Chapter 664: Is She Something Special to You?
“If you are determined to protect her, you can’t do things like you always do. You can’t risk your life to solve cases. You have to make more friends and not be such a loner. With your ability, if it isn’t because of your dull personality, you wouldn’t be just a captain or a third rank inspector now. Tang Yan, remember this. Protecting the country is a responsibility. Protecting a family is also a responsibility. If you can’t even protect your wife, then how can the citizens entrust their lives to you? Think about it yourself.”
While Feng Shanshan was cooking, the uncle and the nephew were chatting in the living room.
Soon, she served food on the table.
“I hope you don’t mind these simple home-cooked dishes, Professor.”
“It’s my fortune to get to taste the food made by my niece-in-law. I thought I wouldn’t be able to see this kid get a girlfriend.” The professor picked up his chopsticks happily and tasted each dish.
Feng Shanshan looked at Tang Yan silently. She would settle the scores with him after the professor left for sure.
“It looks like I shall always come here for meals.”
The professor was particularly happy with this meal. He stayed in Feng Shanshan’s house until late into night and left with satisfaction. It was perhaps the happiest birthday he’d had in these recent years. Because he could finally fulfil the wish of Tang Yan’s late father.
But just after the professor left, Feng Shanshan started confronting Tang Yan. “Did you seek my agreement before bringing Professor here?”
“I thought with our relations.h.i.+p, you’d be very happy.”
Feng Shanshan crossed her arms and looked at Tang Yan. “Do I look happy?”
Tang Yan did not say anything. He turned around to go to the bedroom. It made Feng Shanshan feel guilty, as if she had bullied a kid, so she stopped him.
“When are you going to tell me about your past? I don’t mind you having had many girlfriends before. I just want to know what you have experienced. I don’t want to be forced to accept things with disappointment when they happen. Tang Yan, you are already willing to let the professor know about our relations.h.i.+p, but you still don’t want to tell me about your past?”
Tang Yan raised his head and stared into Feng Shanshan’s eyes. He sighed. “Sit down first.”
Seeing Tang Yan was finally willing to yield, she quickly did as she was told.
“Let me remind you first. Even if you feel uncomfortable after listening to what I’m going to tell you, you can’t break up with me.”
Tang Yan joined her on the sofa as well, with his hand clasped on his lap.
“I started living independently at ten. That’s why I became very withdrawn, and I like to fight. When I was fifteen or sixteen, I always fought and fooled around outside, so I was sent to juvenile prison for eight months. It was then when I had a conflict with a well-known gangster at the time. He swore that he would kill me once he was out. So, once I was released, my uncle forced me to enroll in the police academy, because it was safe there.
“But I still couldn’t control my temper. I fought with a colleague and was nearly expelled. It’s the gangster who threatened me that changed my life. He stabbed me and I was hospitalized for three months. From then on, I controlled my temper. Since I’m apparently fairly good at all aspects, I was selected as an undercover agent. It was a drug gang, an armed gang. I used one year to gain the trust of the head of the gang and became his second-in-command. After that, I leaked important information to the police and worked with them to eliminate the gang.
“However, my ident.i.ty was exposed. In the first few years after that, I was hunted by the enemies. I hid here and there, and I often rushed to the frontlines to help with many important cases. It was not until the time when the enemies were captured one after another that I was able to get some peace. But maybe it was because of this uniform and this job, and that I’ve seen all sorts of kindness and evil, that I chose to go to the frontlines. Because I’ve seen the tactics of those criminals. I thought that I was born to deal with those wicked people, because I felt that I was just like them.
“As for women, I didn’t avoid them at all. Since I was a teenager, I would always have a girlfriend with me. But I never got serious with them, so most of the relations.h.i.+ps ended after a while.”
“What about your latest ex?” Feng Shanshan thought that she could accept that Tang Yan never stopped having a woman by his side, but she minded his previous girlfriend. Subconsciously, she felt that this ex-girlfriend had a lot of influence on him.
Especially when he didn’t get a new girlfriend for two or three years after she died.
“The previous one was a postgraduate. She said that she liked how manly I was. She pursued me for eight months and we started dating. But I didn’t have much time for her. So, she started complaining and she became more and more dissatisfied as time pa.s.sed. We weren’t together for long. The time we really spent together was less than a month.
“And because I was always nowhere to be seen, she couldn’t stand it anymore and started cheating on me. After I knew about it, we broke up peacefully. But she came to me afterward, saying that she was seriously ill. I stayed by her side and took care of her until she died. Then, I built a tombstone for her. And then, I met you.”
“Is she something special to you?”
Tang Yan shook his head. “She’s just like the rest. Nothing special.”
“Then why was there a two to three years gap… or, am I one of them?”
“Feng Shanshan, when you are locked in a small dark house for a month without any backup for three months in the mountains and you have to fight against the drug dealers every day, you will know how hard your heart must be to be an undercover agent. I admit it. Maybe I looked at women the same way I looked at other things, because I felt that life was the most important thing in this world. But you are not the same. You injected my nearly-dead heart with fresh blood.”
Feng Shanshan was overwhelmed when she heard his words and she touched her throat. “Mu Qiqi’s special, too.”
“I’m not interested in someone else’s woman. And the most important thing is, I see myself in you. Since we are laying our cards on the table today, we shall make it clear. The past, to me, is the past. The only thing I’m worried of now is that the people who were arrested because of me would come to get revenge. If you’re scared, we can stop here.”