"I have given employment to many, and help to the pauperized."
"It is commanded to be charitable."
"I have given millions of dollars--hundreds of thousands of pounds to philanthropies."
"Anonymously, of course. You must be a G.o.dly man, sir."
"I am an agnostic. I do not know if there is such a thing."
He shook his head. "Beneath us there are fish who do not know it is the sea in which they swim; above us there are birds unaware of the reaches of the sky. The fish have no conception of sky; the birds know nothing of the deep. They are agnostics also."
"Well, it doesnt seem to do them any harm. Fishes continue to sp.a.w.n and birds to nest without the benefits of esoteric knowledge."
"Exactly. Fish remain fish in happy ignorance; doubt does not cause a bird to falter in its flight."
The sun was pushed into the air from the waters as a ball is pushed by the thumb and forefinger. The chalkcliffs were outlined ahead of me and I calculated we had little more than an hour to go. "You have chosen a strange way of earning a living, my friend," I ventured at last.
"Upon some is laid the yoke of the Law, others depend upon the sun for light," he said. "Perhaps, like yourself, I have committed some great sin and am expiating it in this manner."
"I don"t know what you mean. I am conscious of no sin--if I understand the meaning of the theological term."
""We have trespa.s.sed,"" he murmured dreamily, ""we have been faithless, we have robbed, we have spoken basely, we have committed iniquity, we have wrought unrighteousness----""
"Since the rational world discarded the superst.i.tions of religion halfacentury ago," I said, "we have learned that good and evil are relative terms; without meaning, actually."
For the first time he suspended his oars and the boat wallowed crazily.
"Excuse me," he resumed his exertions. "Good is evil sometimes and evil is good upon occasion?"
"It depends on circ.u.mstances and the point of view. What is beneficial at one time and place may be detrimental under other circ.u.mstances."
"Ah. Green is green today, but it was yellow yesterday and will be blue tomorrow."
"Even such an exaggeration could be defended; however, that was not my meaning."
""We have wrought unrighteousness, we have been presumptuous, we have done violence, we have forged lies, we have counseled evil, we have lied, we have scoffed, we have revolted, we have blasphemed, we have been rebellious, we have acted perversely, we have transgressed, we have persecuted----""
"Perhaps you have," I interrupted with some asperity, "but I don"t belong in that category. Far from persecuting, I have always believed in tolerance. Live and let live, I always say. People can"t help the color of their skins or the race they were born into."
"And if they could they would naturally choose to be white northEuropean gentiles."
"Why should anyone voluntarily embrace a status of inconvenience?"
"Why, indeed? "We have persecuted, we have been stiffnecked, we have done wickedly, we have corrupted ourselves, we have committed abominations, we have gone astray and we have led astray....""
We both fell silent after this catalogue, quite inapplicable to the situation, and it was with heartfelt thanks I distinguished each fault and seam in the Dover Cliffs as well as the breaking line of surf below.
I presumed because of what I"d said about legal entry he was not avoiding the coastguard, but with a practiced oar he suddenly veered and drove us onto a minute sandy beach at the foot of the cliffs, obviously unfrequented and probably unknown to officialdom. A narrow yet clearly defined path led upward; this was evidently his customary haven. Were I an emotional man I would have kissed the little strip of shingle, as it was I contented myself with a deep sigh of thanksgiving.
My guide stood on the sand, smoothing the long, shapeless garment he wore against his spare body. He had taken a small book from his pocket and was mumbling some unintelligible words aloud. I was struck again by the nervous vigor of the man which had given him the strength to row all night against a harsh sea--and presumably would generate the energy necessary for the return trip.
I pulled out my wallet and extracted two 100 banknotes. No one could say Albert Weener didnt reward service handsomely. "Here you are, my friend," I said, "and thank you."
"I accept your thanks." He bowed slightly, putting his hands behind him and moving toward his boat.
Perversely, since he seemed bent on rejecting my reward, I became anxious to press it upon him. "Don"t be foolish," I argued. "This is a perilous game, this running in of refugees. You can"t do it for pleasure."
"It is a work of charity."
I don"t know how this shabby fellow conceived charity, but I had never understood that virtue to conflict with the law. "You mean you ferry all these strays for nothing?"
"My payment is predetermined and exact."
"You are foolish. Anyone using your boat for illegal entry would be glad to give everything he possessed for the trip."
"There are many penniless ones."
"Need that be your concern--to the extent of risking your life and devoting all your time?"
"I can speak for no one but myself. It need be my concern."
"One man can"t do much. Oh, don"t think I don"t sympathize with your att.i.tude. I too pity these poor people deeply; I have given thousands of pounds to relieve them."
"Their plight touches your heart?"
"Indeed it does. Never in all history have so many been so wretched through no fault of their own."
"Ah," he agreed thoughtfully. "For you it is something strange and pathetic."
"Tragic would be a better word."
"But for us it is an old story."
He pushed his boat into the water. "An old story," he repeated.
"Wait, wait--the money!"
He jumped in and began rowing. I waved the banknotes ridiculously in the air. His body bent backward and forward, urging the boat away from me with each pull. "Your money!" I yelled.
He moved steadily toward the French sh.o.r.e. I watched him recede into the Channel mists and thought, another madman. I turned away at last and began to ascend the path up the cliff.
_91._ When I finally got back to Hampshire, worn out by my ordeal and feeling as though I"d aged ten years, there was a message from Miss Francis on my desk. Even her b.u.mptious rudeness could not conceal the jubilation with which she"d penned it.
"To a.s.suage your natural fear for the continued safety of Albert Weener"s invaluable person, I hasten to inform you that I believe I have a workable compound. It may be a mere matter of weeks now before we shall begin to roll back _Cynodon dactylon_."