Franklin Kane

"O Franklin, dear Franklin!" she said to him suddenly one day, turning upon him eyes enlarged by tears, "I feel as if I were guilty towards you."

She almost longed to put her head on his shoulder, to pour out all her grief, and be understood and comforted. Franklin had not been slow to recognise the change in his beloved"s att.i.tude towards him. He had shown no sign of grievance or reproach; he seemed quite prepared for her reaction from the moment of only dubious hope, and, though quite without humility, to find it natural, however painful to himself, that Althea should be rather bored after so much of him. But the gentle lighting of his face now showed her, too, that her reticence and withdrawal had hurt more than the new loss of hope.

"You mean," he said, trying to smile a little as he said it, "you mean that you"ve found out that you can"t, dear?"

She stood, stricken by the words and their finality, and she slowly nodded, while two large tears rolled down her cheeks.

Franklin Kane controlled the signs of his own emotion, which was deep.

"That"s all right, dear," he said. "You"re not guilty of anything.

You"ve been a little too kind--more than you can keep up, I mean. It"s been beautiful of you to be kind at all and to think you might be kinder. Would you rather I went away? Perhaps it"s painful to have me about just now. I"ve got a good many places I can go to while I"m over here, you know. You mustn"t have me on your mind."

"O Franklin!" Althea almost sobbed; "you are an angel. Of course I want you to stay for as long as you will; of course I love to have you here."

He was an angel, indeed, she felt, and another dart of hostility towards Helen went through her--Helen, cynical, unspiritual, blind to angels.

So Franklin stayed on, and the next day another guest arrived. It was at breakfast that Althea found at her place a little note from Gerald Digby asking her very prettily if she could take him in that evening. He was in town and would start at once if she could wire that he might come.

Althea controlled, as best she could, her shock of delight. He had, then, intended to come; he had not forgotten all about her. Even if she counted only in his memory as tenant, it was good, she felt it helplessly and blissfully, to count in any way with Gerald Digby. She did not a.n.a.lyse and hardly recognised these sentiments, yet she strongly felt the need for composure, and it was only with an air of soft exhilaration that she made the announcement over the table to Helen.

"Isn"t it nice, Helen? Mr. Digby is coming this evening." The soft exhilaration could not be noticeable, for everybody seemed in some degree to share it.

"Dear Gerald, how delightful!" said Lady Pickering, with, to Althea"s consciousness, too much an air of possessorship. "Gerald is a splendid actor, Miss Pepperell," Sir Charles said to Dorothy. "Miss Buchanan, you and he must do some of your best parts together." The girls were full of expectancy. It was Helen herself who looked least illuminated by the news; but then, as Althea realised, to Helen Gerald must be the most matter-of-fact thing in life.

They were all sitting under the trees on the lawn when Gerald arrived; he had not lost the best train. Every one was in white, except Helen who wore black, and Franklin who wore grey; every one was lolling on the gra.s.s or extended on chairs, except Aunt Julia, erect and embroidering, and Althea who was giving her attention to tea. It had just been poured out when Gerald came strolling over the lawn towards them.

He carried his Panama hat doubled in his hand; he looked exquisitely cool, and he glanced about him as he came, well pleased, apparently, to find himself again in his old home. Althea felt his manner of approaching them to be characteristic; it was at once so desultory and so pleasant.

"You look like a flock of doves," he said, as, smiling, he took Althea"s welcoming hand and surveyed the group. "h.e.l.lo, Helen, how are you?

h.e.l.lo, Charlie; and how nice to find you, Frances."

He was introduced to the others, continuing to smile with marked approbation, Althea felt, upon Mildred and Dorothy, who certainly looked charming, and then he dropped on the gra.s.s beside Lady Pickering"s chair.

Althea knew that if she looked like a dove, she felt like a very fluttering one. She was much moved by this welcoming of Mr. Digby to his home, and she wondered if the quickened beating of her heart manifested itself in any change of glance or colour. She soon felt, however, as she distributed teacups and looked about her circle, that if she were visibly moved Mr. Digby would not be aware of the fact. The fact, obviously, that he was most aware of was Lady Pickering"s presence, and he was talking to her with a lightness and gaiety that she could presently only define, for her own discomfort, as flirtation. Althea had had little experience of flirting, and the little had not been personal.

