Galilee.

"She"s your mother not mine."

"But you know her better than I do. You"ve been here with her all these years, while I"ve been away."

"And you think I"ve been sitting with her drinking mint juleps? Talking about the magnolias? I"ve barely seen her. She"s stayed up there brooding."

"A hundred and forty years of brooding?"

"She"s had a lot to brood about. You. Nicodemus. Jefferson."

"Jefferson? She doesn"t still think about that loser."

"Oh yes she does. She told me, at great length-"

"See? You do talk to her. Don"t try and squirm out of it. You talk to her."

"All right, I talk to her. Once in a while. But I"m not going to be your apologist."

Galilee contemplated this for a moment; then he shrugged. "Then you won"t have an ending to your book, will you?" he said. "It"s as simple as that. You"ll be sitting down here wondering whatthe h.e.l.l"s going on up there, and you"ll never know. You"ll have to make it up."

"Jesus..." I muttered.

"I"ve got a point, right?"

He read me well. What was worse than the prospect of going up with Galilee in tow to face Cesaria? Why, the prospect of staying here below, and not knowing what pa.s.sed between them.

Whatever happened between mother and son when they came face to face, I had to be there to witness it. If I failed to do so then I failed in my duty as a writer. I couldn"t bear to do that. I"ve failed at too much else.

"All right," I said. "I"m persuaded."

"Good man," he said, and embraced me, pressing my body hard against his. It made me feel meager, to be sure. I realized as he wrapped his arms around me that I"d hardly expressed with a quarter the pa.s.sion it deserved what the Geary women must have felt in his embrace. I envied them.

"I"m going to wake Rachel," he said, breaking his hold on me and going to the door of my bedroom. I followed him, as far as the door, and watched him crouch beside the bed and reach out to gently shake her out of sleep.

She was obviously deep in dreams, because it took her a little time to surface. But when her eyes finally opened, and she saw Galilee, a luminous smile came onto her face. Oh, there was such love in it! Such unalloyed pleasure that he was there, at her side.

"It"s time to get up, honey," Galilee said.

Her eyes came in my direction. "Hi," she said. "Who are you?"

It felt odd, let me tell, to have this woman-whose life I had so carefully chronicled, and with whom I now felt quite familiar-look at me and not know me.

"I"m Maddox," I said.

"And you"re sleeping in his bed," Galilee said.

She sat up. The sheet fell away from her body, and she plucked it up to cover her nakedness.

"Galilee told me a lot about you," she said to me, though I suspect this was to cover a moment of embarra.s.sment.

"But I"m not what you imagined?"

"Not exactly.""You look trimmer than you did when I saw you at the swamp," Galilee said, patting my belly.

"I"ve been working hard. Not eating."

"Working on your book," Rachel said.

I nodded, hoping that would be the end of the subject. It had never occurred to me until now that she might want to read what I"d written about her. The thought made my palms clammy. I turned to Galilee. "You know I think if we"re going to go up to see Cesaria," I said, "we should go soon.

She knows you"re here-"

"The longer we wait, the more she"ll think I"m afraid to come?" Galilee said. I nodded.

"I"d like to at least wash my face before we go," Rachel said.

"The bathroom"s through there," I said, pointing the way. Then I withdrew from the room, to allow her some privacy.

"She"s so beautiful," I whispered to Galilee when he"d followed me out. "You"re a very lucky man."

Galilee didn"t reply. He had his eyes cast toward the ceiling, as though he were preparing himself for what lay above.

"What do you want from her?" I asked him.

"To be forgiven, I suppose. No. More than that." He looked at me. "I want to come home, Eddie.

I want to bring the love of my life back to L"Enfant, and live here happily ever after." Now it was me who didn"t reply. "You don"t believe in happily ever after?" he said.

"For us?"

"For anybody."

"But we"re not anybody, are we? We"re the Barbarossas. The rules are different for us."

"Are they?" he said, his gaze opaque. "I"m not so sure. It seems to me we"re driven by the same stupid things that drive everyone else. We"re no better than the Gearys. We should be, but we"re not. We"re just as petty, we"re just as confused. It"s time we started to think about the future."

"This is strange, coming from you."

"I want to have children with Rachel."

