It was for the same reason, he supposed, that the subway made him anxious. And that the plane did. He watched Jase"s facial reactions, the twitch as a swing of the road brought light onto his face and immediately after as a stand of young trees brought a ripple of shadow and a series of flinches and blinks, all exaggerated.
So what would would it be like, Bren asked himself, to live in a building all his life, and have all the light controlled, the flow of air controlled, the temperature controlled, the humidity controlled, every person you it be like, Bren asked himself, to live in a building all his life, and have all the light controlled, the flow of air controlled, the temperature controlled, the humidity controlled, every person you met met controlled; and the whole day scheduled, the horizons curving up and movement entirely imperceptible? He had as much to learn about Jase as Jase did about the world; Jase was the book he had to read to gain knowledge about the ship - which he needed to know, and his professional instincts had turned on in that regard, to such an extent he told himself he should abandon curiosity and track on his other job, to rea.s.sure Jase. controlled; and the whole day scheduled, the horizons curving up and movement entirely imperceptible? He had as much to learn about Jase as Jase did about the world; Jase was the book he had to read to gain knowledge about the ship - which he needed to know, and his professional instincts had turned on in that regard, to such an extent he told himself he should abandon curiosity and track on his other job, to rea.s.sure Jase.
But Jase had reacted uncertainly to change in the apartment; he added up that maddening insistence on rising at exactly the same moment, on breakfast at the same time every morning, and reckoned that change, as an event, was not not something Jase was used to meeting. He"d dealt with Jase and Yolanda both on their last exposure to the world when they were still in a state of shock from landing and when their pa.s.sage under open sky to the safety of Taiben lodge had been brief, ending in the safe confines of the Bu-javid - at least Jase"s had ended there. something Jase was used to meeting. He"d dealt with Jase and Yolanda both on their last exposure to the world when they were still in a state of shock from landing and when their pa.s.sage under open sky to the safety of Taiben lodge had been brief, ending in the safe confines of the Bu-javid - at least Jase"s had ended there.
And now, right before his eyes, that twitchiness was back: that extreme reaction to stimuli of all sorts, even when Jase was trying to joke about it. Randomness of light and sound had become a battering series of events to senses completely unused to interpreting the nuances.
He rated himself tolerably good at figuring out what went on in atevi, and he could make a guess, that the way a baby overreacted once it had started being startled, it must seem to Jase as if there were were no order and no recognizable logic in the sensations that came at him. Jase had that look in his eyes and that grip on the edge of his seat that said here was a man waiting now for the whole world to dissolve under his feet. no order and no recognizable logic in the sensations that came at him. Jase had that look in his eyes and that grip on the edge of his seat that said here was a man waiting now for the whole world to dissolve under his feet.
But the logic inside the man said it wouldn"t, so Jase clung to his seat and kept his eyes wide open and tried with an adult and reasoning brain to make sense of it.
And an infant"s brain, not yet reasoning, might have an advantage in programming. A grown man who from infancy had never had light flashed in his face, never had a floor go b.u.mp, never been slung about from one side to the other - what was he to do? Jase came from a steady, scheduled world, one without large s.p.a.ces. If he"d lived in the equivalent of a set of small rooms, G.o.d, even textures textures must be new. must be new.
What had Jase said to him? The tastes, the smells, were all overwhelming to him?
It was possible he"d never seen bright color or different pattern. The ship Jase had come from began to seem a frighteningly same same kind of place. kind of place.
The beach, the waves, the rocks and hills, these things should, if Jase could meet them, be a very good cure for what ailed him. And if he could tolerate the environment, get a look at the natural processes that underlay the randomness of storm and weather that reached the capital at Shejidan, he would have far fewer fears. Jase was scared of thunder, and knew better than most now what it was, but still jumped when it thundered, and was embarra.s.sed when the servants laughed. They They thought it made him like them. He thought it made him foolish. thought it made him like them. He thought it made him foolish.
Let Jase see the historic origins of the atevi, let him experience the same sort of things that had opened the atevi world to his his imagination. imagination. That That was the plan. was the plan.
It was, though he hadn"t thought so then, the best thing that had ever happened to him in terms of his understanding of the world he lived in, a textured, full of smells and colors world that could fill up his senses and appeal to him on such a basic level that something in his human heart responded to this atevi place and taught him what the species had in common.
