"That"s right." Jerry drained the cup and set it aside. "Their technology is based on organic chemistry, the way ours is on the physical sciences. By our standards, they"re chemical wizards. How"d you like to try changing the mind of an alien organism by managing to grow an extra part on to his brain the way they tried to do to us humans? To them, it was the simplest way of convincing us."
Milt stared again. Finally, he shook his head.
"Why?" he said. "Why would they want to change our minds?"
"Because their philosophy, their picture of life and the universe around them grew out of a chemically oriented science," answered Jerry. "The result is, they see all life as part of a closed, intro-acting chemical circuit with no loose ends; with every living thing, intelligent or not, a part of the whole. Well, you saw it for yourself in your nightmare. That"s the cosmos as they see it and to them it"s beautiful."
"But why did they want us to see it the way they did?"
"Out of sheer kindness," said Jerry and laughed barkingly. "According to their cosmology, there"s no such thing as an alien. Therefore we weren"t alien just sick in the head. Poisoned by the lumps of metal like the ship and the translator we claimed were so important. And our clothes and everything else we had. The kind thing was to cure and rescue us."
"Now, wait a minute," said Milt. "They saw those things of ourswork "
"What"s the fact they worked got to do with it? What you don"t understand, Milt," said Jerry, lying back gratefully on the bunk, "is that Communicator"s peoples" minds were closed. Not just unconvinced, not just refusing to see but closed! Sealed, and welded shut from prehistoric beginnings right down to the present. The fact our translator worked meant nothing to them. According to their cosmology, it shouldn"t work, so it didn"t. Any stray phenomena tending to prove it did were simply the product of diseased minds."
Jerry paused to emphasize the statement and his eyes drifted shut. The next thing he knew Milt was shaking him.
". . . Wake up!" Milt was shouting at him. "You can dope off after you"ve explained. I"m not going to have any crew back in straitjackets again, just because you were too sleepy to warn me they"d revert!"
". . . Won"t revert," said Jerry, thickly. He roused himself. "Those lengths of vine released chemicals into their bloodstreams to destroy what was left of the growths. I wouldn"t leave until I got them from Communicator." Jerry struggled up on one elbow again. "And after a short walk in a human brain mine he and his people couldn"t get us out of sight and forgotten fast enough."
"Why?" Milt shook him again as Jerry"s eyelids sagged. "Why should getting their minds hooked in with yours shake them up so?"
". . . Bust bust their cosmology open. Quit shaking . . . I"m awake."
"Whydid it bust them wide open?"
"Remember how it was for you with the nightmares?" said Jerry. "The other way around? Think back, about when you slept. There you were, a lone atom of humanity, caught up in a nightmare like one piece of stew meat in a vat stewing all life together just one single chemical bit with no independent existence, and no existence at all except as part of the whole. Remember?"
He saw Milt shiver slightly.
"It was like being swallowed up by a soft machine," said the Team captain in a small voice. "I remember."
"All right," said Jerry. "That"s how it was for you in Communicator"s cosmos. But remember something about that cosmos? It was warm, and safe. It was all-embracing, all-settling, like a great, big, soft, woolly comforter."
"It was too much like a woolly comforter," said Milt, shuddering. "It was unbearable."
"To you. Right," said Jerry. "But to Communicator, it was ideal. And if that was ideal, think what it was like when he had to step into a human mind mine."
Milt stared at him.
"Why?" Milt asked.
"Because," said Jerry, "he found himselfalone there!"
Milt"s eyes widened.
"Think about it, Milt," said Jerry. "From the time we"re born, we"re individuals. From the moment we open our eyes on the world, inside we"re alone in the universe. All the emotional and intellectual resources that Communicator draws from his ident.i.ty with the stewing vat of his cosmos, each one of us has to dig up for and out of himself!"
Jerry stopped to give Milt a chance to say something. But Milt was evidently not in possession of something to say at the moment.
"That"s why Communicator and the others couldn"t take it, when they hooked into my human mind,"
Jerry went on. "And that"s why, when they found out what we were like inside, they couldn"t wait to get rid of us. So they gave me the vines and kicked us out. That"s the whole story." He lay back on the bunk.
Milt cleared his throat. "All right," he said.
Jerry"s heavy eyes closed. Then the other man"s voice spoke, still close by his ear.
"But," said Milt, "I still think you took a chance, going down to b.u.t.t heads with the natives that way.
What if Communicator and the rest had been able to stand exposure to your mind. You"d locked me in and the other men were in restraint. Our whole team would have been part of that stewing vat."
"Not a chance," said Jerry.
"You can"t be sure of that."
"Yes I can." Jerry heard his own voice sounding harshly beyond the darkness of his closed eyelids. "It wasn"t just that I knew my cosmological view was too tough for them. It was the fact that their minds were closed in the vat they had no freedom to change and adapt themselves to anything new."
"What"s that got to do with it?" demanded the voice of Milt.
"Everything," said Jerry. "Their point of view only made us more uncomfortable but our point of view, being individually adaptable, and open, threatened to destroy the very laws of existence as they saw them. An open mind can always stand a closed one, if it has to by making room for it in the general picture. But a closed mind can"t stand it near an open one without risking immediate and complete destruction in its own terms. In a closed mind, there"s no more room."
He stopped speaking and slowly exhaled a weary breath.
"Now," he said, without opening his eyes, "will you finally get oot of here and let me sleep?"
For a long second more, there was silence. Then, he heard a chair sc.r.a.pe softly, and the muted steps of Milt tiptoeing away.
With another sigh, at last Jerry relaxed and let consciousness slip from him.
He slept.
as sleep the boar upon the plain, the hawk upon the crag, and the tiger on the hill . . .
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