Near the well were the two judges, Van Spreckdal and Richter. At their feet lay the old woman extended on her back, her long, thin, grey hair, her blue face, her eyes wide open, and her tongue between her teeth.
It was a horrible spectacle!
"Well," said Van Spreckdal, with solemn accents, "what have you to say?"
I did not reply.
"Do you remember having thrown this woman, Theresa Becker, into this well, after having strangled her to rob her of her money?"
"No," I cried, "no! I do not know this woman; I never saw her before.
May G.o.d help me!"
"That will do," he replied in a dry voice. And without saying another word he went out with his companion.
The officers now believed that they had best put handcuffs on me. They took me back to the Raspelhaus, in a state of profound stupidity. I did not know what to think; my conscience itself troubled me; I even asked myself if I really had murdered the old woman!
In the eyes of the officers I was condemned.
I will not tell you of my emotions that night in the Raspelhaus, when, seated on my straw bed with the window opposite me and the gallows in perspective, I heard the watchmen cry in the silence of the night: "Sleep, people of Nuremberg; the Lord watches over you. One o"clock! Two o"clock! Three o"clock!"
Every one may form his own idea of such a night. There is a fine saying that it is better to be hanged innocent than guilty. For the soul, yes; but for the body, it makes no difference; on the contrary, it kicks, it curses its lot, it tries to escape, knowing well enough that its role ends with the rope. Add to this, that it repents not having sufficiently enjoyed life and at having listened to the soul when it preached abstinence.
"Ah! if I had only known!" it cried, "you would not have led me around by a string with your big words, your beautiful phrases, and your magnificent sentences! You would not have allured me with your fine promises. I should have had many happy moments that are now lost forever. Everything is over! You said to me: "Control your pa.s.sions."
Very well! I did control them. Here I am now. They are going to hang me, and you--later they will speak of you as a sublime soul, a stoical soul, a martyr to the errors of Justice. They will never think about me!"
Such were the sad reflections of my poor body.
Day broke; at first, dull and undecided, it threw an uncertain light on my bull"s-eye window with its cross-bars; then it blazed against the wall at the back. Outside the street became lively. This was a market-day; it was Friday. I heard the vegetable wagons pa.s.s and also the country people with their baskets. Some chickens cackled in their coops in pa.s.sing and some b.u.t.ter sellers chattered together. The market opposite opened, and they began to arrange the stalls.
Finally it was broad daylight and the vast murmur of the increasing crowd, housekeepers who a.s.sembled with baskets on their arms, coming and going, discussing and marketing, told me that it was eight o"clock.
With the light, my heart gained a little courage. Some of my black thoughts disappeared. I desired to see what was going on outside.
Other prisoners before me had managed to climb up to the bull"s-eye; they had dug some holes in the wall to mount more easily. I climbed in my turn, and, when seated in the oval edge of the window, with my legs bent and my head bowed, I could see the crowd, and all the life and movement. Tears ran freely down my cheeks. I thought no longer of suicide--I experienced a need to live and breathe, which was really extraordinary.
"Ah!" I said, "to live what happiness! Let them harness me to a wheelbarrow--let them put a ball and chain around my leg--nothing matters if I may only live!"
The old market, with its roof shaped like an extinguisher, supported on heavy pillars, made a superb picture: old women seated before their panniers of vegetables, their cages of poultry and their baskets of eggs; behind them the Jews, dealers in old clothes, their faces the colour of old box-wood; butchers with bare arms, cutting up meat on their stalls; countrymen, with large hats on the backs of their heads, calm and grave with their hands behind their backs and resting on their sticks of hollywood, and tranquilly smoking their pipes. Then the tumult and noise of the crowd--those screaming, shrill, grave, high, and short words--those expressive gestures--those sudden att.i.tudes that show from a distance the progress of a discussion and depict so well the character of the individual--in short, all this captivated my mind, and notwithstanding my sad condition, I felt happy to be still of the world.
Now, while I looked about in this manner, a man--a butcher--pa.s.sed, inclining forward and carrying an enormous quarter of beef on his shoulders; his arms were bare, his elbows were raised upward and his head was bent under them. His long hair, like that of Salvator"s Sicambrian, hid his face from me; and yet, at the first glance, I trembled.
"It is he!" I said.
All the blood in my body rushed to my heart. I got down from the window trembling to the ends of my fingers, feeling my cheeks quiver, and the pallor spread over my face, stammering in a choked voice:
"It is he! he is there--there--and I, I have to die to expiate his crime. Oh, G.o.d! what shall I do? What shall I do?"
A sudden idea, an inspiration from Heaven, flashed across my mind. I put my hand in the pocket of my coat--my box of crayons was there!
Then rushing to the wall, I began to trace the scene of the murder with superhuman energy. No uncertainty, no hesitation! I knew the man! I had seen him! He was there before me!
At ten o"clock the jailer came to my cell. His owl-like impa.s.sibility gave place to admiration.
"Is it possible?" he cried, standing at the threshold.
"Go, bring me my judges," I said to him, pursuing my work with an increasing exultation.
Schlussel answered:
"They are waiting for you in the trial-room."
"I wish to make a revelation," I cried, as I put the finishing touches to the mysterious personage.
He lived; he was frightful to see. His full-faced figure, foreshortened upon the wall, stood out from the white background with an astonishing vitality.
The jailer went away.
A few minutes afterward the two judges appeared. They were stupefied. I, trembling, with extended hand, said to them:
"There is the murderer!"
After a few minutes of silence, Van Spreckdal asked me:
"What is his name?"
"I don"t know; but he is at this moment in the market; he is cutting up meat in the third stall to the left as you enter from Trabaus Street."
"What do you think?" said he, leaning toward his colleague.
"Send for the man," he replied in a grave tone.
Several officers retained in the corridor obeyed this order. The judges stood, examining the sketch. As for me, I had dropped on my bed of straw, my head between my knees, perfectly exhausted.
Soon steps were heard echoing under the archway. Those who have never awaited the hour of deliverance and counted the minutes, which seem like centuries--those who have never experienced the sharp emotions of outrage, terror, hope, and doubt--can have no conception of the inward chills that I experienced at that moment. I should have distinguished the step of the murderer, walking between the guards, among a thousand others. They approached. The judges themselves seemed moved. I raised up my head, my heart feeling as if an iron hand had clutched it, and I fixed my eyes upon the closed door. It opened. The man entered. His cheeks were red and swollen, the muscles in his large contracted jaws twitched as far as his ears, and his little restless eyes, yellow like a wolf"s, gleamed beneath his heavy yellowish red eyebrows.
Van Spreckdal showed him the sketch in silence.
Then that murderous man, with the large shoulders, having looked, grew pale--then, giving a roar which thrilled us all with terror, he waved his enormous arms, and jumped backward to overthrow the guards. There was a terrible struggle in the corridor; you could hear nothing but the panting breath of the butcher, his muttered imprecations, and the short words and the shuffling feet of the guard, upon the flagstones.
This lasted only about a minute.
Finally the a.s.sa.s.sin re-entered, with his head hanging down, his eyes bloodshot, and his hands fastened behind his back. He looked again at the picture of the murderer; he seemed to reflect, and then, in a low voice, as if talking to himself:
"Who could have seen me," he said, "at midnight?"
I was saved!