"I wouldn"t do that," I said. "Half-breeds are no use to anybody."He laid his hand on my shoulder. "That"s what I used to believe. Anyway what kind of father would I make? That"s what I said to myself. But it"s time, Eddie." He smiled, beautifully. "I want to fill this old house with kids. And I want them to learn about all the miraculous s.h.i.t we take for granted."

"I don"t think there"s much that"s miraculous left in this place," I said. "If there ever was."

"It"s still here," he said. "It"s everywhere around us. It"s in our blood. It"s in the ground. And it"s up there, with her."

"Maybe."

He caught hold of my chin, and shook it. "Look at you. Be happy. I"m home."

VI.

So, up we went, the three of us. Through the dark, quiet house, up the stairs, to Cesaria"s chambers. She wasn"t there, however. As I went from room to room, knocking lightly, then pushing the doors open, the realization slowly grew that of course she wasn"t there. She"d gone up one more flight, to the skyroom. The circle was closing, quickly now. The place where all this had begun-where I"d been granted the first visions-was demanding our attendance.

As we turned from the empty bedroom, I heard the click of claws on the floorboard, and saw Cesaria"s favorite quill-pig. Tansy, scuttling out from under the bed. I went down on my haunches and cautiously picked the creature up. She was quite happy to be in my arms-and for some reason I found her presence there rea.s.suring.

"Where are we going now?" Galilee said as I pa.s.sed him and Rachel on my way out of the bedroom.

"Up to the dome," I said.

He looked at me anxiously. "What"s she doing up there?"

"I guess we"re going to find out," I replied, and led the way, along the pa.s.sage and up the narrow stairs. Tansy grew more agitated as we went; a sure sign that my instincts were correct, and that Cesaria was indeed awaiting us in the room above.

I paused at the door, and turned back to the lovers.

"Have you ever been in here?" I asked Galilee.

"No..."

"Well, if we get separated-" I said."Wait. What are you talking about: separated? It"s not that big a room."

"It"s not a room, Galilee," I said. "It may be that from the outside, but once you get in there, it"s another world. It"s her world."

He looked decidedly uncomfortable.

"So what should we expect?" Rachel said.

"I"m afraid whatever I tell you, it"s probably going to be something different. Just go with the flow. Let it happen. And don"t be afraid of it."

"She"s not afraid of much," Galilee said, offering Rachel a little smile.

"And as I said, if we get separated-"

"We"ll go on without you," Galilee said. "Agreed?"

"Agreed."

With the quill-pig still nestling in the crook of my arm, I turned to the door, and reaching down- somewhat tentatively, I will admit-for the handle, I opened it. There was a sliver of me dared imagine being here would work another miracle upon me. If the first visit had healed my broken body, what might a second do? It was all very well for Galilee to extol the virtue of half-breeds, but I"d found no special glory in that condition; quite the contrary. Was it possible that stepping back into the heart of Cesaria"s world I might be cured of my hybrid state? Might be made wholly divine?

That tantalizing possibility made me braver than I might otherwise have been. With just one backward glance, to be sure that I still had Rachel and Galilee in tow, I strode on into.the room.

At first glance it seemed to be quite empty, but I knew how misleading such impressions could be. Cesaria was here, I was certain of it. And if she was here, then so was the court of visions and transformations that attended upon her. It was just a question of waiting for them to appear.

"Nice room," I heard Galilee say behind me.

There was an ironic edge to the remark, no doubt; he obviously thought I"d overestimated the miraculous nature of the place. I didn"t offer any kind of defense. I just held my breath. A few seconds pa.s.sed. The quill-pig had quieted in my arms. Curious, I thought. I let the held breath go, albeit slowly. Still nothing.

"Are you sure-" Galilee began.

"Hush."

It was not me who silenced him, it was Rachel. I heard her footsteps behind me, and from thecorner of my eye saw her walking on past me into the room. She"d left Galilee"s side. In other circ.u.mstances I might have glanced back over my shoulder and called him a coward, but the moment was too fraught for me to risk the distraction. I kept my gaze fixed on Rachel as she wandered toward the center of the room. That hush of hers had come because she"d heard something; but what? All I could hear was the sound of our breathing, and the padding of Rachel"s soles on the bare boards. Still, she was clearly attending to some sound or other. She c.o.c.ked her head slightly, as if she wasn"t quite sure whether she was really hearing this sound or not. And now, as she listened, I caught what she was straining to hear. It was the softest of sounds: a sibilant murmuring, so quiet I might have a.s.sumed it was the hum of my blood, had it not also been audible to Rachel.