It had remained for her always a rather tasteless, rather ludicrous spectacle; yet Mr. Digby"s manner of flirting, if flirting it was, was neither. It was graceful, unemphatic, composed of playful repartee and merry glances. It was Lady Pickering who overdid her side of the dialogue and brought to it a significance that Mr. Digby"s eyes and smile disowned even while they evoked it. One of the things of which Mr.

Digby had shown himself most completely unaware was Franklin Kane, who sat, as usual, just outside the circle in the sun, balancing his tea-cup on his raised knees and "Fletcherising" a slice of cake. Gerald had glanced at him as one might glance--Althea had felt it keenly--at some nice little insect on one"s path, a pleasant insect, but too small to warrant any attention beyond a casual recognition of type. But Franklin, who had a casual interest in n.o.body, was very much aware of the newcomer, and he gazed attentively at Gerald Digby as he had gazed at Helen on the first evening of their meeting, with less of interest perhaps, but with much the same dispa.s.sionate intentness; and Althea felt sure that he already did not approve of Gerald Digby.

She asked Helen that evening, lightly, as Helen had asked an equivalent question about Franklin and Miss Buckston, whether Mr. Digby and Lady Pickering were in love; she felt sure that they were not in love, which made the question easier.

"Oh no; not at all, I fancy," said Helen.

"I only asked," said Althea, "because it seemed the obvious explanation."

"You mean their way of flirting."

"Yes. I suppose I"m not used to flirtation, not to such extreme flirtation. I don"t like it, do you?"

"I don"t know that I do; but Gerald is only a flirt through sympathy and good nature. It"s Frances who leads him on; she is a flirt by temperament."

"I"m glad of that," said Althea. "I"m sure he is too nice to be one by temperament."

"After all, it"s a very harmless diversion."

"Do you think it harmless? It pains me to see a sacred thing being mimicked."

"I hardly think it"s a sacred thing Frances and Gerald are mimicking,"

Helen smiled.

"It"s love, isn"t it?"

"Love of such a trivial order that I can"t feel anything is being taken in vain."

Helen was amused, yet touched by her friend"s standards. Such distaste was not unknown to her, and Gerald"s sympathetic propensities had caused her qualms with which she could not have imagined that Althea"s had any a.n.a.logy. Yet it was not her own taste she was considering that evening after dinner when, in walking up and down with Gerald on the gravelled terrace outside the drawing-room, she told him of Althea"s standards.

She felt responsible for Gerald, and that she owed it to Althea that he should not be allowed to displease her. It had struck her more than once, immersed in self-centred cogitations as she was, that Althea was altogether too much relegated.

"I wish you and Frances would not go on as you do, Gerald," she said.

"It disturbs Althea, I am sure. She is not used to seeing people behaving like that."

"Behaving?" asked the innocent Gerald. "How have I been behaving?"

"Very foolishly. You have been flirting, and rather flagrantly, with Frances, ever since you came."

"But, my dear, you know perfectly well that one can"t talk to Frances without flirting with her. All conversation becomes flirtation. The most guileless glance, in meeting her eye, is trans.m.u.ted, like a straight stick looking crooked when you put it into water, you know. Frances has a charmingly deviating quality that I defy the straightest of intentions to evade."

"Are yours so straight?"

"Well--she is pretty and pleasant, and perfectly superficial, as you know. I own that I do rather like to put the stick in the water and see what happens to it."

"Well, don"t put it in too often before Althea. After all, you are all of you here because of her friendship with me, and it makes me feel guilty if I see her having a bad time because of your misbehaviour."

"A bad time?"

"Really. She takes things hard. She said it was mimicking a sacred thing."

"Oh! but, I say, how awfully funny, Helen. You must own that it"s funny."

"Funny, but sweet, too."

"She is a sweet creature, of course, one can see that; and her moral approvals and disapprovals are firmly fixed, however funny; one likes that in her. I"ll try to be good, if Frances will let me. She looked quite pretty this evening, Miss Jakes; only she dresses too stiffly.

What"s the matter? Couldn"t you give her a hint? She is like a satin-box, and a woman ought to be like a flower; ought to look as if they"d bend if a breeze went over them. Now you can"t imagine Miss Jakes bending; she"d have to stoop."

Helen, in the darkness, smiled half bitterly, half affectionately.

Gerald"s nonsense always pleased her, even when she was most exasperated with him. She was not exasperated with Gerald in particular just now, but with everything and everybody, herself included, and the fact that he liked to flirt flagrantly with Lady Pickering did not move her more than usual. It was not a particular but a general irritation that edged her voice a little as she said, drawing her black scarf more closely round her shoulders, "Frances must satisfy you there. Your tastes, I think, are becoming more and more dishevelled."

