Another man in evening clothes got on the car, and Milt saw that he wore a silk hat, and a white knitted scarf; that he took out and examined a pair of white kid gloves.
He"d forgotten the hat! He was wearing his gray felt. He could risk the gloves, but the hat--the "stovepipe"--and the chart had said to wear one--he was ruined----
He turned up the collar of his top-coat to conceal his white tie, tried to hide each of his feet behind the other to cover up his pumps; sought to change his expression from that of a superior person in evening clothes to that of a decent fellow in honest Regular Clothes. Had the conductor or any of the pa.s.sengers realized that he was a dub in a dress-suit without the hat?
Once he thought that the real person in real evening clothes was looking at him. He turned his head and bore the probable insult in weak misery.
Too feeble for anything but thick suffering he was dragged on toward the theater, the opera, people in silk hats--toward Jeff Saxton and exposure.
But his success in bullying the tailor had taught him that dressing wasn"t really a hidden lore to be known only by initiates; that some day he too might understand the black and white magic of clothes. His bruised self-consciousness healed. "I"ll do--something," he determined.
He waited, vacuously.
The Gilson party was not in the lobby when he arrived. He tore off his top-coat. He draped it over his felt hat, so that no one could be sure what sort of hat it shamefully concealed. That unveiling did expose him to the stare of everybody waiting in the lobby. He was convinced that the entire ticket-buying cue was glumly resenting him. Peeping down at the unusual white glare of his shirt-front, he felt naked and indecent.... "Nice kind o" vest. Must make "em out of old pique collars."
He endured his martyrdom till his party arrived--the Gilsons, Claire, Jeff Saxton, and a glittering young woman whose name, Milt thought, was Mrs. Corey.
And Saxton wasn"t wearing a high hat! He wore a soft one, and he didn"t seem to care!
Milt straightened up, followed them through the manifold dangers of the lobby, down a perilous aisle of uptilted scornful faces, to a red narrow corridor, winding stairs, a secret pa.s.sage, a mysterious dark closet--and he walked out into a room with one side missing, and, on that side, ten trillion people in a well, and nine trillion of them staring at him and noticing that he"d rented his dress-suit. Hot about the neck, he stumbled over one or two chairs, and was permitted to rest in a foolish little gilt chair in the farthest corner.
Once safe, he felt much better. Except that Jeff did put on white kid gloves, Milt couldn"t see that they two looked so different. And neither of the two men in the next box wore gloves. Milt made sure of that comfort; he reveled in it; he looked at Claire, and in her loyal smile found ease.
He snarled, "She trusts you. Forget you"re a dub. Try to be human. Hang it, I"m no greener at the opera than old horsehair sofa there would be at a garage."
There was something---- What was it he was trying to remember? Oh yes.
When he"d worked in the Schoenstrom flour-mill, as engineer, at eighteen, the owner had tried to torment him (to "get his goat," Milt put it), and Milt had found that the one thing that would save him was to smile as though he knew more than he was telling. It did not, he remembered, make any difference whether or not the smile was real. If he merely looked the miller up and down, and smiled cynically, he was let alone.
Why not----
Saxton was bending toward him, asking in honeyed respectfulness:
"Don"t you think that the new school in music--audible pointillage, one might call it--mistakes cacophony for power?"
Milt smiled, paternally.
Saxton waited for something more. He dug the nail of his right middle finger into his thumb, looked thoughtful, and attacked again:
"Which do you like better: the new Italian music, or the orthodox German?"
Milt smiled like two uncles watching a clever baby, and patronized Saxton with, "They both have their points."
He saw that Claire was angry; but that the Gilsons and Mrs. Corey, flap-eared, gape-mouthed, forward-bending, were very proud of their little Jeff. He saw that, except for their clothes and self-conscious coiffures, they were exactly like a gang of cracker-box loafers at Heinie Rauskukle"s badgering a new boy in town.
Saxton looked bad-tempered. Then Mrs. Corey bustled with her face and yearned at Milt, "Do tell me: what is the theme of the opera tonight.
I"ve rather forgotten."
Milt ceased to smile. While all of them regarded him with interest he said clearly, "I haven"t got the slightest idea. I don"t know anything about music. Some day I hope I can get a clever woman like you to help me, Mrs. Corey. It must be great to know all about all these arts, the way you do. I wish you"d explain that--overture they call it, don"t they?"
For some reason, Mr. Gilson was snickering, Mrs. Corey flushing, Claire looking well pleased. Milt had tried to be insulting, but had got lost in the intricacies of the insult. He felt that he"d better leave it in its apparently safe state, and he leaned back, and smiled again, as though he was waiting. Mrs. Corey did not explain the overture. She hastily explained her second maid, to Mrs. Gilson.
