Life was not worth living, he agreed with his long-vanished brother-Rabbis in ancient Babylon, it was only a burden to be borne n.o.bly. But if life was not worth living, death--in Jerusalem--was worth dying. Jerusalem! to which he had turned three times a day in praying, whose name was written on his heart, as on that of the mediaeval Spanish singer, with whom he cried:--
"Who will make to me wings that I may fly ever Eastward, Until my ruined heart shall dwell in the ruins of thee?
Then will I bend my face to thy sacred soil and hold precious Thy very stones, yea e"en to thy dust shall I tender be.
"Life of the soul is the air of thy land, and myrrh of the purest Each grain of thy dust, thy waters sweetest honey of the comb.
Joyous my soul would be, could I even naked and barefoot, Amid the holy ruins of thine ancient Temple roam, Where the Ark was shrined, and the Cherubim in the Oracle had their home."
To die in Jerusalem!--that were success in life.
Here he was lonely. In Jerusalem he would be surrounded by a glorious host. Patriarchs, prophets, kings, priests, rabbonim--they all hovered lovingly over its desolation, whispering heavenly words of comfort.
But now a curious difficulty arose. The Maggid knew from correspondence with Jerusalem Rabbis that a Russian subject would have great difficulty in slipping in at Jaffa or Beyrout, even aided by _bakhshish_. The only safe way was to enter as a British subject.
Grotesque irony of the fates! For nigh half a century the old man had lived in England in his gabardine, and now that he was departing to die in gabardine lands, he was compelled to seek naturalization as a voluntary Englishman! He was even compelled to account mendaciously for his sudden desire to identify himself with John Bull"s inst.i.tutions and patriotic prejudices, and to live as a free-born Englishman. By the aid of a rich but pious West End Jew, who had sometimes been drawn Eastwards by the Maggid"s exegetical eloquence, all difficulties were overcome. Armed with a pa.s.sport, signed floridly as with a lion"s tail rampant, the Maggid--after a quasi-death-bed blessing to Miriam by imposition of hands from the railway-carriage window upon her best bonnet--was whirled away toward his holy dying-place.
VII
Such disappointment as often befalls the visionary when he sees the land of his dreams was spared to the Maggid, who remained a visionary even in the presence of the real; beholding with spiritual eye the refuse-laden alleys and the rapacious _Schnorrers_ (beggars). He lived enswathed as with heavenly love, waiting for the moment of transition to the shining World-To-Come, and his supplications at the Wailing Wall for the restoration of Zion"s glory had, despite their sympathetic fervour, the peaceful impersonality of one who looks forward to no worldly kingdom. To outward view he lived--in the rare intervals when he was not at a synagogue or a house-of-learning--somewhere up a dusky staircase in a bleak, narrow court, in one tiny room supplemented by a kitchen in the shape of a stove on the landing, itself a centre of pilgrimage to _Schnorrers_ innumerable, for whom the rich English Maggid was an unexpected windfall. Rich and English were synonymous in hungry Jerusalem, but these beggars" notion of charity was so modest, and the coin of the realm so divisible, that the Maggid managed to gratify them at a penny a dozen. At uncertain intervals he received a letter from Miriam, written in English. The daughter had not carried on the learned tradition of the mother, and so the Maggid was wont to have recourse to the head of the philanthropic technical school for the translation of her news into Hebrew. There was, however, not much of interest; Miriam"s world had grown too alien: she could sc.r.a.pe together little to appeal to the dying man. And so his last ties with the past grew frailer and frailer, even as his body grew feebler and feebler, until at last, bent with great age and infirmity, so that his white beard swept the stones, he tottered about the sacred city like an incarnation of its holy ruin. He seemed like one bent over the verge of eternity, peering wistfully into its soundless depths. Surely G.o.d would send his Death-Angel now.
Then one day a letter from Miriam wrenched him back violently from his beatific vision, jerked him back to that other eternity of the dead past.
Isaac, Isaac had come home! Had come home to find desolation. Had then sought his sister, and was now being nursed by her through his dying hours. His life had come to utter bankruptcy: his possessions--by a cruel coincidence--had been sold up at the very moment that the doctors announced to him that he was a doomed man. And his death-bed was a premature h.e.l.l of torture and remorse. He raved incessantly for his father. Would he not annul the curse, grant him his blessing, promise to say _Kaddish_ for his soul, that he might be saved from utter d.a.m.nation? Would he not send his forgiveness by return, for Isaac"s days were numbered, and he could not linger on more than a month or so?
The Maggid was terribly shaken. He recalled bitterly the years of suffering, crowned by Isaac"s brutal heedlessness to the cry of his dying mother: but the more grievous the boy"s sin, the more awful the anger of G.o.d in store for him.
