With just enough force to let me know it was there, he placed a hand around my throat and pushed me back against the brick building. For a long moment, he only stared. A plethora of emotions flashed across his face. Anger. Frustration. Fear.
"That would be a very bad idea," he said at last. It was a warning. A cutting desperation laced his smooth voice.
"My uncle"s a cop, and my dad"s an ex-cop. I can help you." Heat drifted off him, and I realized he must have had a fever. Standing out in the frigid cold with only a T-shirt could not be good.
My audacity seemed to astonish him. He almost laughed. "The minute I need the help of a sniveling brat from the Heights, I"ll let you know."
The hostility in his tone threw my determination askew, but only for a moment. I recovered and charged forward. "If you go back in there, I"m calling the police. I mean it."
He clenched his jaw in frustration. "You"ll do more harm than good."
I shook my head. "I doubt it."
"You don"t know anything about me. Or him."
"Is he your father?"
He hesitated, stared impatiently as if trying to decide how best to get rid of me. Then he made a decision. I could see it on his face.
His features darkened. He stepped closer, pressed the length of his body against mine, leaned into me, and whispered in my ear. "What"s your name?"
"Charley," I said, suddenly afraid, too afraid not to answer. Then I tried to say Davidson, but he pulled the scarf down to see my face better, and Davidson came out as one mangled syllable that sounded more like- "Dutch?" he asked, scrunching his brows together.
He was the most beautiful thing I"d ever seen. He was solid and strong and fierce. And vulnerable. "No," I said in a whisper as his fingers drifted down and brushed intrusively over my breast. "Davidson."
"Have you ever been raped, Dutch?"
The knowledge that he was aiming for pure, no-holds-barred shock value didn"t lessen the question"s impact. I was stunned and thoroughly terrified. I tried to resist the urge to run, tried to stand my ground, but self-preservation was a difficult thing to squelch. A quick glance at Gemma for support did little to help. My sister stood wide-eyed with mouth agape, absently holding the camera as if it still mattered, and somehow managing not to get a single moment on tape.
"No," I answered breathlessly.
His cheek brushed across mine as his hand eased back up to lock on to my throat. To an ordinary pa.s.serby, we would look like lovers playing flirtatiously in the dark.
He forced a hard knee between mine and spread them, gaining access to my most private area. I gasped at the intimate contact as his free hand dipped between my legs, and knew instinctively I was in way over my head. I grabbed his wrist with both hands.
"Please, stop."
He paused but kept his fingers cupped at my crotch. I put a hand on his chest and pushed gently, coaxing him off me. "Please."
He eased back and looked into my eyes. "You"ll leave?"
"I"ll leave."
His gaze remained locked with mine a long moment; then he raised both arms and braced them on the brick wall above my head. "Go," he said harshly.
It wasn"t a suggestion. I ducked under his arm and ran before he changed his mind, grabbing Gemma along the way.
As we rounded the building, I turned back and stopped. He"d climbed onto a crate and was sitting atop it, staring up at the window. With a forlorn sigh, he rested his head against the wall, and I realized he wasn"t going back into the apartment. He just wanted to keep an eye on that window.
At the time, I had wondered whom he"d left inside. I found out two days later when I spoke to an angry landlady. The family in 2C had moved out in the middle of the night and stiffed her for two months" rent and the costly replacement of a plate gla.s.s window. That whole self-preservation thing kept me from mentioning the particulars of the window. When I finally got her to stop harping about lost revenue, she told me she"d heard the old man call the boy Reyes, so Reyes it was. But the burning question was whom he"d left inside. Then the landlady told me.
A sister. He"d left a sister inside. And she had been alone. With a monster.
"I can"t believe it," Cookie said, pulling me back to the present. "Is he, you know, dead?"
Cookie found out long ago that I could see the departed. She"s never held it against me.
"That"s what"s weird," I said. "I just don"t know. This is so different from anything I"ve ever experienced." I checked my watch. "c.r.a.p, I have to get to the office."
"Oh! That"s probably a good idea." She chuckled. "I"ll be there in a jiff."
"Okey dokey," I said, rushing out the door with a wave. "See you in a few. Hold down the fort, Mr. Wong!"
Chapter Five.
Jenius.
-T-SHIRT As I trudged the fifty or so feet across the alley and into the rear entrance of my dad"s bar, I contemplated possibilities for why all three lawyers might have stayed behind instead of crossing over. My calculations-allowing for a 12 percent margin of error, based on the radius of the corresponding confidence interval and the surgeon general"s warning-concluded that they probably didn"t stay behind for the tacos.
