When Chief Porter had used a pistol-grip shotgun to save me from the loss of a leg and from emasculation-by-crocodile, the weapon had appeared to have a mean kick. The chief had stood with his feet wide apart, the left somewhat in front of the right, knees slightly bent, to absorb the recoil, and he had been visibly jolted by it.
Moving far enough into the room to reveal himself, Robert was not aware of me. By the time he stepped forward into my line of sight, I was well out of his.
Even if he turned his head to look sideways, his peripheral vision might not pick me up behind him. Should instinct warn him, however, the shadows in which I stood weren"t deep enough to blind him to me if he turned around.
The gloom didn"t reveal enough of his features to allow me to identify him by looks alone. He was big rather than ma.s.sive, which ruled out Andre.
In the thrashing garden of the storm, more lightning put out roots, and the jarring crash of thunder was the sound of an entire forest felled.
He continued across the room, looking neither left nor right. I began to think that he had entered here not in search of me, but for some other reason.
Judging by his behavior, even more somnambulant than usual, he had been drawn by the call of the storm. He stopped in front of the balcony doors.
I dared to think that if this current escalation of the storm"s pyrotechnics continued for as much as a minute, distracting Robert and covering what sounds I made, I might be able to come out from hiding, slip quickly into the hall without alerting him, avoid this confrontation, and make that break for the stairs, after all.
As I eased forward, intending to peer around the entry door to be sure that Datura and Andre were searching elsewhere and that the hall was safe, an effect of the next barrage of thunderbolts stunned and arrested me. Each flare bounced off Robert and cast his ghostly reflection in the gla.s.s of the balcony doors. His face shone as pale as a Kabuki mask, but his eyes were even whiter, bright white with the reflected lightning.
I thought at once of the snaky man, fished from the flood tunnel, his eyes rolled far back in his head.
Three more flares repeatedly revealed a reflection with white eyes, and I stood immobilized by a marrow-freezing chill, even as Robert turned toward me.
FORTY-FIVE.
DELIBERATELY, NOT WITH THE QUICK REFLEXES OF violent intent, Robert turned toward me.
The inscrutable semaph.o.r.e of the storm no longer brightened his face, but silhouetted him. The sky, one great galleon with a thousand black sails, signaled, signaled, as if to regain his attention, and thunder boomed.
Averted from the lightning, his eyes no longer shone a moonish white. Nevertheless though his features were deeply shadowed, his gaze still seemed vaguely phosph.o.r.escent, as milky as that of a man blinded by cataracts.
Although I could not see him well enough to be certain, I felt that his eyes were turned back in his head, no color revealed. This might have been a shiver of imagination born of the chill that had seized me.
Having a.s.sumed the stance that I recalled Chief Porter taking, I brought the shotgun to bear on him, aiming low because the kick might pull the muzzle higher.
Regardless of the condition of Robert"s eyes, whether they were as white as hard-boiled eggs or the sullen bloodshot beryl-blue they had been earlier, I felt sure that he was not merely aware of my presence but that he could see me.
Yet his demeanor and his slump-shouldered posture suggested that the sight of me failed to shift him into psycho-killer gear. If not confused, he appeared to be at least distracted, and weary.
I began to think that he had not come in search of me, but had wandered in here either for another purpose or without any purpose. Having found me inadvertently, he stood as if in resentment of the need to resolve the confrontation.
Curiouser and curiouser: He let out a long sigh of exhaustion, with a thin plaintive edge that seemed to express a sense of being hara.s.sed.
As far as I could recall, these were the first sounds that I had heard issue from his lips: a sigh, a plaint.
His inexplicable malaise and my disinclination to use the shotgun in the absence of a clear threat to my life had brought us to a bizarre impa.s.se that, just two minutes ago, I could never have imagined.
A sudden sweat greased my brow. The situation was not tenable. Something had to give.
His arms hung at his sides. Lambent storm light licked the shape of a pistol or a revolver in his right hand.
When he first turned from the window, Robert could have whipped toward me, squeezing off shots, dropping and rolling as he fired to avoid the 12-gauge. I had no doubt that he was a practiced killer who knew the right moves. His chances of killing me would have been much better than my odds of wounding him.
