"Who with?"
"Cora."
"Why, she was here, callin" for you, not more"n an hour ago."
Tessie, taking the hatpins out of her hat on her way upstairs, met this coolly. "Yeh, I ran into her comin" back."
Upstairs, lying fully dressed on her hard little bed, she stared up into the darkness, thinking, her hands limp at her sides. Oh, well, what"s the diff? You had to make the best of it. Everybody makin" a fuss about the soldiers: feedin" "em, and askin" "em to their houses, and sendin"
"em things, and givin" dances and picnics and parties so they wouldn"t be lonesome. Chuck had told her all about it. The other boys told the same. They could just pick and choose their good times. Tessie"s mind groped about, sensing a certain injustice. How about the girls? She didn"t put it thus squarely. Hers was not a logical mind, trained to think. Easy enough to paw over the menfolks and get silly over bra.s.s b.u.t.tons and a uniform. She put it that way. She thought of the refrain of a popular song: "What Are You Going to Do to Help the Boys?" Tessie, smiling a crooked little smile up there in the darkness, parodied the words deftly: "What"re you going to do to help the girls?" she demanded.
"What"re you going to do--" She rolled over on one side and buried her head in her arms.
There was news again next morning at the watch factory. Tessie of the old days had never needed to depend on the other girls for the latest bit of gossip. Her alert eye and quick ear had always caught it first.
But of late she had led a cloistered existence, indifferent to the world about her. The Chippewa _Courier_ went into the newspaper pile behind the kitchen door without a glance from Tessie"s incurious eye.
She was late this morning. As she sat down at the bench and fitted her gla.s.s in her eye the chatter of the others, pitched in the high key of unusual excitement, penetrated even her listlessness.
"An" they say she never screeched or fainted or anything. She stood there, kind of quiet, lookin" straight ahead, and then all of a sudden she ran to her pa--"
"Both comin" at once, like that--"
"I feel sorry for her. She never did anything to me. She--"
Tessie spoke, her voice penetrating the staccato fragments all about her and gathering them into a whole. "Say, who"s the heroine of this picture? Somebody flash me a cut-in so I can kinda follow the story. I come in in the middle of the reel, I guess."
They turned on her with the unlovely eagerness of those who have ugly news to tell. They all spoke at once, in short sentences, their voices high with the note of hysteria.
"Angie Hatton"s beau was killed--"
"They say his aireoplane fell ten thousan" feet--"
"The news come only last evenin" about eight--"
"She won"t see n.o.body but her pa--"
Eight! At eight Tessie had been standing outside Hatton"s house envying Angie and hating her. So that explained the people, and the automobiles, and the excitement. Tessie was not receiving the news with the dramatic reaction which its purveyors felt it deserved. Tessie, turning from one to the other quietly, had said nothing. She was pitying Angie. Oh, the luxury of it! Nap Ballou, coming in swiftly to still the unwonted commotion in work hours, found Tessie the only one quietly occupied in that chatter-filled room. She was smiling as she worked. Nap Ballou, bending over her on some pretence that deceived no one, spoke low-voiced in her ear. But she veiled her eyes insolently and did not glance up.
She hummed contentedly all the morning at her tedious work.
She had promised Nap Ballou to go picnicking with him Sunday. Down the river, boating, with supper on sh.o.r.e. The small, still voice within her had said: "Don"t go! Don"t go!" But the harsh, high-pitched, reckless overtone said: "Go on! Have a good time. Take all you can get."
She would have to lie at home and she did it. Some fabrication about the girls at the watch works did the trick. Fried chicken, chocolate cake.
She packed them deftly and daintily. High-heeled white kid shoes, flimsy blouse, rustling skirt. Nap Ballou was waiting for her over in the city park. She saw him before he espied her. He was leaning against a tree idly, staring straight ahead with queer, lack-l.u.s.tre eyes. Silhouetted there against the tender green of the pretty square he looked very old, somehow, and different--much older than he looked in his shop clothes, issuing orders. Tessie noticed that he sagged where he should have stuck out, and protruded where he should have been flat. There flashed across her mind a vividly clear picture of Chuck as she had last seen him: brown, fit, high of chest, flat of stomach, slim of flank.
Ballou saw her. He straightened and came toward her swiftly: "Somebody looks mighty sweet this afternoon."