I took a sec to put my sungla.s.ses in my leather bag and allow my eyes to adjust to the dim lights inside the bar. To put it mildly, my dad"s bar was gorgeous. The main room had a cathedral ceiling with dark woods covering every available surface, and framed pictures, medals, and banners from various law enforcement events covering most of that. From the back entrance, the bar stood on my right, round tables and chairs perched in the middle, and tall bistro tables lined the outer edges. But the reigning glory of the speakeasy was the elaborate, hundred-year-old ironwork that circled the main room like ancient crown molding. It spiraled around and lured the eye to the west wall, where a glorious wrought-iron elevator loomed tall and proud. The kind you see only in movies and very old hotels. The kind with all its mechanisms and pulleys open for its audience to enjoy. The kind that took forever and a day to get to the second floor.
My PI business took up most of the top floor, and had its own entrance on the side of the building, a picturesque New Englandstyle staircase. But I doubted my ability to manage the stairs without undue pain. Since I categorized all pain as undue, I decided to take the elevator inside the bar instead, despite its limitations.
My dad"s voice wafted to me, and I smiled. Dad was like rain on a scorched desert. During my childhood, he kept me from drying up and crumbling into myself. Which would just be gross.
I strolled inside and spotted his tall, slim form sitting at a table with my wicked stepmother and older, non-stepsister. While Dad was the rain, they were the scorpions, and I"d learned long ago to steer clear of them. My real mom died when I was born-hemorrhaged to death while giving birth to me, which has never been one of my favorite memories-and Dad married Denise before I"d turned a year. Without even asking my opinion on the matter. Denise and I never really clicked.
"Hey, hon," Dad said as I put my sungla.s.ses back on and tried to ease past without being noticed, not really sure why I thought the sungla.s.ses would help.
I was almost annoyed at being spotted before realizing I"d never have gotten away with it anyway. The danged elevator was louder than a Chevy big block and crept up like an injured snail. I was certain Denise would have noticed when a dark-haired girl in sungla.s.ses started elevating beside her.
I strolled toward their table.
"Come have some breakfast," Dad said. "I"ll share."
Denise and Gemma had brought Dad sustenance to break the fast. Apparently, I was not invited-big surprise-despite the fact that I live about two inches south of the back door.
Gemma didn"t bother glancing up from her breakfast burrito. The movement might have displaced a hair. Denise only sighed at Dad"s offer and started cutting into his burrito to give me some.
"That"s okay," I said. "I already ate."
She glanced up at me then, overtly annoyed. I tended to do that to her. "What did you have?" she asked, a razor"s edge to her voice.
I hesitated. This was a trick; I could feel it. She was feigning concern over the nutritional content of my breakfast to make me think she cared. I stood with my lips sealed shut, refusing to be taken in by such an obvious setup.
But she turned her powerful, laserlike glare on me, and I caved. "A blueberry bagel."
Her eyes rolled in irritation before refocusing on her burrito.
Phew. That was close. Who knew the mention of a blueberry bagel could irritate my stepmother so? Maybe I should have thrown in the strawberry cream cheese for backup. It was hard being such an utter disappointment to the woman who"d raised me, but gosh darn it, I gave it my all. I could have invented the wheel and she would have been disappointed. Or Post-it notes. Or bone marrow.
My dad unfolded from his chair for a kiss and gasped softly when he noticed my jaw. I was fairly certain Denise had noticed, too-I saw her lids widen a fraction of an inch before she caught herself-but since she chose to ignore it, I chose to ignore it as well.
I lowered my gla.s.ses quickly and shook my head at Dad. He paused, drew his brows together in displeasure that I didn"t want to explain anything in front of my wicked stepmother, then kissed my forehead.
"I"ll be upstairs in a bit." He was letting me know he expected an explanation nonetheless.
"That"s where I"ll be," I said, opening the cage to the elevator, "if you"re lucky."
He chuckled.
Denise sighed.
My stepmother was never big on the whole nurturing thing. I think she used up all the good stuff on my older sister, and by the time she got to me, she was fresh out of nurture. She did, however, give me one pertinent bit of 411. She was the one who informed me that I had the attention span of a gnat; only, she said I had the attention span of a gnat with selective listening. At least I think that"s what she said. I wasn"t listening. Oh, and she told me that men want only one thing.
And on that note, I must give praise and thanks to the powers that be. I don"t want much else from them either.
But truly, in my stepmom"s defense, who could blame her? I mean, she had Gemma. Gemma Vi Davidson. The Gemma Vi Davidson.
It was hard to compete. Especially since Gemma and I were total opposites. Gemma had blond hair and blue eyes. I did not.
Gemma was always an A student. I was more of a B-all-you-can-be kind of gal.
When Gemma was into science, I was into skipping.
When Gemma was into foreign languages, I was into the hot Italian guy down the street.
And when Gemma went to college and graduated magna c.u.m laude in three and a half years with a bachelor"s in psychology, I went to college and graduated in three and a half years with a bachelor"s in sociology, only I did it summa c.u.m laude.
