There was only one difficulty in the way, and that was Greif himself, who, in spite of his acute suffering had not the slightest intention of submitting to an illness at Sigmundskron.
In the first moment the pain had altogether overcome him, but he gradually became so much accustomed to it as to be able to think more connectedly. The idea of remaining where he was seemed intolerable. To be taken care of by Frau von Sigmundskron, to be under the same roof with Hilda, would be to give up the contest for which he had sacrificed so much. He did not understand that his mind would act very differently when he had recovered, and that much which seemed disagreeable at present, might be attractive then.
He rose to his feet without a.s.sistance, and he saw that he was alone.
Hilda had gone in one direction and her mother in another in search of something to alleviate his suffering. To get out of the house was the work of a moment. In the court there was the groom who had driven him, still rubbing down his horses and setting things to rights before going inside to warm himself. The man was the same who had brought Greif the news at Schwarzburg, a devoted fellow, born and bred on the estate, unlike the house servants who had been changed so often.
"Karl," said Greif, going up to him, "you must harness and drive me back to Greifenstein at once. I am sorry for you, but I am too ill to stay here. I will walk down the road--come after me as soon as you can."
There was nothing to be done but to obey the simple order. Karl looked surprised but lost no time, especially as Greif was already going out of the gate. In a trice the collars were on the horses again, the traces. .h.i.tched, the reins unwound, and Karl was seated upon the box. He was glad for himself, though he thought it a very long pull for the horses.
The road went downhill over most of the way, however, and Karl reflected that when his master was once in the carriage behind him, he could drive as slowly as he pleased. Just as he was ready, Frau von Sigmundskron and Hilda appeared upon the threshold of the hall, both looking pale and anxious. They had found Greif gone from the sitting-room and had at first imagined that he had lost his way in the house; but Hilda"s quick ears caught the sounds that came from the court and she knew that the groom was putting the horses in.
"What is that?" asked Hilda, addressing the groom. "Why have you harnessed again?"
"The merciful lord has ordered it," returned Karl, lifting his military cap with one hand while he held the reins with the other. "The merciful lord has walked down the road, and I am to overtake him."
Therewith Karl turned his pair neatly and the horses trotted slowly towards the gate.
"Stop, stop!" cried Hilda, running down the steps and following him, while her mother came after her more slowly.
Karl drew up and looked back.
"Herr von Greifenstein is very ill," the girl said. "He will never be able to drive alone so far--indeed he ought to stay here and you should go for the doctor."
She was so much confused that she hardly knew what to say, when her mother joined her, calmer and more sensible.
"You say that he went out of the gate. How long ago?" inquired the elder lady.
"It may be five minutes."
"Did he say anything besides ordering the carriage?"
"He said he was ill and must go home at once, and that he was sorry for me."
Frau von Sigmundskron hesitated. It was clear that Greif had not been so ill as she had at first supposed, or he could not have walked out alone, ordered the carriage and gone on without support. Karl interrupted her meditations.
"Merciful ladyships forgive me," he observed, "but if he walks farther he will be more ill." He gathered the reins and prepared to move on.
"Go, Karl," said the baroness, and in a moment he was gone.
"Mother--you ought to have gone, too--" Hilda began, looking into her face with an expression of mingled anxiety and disappointment.
"I do not see how I could, my child," answered the baroness. "If Greif was strong enough to go it was best that he should do so. It would be hard for us to take care of him. He has his cousin at Greifenstein, and they can send for me if he is worse. Besides--" She hesitated and stopped.
"What?" asked Hilda anxiously.
"He showed good sense, since he was able to go. It is not the custom in the world for young men to make long visits in such cases."
"The world, the world!" exclaimed Hilda wearily. "I have heard so much of the world this morning. Mother--He will not send for you. We shall not know how he is--"
"I will take care that we may know," answered the baroness quietly. "He is young and very strong. Perhaps it is only fatigue after all, and we shall hear that he is well to-morrow."
Hilda"s instinct told her to slip from her mother"s side, to pa.s.s the gate and run down by the short and steep descent to the foot of the hill. The road made a wide sweep before pa.s.sing this point and she would have been certain to reach it long before the carriage. But she knew that such wildness could produce no good result. She would stand there waiting for the carriage, it would come, Greif would tell Karl to stop, and then--what could happen? There would be a sort of momentary renewal of the scene which had ended a quarter of an hour ago, with the unpleasant addition of the driver as a witness. She could not get in and drive with him, and so the situation would have to end abruptly, perhaps in another attack of that pain which had so suddenly prostrated Greif.
It was very hard that he should have escaped in this way, and nothing but his suffering could excuse his conduct; but to have him return now would be almost worse. After all, Hilda was woman enough to know that she had got the best of the argument at the last, and that Greif"s abrupt departure looked very much like a precipitate flight. She knew also that he loved her, and that it would be impossible for him to leave the country without seeing her again. No woman would believe the man she loves capable of that. It was therefore madness to think of intercepting him upon the road, in order to exchange another word. With hands loosely joined together and hanging down, Hilda stood gazing at the vacant gateway. The happiness she had antic.i.p.ated an hour earlier, when she had descried the distant carriage that brought Greif to her, had been strangely interrupted, and yet she was not altogether unhappy now, though she was very sad and silent. For all the world she would not have unlived that hour, nor unsaid the words that had pa.s.sed her lips. The time had been very short, and yet it had sufficed to show her what Greif"s love for her really was, and what he was willing to suffer for her sake. She had, too, the satisfaction of feeling that this suffering had not been brought upon him by herself, and that she had used all her strength to relieve him of it. He had indeed refused to give up the burden to the very end, but Hilda did not believe that he would bear it many days longer after what she had said. Her youth and strength refused to accept such an evil destiny, and her keen feminine perception told her that more than half of his obstinacy had been morbid and unnatural, and would disappear with the change wrought in him by rest and quiet.
