"Do you desire death, Grey Knight?" asked Raezazel. "I can give you that."
Alaric forced a breath down. He was a Grey Knight. He had faced the lies of Chaos before, and thrown them back into the darkness with the power of truth. Daemons had tried to possess him before, too, and not one of them had prised open his mind.
However, none of them had ever attacked him while he was so unprotected. "I desire freedom," said Alaric. Then you can have it."
"Freedom from you."
Raezazel c.o.c.ked its head to the side. Its burning eyes looked at him quizzically, as it might have regarded a particularly unusual kind of lunatic.
That," it said, "is something you will have to take from me."
A hand coalesced from golden energy, picked Alaric up, and held him against the wall. Power was pouring off Raezazel, burning from the crystals, and turning the golden walls into sheets of molten light. Alaric fought back, feeling the hand closing around his mind.
Dull pain throbbed behind his eyes.
"I will wear your flesh and leave this prison, Justicar Alaric. I will escape this world and become one with my G.o.d. That is what I desire. That is what Venalitor has offered me by sending you here, for even the Blood G.o.d"s servants must perpetuate the lie."
Alaric fought back with everything he had. It took all his remaining strength just to draw breath, but he would not let Raezazel in, never! He would die first. That would be his last service to the Emperor. The enemy would never have a possessed Grey Knight to parade before its armies, never... unless Raezazel was stronger.
Raezazel"s burning face floated down low above Alaric"s. A silver hand reached out to touch his head.
Alaric was filled with cold pain.
Raezazel was showing him what he could do to him: fill him up with agony a thousand times worse, for a thousand years. He was telling Alaric to give in.
"Not this mind," hissed Alaric between his teeth. There is no pain save the fires of failure. There is no torture save a duty undone. My Emperor claims me, and no other may challenge."
Raezazel dropped Alaric. The condition of your soul matters not,"
he said. "I will flay it alive if I have to."
Alaric tried to get back to his feet. Raezazel threw horrors at him.
Rotting bodies loomed from the floor and walls. Alaric had seen thousands of corpses. They would not force him to his knees.
They took on the faces of his friends, his battle-brothers and everyone he had ever trusted.
Alaric had lost many friends. The penalty for being trusted by Alaric seemed to be death. He felt his might tighten as it recoiled from the images, but he held firm.
Worlds burned. A galaxy suffered, and the stars went out. Hollow laughter filled the universe.
Alaric fought back.
Victory after victory bloomed into existence. He knew that Chaos could be defeated. Perhaps it would take all the time in the galaxy, but it would happen. For every vision of desolation Raezazel pumped into him, Alaric countered with something glorious: the destruction of the Chaos fleet at the Battle of Gethsemane, Lord Solar Macharius winning a thousand worlds back from the galaxy"s dark, the vanquishing of Angron in the First Armageddon War.
Alaric pulled victories from every history book and inspiration a sermon he knew.
We are weak flesh and fools, thought Alaric furiously. We are young and blind. Perhaps one day we will be gone, but we burn so bright, and the galaxy, which has forgotten so much, will remember us.
Raezazel hissed in frustration. The images of horror dissolved away. Alaric slumped down against the wall of the chamber, grinning like a madman.
"You can"t terrify me into submission, daemon. I am a s.p.a.ce Marine. We know no fear."
Then it seems you are in need," spat Raezazel, "of an education."
Raezazel"s mind picked Alaric up off the floor. Alaric fought back, as Raezazel drifted closer on wings of light, and placed a hand on Alaric"s forehead.
Filaments of silver and gold wove around Alaric"s head, and wormed into the skin of his scalp. Alaric bellowed, and tried to tear them free, but they were inside him now.
He could feel them writhing through his skull into his brain.
Synapses misfired, and extremes of heat and cold rippled over him, nausea, pain, confusion. The world spun around him as his sense of balance went haywire.
He beat at Raezazel"s body with his free hand. Silver ribs crunched. It would not be enough.
A thousand mouths were laughing at him.
Alaric"s consciousness melted like the gold.
WHEN EVEN ARGUTHRAX was young, Raezazel the Cunning had granted wishes.
The image in Alaric"s mind was of a largely formless thing, just a scrawl of psychic matter in the warp. He knew it was a simplified image, distorted by being forced into a human mind. The scale of the warp still battered at Alaric"s brain.
The youthful daemon, little more than a tadpole swimming through the mindless infinity of the warp, had suckled on the misery and hatred of the young races populating the universe. From them, he learned deceit and malice, and saw their fleeting joys and moments of affection as the hollow things they really were. The living things of the galaxy were nothing but bundles of lies, woven to keep them from understanding their true hateful natures.