The gun hung like an anchor at the end of his arm as he took two steps toward me, not in a threatening manner, but almost as though he wished to beseech me for something. These were heavy draft-horse steps that comported with the t.i.tle, cheval cheval, that Datura had given him.
I worried that Andre would come through the door next, with all the irresistible power of the locomotive of which he had initially reminded me.
Robert might then shake off his indecision-or whatever mood caused his inaction. The two could cut me down in a cross fire.
But I was not capable of blasting away at a man who didn"t at this moment seem inclined to shoot me.
Although he"d drawn closer, I could see his dissolute face no more clearly than before. Still I had the unnerving impression that his eyes were frosted panes.
From him came another sound, which at first I thought must be a mumbled question. But when it came again, it seemed more like a stifled cough.
At last the hand with the gun came up from his side.
My impression was that he raised the weapon not with lethal purpose, but unconsciously, almost as though he had forgotten that he held it. Given what I knew of him-his devotion to Datura, his taste for blood, his evident partic.i.p.ation in the brutal murder of Dr. Jessup-I couldn"t wait for a clearer indication of his intent.
The recoil rocked me. He took the buckshot like the truck he was, and did not drop his handgun, and I pumped a round into the chamber and fired again, and the gla.s.s doors behind him dissolved because I must have pulled high or wide, so I pumped and fired a third time, and he staggered backward through the gap where the sliding doors had been.
Although he had still not dropped his weapon, he had not used it, either, and I doubted that a fourth shot was necessary. At least two of the first three rounds had hit him square and hard.
But I rushed toward him, hot to be done with this, almost as if the gun controlled me and wanted to be fully spent. The fourth round blew him off the balcony.
Only as I stepped to the shattered doors did I see what rain and perspective had previously concealed from me. The outermost third of the balcony must have broken away in the earthquake five years ago, taking with it the railing.
If any life had remained in him after three hits out of four rounds, a twelve-story fall would have taken it.
FORTY-SIX.
KILLING ROBERT LEFT ME WEAK IN THE KNEES AND light in the head, but it did not nauseate me as I had half expected that it would. He was, after all, Cheval Robert, not a good husband or a kind father, or a pillar of his community.
Furthermore, I had the feeling that he had wanted me to do what I had done. He seemed to have embraced death as if it was a mercy.
As I backed away from the balcony doors and a sudden squall of rain that burst through them, I heard Datura screaming from some distant point of the twelfth floor. Her voice swelled like a siren as she approached at a run.
If I sprinted for the stairs, I would surely be caught in the hall before I reached them. She and Andre would be armed; and it defied reason to suppose that they would be afflicted with Robert"s indecision.
I traded the living room of the suite for the bedroom to the right of the entry door. This place was darker than the previous room because the windows were smaller and because the rotting draperies had not fallen off their rods.
I didn"t expect to find a hiding place. I just needed to buy time to reload.
Mindful of the shotgun fire that had drawn their attention, they would enter the living room cautiously. Most likely they would first lay down a volley of suppressing fire.
By the time one of them dared to explore this adjoining room, I would be ready for them. Or as ready as I would ever be. I had only four more sh.e.l.ls, not an a.r.s.enal.
If luck was on my side, they didn"t know where Robert"s part of the search had led him-if he had been searching. They couldn"t pinpoint, by the sound alone, precisely from where the shots had come.
Should they decide to search all the rooms along the secondary hallway, an opportunity might yet arise for me to get off the twelfth floor.
Much closer now, but not from within the suite, perhaps from the intersection of corridors, Datura shouted my name. She wasn"t calling me out for a milkshake at the local soda fountain, but she sounded more excited than p.i.s.sed.
The shotgun barrel, breech, and receiver were warm from the recent firing.
Leaning against a wall, shuddering as I remembered Robert plunging backward off the balcony, I plucked the first of the spare rounds from a pocket of my jeans. I fumbled in the shadows, clumsy at the unfamiliar task, trying to insert the sh.e.l.l into the breech.
"Can you hear me, Odd Thomas?" Datura shouted. "Can you hear me, boyfriend?"
The breech continued to defeat me, would not take the sh.e.l.l, and my hands began to shake, making the task more difficult.
"Was that s.h.i.t what it seemed to be?" she shouted. "Was that a poltergeist, boyfriend?"
