"You look very pretty," he said. "Give me a kiss!"
His wife bent her body forward from the waist, and pushed her lips out till they touched his moustache. Mr. Bosengate felt a sensation as if he had arisen from breakfast, without having eaten marmalade. He mastered it, and said:
"That jury are a rum lot."
His wife"s eyelids flickered. "I wish women sat on juries."
"Why?"
"It would be an experience."
Not the first time she had used that curious expression! Yet her life was far from dull, so far as he could see; with the new interests created by the war, and the constant calls on her time made by the perfection of their home life, she had a useful and busy existence.
Again the random thought pa.s.sed through him: "But she never tells me anything!" And suddenly that lugubrious khaki-clad figure started up among the rose bushes. "We"ve got a lot to be thankful for!" he said abruptly. "I must go to work!" His wife, raising one eyebrow, smiled.
"And I to weep!" Mr. Bosengate laughed--she had a pretty wit! And stroking his comely moustache where it had been kissed, he moved out into the sunshine. All the evening, throughout his labours, not inconsiderable, for this jury business had put him behind time, he was afflicted by that restless pleasure in his surroundings; would break off in mowing the lower lawn to look at the house through the trees; would leave his study and committee papers, to cross into the drawing-room and sniff its dainty fragrance; paid a special good-night visit to the children having supper in the schoolroom; pottered in and out from his dressing room to admire his wife while she was changing for dinner; dined with his mind perpetually on the next course; talked volubly of the war; and in the billiard room afterwards, smoking the pipe which had taken the place of his cigar, could not keep still, but roamed about, now in conservatory, now in the drawing-room, where his wife and the governess were still making swabs. It seemed to him that he could not have enough of anything. About eleven o"clock he strolled out beautiful night, only just dark enough--under the new arrangement with Time--and went down to the little round fountain below the terrace. His wife was playing the piano. Mr. Bosengate looked at the water and the flat dark water lily leaves which floated there; looked up at the house, where only narrow c.h.i.n.ks of light showed, because of the Lighting Order. The dreamy music drifted out; there was a scent of heliotrope. He moved a few steps back, and sat in the children"s swing under an old lime tree.
Jolly--blissful--in the warm, bloomy dark! Of all hours of the day, this before going to bed was perhaps the pleasantest. He saw the light go up in his wife"s bed room, unscreened for a full minute, and thought: "Aha!
If I did my duty as a special, I should "strafe" her for that." She came to the window, her figure lighted, hands up to the back of her head, so that her bare arms gleamed. Mr. Bosengate wafted her a kiss, knowing he could not be seen. "Lucky chap!" he mused; "she"s a great joy!" Up went her arm, down came the blind the house was dark again. He drew a long breath. "Another ten minutes," he thought, "then I"ll go in and shut up.
By Jove! The limes are beginning to smell already!" And, the better to take in that acme of his well-being, he tilted the swing, lifted his feet from the ground, and swung himself toward the scented blossoms. He wanted to whelm his senses in their perfume, and closed his eyes. But instead of the domestic vision he expected, the face of the little Welsh soldier, hare-eyed, shadowy, pinched and dark and pitiful, started up with such disturbing vividness that he opened his eyes again at once.
Curse! The fellow almost haunted one! Where would he be now poor little devil!--lying in his cell, thinking--thinking of his wife! Feeling suddenly morbid, Mr. Bosengate arrested the swing and stood up.
Absurd!--all his well-being and mood of warm antic.i.p.ation had deserted him! "A d---d world!" he thought. "Such a lot of misery! Why should I have to sit in judgment on that poor beggar, and condemn him?" He moved up on to the terrace and walked briskly, to rid himself of this disturbance before going in. "That commercial traveller chap," he thought, "the rest of those fellows--they see nothing!" And, abruptly turning up the three stone steps, he entered the conservatory, locked it, pa.s.sed into the billiard room, and drank his barley water. One of the pictures was hanging crooked; he went up to put it straight. Still life. Grapes and apples, and--lobsters! They struck him as odd for the first time. Why lobsters? The whole picture seemed dead and oily. He turned off the light, and went upstairs, pa.s.sed his wife"s door, into his own room, and undressed. Clothed in his pyjamas he opened the door between the rooms. By the light coming from his own he could see her dark head on the pillow. Was she asleep? No--not asleep, certainly. The moment of fruition had come; the crowning of his pride and pleasure in his home. But he continued to stand there. He had suddenly no pride, no pleasure, no desire; nothing but a sort of dull resentment against everything. He turned back; shut the door, and slipping between the heavy curtains and his open window, stood looking out at the night.