Lies were the fabric of the mind. To the mortal races, lies were reality. The power of a lie could bring empires up from the dirt and cast them back down again. They could drive men, greenskins, eldar and the rest to acts of heroism and devotion... and of hatred, genocide and evil. Lies were power. Deceit was reality.
There was a G.o.d of lies in the warp. There could be no greater power. Congealed from the deceit of the universe, older than reality, Raezazel could only become a part of it. It was Tzeentch, and yet it was nothing, for this purest manifestation of Chaos was so infinitely mutable that it could never truly be fixed as anything.
Its very existence was a lie, because Tzeentch could not exist. From this paradox flowed such power that the universe could have only one rightful ruler, and it was Tzeentch.
The concept of Tzeentch was an appalling thing, one that filled Alaric with disgust, but Raezazel"s devotion to the being mingled with that disgust, the resulting emotion utterly alien to Alaric"s mind, a perversion of everything it meant to be human.
Raezazel"s understanding grew. Tzeentch desired power, and yet Tzeentch also desired an absence of power, anarchy and confusion, because for Tzeentch to desire any one thing would be to deny its very existence.
There were other G.o.ds in the warp. One of them was Khorne, the Blood G.o.d, but Raezazel knew that only Tzeentch could draw its power from such a fundamental part of the universe as the lie, and so Raezazel served.
Raezazel found ways through into real s.p.a.ce, where the young races dwelled. He found a way through unprotected minds, the naked souls of psykers so bright from the warp that Raezazel could cross the bridge between dimensions and possess their bodies. He did Tzeentch"s work, both encouraging others to worship the Liar G.o.d and build his power base, but also casting down the structures of power wherever he found them, spreading chaos and anarchy, for only Tzeentch could desire both dominion and chaos at once.
Sometimes he even fought other followers of Tzeentch, to ensure that the holy paradox did not falter.
The time roared by, like a hurricane in Alaric"s mind. He fought to keep himself from being shredded by the force of Raezazel"s memories, because then he would disappear completely and be left nothing but a figment of the daemon"s imagination.
Cults of Tzeentch prayed for help. Sometimes Tzeentch really did send them help. Other times, he sent them Raezazel. There were cults who called forth Tzeentch"s servants and opened gates through which Raezazel could pa.s.s, his own sacred form emerging into real s.p.a.ce in all its terrifying silver magnificence. Everyone who worshipped Tzeentch eventually suffered for it, because Tzeentch promised deliverance and succour, and so it was inevitable that this would always be a lie. Raezazel was often the source of that suffering, here an a.s.sa.s.sin and there a puppet master orchestrating tragic downfalls with an attention to detail that a human mind could not comprehend. Whole empires were shifted and manipulated to bring a single person low, and the lowliest of individuals could be used to topple civilisations with only the slightest touch.
Raezazel lied. He made promises. He became an expert at seeking out the desires of those whose called out to Tzeentch, and fulfilling them in such a way that they became utterly d.a.m.ned. They always came to recognise the lie just before the end, and knew that ultimately it had not been Tzeentch but they, who had d.a.m.ned themselves: yet another paradox. Raezazel was good at what he did.
Aeons pa.s.sed. Species rose and fell, of which mankind had far from the greatest potential. One species ruled the galaxy, and then another, believers in the lie that true power lay anywhere in real s.p.a.ce. The time came when mankind rose to dominate the galaxy in what it called the Dark Age of Technology, and then fell again in the wars of the Age of Strife. It was not the most spectacular collapse, though it provided plenty of fuel for Tzeentch"s silver fires, but it was different, because mankind came back. One of them rose on Terra, humanity"s birthplace, and began to unite what remained of the species. He very nearly succeeded, this Emperor, but his power, too, was just a hollow lie compared to that of the warp. Forces in the warp played their hand and tried to use this new unification of humanity to seize control of it, and with it the material galaxy.
Tzeentch played his part, too. The Emperor was a lie, and Tzeentch took great pleasure in revealing it to those who rebelled against Him. Raezazel was there, at Prospero and Istvaan V. He was even there on Terra, when the final charades were played out, when in victory the Emperor condemned his species to ten thousand years and more of lightless misery. Raezazel observed much of the Horus Heresy, reporting back to the daemon princes of Tzeentch, or whispering promises of power and deliverance, much as he had always done. When the traitor forces retreated into the Eye of Terror, Raezazel knew that it was just another lie. Chaos was not gone from the galaxy. When they returned and ruled it, the age of the Imperium would seem barely a flicker in the galaxy"s history.
Then, something went wrong.
The heresy was so pure that it almost filled up Alaric. He had to tell himself over and over again that Raezazel was a daemon and that everything he saw in it was a lie.
