"Well, come back with me. I"m going up to old Palmer"s--his daughter"s ill; we"ll look in at the church and let me see the bare slabs."
"You go, if you like," I said, a little less frantic for his laughter; "I"m going home to my wife."
"Rubbish, man," said he; "d"ye think I"ll permit of that? Are ye to go saying all yer life that ye"ve seen solid marble endowed with vitality, and me to go all me life saying ye were a coward? No, sir--ye shan"t do ut."
The night air--a human voice--and I think also the physical contact with this six feet of solid common sense, brought me back a little to my ordinary self, and the word "coward" was a mental shower-bath.
"Come on, then," I said sullenly; "perhaps you"re right."
He still held my arm tightly. We got over the stile and back to the church. All was still as death. The place smelt very damp and earthy. We walked up the aisle. I am not ashamed to confess that I shut my eyes: I knew the figures would not be there. I heard Kelly strike a match.
"Here they are, ye see, right enough; ye"ve been dreaming or drinking, asking yer pardon for the imputation."
I opened my eyes. By Kelly"s expiring vesta I saw two shapes lying "in their marble" on their slabs. I drew a deep breath, and caught his hand.
"I"m awfully indebted to you," I said. "It must have been some trick of light, or I have been working rather hard, perhaps that"s it. Do you know, I was quite convinced they were gone."
"I"m aware of that," he answered rather grimly; "ye"ll have to be careful of that brain of yours, my friend, I a.s.sure ye."
He was leaning over and looking at the right-hand figure, whose stony face was the most villainous and deadly in expression.
"By Jove," he said, "something has been afoot here--this hand is broken."
And so it was. I was certain that it had been perfect the last time Laura and I had been there.
"Perhaps some one has _tried_ to remove them," said the young doctor.
"That won"t account for my impression," I objected.
"Too much painting and tobacco will account for that, well enough."
"Come along," I said, "or my wife will be getting anxious. You"ll come in and have a drop of whisky and drink confusion to ghosts and better sense to me."
"I ought to go up to Palmer"s, but it"s so late now I"d best leave it till the morning," he replied. "I was kept late at the Union, and I"ve had to see a lot of people since. All right, I"ll come back with ye."
I think he fancied I needed him more than did Palmer"s girl, so, discussing how such an illusion could have been possible, and deducing from this experience large generalities concerning ghostly apparitions, we walked up to our cottage. We saw, as we walked up the garden-path, that bright light streamed out of the front door, and presently saw that the parlour door was open too. Had she gone out?
"Come in," I said, and Dr. Kelly followed me into the parlour. It was all ablaze with candles, not only the wax ones, but at least a dozen guttering, glaring tallow dips, stuck in vases and ornaments in unlikely places. Light, I knew, was Laura"s remedy for nervousness. Poor child!
Why had I left her? Brute that I was.
We glanced round the room, and at first we did not see her. The window was open, and the draught set all the candles flaring one way. Her chair was empty and her handkerchief and book lay on the floor. I turned to the window. There, in the recess of the window, I saw her. Oh, my child, my love, had she gone to that window to watch for me? And what had come into the room behind her? To what had she turned with that look of frantic fear and horror? Oh, my little one, had she thought that it was I whose step she heard, and turned to meet--what?
She had fallen back across a table in the window, and her body lay half on it and half on the window-seat, and her head hung down over the table, the brown hair loosened and fallen to the carpet. Her lips were drawn back, and her eyes wide, wide open. They saw nothing now. What had they seen last?
The doctor moved towards her, but I pushed him aside and sprang to her; caught her in my arms and cried--
"It"s all right, Laura! I"ve got you safe, wifie."
She fell into my arms in a heap. I clasped her and kissed her, and called her by all her pet names, but I think I knew all the time that she was dead. Her hands were tightly clenched. In one of them she held something fast. When I was quite sure that she was dead, and that nothing mattered at all any more, I let him open her hand to see what she held.
It was a grey marble finger.
_THE Ma.s.s FOR THE DEAD_.
I was awake--widely, cruelly awake. I had been awake all night; what sleep could there be for me when the woman I loved was to be married next morning--married, and not to me?
I went to my room early; the family party in the drawing-room maddened me. Grouped about the round table with the stamped plush cover, each was busy with work, or book, or newspaper, but not too busy to stab my heart through and through with their talk of the wedding.
Her people were near neighbours of mine, so why should her marriage not be canva.s.sed in my home circle?
They did not mean to be cruel; they did not know that I loved her; but she knew it. I told her, but she knew it before that. She knew it from the moment when I came back from three years of musical study in Germany--came back and met her in the wood where we used to go nutting when we were children.
I looked into her eyes, and my whole soul trembled with thankfulness that I was living in a world that held her also. I turned and walked by her side, through the tangled green wood, and we talked of the long-ago days, and it was, "Have you forgotten?" and "Do you remember?" till we reached her garden gate. Then I said--
"Good-bye; no, _auf wiedersehn_, and in a very little time, I hope."
And she answered--
"Good-bye. By the way, you haven"t congratulated me yet."
"Congratulated you?"
"Yes, did I not tell you I am to marry Mr. Benoliel next month?"
And she turned away, and went up the garden slowly.
I asked my people, and they said it was true. Kate, my dear playfellow, was to marry this Spaniard, rich, wilful, accustomed to win, polished in manners and base in life. Why was she to marry him?
"No one knows," said my father, "but her father is talked about in the city, and Benoliel, the Spaniard, is rich. Perhaps that"s it."
That was it. She told me so when, after two weeks spent with her and near her, I implored her to break so vile a chain and to come to me, who loved her--whom she loved.
"You are quite right," she said calmly. We were sitting in the window-seat of the oak parlour in her father"s desolate old house. "I do love you, and I shall marry Mr. Benoliel."
"Why?"
"Look around you and ask me why, if you can."
I looked around--on the shabby, bare room, with its faded hangings of sage-green moreen, its threadbare carpet, its patched, washed-out chintz chair-covers. I looked out through the square, latticed window at the ragged, unkempt lawn, at her own gown--of poor material, though she wore it as queens might desire to wear ermine--and I understood.
Kate is obstinate; it is her one fault; I knew how vain would be my entreaties, yet I offered them; how unavailing my arguments, yet they were set forth; how useless my love and my sorrow, yet I showed them to her.
"No," she answered, but she flung her arms round my neck as she spoke, and held me as one may hold one"s best treasure. "No, no; you are poor, and he is rich. You wouldn"t have me break my father"s heart: he"s so proud, and if he doesn"t get some money next month, he will be ruined.
I"m not deceiving any one. Mr. Benoliel knows I don"t care for him; and if I marry him, he is going to advance my father a large sum of money.
Oh, I a.s.sure you that everything has been talked over and settled. There is no going from it."