James Edward Makerstone Agar was not at the age of five the material from which the heroes of children"s stories are evolved. He was not a good boy, nor a clean, nor particularly interesting. He was, however, honest--and that is _deja quelque chose_. He was as far removed from the "misunderstood" type as could be wished; and he was quite happy.
Before his stepmother had laid aside the t.i.tle and glory of a bride, he had, by his deadly honesty, made her understand that even a child of five requires what she could not give him--namely, logic. Had she been clever enough to reason logically she might have undermined the little fellow"s innate honesty of character, despite the fact that he lacked a child"s chief incentive to learn from its mother, namely, the sympathy of heredity.
Gradually and steadily Mrs. Agar "gave him up," to make use of her own expression. She was one of those women who either fear or despise that which they do not understand. She could scarcely fear Jem, so she persuaded herself that he was stupid and unattractive. At this time there came another influence to militate against any excess of love between Jem and his stepmother. It came to her, for he was ignorant of it. And this was the knowledge that before long the little heir"s undisputed reign in the nursery would come to an end.
With a suburban horror of being a long distance from the chemist, Mrs.
Agar protested that she could not possibly remain at Stagholme during the ensuing winter, and that her child must be born at Clapham. It was vain to argue or reason, and at last the Squire was forced to swallow this second humiliation, which was quite beyond his wife"s comprehension. He only dared to hint that all the Agars had seen the light at Stagholme since time immemorial; but feelings of this description found no answering note in her practical and essentially commonplace mind. So Mr.
And Mrs. Agar emigrated to Clapham, leaving Jem behind them.
It happened that a few days after their arrival at the stately house overlooking the Common, a young officer called to see Mr. Hethbridge, who was at that time one of the Directors of the East India Company.
Now it furthermore happened that this young soldier was he whom we last saw smoking a cheroot in the doorway of Seymour Michael"s bungalow in India. As chance would have it, he called in the evening, and the estimable Mr. Hethbridge, warmed into an unusual hospitality by the fumes of his own port wine, pressed him to pa.s.s into the drawing-room and take a dish of tea with the ladies. The subaltern accepted, chiefly because it was the Director"s self that pressed, and presently followed that short-winded gentleman into the drawing-room--thereby shaping lives yet uncreated--thereby unconsciously helping to work out a chain of events leading ultimately to an end which no man could foresee.
"Yes," he said, in reply to Mrs. Agar"s question, "I am just back from India."
It happened that these two were left almost beyond earshot at the far end of the room. The old people, among whom was Mrs. Agar"s husband, were settling down to a game of whist. Mrs. Agar was leaning forward with considerable interest. This was not a mere pa.s.sing curiosity to hear further of a country and of an event which have not lost their glamour yet.
The very word "India" had stirred something up within her heart of the presence of which she had been unsuspicious. She was as one who, having a closed room in her life, and thinking the door thereof securely barred, suddenly finds herself within that room.
"Whereabouts in India were you?" she asked, with a sudden dryness of the lips.
"Oh--I was north of Delhi."
"North of Delhi--oh, yes."
She moistened her lips, with a strange, sidelong glance round the room, as if she were preparing to jump from a height.
"And--and I suppose you saw a great deal of the Mutiny?"
Even then--after many months, in a drawing-room in peaceful Clapham--the young man"s eyes hardened.
"Yes, I saw a good deal," he answered.
Mrs. Agar leant back in her chair, drawing her handkerchief through her fingers with jerky, unnatural movements.
"And did you lose many friends?" she asked.
"Yes," answered the young fellow, "in one way and another."
"How? What do you mean?" She had a way of leaning forward and listening when spoken to, which pa.s.sed very well for sympathy.
"Well, a time like the Mutiny brings out all that is in a man, you know. And some men had less in them than one might have thought, while others--quiet-going fellows--seemed to wake up."
"Yes," she said; "I see."
"One or two," he continued, "betrayed themselves. They showed that there was that in them which no one had suspected. I lost one friend that way."
"How?"
It was marvellous how the merest details of India interested this woman, who, like most of us, did not know herself. Moreover, she never learnt to do so thoroughly, thereby being spared the horrid pain of knowing oneself too late.
"I made a mistake," he explained. "I thought he was a gentleman and a brave man. I found that he was a coward and a cad."
Something urged her to go on with her pointless questions--the same inevitable Fate which, according to the Italians, "stands at the end of everything," and which had prompted Mr. Hethbridge to bring this stranger into the drawing-room.
"But how did you find it out?"
"Oh, I did not do it all at once. I first began by a mere trifle. It happened that this man was reported dead in the Gazette--I showed it to him myself."
The young officer, who was not accustomed to ladies" society, and felt rather nervous at his own loquaciousness, kept his eyes fixed on his boots, and did not notice the deathly pallor of Mrs. Agar"s face, nor the convulsive clutch of her fingers on the velvet arm of the chair.
She turned right round, with a peculiar movement of the throat as if swallowing something, and made sure that the whist-players were interested in their game. In that position she heard the next words.
"He did not even take the trouble to write home to his friends. I thought it rather strange at the time, and told him so. Later on I heard the truth of it. I heard him tell some one else that he was engaged to a girl in England, and he thought it a very good way of getting out of the engagement."
"You heard him tell that, with your own ears?"
"Yes; and he seemed to think it a good joke."
Mrs. Agar was shuffling about in the chair as if in pain.
Then she asked again in a strangely metallic voice, "Did he say that he--did not love her?"
"Yes, the cad!"
"He cannot have been a nice man," she said, with that evenness of enunciation which betrays that the tongue is speaking without the direct aid of the mind.
The young officer rose with a glance towards the clock.
"No," he said, "he was not. He did other things afterwards which made it quite impossible for a man with any self-respect whatever to look upon him as a friend."
"Did he," asked Mrs. Agar, "say anything about her personal appearance?
Was it that?"
The subaltern looked puzzled. It was as well for Mrs. Agar that he was not a man of deep experience. Instead of being puzzled he might suddenly have seen clear.
"No--no," he replied. "It was not that. It was merely a matter of expediency, I believe."
But, womanlike, Mrs. Agar did not believe him. She sat while he made his farewell speech over the whist-table, but as he went to the door she rose and followed him slowly.
In the hall she watched the servant help him on with his coat--her features twisted into a stereotype smile of polite leave-taking.
"By the way," she said, with a sickening little laugh, "what was the man"s name--your friend, whom you lost?"
"Michael--Seymour Michael."
"Ah! Good-night--good-night."
Then she turned and walked slowly upstairs.