Alaric recognised the bloodstained world that Raezazel came to next. An eight-pointed star was carved into its surface, forming ca.n.a.ls filled with blood. The star connected its great cities: a crown of crystal spires, a great parasite and an endless slum.
Raezazel came to the world of Drakaasi, where many threads of fate had converged. There t.i.tanic daemons had fought in the past, drenching the planet with the blood that still stained it. Khorne had won, and for the first time Raezazel the Cunning was trapped.
Khorne despised the lie, despised fate and magic and everything that made up Tzeentch. Raezazel was cut off from the warp. He lived there for a thousand years, s.n.a.t.c.hing tragedies from the blood-soaked lives of Khorne"s servants, promising them yet more bloodshed, and then robbing them of their minds. Khorne"s own daemons hunted him, but they were base creatures, and more often than not they consumed each other in their l.u.s.t for blood, turned against their fellows by Raezazel"s brilliance. Raezazel the Cunning was the most hated creature on Drakaasi, that most hateful world.
Then Duke Venalitor arose. An aspiring champion of the Blood G.o.d, he was a master swordsman and an ambitious general. He sought out Raezazel the Cunning, as many lords and champions had done before, and, as always, Raezazel asked what Venalitor most desired.
Venalitor said he wanted a worthy opponent. The art of the sword was his personal form of worship and he needed a fitting target to perfect his skills. Raezazel offered him the best of Drakaasi"s fighters, knowing that in besting them Venalitor would either kill himself or be driven mad by victory or defeat. However, Venalitor killed everything put in front of him. Finally Raezazel, knowing that the lie had to be believed no matter what, offered himself up as an opponent, knowing that the silver fires of Tzeentch burned brightly in him, and that no mortal could best him.
Venalitor cut Raezazel so deeply that the daemon knew fear for the briefest of moments. Then he glimpsed the warp again, and the many faces of his lord Tzeentch laughing at him. Raezazel had been lied to, as well. Of course he had, it was all part of the divine paradox. Raezazel collapsed, defeated, but Venalitor did not despatch him. Instead he was taken to the Hecatomb, imprisoned behind doors marked with the most powerful anti-magical wards, and bound by ancient daemon oaths to accept Venalitor as his conqueror and master.
Then, centuries later, Justicar Alaric of the Grey Knights was thrown into his cell.
All of this information was blasted into Alaric"s mind in less than a second.
HE WAS FALLING. A universe of Raezazel"s creation stretched around him, endless and black. A weaker man would have lost his mind there and then, overwhelmed by the reality of his insignificance against the universe. Alaric told himself that there was an Emperor out there somewhere, and that Alaric owed Him something. It was just enough.
A world unfolded from the blackness below him. Bare rock, pocked with craters, rolled wider and wider, until a whole planet was looming up below him.
Alaric slammed into it. The planet"s surface rippled beneath him like something alive reacting to his presence. The ground folded over him, warm and crushing, and Alaric fought to breathe. Then it spat him out again.
Alaric fought to find something real. He was in a world of Raezazel"s making. It had got inside his mind, and it was pulling strings in his imagination and memory to create this place.
It had got in. Such a thing had never happened to a Grey Knight, ever. Raezazel the Cunning had said it would possess him, and it was only a few steps from doing exactly that. With the Collar of Khorne switching off his psychic shield, Alaric was alone with his wits.
Gra.s.s was growing beneath him. He got to his feet as it spread away from him like a green stain. The landscape in the distance heaved up into hills and mountains. Deep scars sank into the land and filled with water, heavy fronds of a forest bending over the banks. Tress unrolled from the ground like hands towards the sky, surrounding Alaric in a dense jungle. Vines writhed around tree trunks that blackened with age and moss. The ground underneath became soft with simulated centuries of growth and decay. The first creatures of this world inside his mind winked into life: jewelled flying insects, night-furred predators that skulked among the branches, and birds of brilliant colours. The sound of the place descended around him like a cloak, the wind among the trees, howls, and the distant roars of predators.
The sky was streaked with cloud. Distant mountains were crowned with snow. The sound of a waterfall nearby reached Alaric.
He stood in a clearing of the forest and looked down at himself.
He was still wearing the remnants of the armour in which he had fled the arena of Gorgath. He was still the same person. No matter what happened, Alaric existed. It was the only fact of which Alaric could still be certain.
"Raezazel!" yelled Alaric. "Daemon! A Grey Knight never knelt before witchcraft, and I shall not be the first!"
Only the gentle din of the jungle answered him. Alaric looked around, noting how the forest was darkening as it thickened around him. He could stay there forever, hiding in fear from the daemon inside him. Or he could find it, and fight it.
Alaric tore the branches down that blocked his path in front of it.
He wished he had a weapon, but he would worry about that later.
For now, he pushed on.