The opera was _Il Amore dei Tre Re_. Milt was bewildered. To him, who had never seen an opera, the convention that a girl cannot hear a man who is bellowing ten feet away from her, was absurd; and he wished that the singers would do something besides making their arms swim.
He discovered that by moving his chair forward, he could get within a foot of Claire. His hand slipped across, touched hers. She darted a startled backward glance. Her fingers closed tight about his, then restlessly snuggled inside his palm--and Milt was lost in enchantment.
Stately kings of blood-red cloaks and chrysoberyls malevolent in crowns of ancient and ma.s.sy gold--the quick dismaying roll of drums and the shadow of pa.s.sing banners below a tower--a woman tall and misty-veiled and pale with dreams--a world of spirit where the soul had power over unseen dominions--this he saw and heard and tasted in the music. What the actual plot was, or the technique of the singing, he did not know, but it bore him beyond all reality save the sweet, sure happiness of Claire"s nestling hand.
He held her fingers so firmly that he could feel the pulse beat in them.
In the clamminess of his room, when the enchantment was gone, he said gravely:
"How much longer can I keep this up? Sooner or later I bust loose and smash little Jeff one in the snoot, and he takes the count, and I"m never allowed to see Claire again. Turn the roughneck out on his ear. I s"pose I"m vulgar. I s"pose that fellow Michael in _Youth"s Encounter_ wouldn"t talk about snoots. I don"t care, I"ll---- If I poke Saxton one---- I"m not afraid of the kid-glove precinct any more. My brain"s as good as theirs, give it a chance. But oh, they"re all against me. And they bust the Athletic Union"s wrestling rule that "striking, kicking, gouging, hair-pulling, b.u.t.ting, and strangling will not be allowed." How long can I go on being good-natured? When I do break loose----"
Slowly, beneath the moral cuff of his dress-shirt, Milt"s fist closed in a brown, broad-knuckled lump, and came up in the gesture of a right to the jaw. But it came up only a foot. The hand opened, climbed to Milt"s face, rubbed his temples, while he sighed:
"Nope. Can"t even do that. Bigger game now. Used to could--used to be able to settle things with a punch. But I"ve got to be more--oh, more diplomatic now. Oh Lord, how lonely I get for Bill McGolwey. No. That isn"t true. I couldn"t stand Bill now. Claire took all that out of me.
Where am I, where am I? Why did I ever get a car that takes a 36 6?"
CHAPTER x.x.xII
THE CORNFIELD ARISTOCRAT
It was an innocent little note from Jeff Saxton; a polite, humble little note; it said that Jeff had a card to the Astoria Club, and wouldn"t Milt please have lunch with him? But Milt dropped it on the table, and he walked round it as though it were a dictagraph which he"d discovered in the table drawer after happy, happy, hidden hours at counterfeiting.
It seemed more dangerous to refuse than to go. He browned the celebrated new shoes; he pressed the distinguished new trousers, with a light and quite unsatisfactory flatiron; he re-re-retied his best spotted blue bow--it persisted in having the top flaps too short, but the retying gave him spiritual strength--and he modestly clumped into the aloof brick portal of the Astoria Club on time.
He had never been in a club before.
He looked at the red tiled floor of the entrance hall; he stared through the hall into an immense lounge with the largest and softest chairs in the world, with oil portraits of distinguished old bucks, and ninety per cent. of the wealth and power of Seattle pulling its several mustaches, reading the P.I., and ignoring the lone intruder out in the hall.
A small Zulu in blue tights and bra.s.s b.u.t.tons glared at Milt; and a large, soft, suave, insulting young man demanded, "Yes, sir?"
"Mr. G-g-geoffrey Saxton?" ventured Milt.
"Not in, sir." The "sir" sounded like "And you know it." The flaming guardian retired behind a narrow section of a bookkeeper"s desk and ignored him.
"I"m to meet him for lunch," Milt forlornly persisted.
The young man looked up, hurt and annoyed at finding that the person was still to be dealt with.
"If you will wait in there?" he groaned.
Milt sat in there, which was a small blue tapestry room with hard chairs intended to discourage bill-collectors. He turned his hat round and round and round, till he saw Jeff Saxton, slim and straight and hard as the stick hooked over his arm, sailing into the hall. He plunged out after him, took refuge with him from the still unconvinced inspection of the hall-man. For twenty seconds, he loved Jeff Saxton.