The standoff with Robert had p.r.i.c.kled my face with sweat. The sound of Datura"s voice turned the sweat to ice.
"That was so wild, that really totally kicked!" she declared, still out in the hallway somewhere.
Deciding to load the breech last, I tried to insert the sh.e.l.l through what I believed to be the loading gate of the three-round magazine.
My fingers were sweaty, trembling. The sh.e.l.l slipped out of my grasp. I felt it bounce off my right shoe.
"Did you trick me, Odd Thomas?" she asked. "Did you get me to crank up old Maryann until she blew?"
She didn"t know about Buzz-cut. There was some justice in letting her think that the spirit of a merely pretty-but-not-pretty-enough c.o.c.ktail waitress had gotten the best of her.
Squatting in the dark, feeling the floor around me, I feared that the sh.e.l.l had rolled beyond discovery and that I would have to use the flashlight to locate it. I needed all four rounds. When I found it in mere seconds, I almost let out a groan of relief.
"I want a repeat performance!" she shouted.
Remaining in a squat, the shotgun propped across my thighs, I tried again to load the magazine, turning the sh.e.l.l first one way, then the other, but the loading gate, if it was the loading gate, wouldn"t receive the round.
The task seemed simple, a lot easier than flipping eggs over-easy without breaking the yolks, but evidently it wasn"t so simple that someone unfamiliar with the weapon could load it in the dark. I needed light.
"Let"s crank up the dumb dead b.i.t.c.h again!"
At the window, I eased aside the rotting drapery.
"But this time, I"m keeping you on a leash, boyfriend."
An hour or two of light remained in the afternoon, but the filter of the storm cast false twilight across the drenched desert. I could still see well enough to examine the gun.
I fished another sh.e.l.l from another pocket. Tried it. No good.
I put it on the window sill, tried a third. In the grip of absolute denial, I tried a fourth.
"You and Danny the Geek aren"t getting out of here. You hear me? There is no way out There is no way out."
The ammunition I had found on the bathroom counter, beside the sink, had evidently been for another weapon.
For all intents and purposes, this couldn"t be considered a shotgun anymore. It had become just a fancy club.
I was up the famous creek not only without a paddle but also without a boat.
FORTY-SEVEN.
I USED TO THINK THAT I MIGHT ONE DAY LIKE TO WORK in the retail tire business. I spent some time hanging around Tire World, out near the Green Moon Mall, on Green Moon Road, and everyone there seemed to be relaxed and happy.
In the tire life, at the end of the work day, you don"t have to wonder if you"ve accomplished anything meaningful. You"ve taken in people with bad rubber, and you"ve sent them rolling away on fine new wheels.
Americans thrive on mobility and feel shrunken in spirit when they do not have it. Providing tires is not only good commerce but also soothes troubled souls.
Although selling tires does not involve a lot of hard bargaining, as do real-estate transactions and deals brokered with international arms merchants, I am concerned that I might find the sales end of the business too emotionally draining. If the supernatural aspect of my life involved nothing more stressful than daily interaction with Elvis, tire sales would make sense, but as you"ve seen, the favorite son of Memphis isn"t the half of it.
Before I went to the Panamint, I figured that eventually I would return to work for Terri Stambaugh. If the griddle proved too taxing on my nerves, on top of everything else that was perpetually cooking with me, I might succ.u.mb to the lure of the tire life, working not sales but installation.
That stormy day in the desert, however, much changed for me. We must have our goals, our dreams, and we must strive for them. We are not G.o.ds, however; we do not have the power to shape every aspect of the future. And the road the world makes for us is one that teaches humility if we are willing to learn.
Standing in a moldering room in a ruined hotel, contemplating a useless shotgun, listening to a murderous madwoman a.s.sure me that my fate was hers to decide, having given away both my coconut-raisin power bars, I felt humbled, all right. Maybe not as humbled as Wile E. Coyote when he finds himself flattened under the same boulder with which he intended to crush the Road Runner, but pretty humble.
She shouted, "You know why there"s no way out, boyfriend?"
I didn"t inquire, confident that she would tell me.
"Because I know about you. I know all about you. I know that it works both ways."
This statement made no immediate sense to me, but it was no more mystifying than a hundred other things she"d said, so I didn"t devote much effort to translation.