And the mother--would not her own Gan-Iden be spoilt by her boy"s agonizing in h.e.l.l? For her sake he must forgive his froward offspring; perhaps G.o.d would be more merciful, then. The merits of the father counted: he himself was blessed beyond his deserts by the merits of the Fathers--of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. He had made the pilgrimage to Jerusalem; perhaps his prayers would be heard at the Mercy-Seat.
With shaking hand the old man wrote a letter to his son, granting him a full pardon for the sin against himself, but begging him to entreat G.o.d day and night. And therewith an anthology of consoling Talmudical texts: "A man should pray for Mercy even till the last clod is thrown upon his grave.... For Repentance and Prayer and Charity avert the Evil Decree." The Charity he was himself distributing to the startled _Schnorrers_.
The schoolmaster wrote out the envelope, as usual, but the Maggid did not post the letter. The image of his son"s death-bed was haunting him. Isaac called to him in the old boyish tones. Could he let his boy die there without giving him the comfort of his presence, the visible a.s.surance of his forgiveness, the touch of his hands upon his head in farewell blessing? No, he must go to him.
But to leave Jerusalem at his age? Who knew if he would ever get back to die there? If he should miss the hope of his life! But Isaac kept calling to him--and Isaac"s mother. Yes, he had strength for the journey. It seemed to come to him miraculously, like a gift from Heaven and a pledge of its mercy.
He journeyed to Beyrout, and after a few days took ship for Ma.r.s.eilles.
VIII
Meantime in the London Ghetto the unhappy Ethelred P. Wyndhurst found each day a year. He was in a rapid consumption: a disorderly life had told as ruinously upon his physique as upon his finances. And with this double collapse had come a strange irresistible resurgence of early feelings and forgotten superst.i.tions. The avenging hand was heavy upon him in life,--what horrors yet awaited him when he should be laid in the cold grave? The shadow of death and judgment over-brooded him, clouding his brain almost to insanity.
There would be no forgiveness for him--his father"s remoteness had killed his hope of that. It was the nemesis, he felt, of his refusal to come to his dying mother. G.o.d had removed his father from his pleadings, had wrapped him in an atmosphere holy and aloof. How should Miriam"s letter penetrate through the walls of Jerusalem, pierce through the stonier heart hardened by twenty years of desertion!
And so the day after she had sent it, the spring sunshine giving him a spurt of strength and courage, a desperate idea came to him. If he could go to Jerusalem himself! If he could fall upon his father"s neck, and extort his blessing!
And then, too, he would die in Jerusalem!
Some half-obliterated text sounded in his ears: "And the land shall forgive sin."
He managed to rise--his betaking himself to bed, he found, as the sunshine warmed him, had been mere hopelessness and self-pity. Let him meet Death standing, aye, journeying to the sun-lands. Nay, when Miriam, getting over the alarm of his up-rising, began to dream of the Palestine climate curing him, he caught a last flicker of optimism, spoke artistically of the glow and colour of the East, which he had never seen, but which he might yet live to render on canvas, winning a new reputation. Yes, he would start that very day. Miriam pledged her jewellery to supply him with funds, for she dared not ask her husband to do more for the stranger.
But long before Ethelred P. Wyndhurst reached Jaffa he knew that only the hope of his father"s blessing was keeping him alive.
Somewhere at sea the ships must have pa.s.sed each other.
IX
When the gabardined Maggid reached Miriam"s house, his remains of strength undermined by the long journey, he was nigh stricken dead on the door-step by the news that his journey was vain.
"It is the will of G.o.d," he said hopelessly. The sinner was beyond mercy. He burst into sobs and tears ran down his pallid cheeks and dripped from his sweeping white beard.
"Thou shouldst have let us know," said Miriam gently. "We never dreamed it was possible for thee to come."
"I came as quickly as a letter could have announced me."
"But thou shouldst have cabled."
"Cabled?" The process had never come within his ken. "But how should I dream he could travel? Thy letter said he was on his death-bed. I prayed G.o.d I might but arrive in time."
He was for going back at once, but Miriam put him to bed--the bed Isaac should have died in.
"Thou canst cable thy forgiveness, at least," she said, and so, without understanding this new miracle, he bade her ask the schoolmaster to convey his forgiveness to his son.
"Isaac will inquire for me, if he arrives alive," he said. "The schoolmaster will hear of him. It is a very small place, alas! for G.o.d hath taken away its glory by reason of our sins."
The answer came the same afternoon. "Message just in time. Son died peacefully."
The Maggid rent his bed-garment. "Thank G.o.d!" he cried. "He died in Jerusalem. Better he than I! Isaac died in Jerusalem! G.o.d will have mercy on his soul."
Tears of joy sprang to his bleared eyes. "He died in Jerusalem," he kept murmuring happily at intervals. "My Isaac died in Jerusalem."
Three days later the Maggid died in London.
VI
BETHULAH