On the other hand, watching Jase flinch from sunlight and shadow, it might not happen to Jase. It at best might be a bit much to meet all in one day. Their s.p.a.ceman was brave, but growing vastly disoriented just in the sounds and level of perceived threat constantly coming at him; fast-witted, but lost in the dataflow that had begun to wipe out the linkages in his brain and rearrange the priorities.
It wasn"t just the language now that had overwhelmed Jase with its choices. It wasn"t wasn"t just the same linguistic shift that overwhelmed every student that came close to fluency - it was the whole physical, natural world that came down on Jase, stripping away all his means not only of expressing himself - that was the language part - but also of interpreting the sensations that came at him. Jase was hanging on to that part of his perceptions with his fingernails. just the same linguistic shift that overwhelmed every student that came close to fluency - it was the whole physical, natural world that came down on Jase, stripping away all his means not only of expressing himself - that was the language part - but also of interpreting the sensations that came at him. Jase was hanging on to that part of his perceptions with his fingernails.
And that disorientation, coupled with what he guessed Ilisidi might provoke him to, would make it a very good idea to limit the breakable objects in Jase"s reach.
He began to have misgivings. Jase wasn"t wasn"t planet-born. There might not be that common ground he hoped to have Jase find with atevi. For the first time he began to fear he"d made a mistake in bringing Jase out here and asking this of him. planet-born. There might not be that common ground he hoped to have Jase find with atevi. For the first time he began to fear he"d made a mistake in bringing Jase out here and asking this of him.
It was a lot of input.
But it was fractal, soothing input if Jase"s brain could just figure out it did repeat, and loop, and that it didn"t threaten.
Ilisidi, however, didn"t didn"t give you an inch. give you an inch.
And you had to go farther into atevi territory to meet Ilisidi than she was going to come onto human ground to meet you: that was a given.
"Pretty view," he said desperately as they rounded a turn, and it was, a glorious view into the distance of the plain. "Taiben is that way - a fair distance, though."
Jase faced that direction. He gave no indication his eyes even knew where to focus two seconds running or what was pretty or what he was supposed to look at.
Bren thought of asking the driver to stop and let Jase get out and have a steady, stable look and catch his breath; but he thought then that they weren"t within a security perimeter, and that they were going to such a perimeter, within which they could stand and have such a view, presumably. And Jase could calm down.
It was a risk. Their whole lives were a risk. But you limited them where you could. It was different from the catwalk at Dalaigi.
There was no crowd watching them.
The trip went a good distance up and up, among rolling hills of greening gra.s.s spangled with wild-flowers in yellow and purple and white, with no structures, no building in sight until, just around a steep turn in the rolling hills, they pa.s.sed through a gate in a low stone wall and then, in the next turn, caught a brief view of a stone building.
That view steadied in the forward windows after the second turn, a pile of the local rocks with a number of high, solid walls, one slightly tumbled one, and a staff posed crazily on the battlement of a two, in places three and four floored fortification with a bright banner flying, on a staff slightly atilt, from the front arch.
Red and black, the aiji"s colors.
The van pulled up to the door, under a sweep-edged roof, as the door opened and poured out the aiji-dowager"s men, who opened the door of the van.
Jago was first out. Bren climbed down.
Jase stayed seated. Blocking Banichi"s path to the door was never a good idea. Jase, however, was not doing so in panic. Jase was frowning darkly.
"Where"s the beach?" he asked.
"Oh, it"s here," Bren said. "Come on, Jase."
Jase stayed put. And belted in. His arms were folded. From that position, he spared a fast, angry gesture around him. "Gra.s.s. Rock. High rock. You promised me the beach, nadi."
Not trusting this, Bren thought. From overload to a final realization they were on a mountain. "Jasi-ji," he said reasonably, "you"re preventing Banichi getting up." Not true, if Banichi weren"t being polite. "There is a beach down the hill, where water tends to be and remain, as physics may tell you, and I promise you ample chance to see the ocean. One just doesn"t build these kind of big houses down there. Too many people. And it"s old. And it"s the aiji"s property. It"s all right right, Jasi-ji. Get down, if you please, before Banichi moves you."
