"Now, really, papa, this is too absurd; If you have anything on your mind, will you say it?"
"Well--the fact is, Freda, that you--I mean that I, have made up my mind--you see you may marry, and leave me alone, and I should want a companion, and--and all that sort of thing, you know--so I have considered--for your--for our--for my, perhaps--happiness, that it might be well for me to--to--to--in short, my dear--to marry again; in fact, Freda, I have resolved to do so."
"Lady Mary Nugent!" screamed Freda; "not her! not her! not settled! oh papa!"
Mr Gwynne had called Freda impetuous, but he was not prepared for the sudden burst of uncontrollable grief that followed his announcement.
Often as Freda had jested over the proposal Lady Mary was to make her father, she had never believed that he would marry her. It came upon her like the news of an unexpected death, or great family misfortune. She covered her face with her hands, and sobbed till her father thought she must burst some blood vessel then and there before him. He got up, sat down; went to the bell, touched the rope, let it go; opened the window, put his hand on Freda"s bowed head, called her by name, and, in return, was greeted by--
"Not Lady Mary! think of my mother! think of me! oh father! father!
cruel! this is too much! Say it is not true; only a jest. What have I done? I will be better, kinder, gentler--I will nurse you, tend you--never marry. I would rather not--I never shall. n.o.body loves you as well as I. Your only child. My mother"s only child. Say it is not true--oh, say it is not true?"
This was impossible, for Mr Gwynne knew full well that he was pledged beyond recall. But now, as he looked on his daughter, heard her words, thought of her mother, he began to repent of what he had done. He, who hated scenes, dreaded tears, would not annoy Freda for the world, to have raised such emotion! He did not understand it. Lady Mary had a.s.sured him Freda would be so glad to be allowed to marry Rowland. And she was so discerning and clever! But he could not bear those sobs.
"Freda! my dear, don"t, I beg, I entreat! You will make me so nervous.
You know I cannot bear--in short, I feel quite ill. The fact is, you will make yourself ill, and after all, it need make no difference to you. You will be just the same. Freda, I must beg you to desist. I must insist--I will ring for the housekeeper."
"No, no, papa. Do not let us expose ourselves!" cried Freda, rising suddenly; "I will go upstairs. Neither you nor I will ever be happy again!"
Freda was about to leave the room, when Mr Gwynne suddenly went up to her, and putting his arm round her neck, whispered, whilst the tears sprang into his eyes,--
"Freda, Freda! my child, forgive me! I didn"t think it would vex you so.
I scarcely know how it has all happened."
Poor Freda threw both her arms around her father, and sobbed again. As she leaned on his shoulder, his white hairs touched the brown glossy braids of her head, and his lips kissed them. At that moment he knew that he did not love Lady Mary Nugent as well as he loved his child, and that child was conscious for the first time how very dear her father was to her.
Again she roused herself, and as if ashamed of her emotion, hastened out of the room. She went upstairs, and locking herself in her room, threw herself on her bed. Here she gave way to feelings that were as new as strange to her, unaccustomed as she was to what some one calls "the luxury of tears." She scarcely knew whether sorrow or anger predominated, but she was wretched and indignant. Tumultuous thoughts rushed through her mind of the past, present, and probable future!
thoughts too numerous and changeable to be transcribed, but which may well be imagined.
At last her pride, that one grand feature of her character, got the better of her grief and anger. She rose from her bed, dried her eyes, arranged her hair, and with a carriage as erect as her soul was haughty, once more entered her father"s library. The momentary emotion and pathos of their last embrace had been overpowered in both by stronger sensations; in him by the remembrance of Lady Mary Nugent"s fascinations, in her by the sense of that lady"s tact and duplicity.
Freda sat quietly down opposite her father, and said abruptly,--
"Papa, this odious subject must be begun and ended between us this day.
If you will be good enough to answer me a few questions and to listen to me, I will never mention it again. Are you really engaged to Lady Mary Nugent, or is it a horrible dream?"
"I--yes--I certainly am, my dear--engaged to be married to her ladyship."
"And you mean to marry her? Impossible!"
"Do you consider me a man of honour? or am I one likely to break my word when pledged?"
"Oh! papa, when a woman proposes and makes love, and waits till the very moment when it suits her own convenience to marry, do you think she deserves consideration? You know that Lady Mary Nugent has done it all herself, and that you would never have taken the trouble, or had the courage to propose for any woman under the sun, if she had not asked you first. You know you do not want to marry. I would give the world to know how she managed to bring you to the point."
"Really, Freda, this is too--too--personal, and rude, I may call it--and--"
"Forgive me, papa. Of course you are your own master, and are at liberty to be chosen by any woman, but she will not choose me, nor I her. I hate Lady Mary Nugent, despise her most intensely, and shall leave this house before she comes into it; never--"
It seemed as if an invisible hand checked the end of Freda"s determination, for she stopped short at the "never."
"But what I came particularly to say, papa, is, that I believe I have some little private fortune of my own, my dear mother"s, in short, and I suppose I can have that when I like."
