Chapter 453: I Have Depression
Translator: Henyee Translations Editor: Henyee Translations
Seeing the handsome face in front of her eyes, smelling his familiar scent in her nose, Xia Ning felt lost for a moment. Red wine always tasted so good that people would lose themselves in it. She closed her eyes slowly, but a b.l.o.o.d.y scene filled with death suddenly appeared in her head.
Her heart suddenly dropped. She opened her eyes immediately. Seeing Qiao Yu’s face, she turned her face completely and pushed him away with both hands. She then stepped back, her back hit the rail directly. The jacket fell onto the ground as well but she did not realize it at all. She looked completely unsettled.
Qiao Yu saw Xia Ning’s fearful look and remembered something suddenly. He frowned a little. “Xia Ning, what’s wrong? Take a deep breath. Don’t be nervous…” He tried to reach out to her.
Xia Ning looked at him coldly. “Don’t touch me!”
Seeing her cold pupils, Qiao Yu lowered his hands slowly. He said in a low voice, “Sorry…”
All the mistakes and regrets were already there. All he could do was to make up for them by accompanying her from now on.
Xia Ning looked down. Her one hand was on her head, the other on her chest. She closed her eyes slowly, trying to calm herself down.
The night wind was blowing away all the chaos. In the dark night, only the sounds of their shallow breathing could be heard.
After quite some time, Xia Ning finally calmed down. She put down her hands and looked up at the man in front of her with a calm expression. “Qiao Yu, it’s been four years. If I count the time when I was pregnant, it’s almost five years. For me, that five years were long but also short. If you ask me if I have regretted or felt sorry for parting with you, yes I have. For the first one or two years, I had very severe depression.”
Qiao Yu’s pupils contracted suddenly. Seeing Xia Ning’s calm expression, he felt a heartache. Depression!
“I know you went to England to investigate me.” Xia Ning looked at Qiao Yu and curled her lips slightly. She smiled lightly. “Because you know I have issues, you got very nervous just now, right?
Qiao Yu’s dark eyes were holding some emotion. In his heart, he had an urge to erase the smile on her face. Because it was a form of cruelty to let someone speak out loud about their psychological issues.
Xia Ning looked at him and smiled. She continued, “Weren’t you curious about my life all these years? Let me tell you, I was in a mental facility for almost two years! Back then, I would go crazy or even hurt people. Everyone was afraid of me!”
“Sorry!” Qiao Yu looked at Xia Ning with guilt and sadness. Had he known earlier about her situation, he would never have agreed to divorce her. Now, besides feeling sorry, what does he have to erase those wounds?
“It’s nothing!” Xia Ning smiled calmly. “Sometimes, suffering is a way of training. Look at me now. Aren’t I living a much better life than before? I’ll never be so stupid again to give up myself for someone else. I’ll love myself more. All that I lost was because of my own incapability. Therefore, I was out of the game. So I don’t blame you for giving up on me!”
“It’s not like that!” Qiao Yu stepped up suddenly and grabbed Xia Ning’s shoulder. He said in a low voice, “After the divorce, I looked for you! I never gave up on you!” He could not take her att.i.tude of treating everything so casually. That person felt so far away from him, so unreal as if she never really existed.