Gemma"s never forgiven me for showing her up. But it did push her to continue her education as part of our never-ending struggle of one-upmanship, which is kind of like the struggle for survival, only not so n.o.ble. And she didn"t stop at her master"s either. She went all the way with a Ph.D. A married professor named Dr. Roland. Then she got her own Ph.D. and did it by the time she was thirty.
Clearly she needed to hit it with the professor more.
Denise has never forgiven me either. When Gemma graduated, Denise"s eyes shimmered with tears of joy. When I graduated, Denise"s eyes rolled more often than a heroin addict with a trust fund. I think she was annoyed that she had to miss her Sat.u.r.day garden club to attend the ceremony. Or it could have been the T-shirt I was wearing underneath my shiny graduation gown that said JENIUS.
Dad was proud of me, though. For a long time, I pretended that was enough. I kept thinking that someday Denise would realize she had the superhuman ability to be proud of more than one person at the same time.
That day never came. So, in an act of utter defiance, I did exactly what Denise would expect me to do: I disappointed her. Again. Because Denise felt like a woman"s place was in front of a cla.s.sroom, I trotted down to a recruiting event on the university"s campus and joined the Peace Corps. Disappointing her was so much easier than working my a.s.s off trying not to. And those little sideways glances and sighs of dismay didn"t hurt so much when they were clearly deserved. Not to mention the fact that I got to work with the military on several projects, and surprisingly, the military is chock-full of men in uniform. Truly, its cup runneth over. Hoo-yah!
The elevator finally reached the second floor, and I waved down to Dad before stepping into the hall that led to the back entrance of my office. The front outside entrance, the one I usually took, led directly to my reception area, with my office past that.
Then there was a third entrance that was a little trickier to maneuver and involved the fire escape out back. So when I saw Garrett in the hall, leaning against my office door, waiting for me, I realized he must have jumped to the fire escape and climbed in through the window.
Show-off.
"Do you remember the part about my dad being an ex-cop? What are you doing here?" I asked, annoyance hardening my voice. He was wearing a white T-shirt, dark jacket, and a nice-fitting pair of jeans.
He straightened and raised a questioning brow. "Any reason you took an elevator that travels at the speed of mola.s.ses in January instead of the stairs?"
Garrett was a looker, d.a.m.n him, with his dark skin and smoldering gray eyes, but that was as far as it went for me. Any minute amount of attraction I may previously have harbored was now buried beneath a thick layer of resentment and animosity. And as far as I was concerned, that was exactly where it would stay.
I let my irritated facial expression answer for me, unlocked the heavy wooden door to my office, then looked past Garrett to the three departed visitors who"d also been waiting for me.
"Glad you could join us," I said to Barber. "You"re much taller vertically."
Sussman elbowed him in a teasing gesture while Garrett strode into my office, apparently refusing to watch me talk to wallpaper.
"Sorry about my earlier behavior," Barber said. "I guess I kind of lost it."
His apology left me feeling guilty for not being more ... I don"t know, supportive. Maybe I needed sensitivity training. I once signed up for an anger management cla.s.s, but the instructor p.i.s.sed me off.
"I have no room to judge you," I said, patting Barber on the shoulder. "I"ve never died. Not officially."
"Officially?" Sussman asked.
"Long story."
"Yeah, yeah," Elizabeth said. "Can we get inside? I figure I don"t have much time left, and I want to get in all the ogling at tall, dark, and skeptic that I can. Why couldn"t I have met him yesterday? I could"ve died happy."
I knew how she felt. I had similar feelings about Reyes.
We stepped inside my office, which doubled as an art gallery for a friend of mine named Pari. Dark abstract paintings of life on Central lined my walls. One was a disturbing rendition of a Goth girl doing laundry, washing blood off her sleeves. The girl looked like me, a little joke, since I loathed laundry day. Thankfully, my image was difficult to make out in the frenzy of grays swirling around the scene.
Pari was also a tattoo artist and had a shop nearby. She designed the tattoo I had on my left shoulder blade. The one of a little grim reaper enshrouded in a flowing cloak with large, innocent eyes peeping out of it. Pari was chock-full of inside jokes.
Garrett turned toward me. I refused to acknowledge him with eye contact. Instead, I hung up my bag and started a pot of coffee just as Cookie came in the front door.
"You in here, sweetheart?"
"Back here," I called to her. "I"ve started the coffee." I kept the coffeepot in my office on the pretense of monitoring Cookie"s caffeine intake. Actually, it was my answer to potpourri.
"Coffee. Thank the G.o.ds," Cookie said as she opened the door between her office and mine. "Oh." She saw Garrett. "Mr. Swopes, I didn"t realize-"
"He was just leaving," I told her.
Garrett smiled at me, then placed the full power of his lopsided grin on Cookie.
The b.a.s.t.a.r.d.
"My, my, my," Elizabeth said a tad too breathlessly. "That"s what I"m talking about."
Suppressing a helpless sigh, I watched as Cookie started to speak, stuttered something about paperwork, then waved and closed the door to give us our privacy.