Mrs. Robarts knew well that Lady Lufton was alluding to Griselda Grantly, but she conceived that it would be discreet to say nothing herself on that subject at present. She remembered, however, Lucy"s flashing eye when the possibility of Lord Lufton making such a marriage was spoken of in the pony-carriage, and could not but feel glad that Lady Lufton had been disappointed.
"I do not at all impute any blame to Miss Robarts for what has occurred since," continued her ladyship. "I wish you distinctly to understand that."
"I do not see how any one could blame her. She has behaved so n.o.bly."
"It is of no use inquiring whether any one can. It is sufficient that I do not."
"But I think that is hardly sufficient," said Mrs. Robarts, pertinaciously.
"Is it not?" asked her ladyship, raising her eyebrows.
"No. Only think what Lucy has done and is doing. If she had chosen to say that she would accept your son I really do not know how you could have justly blamed her. I do not by any means say that I would have advised such a thing."
"I am glad of that, f.a.n.n.y."
"I have not given any advice; nor is it needed. I know no one more able than Lucy to see clearly, by her own judgment, what course she ought to pursue. I should be afraid to advise one whose mind is so strong, and who, of her own nature, is so self-denying as she is.
She is sacrificing herself now, because she will not be the means of bringing trouble and dissension between you and your son. If you ask me, Lady Lufton, I think you owe her a deep debt of grat.i.tude. I do, indeed. And as for blaming her--what has she done that you possibly could blame?"
"Don Quixote on horseback!" said Lady Lufton. "f.a.n.n.y, I shall always call you Don Quixote, and some day or other I will get somebody to write your adventures. But the truth is this, my dear: there has been imprudence. You may call it mine, if you will--though I really hardly see how I am to take the blame. I could not do other than ask Miss Robarts to my house, and I could not very well turn my son out of it.
In point of fact, it has been the old story."
"Exactly; the story that is as old as the world, and which will continue as long as people are born into it. It is a story of G.o.d"s own telling!"
"But, my dear child, you do not mean that every young gentleman and every young lady should fall in love with each other directly they meet! Such a doctrine would be very inconvenient."
"No, I do not mean that. Lord Lufton and Miss Grantly did not fall in love with each other, though you meant them to do so. But was it not quite as natural that Lord Lufton and Lucy should do so instead?"
"It is generally thought, f.a.n.n.y, that young ladies should not give loose to their affections until they have been certified of their friends" approval."
"And that young gentlemen of fortune may amuse themselves as they please! I know that is what the world teaches, but I cannot agree to the justice of it. The terrible suffering which Lucy has to endure makes me cry out against it. She did not seek your son. The moment she began to suspect that there might be danger she avoided him scrupulously. She would not go down to Framley Court, though her not doing so was remarked by yourself. She would hardly go out about the place lest she should meet him. She was contented to put herself altogether in the background till he should have pleased to leave the place. But he--he came to her here, and insisted on seeing her. He found her when I was out, and declared himself determined to speak to her. What was she to do? She did try to escape, but he stopped her at the door. Was it her fault that he made her an offer?"
"My dear, no one has said so."
"Yes, but you do say so when you tell me that young ladies should not give play to their affections without permission. He persisted in saying to her, here, all that it pleased him, though she implored him to be silent. I cannot tell the words she used, but she did implore him."
"I do not doubt that she behaved well."
"But he--he persisted, and begged her to accept his hand. She refused him then, Lady Lufton--not as some girls do, with a mock reserve, not intending to be taken at their words--but steadily, and, G.o.d forgive her, untruly. Knowing what your feelings would be, and knowing what the world would say, she declared to him that he was indifferent to her. What more could she do in your behalf?" And then Mrs. Robarts paused.
"I shall wait till you have done, f.a.n.n.y."
"You spoke of girls giving loose to their affections. She did not do so. She went about her work exactly as she had done before. She did not even speak to me of what had pa.s.sed--not then, at least. She determined that it should all be as though it had never been. She had learned to love your son; but that was her misfortune and she would get over it as she might. Tidings came to us here that he was engaged, or about to engage himself, to Miss Grantly."
"Those tidings were untrue."
"Yes, we know that now; but she did not know it then. Of course she could not but suffer; but she suffered within herself." Mrs. Robarts, as she said this, remembered the pony-carriage and how Puck had been beaten. "She made no complaint that he had ill-treated her--not even to herself. She had thought it right to reject his offer; and there, as far as he was concerned, was to be an end of it."
"That would be a matter of course, I should suppose."
"But it was not a matter of course, Lady Lufton. He returned from London to Framley on purpose to repeat his offer. He sent for her brother-- You talk of a young lady waiting for her friends" approval.
