had her monthlies.
"We know now that Raum wasn"t lying about tracking you through the brands," Spade said. "Which means he would have followed you if you"d gone with me. Since that was a possibility, I left you here, both to see if the demon found you, and to keep Raum from finding out what I was doing."
"Your plan better be amazing, or after those salt bombs, my family"s as good as dead if Raum finds them," Denise said, fear and anger still sharpening her tone.
He met her gaze, wanting her to see the intentness in his. "We now know Raum is a corporeal demon, not merely a possessed human. A corporeal demon can"t enter a private residence unless invited, can"t move around in the daytime, and can be injured by salt. A possessed human being piloted by a demon can go wherever he pleases, whenever he pleases, and has no aversion to salt."
"Is that a good thing about Raum, or a bad thing?" she asked.
In point of fact, it was a bad thing, because a possessed human would be much easier to dispose of, but Spade wasn"t about to inform her of that.
"Before you can kill your enemy, you have to know what your enemy is," Spade replied, choosing his words. "Now we know what Raum is, which means we"re one step closer to killing him. As for your parents, they"re in the middle of the ocean. Raum wouldn"t want to be anywhere near all that salt water, even if he did know where they were, which he doesn"t, or he"d have taunted you with their exact location." Denise chewed on her lip, reaching out to brush her hair back and then pausing in disgust when she caught a glimpse of her hands. She wound them in the bedspread without a word, though, and met his gaze without that former shine in her eyes.
"They can"t cruise forever, Spade, and Raum can still track me whenever he wants. I get that you needed to know what sort of demon he was, but unless I never see my parents again, they"ll be in horrible danger whenever I"m around them. You should have discussed this with me instead of deciding we weren"t looking for Nathanial and we were going after Raum instead."
His brow arched. "We"re still going to find Nathanial, but once we do, we"ll be in a position of strength to deal with Raum. Not dependent on his goodwill that he won"t kill you despite you fulfilling your promise."
He couldn"t risk that. His time away from her had served several purposes; discovering the truth about her brands, determining the type of demon Raum was, and confirming how Spade felt about her without her presence clouding his judgment. All three of those questions had now been indisputably answered. Denise was more than a situational fancy.
She was special. When he was with her, she stirred things in him that he hadn"t felt in a century and a half, and it had started from the first moment he laid eyes on her. As for Denise being human, well* she wouldn"t remain that way, if he had anything to say about it.
So after Raum took the brands off, Spade intended to kill him.
The fact that no one he knew had any inkling of how to kill a corporeal demon was something he wasn"t about to share with Denise. If Spade couldn"t discover any concrete information on demon dispatchment, he"d start with decapitation and work his way down from there.
"When we find Nathanial, I want you to leave," Denise said softly. "Raum will know you set the salt bombs. He"ll want revenge, and if he can track me, he"ll know the second we find Nathanial. Then he"ll probably try to kill you. He won"t need you anymore." Raum wouldn"t need Denise anymore, either, and she knew that as well as he did. Even if the demon didn"t have a grudge against her*and Spade doubted that, after today*Raum could kill her just for amus.e.m.e.nt.
"I have a plan for that as well," he said.
Her hazel eyes narrowed. "What?"
If Alten or Emma thought it was strange that she came downstairs with towels wrapped around her hands, neither one of them gave any indication. Denise hoped that just as before, her hands would transform back to normal. Otherwise, she"d have to find a more practical solution for keeping them covered aside from Spade"s monogrammed towels.
She prayed it wasn"t permanent, and for more reasons than just anyone seeing how monstrous they looked. If it was permanent, even if they did defeat Raum, there went her hope of one day being a mother. How could she cradle a child without fear that claws would slice into her baby"s skin? How could she even risk getting pregnant, if she had demon essence inside her?
The sight of the two strange people in the front hall jerked Denise from her depressed musings. One was a blond woman who stood near the fireplace, seeming to admire its huge size. Even though she was tall, if she"d decided to walk into it, she would have easily fit. The other was a young man with a closely shaved head and tattoos covering his arms like sleeves.
Spade nodded at them. "Denise, this is Francine and Chad."
"Nice to meet you," Denise said, walking toward them. Out of habit, she started to extend her hand, then flushed and dropped it to her side.
They cast pointed glances at her towels, but didn"t comment. Once again, Denise cursed Raum, the brands, and her long-lost relative for starting this whole mess.
"Very nice to meet you, too," Francine said. Chad echoed that while giving Denise a once-over that made her feel like a woman instead of a walking monstrosity. Then Chad glanced at Spade, blanched a little at whatever Spade"s expression was, and cleared his throat.