Her anxiety now was for him, and did not concern herself any longer. She knew nothing of illness save as a sort of vague misfortune, a state of undefined pain during which people stayed in bed and were visited by physicians. Never during her lifetime had any one of the three women who composed the little household been ailing even for a day, and though Hilda had sometimes been told, when she was visiting at Greifenstein, that Clara was not well enough to appear, she had only fancied how the poor lady would look when she was not painted and her hair was all out of curl. That did not help her to realise what an illness meant. She could only recall the look on Greif"s face when he had reeled to the chair and then thrown his head back, while his closed lids turned purple. For a long time that was the only picture evoked in her mind when sickness was spoken of.
Frau von Sigmundskron looked at her daughter, without understanding her thoughts. She guessed what the nature of the interview had probably been, but she had no means of knowing how it had ended. Nevertheless she was willing to wait until Hilda chose to speak, and she knew that she would not wait long. Presently she pa.s.sed her arm through her daughter"s and led her gently back towards the house. The latter made no resistance, but walked quietly beside her across the sunny court. When they reached the door of the hall Hilda turned and looked again towards the gate.
"I wonder how it will be when he comes in by that way again!" she said.
Then she went in with her mother and entered the sitting-room, and sat down in her old place, in the chair into which Greif had fallen. She was left alone for a few minutes, while Frau von Sigmundskron went to tell Berbel that Greif was gone after all, and that there was no need to upset all the household arrangements.
The fire was still burning brightly, though one of the logs had fallen into two pieces, making a great cave of coals and flames in the midst.
The slow sun had not crept as far as the next threadbare seam upon the faded carpet. The room was the same as it had been a quarter of an hour earlier. Hilda thought of all that had happened while that log was being burned through, and while the bright sunlight had moved across that narrow s.p.a.ce. She spread her white hands to the blaze, and looked at the red glare between her fingers.
She was not altogether as calm as she looked, but she was certainly far less moved than might have been expected. There was a solidity about her nerves that would have driven to despair the morbid worshippers of the decadent school of romance, a natural force which made it very hard to understand her. Womanly she undoubtedly was, but of that type in woman which is rarely seen in cities and not often in the country. There is a hopefulness inherent in perfect physical organisations that have never been strained by unnatural means, which makes them seem hard and unfeeling to weaker natures. They have a way of sitting still without betraying their thoughts, when they are not called upon to act, which produces the impression that they feel nothing, and care for nothing but themselves. It is only in great moments that they are seen at their best, and that their overpowering strength in action excites wonder.
They show none of those constant changes that belong to very nervous people, and make them interesting as studies of sensibility. Their faces do not reflect the light and shade of every pa.s.sing circ.u.mstance, their voices are not full of quickly contrasted intonations which tell more than words themselves, they do not blush and turn pale at every suggestion of happiness or unhappiness to themselves, everyday speeches do not raise in their minds quick trains of a.s.sociation, linked and running on like an ascending scale in music, to culminate in a little moment of emotion, in a little flutter of the heart, half pleasant, half painful. Their strong pulses beat quietly, in an unvarying rhythm, the full and even flow of blood maintains a soft colour in their fresh faces; when they are tired they sleep, when they are awake they are rarely tired; what they could do yesterday, they can do as well to-day, and they feel that they will be able to do the same to-morrow. They never feel those sharp thrusts close to the heart that tell us how quickly one thrust a little sharper than the others would end all. They do not lie awake in the hours of the night counting the blows of the cruel little hammer that beats its prison to pieces at last and is broken in the ruin of the breast that confined it. And the world counts it all to them for dulness and lack of delicate feeling, with little discernment and less justice, until the day when it sees them roused by such pa.s.sions as alone can rouse them, or suffering such deadly pain as only the strongest can live to suffer.
The baroness came back in a few minutes and stood beside Hilda, laying her hand upon her daughter"s forehead, and bending down.
"What did he say to you, child?" she asked.
"He said that he would not marry me because it would be a shame that I should be called Greifenstein after what has happened."
"That was what he told me," replied her mother, leaving her and taking up a piece of needlework that lay on the table. She could not be idle.
"That was what he told me," she repeated thoughtfully. "And I answered that he was mistaken."
"He said you had done your best to persuade him," said Hilda, and then relapsed into silence.
"Do you know what I did?" she asked presently.
"I suppose you told him that you did not care for such things as names."
"Yes--I said that. But I took his hands, and I told him that I would not let him go. I think I was very angry at something, but not at him."
Frau von Sigmundskron laid her work upon her knees and looked at the young girl attentively for some seconds.
"Was I wrong?" Hilda asked, turning round as she felt her mother"s gaze upon her.
"No. I do not see that it was wrong, but I think I should have acted differently. I think I would have tried to make him see--well, I never was like you."
"I am sorry--I would do anything to be like you, mother dear."
"You need not be sorry, child. You are like some one I loved better than myself--you remind me of your father. And what did Greif say to that?"
"He refused to the very last--then he had that pain in his head and I thought he was going to die. You know the rest. O mother, what will become of him, and when shall we see him again?"
"I do not know when we shall see him, dear, but I do not think he will be very ill. When a man has the strength to do what he has just done, and go away on foot, as he went, he is not in a dangerous state."
Frau von Sigmundskron resumed her needlework and did not speak again for a long time. She had found time to think, and Greif"s conduct was strange in her eyes.