She looked down at her feet. I followed her gaze, and saw that a subtle change had overtaken the boards. The cracks were being erased, and the details of each board, the grain and the knotholes, were shifting. Rachel could obviously feel the effect of this shift against the tips of her toes: the flow of the motion was toward her, out of the heart of the room.

Now I put the sound I was hearing together with the shifting of the boards: the wood was becoming sand; sand blown by a gentle but insistent breeze.

Rachel glanced back toward me. To judge by her expression she wasn"t so much alarmed by what was happening as entertained.

"Look," she said. Then, to Galilee, "It"s okay, honey." She reached out toward him, and he came to join her, sliding an anxious glance in my direction as he did so. The wind was getting stronger; the boards had now disappeared completely. There was only sand beneath our feet now, its grains glittering as they rolled on their way.

I watched him reach out to take hold of her hand, wondering what place this was, creeping up upon us. The walls across the room had melted away into a gray-blue haze; and I cast my eyes heavenward to see that the dome had also faded from view. There were stars up there, where there"d been a solid vault of timber and plaster. The dark between them was deepening, and their pinp.r.i.c.ks growing brighter, even as I watched. For a few giddying heartbeats it seemed I was falling toward them. I returned my gaze to Rachel and Galilee before the illusion caught hold of me; and as I did so the lovers" fingers intertwined.

I felt a subtle shock pa.s.s through me, and Tansy jumped out of my arms, landing on the sand in front of me. I went down on my haunches to see that no harm had come to her-strange, I suppose, but there was some comfort in concerning myself with the animal"s welfare when the ground was being remade underfoot, and the stars burning too bright above. But Tansy wanted none of my help now. She was off before I could touch her, with that comical rolling gait of hers. I watched her go perhaps three yards from me before lifting my eyes. What I saw when I did so put the thought of her out of my head completely.

There was no apocalyptic scene before me; no vaults of fire, no panicking animals. There was instead a landscape that I knew. I"d never walked there, except in my imagination, but perhaps I knew it all the better for that fact.Off to my right was a forest, thick and dark. And to my left, the lisping waters of the Caspian Sea.

Two souls as old as heaven came down to the sh.o.r.e that ancient noon ...

This was the place where the holy family had walked; where Zelim the fisherman had left his bickering comrades and gone to engage in a conversation that would not only change his life, but the life that he lived after death. The place of beginnings.

There was no harm here, I thought to myself. There was just the wind and the sand and the sea. I looked back toward the door; or rather the spot where the door had stood. It had gone. There was no way out of here, back into the house. Nor was there any sign of Cesaria"s presence along the sh.o.r.e. I thought I could see some hint of habitation in the distant dunes-a new Atva, perhaps, or the old-and there was the skeletal remains of a boat, the bones of its hull black in the starlight, a distance away, but of the woman we"d come here to see, not a sign.

"Where the h.e.l.l are we?" Galilee wondered aloud.

"This is where you were baptized," I told him.

"Really?" He looked out toward the placid water. "Where I tried to swim away?"

"That"s right."

"How far did you get?" Rachel asked him.

I didn"t hear his response. My attention was once again upon the porcupine, who having waddled away some distance had now turned round, and with her nose to the sand, was snuffling her way toward the carca.s.s of the boat. Halfway there, she raised her head, made a small noise in her throat, and quickened her pace. She wasn"t sniffing her way any longer: she knew her destination.

Somebody was waiting for us in the shadows of the vessel.

"Galilee...?" I murmured.

He looked my way, and I pointed along the sh.o.r.e. There-sitting in the boat-was the storm-maker, the virago herself, a scarf of dark silk draped over her head.

"You see her?" I murmured.

"I see," he said. Then, more quietly. "You go first."

I didn"t argue. My anxiety had faded, calmed by the tranquillity of the scene. There would be no great unleash-ings here, I sensed; no forces raging around. Of course that probably meant that my hopes of being raised out of half-breed state were dashed. But nor would I come to any harm.

Following Tansy"s tracks in the sand, I approached the boat. The starlight was no longerbrightening, but its benediction showed me Cesaria dearly enough, sitting there on a pile of timbers, looking my way. With the ribs of the wreck rising to either side of her she looked as though she were sitting at the heart of a dark flower.