Jase moved then, carefully, ducking his head, and stepped down into the shadow of a building, clinging to the van and evading the offered help of the servants. He stood there a moment, then sighted on the door and started walking.
Bren walked with him, looking at the open, iron-bound doors; at the dim interior ahead of them and around them as they walked in.
Malguri was the oldest fortress still functioning, he knew that. This place had a dusty, deserted look as if it hadn"t quite been maintained on the same level as Malguri. Like Mogari-nai, it was supposedly from the Age of Exploration, younger than Malguri: it had supported the fort at Mogari-nai, when atevi had started trading around the Southern Rim, when East and West had made contact, when they"d gotten out on the seas in wooden ships and rival a.s.sociations had shot at each other with cannon.
But by what he was seeing he understood in a new light what Ilisidi had said to him when she proposed it, that Saduri wasn"t on the regular tour circuit, and was not legally permitted to hikers - a security advantage, she said, which Malguri hadn"t had.
This fortress might not be as old as Malguri, but he wouldn"t lay odds on the plumbing. That banner on the roof, too, said something about the way things were put together. No regular bracket for the staff. No regular provision for such a thing - he could imagine one of the dowager"s "young men" climbing up there to do it, out of the reckless enthusiasm and the loyalty they showed for Ilisidi.
And for the sheer h.e.l.l of it.
Malguri"s hall had been lively and full of interesting banners. This one - - had one of the ceiling beams lying crashed onto the floor at the rear of the hall. Workmen"s scaffolding occupied that end, which, with no interior lighting and with only the light from the door, was brown with dust.
Even Banichi and Jago stopped in some dismay.
Where is the beach, indeed? Bren asked himself.
What have I let us in for?
"Nadi Bren." One of the dowager"s servants came from a side hall, and said, with the usual calm of the dowager"s servants, "Nadiin. One will guide you to your rooms."
CHAPTER 16.
DOWN A LONG HALL to the side, dust everywhere - but the dust on the stone floor showed a clear track of feet having pa.s.sed this way recently. Like bread crumbs in the wilderness, Bren thought to himself as he and Jase, behind Ilisidi"s man, climbed a short flight of stairs where Banichi, following them, surely had to duck his head.
Jago had stayed behind in the downstairs, having something to do with Tano and Algini and the baggage in the second van, Bren thought.
The stone of the stair treads was bowed, worn by the use of atevi feet - old. Older than the use of cannon, perhaps. He wasn"t sure how long it took to wear away stone. The floor above was stone, which he had learned from Malguri meant a barrel vault beneath, in this age predating structural steel.
The hall above had no windows, no light but what came from a lamp at the side of the stairs and what filtered up from the open door below. It was increasingly shadowy at the top of the stairs, pitch black down the hall, and the servant - if such he was: he looked very fit - opened the second door of a small row of doors, and showed them into a hole of a room, into which the thin stream of white daylight from a gla.s.sless window-slit showed the outlines of a bed and a table. The draft from that window was cool spring air. It moved languidly past them, doubtless to find the door downstairs.
The servant struck a match and light flared in a golden glow on an atevi face, atevi hands, a candle on a rough (but recently dusted) table. A small vase stood next the candle with three p.r.i.c.kly-looking flowers that looked to be from the hillside. The wick took fire, and illumined a rubble stone wall, a deeply shadowed but smallish room, bare timbers helping the masonry hold up a doubtless weary roof.
"There are more candles," the servant said, and indicated a small wicker basket at the end of the same table. "And matches, nandiin. The dowager requests one have a caution of fire." The man presented him a small bundle of matches, neatly tied with ribbon. "One regrets that the inner halls are under restoration and not pleasant. Ordinarily, guests would be lodged there, but there are plenty of blankets. The accommodation is at the end of the hall and it does function. Please follow me."
The paidhi sensed intense unhappiness in Jase"s silence and chose not to touch it off with a question. "Down the hall, then," he said, as cheerfully as he could. Banichi was waiting in the doorway, and one wondered whether he he had had any warning. had had any warning.
Possibly Banichi was thinking, You fool, Bren-ji. But Banichi gave no hint at all in his mildly pleasant expression. It might be more comfortable than a rooftop in the much warmer peninsula. Might be. Marginally.