In this matter who would be Lucy"s friends?"
"You and Mr. Robarts, of course."
"Exactly; her only friends. Well, Lord Lufton sent for Mark and repeated his offer to him. Mind you, Mark had never heard a word of this before, and you may guess whether or no he was surprised. Lord Lufton repeated his offer in the most formal manner and claimed permission to see Lucy. She refused to see him. She has never seen him since that day when, in opposition to all her efforts, he made his way into this room. Mark,--as I think very properly,--would have allowed Lord Lufton to come up here. Looking at both their ages and position he could have had no right to forbid it. But Lucy positively refused to see your son, and sent him a message instead, of the purport of which you are now aware--that she would never accept him unless she did so at your request."
"It was a very proper message."
"I say nothing about that. Had she accepted him I would not have blamed her:--and so I told her, Lady Lufton."
"I cannot understand your saying that, f.a.n.n.y."
"Well; I did say so. I don"t want to argue now about myself,--whether I was right or wrong, but I did say so. Whatever sanction I could give she would have had. But she again chose to sacrifice herself, although I believe she regards him with as true a love as ever a girl felt for a man. Upon my word I don"t know that she is right. Those considerations for the world may perhaps be carried too far."
"I think that she was perfectly right."
"Very well, Lady Lufton; I can understand that. But after such sacrifice on her part--a sacrifice made entirely to you--how can you talk of "not blaming her"? Is that the language in which you speak of those whose conduct from first to last has been superlatively excellent? If she is open to blame at all, it is--it is--"
But here Mrs. Robarts stopped herself. In defending her sister she had worked herself almost into a pa.s.sion; but such a state of feeling was not customary to her, and now that she had spoken her mind she sank suddenly into silence.
"It seems to me, f.a.n.n.y, that you almost regret Miss Robarts"
decision," said Lady Lufton.
"My wish in this matter is for her happiness, and I regret anything that may mar it."
"You think nothing then of our welfare, and yet I do not know to whom I might have looked for hearty friendship and for sympathy in difficulties, if not to you?"
Poor Mrs. Robarts was almost upset by this. A few months ago, before Lucy"s arrival, she would have declared that the interests of Lady Lufton"s family would have been paramount with her, after and next to those of her own husband. And even now, it seemed to argue so black an ingrat.i.tude on her part--this accusation that she was indifferent to them! From her childhood upwards she had revered and loved Lady Lufton, and for years had taught herself to regard her as an epitome of all that was good and gracious in woman. Lady Lufton"s theories of life had been accepted by her as the right theories, and those whom Lady Lufton had liked she had liked. But now it seemed that all these ideas which it had taken a life to build up were to be thrown to the ground, because she was bound to defend a sister-in-law whom she had only known for the last eight months. It was not that she regretted a word that she had spoken on Lucy"s behalf. Chance had thrown her and Lucy together, and, as Lucy was her sister, she should receive from her a sister"s treatment. But she did not the less feel how terrible would be the effect of any disseverance from Lady Lufton.
"Oh, Lady Lufton," she said, "do not say that."
"But, f.a.n.n.y, dear, I must speak as I find. You were talking about clouds just now, and do you think that all this is not a cloud in my sky? Ludovic tells me that he is attached to Miss Robarts, and you tell me that she is attached to him; and I am called upon to decide between them. Her very act obliges me to do so."
"Dear Lady Lufton," said Mrs. Robarts, springing from her seat. It seemed to her at the moment as though the whole difficulty were to be solved by an act of grace on the part of her old friend.
"And yet I cannot approve of such a marriage," said Lady Lufton.
Mrs. Robarts returned to her seat, saying nothing further.
"Is not that a cloud on one"s horizon?" continued her ladyship. "Do you think that I can be basking in the sunshine while I have such a weight upon my heart as that? Ludovic will soon be home, but instead of looking to his return with pleasure I dread it. I would prefer that he should remain in Norway. I would wish that he should stay away for months. And, f.a.n.n.y, it is a great addition to my misfortune to feel that you do not sympathize with me."
Having said this, in a slow, sorrowful, and severe tone, Lady Lufton got up and took her departure. Of course Mrs. Robarts did not let her go without a.s.suring her that she did sympathize with her,--did love her as she ever had loved her. But wounds cannot be cured as easily as they may be inflicted, and Lady Lufton went her way with much real sorrow at her heart. She was proud and masterful, fond of her own way, and much too careful of the worldly dignities to which her lot had called her: but she was a woman who could cause no sorrow to those she loved without deep sorrow to herself.
CHAPTER XLII.