"Certainly--certainly--but--"
"Then I wish both you and Lady Mary Nugent to understand that I shall not live here. Not on your account, but on hers. I ask, as a particular favour, that I may not be informed of the day of your marriage; and I shall make it a point of going away in a month or so, so as to leave you free to act. I shall hope to hear from you, and to write to you. I am only sorry for you, because she cannot understand your tastes; but that is nothing. I don"t think either she or her daughter ever read any book but a fashionable novel in their lives. But what is the difference!
Money and tact against the world! I cannot help speaking my mind for this first and last time. Forgive me. You will not have me long to speak it, and my successor never spoke her"s in her life, so she will not bore you by abruptness and sincerity, as I perhaps have done."
Freda had spoken so fast that she paused to take breath, and during that necessary process her father wiped his face, as if he, too, were exhausted by her volubility. Freda could scarcely help smiling.
"I am very sorry for everything I have ever done to displease you," she began again; "and I only hope you will not be so unhappy, as I am afraid you will be."
"This is too exhausting!" muttered Mr Gwynne, sinking back in his chair.
"Freda, you really do talk too much. Will you ring for Perkins? I must take a dose of that cordial."
When the cordial was mentioned, Freda knew that all conversation was at an end. She rang the bell, and when Perkins came, left the room.
She went at once to her writing desk, and wrote the following note:--
"MY DEAREST SERENA,--What you and I have sometimes feared is about to come to pa.s.s. My father is going to marry Lady Mary Nugent. Of course I can no longer live here; will you and Mr Jones give me shelter for a time whilst I arrange my thoughts and plans? I will give as little trouble as I can, but I know you will bear with me.--Your loving friend,
"WINIFRED GWYNNE."
Freda sealed and directed her letter, and then went to the open window, and stood there for some time. A slight shower of rain was falling and a few light clouds were struggling with the afternoon sunbeams. Strong shadows fell from the trees in the Park, equally strong lights were on the distant hills. The river looked hot and hazy, and the cattle had congregated under the arch of the bridge--the only cool spot--as if for shelter from the sun. A shrill, blithe, distant whistle sounded, and the bells of Llanfawr church pealed in the far-away town, just sending their faint echoes across the river.
"What are those bells ringing for?" said Freda, as she wiped away some large tears that were gathering in her eyes. "They ring for everything; soon it will be for these odious marriages. Why was I ever born? Why, above all, was I born in such a place as this? And to leave it! Yes, Frisk" (to her terrier, that was barking and jumping outside the window), "you and I must go away. No more quarrels with Jerry; no more fights with Gelert?; no more hunts in the brook. Will you come with me to smoky London? Yes, and hate it as much as I shall. Sleep away your life by a city fire, and grow fat and old, instead of racing after me and Prince. But we shall not live long in a town, Frisk. We shall soon die of sheer laziness, and so much the better--for who will care for us?
Lion and Jerry and even Gipsy will forget you; and every one has forgotten me already. Why am I so foolish as to cry so? I never knew how weak I could be until these last few days. But we must be strong, Frisk--we must be strong, and not care for this old place, and the beautiful park, and all the--oh, why will those bells ring? and what are they ringing for? And there is the dinner-bell, too, harsh as my lot.
And I must try to be dutiful, and show a bold face and good courage to the world, who will pity me, or rejoice over me, and say that I wanted something to pull down my pride. And so, perhaps, I do; but this shall not be the something. No, no; it shall only make me prouder. Poor papa, too; he will be more wretched than I--I am sure he will. I cannot bear to think of him. Frisk! Frisk! don"t make such a noise. Don"t jump so, Frisk. There! I will take you in. Good dog! good Frisk! You love me if no one else does; you and Gladys."
CHAPTER x.x.xVI.
THE FIRST-BORN.
Those Llanfawr bells which, as Freda said, certainly did ring for everything, were sending forth their chimes to celebrate the birth of a daughter at Plas Abertewey. But whilst they were ringing, and Freda was abusing them, the mother of the little daughter was, apparently, about to depart for that other country where bells shall no longer "ring out the old, and ring in the new," welcome the babe, or speed the spirit of the dead.
Good Dr Richards and the nurse stood, one on either side of Netta"s bed, pouring brandy and wine down her throat, whilst her infant was on its grandmother"s, Mrs Jenkins"s lap, in the next room. The doctor was in a state of intense anxiety. He had sent off one man and horse for another surgeon, and a second to Swansea, to telegraph for Howel, who had not yet returned from London, where he had been nearly three months. He felt the great responsibility of his situation, and that if Netta did not rally, she must die.
It was six o"clock in the evening; the baby had been born in the morning, and Netta"s continual cry had been "Howel! Howel! When will my husband come?" But she had not spoken for some hours, and seemed to be sinking out of the world.
As Dr Richards leaned over her, he thought she murmured something.
Putting his ear close to her, he heard the words, "Mother! oh, mother!"
"She shall come! you shall see her!" said Dr Richards. He went to a writing-table, and wrote as follows:--
"Mrs Howel Jenkins is dying. The only chance to save her is her mother"s presence. Come, for G.o.d"s sake."