And this this was the vacation spot he"d chosen. was the vacation spot he"d chosen.
The putative servant took several candles from the basket and lit the first from the lighted candle on the table, then carried it outside and lit another, which, as they all stood watching, doubtless with separate thoughts of the situation, the servant set in a wall-sconce.
"Nand" Banichi, your room, and nand" Jago"s," the servant said, lit a candle and set it by that that door to relieve the darkness of this tunnel; and so they went; the room for Tano and Algini was next. door to relieve the darkness of this tunnel; and so they went; the room for Tano and Algini was next.
On the other side of this hall, although there were doors, as best the paidhi could judge the geometry of the building he"d seen from outside there were no windows: the rooms they were not using must be little more than stone coffins with no source of light but the candle, rooms dependent on mortar imperfections or G.o.d knew what for ventilation. He supposed, since he had challenged Ilisidi to challenge Jase, they were lucky not to be lodged on that side of the hall.
And the euphemistically named accommodation? The servant opened the door on a room with cold spring daylight showing through a hole in the stone floor. With the stack of towels. And a dipper and bucket.
The servant explained, for Jase"s benefit. The paidhi well understood. He wasn"t sure Jase quite believed it was the toilet.
The one at Malguri had had indoor heat. This didn"t. It had an updraft.
Malguri had had gla.s.s windows. Fireplaces in palatial suites, however old the plumbing. The distinction between Historical Site and Oldest Continuously Occupied Site began to come through to him with a great deal more clarity.
Jase hadn"t said a word. He was probably in shock, and walked along tamely as they all retraced their steps, the supposed servant in the lead, back down the candlelit hall toward their room - their - singular room.
Their - singular - room, which to his memory had one - singular - and not very wide - bed.
It was not polite for a guest to complain of accommodations. It was just not done. One a.s.sumed one"s host knew exactly what her guests were being put into, and one smiled and made no complaint.
He"d said trustingly to Ilisidi, in a private meeting in her luxurious study, in the Bu-javid apartment she maintained, "Aiji-ma, Jase doesn"t understand atevi. You taught me me. And I daren"t go so far from the capital as Malguri. Might I impose on you, aiji-ma, to linger a little at Taiben this season? Perhaps to go over to the seash.o.r.e and show Jase-paidhi the land as it was? I"ve promised him the sea. I"ve undertaken to provide him that - and your help would be best of all, aiji-ma."
There"d been one of those silences.
"What happened to "Sidi-ji?" " Ilisidi had asked with a quirk of her age-seamed lips and a lift of a brow, meaning why didn"t he use that familiar, intimate address he"d a number of times dared with her.
"I think," he"d said, knowing he was fencing with a very dangerous opponent, at a very unsettled time in the aiji"s court, "I thought I should show some decency of address in such an outrageous request of your time, nand" dowager."
And Ilisidi had said, after an apparent moment of thought, one thin knuckle under a still-firm though wrinkled chin: "I think - I think that if you want the seash.o.r.e, nadi, why, we should go go to the seash.o.r.e. Why not Saduri?" to the seash.o.r.e. Why not Saduri?"
He hadn"t thought thought it was a site open to the public. He"d foolishly said so. it was a site open to the public. He"d foolishly said so.
And: "We are not the public," Ilisidi had said, in that aristocratic mode that could move mountains. are not the public," Ilisidi had said, in that aristocratic mode that could move mountains.
So here they were. Tano, Jago, and Algini, with a number of putative servants, came up the steps at the end of the hall with a fairly light load of baggage.
"The rest of the baggage is going to be stored downstairs," Jago said cheerfully.
Bren didn"t feel feel cheerful. Tano looked bewildered, and Bren didn"t dare look at Jase, just depressed the iron latch on his door to let their personal luggage in. cheerful. Tano looked bewildered, and Bren didn"t dare look at Jase, just depressed the iron latch on his door to let their personal luggage in.
"Is there a key for this door, nadi?" he asked Ilisidi"s servant.
"No, nand" paidhi. That room has no lock. But one a.s.sures you, the entire perimeter of this site is very closely guarded, so one may be confident all the same."