"Full of misery!" he thought. "Full of d---d misery!"
II
Filing into the jury box next morning, Mr. Bosengate collided slightly with a short juryman, whose square figure and square head of stiff yellow-red hair he had only vaguely noticed the day before. The man looked angry, and Mr. Bosengate thought: "An ill-bred dog, that!"
He sat down quickly, and, to avoid further recognition of his fellows, gazed in front of him. His appearance on Sat.u.r.days was always military, by reason of the route march of his Volunteer Corps in the afternoon.
Gentleman Fox, who belonged to the corps too, was also looking square; but that commercial traveller on his other side seemed more louche, and as if surprised in immorality, than ever; only the proximity of Gentleman Fox on the other side kept Mr. Bosengate from shrinking.
Then he saw the prisoner being brought in, shadowy and dark behind the brightness of his b.u.t.tons, and he experienced a sort of shock, this figure was so exactly that which had several times started up in his mind. Somehow he had expected a fresh sight of the fellow to dispel and disprove what had been haunting him, had expected to find him just an outside phenomenon, not, as it were, a part of his own life. And he gazed at the carven immobility of the judge"s face, trying to steady himself, as a drunken man will, by looking at a light. The regimental doctor, unabashed by the judge"s comment on his absence the day before, gave his evidence like a man who had better things to do, and the case for the prosecution was forthwith rounded in by a little speech from counsel. The matter--he said--was clear as daylight. Those who wore His Majesty"s uniform, charged with the responsibility and privilege of defending their country, were no more ent.i.tled to desert their regiments by taking their own lives than they were ent.i.tled to desert in any other way. He asked for a conviction. Mr. Bosengate felt a sympathetic shuffle pa.s.sing through all feet; the judge was speaking:
"Prisoner, you can either go into the witness box and make your statement on oath, in which case you may be cross-examined on it; or you can make your statement there from the dock, in which case you will not be cross-examined. Which do you elect to do?"
"From here, my lord."
Seeing him now full face, and, as it might be, come to life in the effort to convey his feelings, Mr. Bosengate had suddenly a quite different impression of the fellow. It was as if his khaki had fallen off, and he had stepped out of his own shadow, a live and quivering creature. His pinched clean-shaven face seemed to have an irregular, wilder, hairier look, his large nervous brown eyes darkened and glowed; he jerked his shoulders, his arms, his whole body, like a man suddenly freed from cramp or a suit of armour.
He spoke, too, in a quick, crisp, rather high voice, pinching his consonants a little, sharpening his vowels, like a true Welshman.
"My lord and misters the jury," he said: "I was a hairdresser when the call came on me to join the army. I had a little home and a wife. I never thought what it would be like to be away from them, I surely never did; and I"m ashamed to be speaking it out like this--how it can squeeze and squeeze a man, how it can prey on your mind, when you"re nervous like I am. "Tis not everyone that cares for his home--there"s lots o"
them never wants to see their wives again. But for me "tis like being shut up in a cage, it is!" Mr. Bosengate saw daylight between the skinny fingers of the man"s hand thrown out with a jerk. "I cannot bear it shut up away from wife and home like what you are in the army. So when I took my razor that morning I was wild--an" I wouldn"t be here now but for that man catching my hand. There was no reason in it, I"m willing to confess. It was foolish; but wait till you get feeling like what I was, and see how it draws you. Misters the jury, don"t send me back to prison; it is worse still there. If you have wives you will know what it is like for lots of us; only some is more nervous than others. I swear to you, sirs, I could not help it---?" Again the little man flung out his hand, his whole thin body shook and Mr. Bosengate felt the same sensation as when he drove his car over a dog--"Misters the jury, I hope you may never in your lives feel as I"ve been feeling."