Tessie plumped the heavy lunch box into his arms. "When you get a line you like you stick to it, don"t you?"
Down at the boathouse even Tessie, who had confessed ignorance of boats and oars, knew that Ballou was fumbling clumsily. He stooped to adjust the oars to the oarlocks. His hat was off. His hair looked very gray in the cruel spring sunshine. He straightened and smiled up at her.
"Ready in a minute, sweetheart," he said. He took off his collar and turned in the neckband of his shirt. His skin was very white. Tessie felt a little shudder of disgust sweep over her, so that she stumbled a little as she stepped into the boat.
The river was very lovely. Tessie trailed her fingers in the water and told herself that she was having a grand time. She told Nap the same when he asked her.
"Having a good time, little beauty?" he said. He was puffing a little with the unwonted exercise. Alcohol-atrophied muscles do not take kindly to rowing.
Tessie tried some of her old-time pertness of speech. "Oh, good enough, considerin" the company."
He laughed, admiringly, at that and said she was a card.
When the early evening came on they made a clumsy landing and had supper. This time Nap fed her the t.i.tbits, though she protested. "White meat for you," he said, "with your skin like milk."
"You must of read that in a book," scoffed Tessie. She glanced around her at the deepening shadows. "We haven"t got much time. It gets dark so early."
"No hurry," Nap a.s.sured her. He went on eating in a leisurely, finicking sort of way, though he consumed very little food actually.
"You"re not eating much," Tessie said once, half-heartedly. She decided that she wasn"t having such a very grand time, after all, and that she hated his teeth, which were very bad. Now, Chuck"s strong, white double row ...
"Well," she said, "let"s be going."
"No hurry," again.
Tessie looked up at that with the instinctive fear of her kind. "What d"you mean, no hurry! "Spect to stay here till dark?" She laughed at her own joke.
"Yes."
She got up then, the blood in her face. "Well, I don"t."
He rose, too. "Why not?"
"Because I don"t, that"s why." She stooped and began picking up the remnants of the lunch, placing spoons and gla.s.s bottles swiftly and thriftily in the lunch box. Nap stepped around behind her.
"Let me help," he said. And then his arm was about her and his face was close to hers, and Tessie did not like it. He kissed her after a little wordless struggle. And then she knew. Tessie"s lips were not virgin. She had been kissed before. But not like this. Not like this! She struck at him furiously. Across her mind flashed the memory of a girl who had worked in the finishing room. A nice girl, too. But that hadn"t helped her. Nap Ballou was laughing a little as he clasped her.
At that she heard herself saying: "I"ll get Chuck Mory after you--you drunken b.u.m, you! He"ll lick you black and blue. He"ll ..."
The face, with the ugly, broken brown teeth, was coming close again.
With all the young strength that was in her she freed one hand and clawed at that face from eyes to chin. A howl of pain rewarded her. His hold loosened. Like a flash she was off. She ran. It seemed to her that her feet did not touch the earth. Over brush, through bushes, crashing against trees, on and on. She heard him following her, but the broken-down engine that was his heart refused to do the work. She ran on, though her fear was as great as before. Fear of what might have happened ... to her, Tessie Golden ... that n.o.body could even talk fresh to. She gave a little sob of fury and fatigue. She was stumbling now. It was growing dark. She ran on again, in fear of the overtaking darkness.
It was easier now. Not so many trees and bushes. She came to a fence, climbed over it, lurched as she landed, leaned against it weakly for support, one hand on her aching heart. Before her was the Hatton summer cottage, dimly outlined in the twilight among the trees. A warm, flickering light danced in the window.
Tessie stood a moment, breathing painfully, sobbingly. Then, with a little instinctive gesture, she patted her hair, tidied her blouse, and walked uncertainly toward the house, up the steps to the door. She stood there a moment, swaying slightly. Somebody"d be there. The light. The woman who cooked for them or the man who took care of the place.
Somebody"d--
She knocked at the door feebly. She"d tell "em she had lost her way and got scared when it began to get dark. She knocked again, louder now.
Footsteps. She braced herself and even arranged a crooked smile. The door opened wide. Old Man Hatton!
She looked up at him, terror and relief in her face. He peered over his gla.s.ses at her. "Who is it?" Tessie had not known, somehow, that his face was so kindly.