But innocent Gerald answered with a coal of fire: "No, she is too dishevelled. You satisfy my tastes there entirely; you flow, but you don"t flop. Now if Miss Jakes would only try to dress like you she"d be immensely improved. You are perfect." And he lightly touched her scarf as he spoke with a fraternal and appreciative hand.

Helen continued to smile in the darkness, but it was over an almost irresistible impulse to sob. The impulse was so strong that it frightened her, and it was with immense relief that she saw Althea"s figure--her "box-like" figure--appear in the lighted window. She did not want to talk to Althea, and she could not, just now, go on talking to Gerald. From their corner of the terrace she indicated the vaguely gazing Althea. "There she is," she said. "Go and talk to her. Be nice to her. I"m tired and am going to have a stroll in the shrubberies before bed."

She left Gerald obediently, if not eagerly, moving towards the window, and slipping into the obscurity of the shrubberies she threw back her scarf and drew long breaths. She was becoming terribly overwrought. It had been, since so long, a second nature to live two lives that any danger of their merging affected her with a dreadful feeling of disintegration. There was the life of comradeship, the secure little compartment where Gerald was at home, so at home that he could tell her she was perfect and touch her scarf with an approving hand, and from this familiar shelter she had looked for so long, with the calmest eye, upon his flirtations, and in it had heard, unmoved, his encomiums upon herself. The other life, the real life, was all outdoors in comparison; it was all her real self, pa.s.sionate, untamed, desolate; it was like a bleak, wild moorland, and the social, the comrade self only a strongly built little lodge erected, through stress of wind and weather, in the midst of it. Since girlhood it had been a second nature to her to keep comradeship shut in and reality shut out. And to-night reality seemed to shake and batter at the doors.

She had come to Merriston House to rest, to drink _eau rougie_ and to rest. She wanted to lapse into apathy and to recover, as far as might be, from her recent unpleasant experiments and experiences. Had she allowed herself any illusions about the experiment, the experience would have been humiliating; but Helen was not humiliated, she had not deceived herself for a moment. She had, open-eyed, been trying for the "other things," and she had only just missed them. She had intended to marry a very important person who much admired her. She had been almost sure that she could marry him if she wanted to, and she had found out that she couldn"t. It had not been, as in her youth, her own shrinking and her own recoil at the last decisive moment. She had been resolved and unwavering; her discomfiture had been sudden and its cause the quite grotesque one of her admirer having fallen head over heels in love with a child of eighteen--a foolish, affected little child, who giggled and glanced and blushed opportunely, and who, beside these a.s.sets, had a skilful and determined mother. Without the mother to waylay, pounce, and fix, Helen did not believe that her sober, solid friend would have yielded to the momentary beguilement, and Helen herself deigned not one hint of contest; she had been resolved, but only to accept; she could never have waylaid or pounced. And now, apathetic, yet irritated, exhausted and sick at heart, she had been telling herself, as she lay in the garden-chairs at Merriston House, that it was more than probable that the time was over, even for the "other things." The prospect made her weary. What--with Aunt Grizel"s one hundred and fifty a year--was she to do with herself in the future? What was to become of her? She didn"t feel that she much cared, and yet it was all that there was left to care about, for Aunt Grizel"s sake if not for her own, and she felt only fit to rest from the pressure of the question. To-night, as she turned and wandered among the trees, she said to herself that it hadn"t been a propitious time to come for rest to Merriston House. Gerald had been the last person she desired to see just now. She had never been so near to feeling danger as to-night. If Gerald were nice to her--he always was--but nice in a certain way, the way that expressed so clearly his tenderness and his dreadful, his merciful unawareness, she might break down before him and sob. This would be too horrible, and when she thought that it might happen she felt, rising with the longing for tears, an old resentment against Gerald, fierce, absurd, and unconquerable. After making the round of the lawns and looking up hard and unseeingly at the stars, she came back to the terrace. Gerald and Althea were gone, and she surmised that Gerald had not taken much trouble to be nice. She was pa.s.sing along an unillumined corner when she came suddenly upon a figure seated there--so suddenly that she almost fell against it. She murmured a hasty apology as Mr. Kane rose from a chair where, with folded arms, he had been seated, apparently in contemplation of the night.

"Oh, I beg your pardon," said Helen. "It"s so dark here. I didn"t see you."