The little man ceased, his eyes shrank back into their sockets, his figure back into its mask of shadowy brown and gleaming b.u.t.tons, and Mr.
Bosengate was conscious that the judge was making a series of remarks; and, very soon, of being seated at a mahogany table in the jury"s withdrawing room, hearing the voice of the man with hair like an Irish terrier"s saying: "Didn"t he talk through his hat, that little blighter!" Conscious, too, of the commercial traveller, still on his left--always on his left!--mopping his brow, and muttering: "Phew! It"s hot in there to-day!" while an effluvium, as of an inside accustomed to whisky came from him. Then the man with the underlip and the three plastered wisps of hair said:
"Don"t know why we withdrew, Mr. Foreman!"
Mr. Bosengate looked round to where, at the head of the table, Gentleman Fox sat, in defensive gentility and the little white piping to his waistcoat saying blandly:
"I shall be happy to take the sense of the jury."
There was a short silence, then the chemist murmured:
"I should say he must have what they call claustrophobia."
"Clauster fiddlesticks! The feller"s a shirker, that"s all. Missed his wife--pretty excuse! Indecent, I call it!"
The speaker was the little wire-haired man; and emotion, deep and angry, stirred in Mr. Bosengate. That ill-bred little cur! He gripped the edge of the table with both hands.
"I think it"s d-----d natural!" he muttered. But almost before the words had left his lips he felt dismay. What had he said--he, nearly a colonel of volunteers--endorsing such a want of patriotism! And hearing the commercial traveller murmuring: ""Ear, "ear!" he reddened violently.
The wire-headed man said roughly:
"There"s too many of these blighted shirkers, and too much pampering of them."
The turmoil in Mr. Bosengate increased; he remarked in an icy voice:
"I agree to no verdict that"ll send the man back to prison."
At this a real tremor seemed to go round the table, as if they all saw themselves sitting there through lunch time. Then the large grey-haired man given to winking, said:
"Oh! Come, sir--after what the judge said! Come, sir! What do you say, Mr. Foreman?"
Gentleman Fox--as who should say "This is excellent value, but I don"t wish to press it on you!"--answered:
"We are only concerned with the facts. Did he or did he not try to shorten his life?"
"Of course he did--said so himself," Mr. Bosengate heard the wire-haired man snap out, and from the following murmur of a.s.sent he alone abstained. Guilty! Well--yes! There was no way out of admitting that, but his feelings revolted against handing "that poor little beggar" over to the tender mercy of his country"s law. His whole soul rose in arms against agreeing with that ill-bred little cur, and the rest of this job-lot. He had an impulse to get up and walk out, saying: "Settle it your own way. Good morning."
"It seems, sir," Gentleman Fox was saying, "that we"re all agreed to guilty, except yourself. If you will allow me, I don"t see how you can go behind what the prisoner himself admitted."
Thus brought up to the very guns, Mr. Bosengate, red in the face, thrust his hands deep into the side pockets of his tunic, and, staring straight before him, said:
"Very well; on condition we recommend him to mercy."
"What do you say, gentlemen; shall we recommend him to mercy?"
""Ear, "ear!" burst from the commercial traveller, and from the chemist came the murmur:
"No harm in that."
"Well, I think there is. They shoot deserters at the front, and we let this fellow off. I"d hang the cur."
Mr. Bosengate stared at that little wire-haired brute. "Haven"t you any feeling for others?" he wanted to say. "Can"t you see that this poor devil suffers tortures?" But the sheer impossibility of doing this before ten other men brought a slight sweat out on his face and hands; and in agitation he smote the table a blow with his fist. The effect was instantaneous. Everybody looked at the wire-haired man, as if saying: "Yes, you"ve gone a bit too far there!" The "little brute" stood it for a moment, then muttered surlily:
"Well, commend "im to mercy if you like; I don"t care."
"That"s right; they never pay any attention to it," said the grey-haired man, winking heartily. And Mr. Bosengate filed back with the others into court.