ALARIC CAME ACROSS the waterfall. It was flowing from the shattered skull of a t.i.tanic creature that seemed to have lain there for thousands of years, fossilised and claimed by the jungle. The water that poured from the broken cranium was pure, and shot through with leaping silver fish.
The skull was enormous. The dead creature had many, many more, attached to a monstrous spine that formed a thickly forested ridge stretching into the distance. Each skull was different, grimacing in horrible glee or festooned with eyes. The creature, when alive, had been a towering column of insane faces kilometres high.
"Ghargatuloth," said Alaric. The daemon prince had arisen on the Trail of Saint Evisser, and engineered a sequence of events so complex that Alaric had become a part of it. Those events had been woven to summon Ghargatuloth back from the warp where it had been banished, and only Alaric and Inquisitor Ligeia had been able to bring the daemon low at the instant it emerged into real s.p.a.ce.
"Is that the best you can do?" Alaric shouted up at the sky, knowing that Raezazel would hear him. "Remind me of a past victory? Is that what you are going to offer me, Raezazel? Basking in past glories means nothing to a Grey Knight, not while your kind still exist! That Ghargatuloth existed at all was a failure of my entire Chapter! Is this really supposed to seduce me?"
There was no answer.
Alaric made a spear from a straight ttee branch and a chunk of sharp flint. At least now he was armed. He felt more like a Grey Knight, with a weapon in his hand, and less like a man being led through the corners of his own mind at the whim of a daemon. He forged his way up onto Ghargatu-loth"s spine, and saw mountains in the distance, the glinting ribbon of a river leading towards a dark smudge of ocean on the opposite horizon.
The peak of a snow-capped mountain shuddered, and burst in a plume of dark grey smoke. Minutes later the sound reached Alaric, an angry roar from beneath the earth. The ground quaked. The sky darkened.
"So that"s the way it"s going to be," said Alaric. Tidal waves rose up from the ocean and hard rain began to hammer down.
RAEZAZEL BATTERED ALARIC for many hours. Floods ripped through the jungles, slamming Alaric against rocks and tree trunks.
Earthquakes ripped the ground open, and he nearly fell into the gaping, burning maw of the earth dozens of times. Predators lurched from the jungle, and Alaric fended them off, skewering a great lizard through the throat with his spear, and wrestling a cat-like monster to the ground, breaking its neck. Birds of prey swooped down, and Alaric grabbed them by the wings, crashing them down against the ground. Poisonous snakes were out-reacted, and had their spines cracked like whips.
Night fell. Burning meteors fell from the sky, casting plumes of scalding ash over the jungle. The jungle, too, changed around him, closing in, reaching th.o.r.n.y limbs. Alaric fought it all off, as he forged on defiandy through Raezazel"s world.
He was tiring, however. Presumably his body was not real, and was only a projection of himself, a reflection of his own consciousness, but it still bore its own scars and braises. The wound in his chest still bled. The burns from the molten gold still flared with pain. He was tired and hurt, and he wondered if he could act with even half the strength and resilience of a fully fit Grey Knight.
He began to see things, faces in the sky. He heard voices speaking to him, half-real sentences pulled at random from his past. Perhaps they were all really there, a.s.sembled by Raezazel to torment him.
He stumbled on, half-blind with fatigue. Clawed hands reached from the darkness to tear at his skin. A meteor slammed into the ground close enough to knock him off his feet. He crawled on, writhing through the mud. Scalding rain streaked down on him. He was blind and deaf. Lightning crashed above him, and he didn"t even know which way he was heading any more.
His hand found polished stone. He dragged himself out of the mud, and flopped, gasping, onto the cold stone. He could have just lain there, letting the remaining energy bleed out of him until he fell unconscious. Something half-remembered told him to cany on.
He could see stone steps ahead of him. At the top of the steps was the columned front of a temple, with a sculpted pediment depicting battle. In front of the columns, on the top step, was a huge statue of a man in ma.s.sive ornate armour. His face was wide and n.o.ble, his war gear magnificent, and inscribed with devotional texts. He carried a halberd in one hand.
The statue was of Alaric. This was his temple, the one erected in the warp to celebrate all the skulls he had taken on Drakaasi, and perhaps all the creatures and daemons he had ever killed.
He crawled up the steps. Lightning split the night again, and the rain hammered down on him. At least there was shelter here.
Someone was standing between the columns. The dull glow of a brazier emanated from behind the figure, glinting off golden offerings to Alaric the Betrayed. Alaric was just able to make out the details of the figure as he reached the top step.
Justicar Tancred, huge like a standing stone in his Terminator armour, reached down to Alaric. He smiled.
Take my hand, Alaric," he said. "It"s over."
FIFTEEN.