Chapter 883: Did You Love Me?
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Cen Bai did not expect Qin Shuang to be so rational. He was stunned by her question.
When he did not speak, Qin Shuang said, “If you don’t want to say it, let me do it.
“When you first approached me, it was indeed because you wanted to get close to Sister Xi and then get close to General Xiang to obtain the protection of the special department, right?”
Cen Bai fell silent and nodded. “Sorry.”
In the beginning, he had indeed used her.
Qin Shuang continued, “But if that’s the case, you shouldn’t have made a mistake. From what I know, you and your mother have a good relations.h.i.+p. She won’t have come over and scolded you for being a heartless monster, even letting me hear it. So I guess you did it on purpose.”
She looked into the distance indifferently and said expressionlessly, “If you really didn’t have any feelings and were just using me, then even if I found out, you wouldn’t have asked Sister Xi to transfer your compensation to me… Because this way, if I didn’t have any feelings, I won’t beg Sister Xi to protect you. The best thing for you to have done is to maintain the situation at that time, when I liked you so much that I could do anything for you without minding my own dignity. Even if I’d known that you’re only using me, I’d still have protected you when I liked you.”
But even after she found out that he was using her, he still transferred his compensation without hesitation.
She’d wanted him to not be so sad and not be that monster anymore.
However, Cen Bai did not.
Cen Bai, who did not have any feelings, should have been the most rational type of person. However, he had made a wrong choice. Now that she thought about it, there must have been a reason for that choice.
Qin Shuang was silent for a long time before suddenly saying, “Did you see my diagnosis?”
Cen Bai sighed.
He did not speak, but he silently confirmed it.
Qin Shuang looked ahead. “Mhm. I’d been diagnosed with serious depression. My parents never loved me since I was young, making me question why I was alive and even develop self-doubt. It can be said that you and Sister Xi were my only salvation.
“You must have known that Sister Xi would be hunted down by all the espers in the world, right? You were afraid that when something happened to Sister Xi, I would do something extreme and act on my emotions, so you’d set up such a trap, right?”
Cen Bai clenched his jaw. The mole on his beautiful face seemed to exude sadness.
Qin Shuang bit her lip. “So, you did all of this for me, right?”
When Sister Xi was in trouble, she stood up rationally.
It was not because she had feelings, but because she once had feelings.
Logic told her that she should help Sister Xi, but she did not have any other emotions.
However, she saw General Xiang seizing Sister Xi’s special ability. Under such circ.u.mstances, the two of them could feel each other’s hearts.
Almost at that exact moment, Sister Xi understood General Xiang’s thoughts.
Qin Shuang suddenly felt that she had never seen through Cen Bai.
Qin Shuang looked at Cen Bai. She did not cry or get agitated, but she said calmly, “I’m sorry. I loved you, but I didn’t believe in you.”
Cen Bai’s eyes turned red.
He smiled and shook his head.
Qin Shuang looked at him and suddenly asked, “I’m very curious. If you didn’t have any feelings back then, why were you so good to me?”
Why was he so good to her?
Cen Bai thought about it seriously and replied sincerely, “Perhaps it’s because your unconditional love for me made me feel the only warmth I ever knew other than my mother’s.”
He lowered his eyes.
Qin Shuang continued to look at him. “Then did you ever love me?”