Bren rather expected Banichi or Jago to say something caustic about that situation. But by that example, and their silence, he wondered whether their their rooms had locks. rooms had locks.
One servant took his and Jase"s baggage in. Jago handed him his computer, which was not not going to find a recharge socket in this building, but which he on no account allowed to remain outside his immediate guard, especially in a premises occupied by uncle Tati-seigi. That servant left. He walked in, Jase walked in, and he shut the door, leaving them in the white daylight from the window and the golden glow from the candle, which had by a whisper of a flame survived that gust from the closing door. going to find a recharge socket in this building, but which he on no account allowed to remain outside his immediate guard, especially in a premises occupied by uncle Tati-seigi. That servant left. He walked in, Jase walked in, and he shut the door, leaving them in the white daylight from the window and the golden glow from the candle, which had by a whisper of a flame survived that gust from the closing door.
"Nadi," Jase began with, he thought, remarkable restraint, "what are they doing? Why are we here?"
"Well," he said, and tried to think of words Jase knew.
"I," Jase began again, this time in his own language. He was clearly now fighting for breath - and probably falling down that interlinguistic interface again.
Bren said sharply, "I"m sorry."
"Where is the ocean ocean, nadi?"
"Clearly not here. Let me explain."
"In my language! Please!"
He"d said that in Ragi. Which said Jase was at least getting the reflexes under control.
"Five fast minutes, then, in in Mosphei". You remember how dangerous I said Tatiseigi was? - Well, the aiji-dowager is Mosphei". You remember how dangerous I said Tatiseigi was? - Well, the aiji-dowager is the focus the focus of every anti-Tabini dissident in the country. of every anti-Tabini dissident in the country. She She has the legitimacy Tatiseigi doesn"t. Except for the legislature voting the other way after her husband died, she could have been aiji. Except for them voting for her grandson after her son died, she could have been aiji. She could step in tomorrow without the country falling apart, and she"s the has the legitimacy Tatiseigi doesn"t. Except for the legislature voting the other way after her husband died, she could have been aiji. Except for them voting for her grandson after her son died, she could have been aiji. She could step in tomorrow without the country falling apart, and she"s the only only one who"d avoid an unthinkable bloodbath, but she"s also -" One was one who"d avoid an unthinkable bloodbath, but she"s also -" One was never never sure a room lacked bugs. And was always playing for an audience. "She"s also fair and honorable. She"s been exceedingly moral in all her dealings with the welfare of the a.s.sociation. It would have been a sure a room lacked bugs. And was always playing for an audience. "She"s also fair and honorable. She"s been exceedingly moral in all her dealings with the welfare of the a.s.sociation. It would have been a lot lot easier for her to have raised a civil war against her grandson. But she didn"t, and I"m alive to say so. So keep objections to a minimum. And for G.o.d"s sake don"t make any objections to her. I asked her to show you atevi life as it was before humans came!" easier for her to have raised a civil war against her grandson. But she didn"t, and I"m alive to say so. So keep objections to a minimum. And for G.o.d"s sake don"t make any objections to her. I asked her to show you atevi life as it was before humans came!"
"This is it, then, this falling-down ruin?"
"You listen to me, Jase."
Jase shoved him, hard, and he grabbed Jase"s coat to prevent a swing at him.
"I"ve been been listening to you," Jase said, trying to free himself, and shoved again. listening to you," Jase said, trying to free himself, and shoved again.
"You"re being stupid, stupid stupid is what you"re being! Stand still!" is what you"re being! Stand still!"
Jase clawed at his hand and he let go. And they stood and stared at each other, Jase panting for breath, himself very much on the verge of hitting him, someone, anyone.
"All right," Jase said. "All right, I"ll go along with this. I"ll play your rules, your game, let"s just keep smiling."
"Let me explain, before we switch languages again. If you insult this woman, you could have a war. If you insult this woman you could be killed. I am not exaggerating. We are dealing with cultural differences here. We are dealing with people who don"t owe anything to whatever code of ethics lies in our mutual past. So whatever happens, you get a grip on that temper, Mr. Graham. You get a grip on it or I"ll suggest to our staff they feed you some tea that"ll have you throwing up your guts for three days and ship you back to the apartment before you say something to kill several million people! Do I make myself clear?"